Hey everyone...well ive been gone but im back again....lol(its from a song) still ecstatic about the reviews from this story. and am completely happy you like bad ass bella. You know she remind me of me lol. so enought of all this authors note crap and on with the story. lol.


To just let love

. . .previously. . .

"Oh come on, I dont bite." she snickered. I stared at her questionably,"Most of the time." she concluded. We both laughed at that. I scooted a littlle closer beside her to where I was a foot away. she scoffed and scotted closer to me."see harmless." she snickered. Somthing was different about her. She was lighter, maybe happier. I stared up at the brightness of the full moon.

We sat there in the silence for a while giving us time to think about everything . Though bella was still blocking me from what she was feeling, I could she still tell she was processing something.

plop

I felt the first rain drop splash against my face. I looked over at the beautiful Bella, laying there with a sullen face. That quickly changed to frustration. The rain started to pick up.

"Damn it!" She swore."I hate that." Then it started to thunder as she got angrier. I could tell she hated this power , made her so vulnerable."Jeese." I calmed her down before things got out of hand. The moon was already hidden behind dark clouds. She sat up and brushed the rain drops of ."thanks , and sorry." she said. What? Why was she saying sorry?

"no problem, and don't apologize Bella, I know where your coming from."

"I mean for getting you wet." she explained.

"oh, nothing but a small april shower to wake you up. I needed that actually." I laughed. I shook my hair as if I were a dog. But she stopped the water droplets and sent them back to my face. This woman is amazing." oh come that was unfair."

"I never said I played by the rules," she laughed. I laughed too.

"Your such a cheater, Bella." I laughed, she didn't laugh with me. Aw shit.

"well, then I'm not the only one." Whoops! Gah! Stupid choice of word. How could I be so senseless.

"I'm so sorry, I didnt mean it like that. I'm such an idiot."

"No, that would be me," she chuckled, obviously form an inside joke,"I understand how you meant it, Jasper."

"Your definatley not an idiot, you may be the only sane one left in this God forsaken house." I said , remembering the previous scene going on before I came outside.

"SANE!" she laughed as if jokes couldn't get any funnier," Jasper your a comic genius." I heard her laugh, but I didn't need to be and empath to know what she was really feeling.

"Somtimes it's okay to feel hurt. Hell, if anyones got a reason its you Bella. You dont have to-"

"I don't need your pity I know how to handle myself." she said. And before I knew it she was up and walking towards the house. I saw the clouds starting to roll in.

"What are you trying to say?"

"All I'm saying is maybe you should fix your own self caused issues, before you go flaunting off your unneeded advice." she said, What happened in the matter of minutes we were sitting here? Where had that light happier side gone.

"What's that supposed to mean?" she remained silent, as did I. In the back round I heard the faintest sounds. I didn't even know what it was."What is -"

"Shhhhhh!." Then I knew what I was hearing. And it tore me to shreds. But what the hell was I supposed to do. Go and apologize for loving Bella, the way I do. Should I go back to Alice and wipe away her tears, telling here everything has changed, and go back to pretend loving her the way she wants me to.

So I stood there in the silence not knowing what to do or say.

"Your pathetic, you can even go up to her and say something ." She turned and started walking again. Where the hell does she get off telling me I'm pathetic.

"Oh I'm Pathetic. Your the one who's been so wrapped up in the fluffy things you didn't even know what was going on."

"What?"

"You can't possible tell me you had no idea. That you had no idea as to what was going on under your own nose. You were in denial, Bella. You wanted to believe he was perfect so you made him out to be. Did You think him and Rose just happened to be missing at the same time." All the words had rushed out before I could stop them.

"You son of a bitch. Don't you dare tell what I did and didn't know. I knew. . . I knew that he was supposed to love me. We were supposed to be forever." The trees thrashed with the wind."He told me he would love me forever. He said that!" The lighting left it's luminescent glow against the purple clouds and the thunder mimicked her outrage. "I never asked for perfection, 'cause I know it doesn't exist. All I asked was for him to never leave me, and always love me." The night was beginning to mock the day this mess started. The rain started to pour down on us as she fell to her knees, gasping for air. Had what I said really brought all this pain. I'M SUCH AN IDIOT!! I ran to her side, hoping that she wouldn't stop me. She put of her hand as if to try and stop me with her telekinesis. But there was nothing, no sudden inability to move. she was. . .too weak. She wrapped her arms around her chest, trying to control her sobs. Then I felt it, everything she was feeling, everything she had ever felt, the burning and the stabbing, the feeling as if my heart was being ripped out of my chest. She didn't have the strength to hold up her barrier anymore.

I crawled out toward her and rocked her in my lap.

Bella's Pov

Jasper rocked me in his arms like a baby.

"Shhh Bella , I know. . .I know. I feel it too." He grabbed my hand and whispered,"Let me love you, Bella." I stared up and him, not knowing what to do or how to answer. The sudden draw made electricity run straight though my body as our lips came together. Moving sync. The the rain continued to drench us, we couldn't get enough of each other. I didnt want to tear away from him this time and run away. I wanted to to be with him. And that scared me.

"There's nothing to be afraid of,"he whispered against my lips." I know you want this as much as I do. I can feel it." All these feelings are driving me crazy. I don't know what I want. Dammit! I'm so confused.

"Don't think so hard Bella. . . just feel." He said against my lips again. Yeah, I felt it, and it was hard against my leg. Not to mention the throbbing between my own legs. Damn! Where was all this coming from. Well whatever it is, all I know is, I wanted him . . .and bad. I wasn't apparent of our certain position change. I was laying on the wet grass and he was hovered over me. Our tongues still battling it out . His hands roamed around my body. Down the small of my back, down my inner thigh and back up again. Constantly, missing the stop my body screamed for him the most. We started to be greedy with each other, not wanting any space between us as our hands explored each other. His hand traveled slowly up my shirt, raising the goose bumps on my granite skin with his path. Was that even possible. He reached the black lace of my bra, tracing the lining of it.

God help me.

The back door swung open

"Hey Bella, Car-. . . .Jasper?!" Emmett said not having to squint through the darkness to see us. Jasper jumped off me. And i put some distance between us.

"Shit!" He swore. He took the word out of my mouth. Emmett shut the door. Silence fell between the distance between us as we walk into the house.

Tell me why I had the feeling all hell was about to break loose. . . .again.


lol, Jasper is so hawt, lol, if only dumbass Emmett. . .anyway. don't ya just luv cliffies(pun intended) . yea yea yea, I know about the mistakes, but I assume u know what i meant , review now luv ya bunches.