Akatsuki bent over to kiss me... no, to devour me. His fingers kept moving inside me making me quiver again and again. I wasn't myself anymore. I wrapped my fingers around his shoulders, my nails digging in his tensed muscles. His tongue invaded me as I fought for air. I didn't know if I was pulling him to me or pushing him away anymore. I was hung up in his embrasse. Time could have stopped and the world, collapsed... I couldn't care less.

He tugged on my bottom lip with his teeth, then pulled back, leaving me panting like crazy. His left palm wandered on my waist, then along my thigh. He looked at me with hooded eyes, pushing my knee up and to the side, spreading my legs more. Then, he did something that hurt really bad. I bit on my forearm to keep quiet.

" I hum... I'm spreading my fingers... I mean... inside... That's why it might hurt...
- Will you please shut up! I don't really need the visual description of what you're doing!"
Here I was, on edge, overreacting like a child. When I looked back at him, he was frowning, obvioulsy upset.
" I'm sorry Fumi, I'm trying to go easy on you. I've never... I'm... not sure of what to do!"

I knew what I was about to say was unfair, but I felt humiliated... so the words came out nevertheless.

" You've never... like in you've never been with an insignificant virgin high schooler?!"
His fingers withdrew from inside me, making me clench one more time, his drenched and sticky pads running over my thigh. Even this appealed to me. But know, I'd made him mad. I sat up on the bed my arms crossed over my knees, apprehensive.

Unexpectedly, his voice came in a raspy low tone.
" Fumi... It's even worst than you think. You're right, I don't know how too manage with a virgin. Every time sex was involded, there would be some crazy girl pseudoraping me. It was cheap but easy. When I'm with you, I feel lost. Just looking at you is enough to send my soul on fire! I want to love you so bad, but I'm scared. I don't want to hurt you. Tell me, Fumi. What do you want from me?"

I was breathless. I knew what I wanted. I whispered the words.
" I... want you.
- You have me already!
- Hum... I want you to make love to me. I don't care how, even if it hurts. I want you to love me, even if it means breaking me!"

Without a word, Akatsuki leaned towards me. I coudn't read his eyes anymore. He kissed me, tenderly. My thighs were still pressed to my chest when he gripped my ankles and pulled me down until I was lying on my back again. In a smooth move, he got between my legs and bent over me, his chest touching between my thighs as he reached out for the box that had been left on the pillow.

A buzzing sound filled up my head. My hands were hurting from crushing the sheets. My eyes stayed focused on the ceiling as the room began to spin. After a few minutes, a blurry shape came into view. Akatsuki!

" Fumi, breathe! You're pale. You need to calm down or you're going to faint."
All I could do was nod and try to concentrate in inhaling and exhaling.
His nose rubbed against my breast while carefully spreading my legs with one hand. He pressed against me and I was panting again. His lips came to my ear speaking words that made me moan.
" Fumi, say you love me. Say you'll still love me after this. Say you'll love me no matter what..."

My arms wrapped around his neck to keep him from going anywhere.
He pressed his lower abdomen stronger, his palm pushing on my thigh, his fingers spreading me.
" Fumi, tell me you'll forgive me no matter what. Tell me you'll never leave me, even if I mess up!"
I really was going to faint. That's when I felt him rip through me, breaking me in a rushed thrust.
" Oh my God, Fumi! "

He rested his forehead on my shoulder, breathing heavily. This was really big for him too!
He released my thigh and brought his hand to the back of my shoulder. His pelvis pulled out a little before pressing again, farther this time. The pain was excruciating, but his tormented face and his careful moves were melting my heart.
" You do love me..."
He hissed at the words.
" Fumi, you shouldn't say such things! I'm not going to last much longer, and you're not helping here!
- I don't care..."
He looked up with a smug smile.
" Little Miss, you should know that I'm aiming to please you. So be a tad more considerate..."
How could he make me laugh, in such circonstances...

Both his hands were on my shoulder blades when he started to move again, slowly, planting the softest kiss over my neck while my fingertips began exploring the curves of his chest.