"Spencer!" Hanna exclaimed when she spotted the brunette through hundreds of other people. Spencer heard her name and looked up, smiling as she saw Hanna waving. Spencer pushed her way through and as she reached her, she wrapped her arms around her friend. "I've missed you so much."

"Han, its been two weeks," Spencer answered, laughing a little. It had been two weeks since the two girls had last seen each other. Which meant it had been two weeks since Ted's funeral. Hanna had been reluctant to stay in Rosewood for any long period, but her mom ended up needing her more than Hanna ever imagined, so she was still here. Luckily, Spencer was willing to fly from Dallas to Philadelphia to discuss the business with the blonde instead. "But I've missed you too."

The pair bustled through Philadelphia International Airport and headed outside, where they proceeded to hop into the car Hanna had borrowed from her mother.

"I had my first ultrasound on Wednesday," Spencer announced, only moments into the journey. Hanna tried to smile, but worried it had come out pained. The brunette didn't seem to notice thankfully and happily carried on. "I'm 9 weeks and 6 days. It was so cute to see the little baby and the heartbeat and —"

"That's great, Spence," Hanna quickly interrupted. She loved Spencer and she was honestly happy for her and Toby, but she didn't need to hear every detail about her ultrasound; it was just too painful.

Spencer looked to her left, confused. "Are you okay?"

"I'm fine. I just…I don't know." The blonde focused on the road ahead and turned the wheel. "Anyway, how has Dallas been?"

Soon enough, Hanna was pulling up in front of Ashley's house. She jumped out and walked round to the trunk of the car before pulling out Spencer's luggage. Spencer thanked her and took it, still wondering why Hanna had been so weird in the car. She slowly followed her friend into the 50's style house and was greeted by Ashley, who seemed to have massively improved since the last time Spencer had seen her. After a quick meet, Hanna brought Spencer up the winding staircase and led her into a large, light room.

"So this is the spare room," Hanna said as she leant back against the door. "I hope it's okay."

"It's great, thank you." Spencer smiled at the blonde who took a step forwards, one foot out of the bedroom.

"I'll let you unpack," she said as she turned around. She suddenly stopped when Spencer grabbed her arm.

"Han," the brunette said softly.

Hanna raised her eyebrows and replied, "Yes?"

"Are you…are you pregnant?"

"No!" Hanna exclaimed, sounding slightly horrified. "Why the hell would you think I'm pregnant?"

Spencer blushed a little, feeling rather embarrassed. "Well its just you were acting weird when I started talking about the ultrasound…"

Hanna took a sharp breath in and shook her head. "I'm not pregnant, Spencer."

The brunette wasn't sure whether to believe her friend or not; why else would she be acting so strange? But before she could ask anymore questions, Hanna turned around and walked away. Spencer heard the clicks of the blonde's Louboutin's going down the stairs and sighed, before sitting onto the bed. She grabbed her bag and pulled out her phone, deciding to let Toby know she had arrived safe and sound.

Dinner that evening was tense, and even Ashley noticed. She stayed silent throughout, as did Spencer and Hanna. The only sounds to fill the kitchen were the slurps of red wine being drunk and chomps of beef being eaten. Hanna had spent the rest of the afternoon in the kitchen preparing a meal, and planned to spend the rest of the evening in there too, washing up. Spencer wasn't going to let her do that, though. She felt bad about how their conversation had gone earlier, and decided to apologize. Once Ashley had headed through to the living room to watch TV, the brunette grabbed her plate and brought it over to the sink.

"Hey," she said as she put the plate in the soapy water. Hanna didn't even look up. "I'm sorry about before. I shouldn't have asked if you were pregnant."

Hanna stopped scrubbing a pan and stared at it. "I had a miscarriage," she whispered in such a tiny voice, Spencer was sure she had misheard. But judging by the tears forming in her eyes, Spencer had heard just fine.

"Oh Han," Spencer breathed. She positioned her hand on Hanna's shoulder but when Hanna turned around and looked at the brunette's face, she grabbed her and pulled her in for a hug. "I'm so sorry."

Hanna gently sobbed onto Spencer's dress and mumbled, "I'm sorry too."

"Why? Why are you sorry?" Spencer stepped back slightly and looked at her friend directly in the eye. Hanna looked so hurt, it was breaking her heart.

"Because I never told you when it happened," the blonde mumbled. Spencer assumed it had been recent; she would have notice if it was earlier, right? She sighed and hugged Hanna again before being interrupted by the walking in of Ashley. Hanna quickly wiped her face and cleared her throat. "Hey mom."

"I just came to grab my drink," Ashley replied whilst walking over to the table. She picked up her glass of wine as Spencer began talking.

"Well, I think I'm just going to call Toby to see how he is," she announced. Hanna nodded and watched her best friend head out of the kitchen. Ashley watched too, and waited until she was out of sight before saying anything else to Hanna.

"You never told your friends?" she suddenly asked. Hanna looked at her, trying to act innocent as if she didn't know what Ashley was talking about. "You never told your friends about the miscarriage?"

The blonde shrugged and turned away, uncomfortable with the conversation. She shoved on a pair of rubber gloves and picked up a dirty plate from the side. "Could you help me with this?"

"Hanna…" Ashley said firmly. Hanna hadn't heard her mom talk to her like that in years.

"Yeah, okay, I didn't tell my friends. But it's not a big deal." Hanna scrubbed hard at the china. She knew she was probably scratching it, but didn't care. "I was 21, I made my own decisions."

"It is a big deal, Hanna. You went through the death of losing your child alone. Your friends could have been there to help you, support you." Ashley raised her eyebrows as she waited for her daughter's reply. When the reply never came, she added, "It would be like me never telling anyone about Ted's death. I would never have been able to cope."

"Well I did," Hanna replied firmly. "And I wasn't alone. I had Caleb."

Ashley tutted and took a long sip from her wine glass before retreating back to the living room. Hanna continued to wash the dishes until she heard the TV switch back on, at which point she darted upstairs.

Spencer was deeply engrossed in her phone when Hanna knocked on the door. The brunette laughed at something she had read before looking up and ushering her friend in.

"Are you alright?" Spencer asked as she shoved her phone into her bag. She and Hanna both sat cross legged on the bed, as if they were 12 and gossiping at a sleepover.

"My mom wanted to know why I didn't tell you and the others about…"

Hanna didn't need to finish her sentence; Spencer knew what she was talking about. She nodded in understanding and smiled reassuringly. "I understand, and I'm sure the others would too. I couldn't imagine having that on top of the funeral and everything; it must have been so hard."

"I lost the baby 3 years ago," the blonde blurted out. The look on Spencer's face wasn't what Hanna had imagined it to be. Hanna thought she would have realised it wasn't a recent thing, but clearly not.

"What?"

Hanna gulped. "3 years ago, Caleb and I had a miscarriage."

"Well that answers my question about the dad," Spencer replied. Hanna tried to work out whether she was mad or not, although, there wasn't really anything to be majorly angry about. "Is that why you and Caleb broke up?"

For a moment, Hanna had to think. Was it the reason they broke up? She wasn't sure. "I don't know. I mean, I suppose it had some part in it."

The bed buzzed as a notification popped up on Spencer's phone. She looked at Hanna apologetically and pulled it out of her bag, reading the message as she did so. Her facial expression changed from confusion to happiness as she let out a little laugh.

"Is that Toby?"

Spencer nodded and mumbled, "Yes."

Hanna sat awkwardly as Spencer replied to the text. It took her a while, but finally she returned her phone to the bag and looked back at Hanna.

"I wish you could have told us. We could have been there for you."

"I survived, didn't I?"

A/N - so this chapter is kinda random, like i have no idea why i decided to bring spencer into it, but i wanted to make it known that the girls weren't aware of hanna's miscarriage.

so although there was no haleb in this chapter, i hope you all liked it!

review?