BPOV

"Hey, Bells." His voice sounded sullen.

"Hello, Jake. What's up?" My phone rang as I was sitting on the Cullen's front porch. The rest of the Cullens were hunting before we left for Alaska.

"I was just wondering when you were leaving for college." The sound of his voice was depressing me.

"Well, in about two days. Everything is all packed up. I'm just waiting on Edward to get back." I paused, knowing that Jacob would know why he was gone.

"Oh…so, what are you doing tonight? You have the house all to yourself?" He seemed to perk up.

"Yep. I was hoping I'd get to see you before I left, Jake. You've been gone for so long." I didn't realize how desperate I was so see him. This might be the last time I'd ever see my best friend. It broke my heart.

"I'd love to see you, Bella. Do you want me to come there?" What do we do? If he comes here, Edward would smell him all over the house. If I crossed the treaty line, Alice would lose me in her visions, freak Edward out, and he'd come straight home.

"Why don't you come here, Jake. Bring pizza…I'm starving." I laughed a little at that.

"Sounds good. I'll be there as soon as I can. Later, Bells." He seemed happier than when I first answered.

"Bye, Jake." I hung up the phone and walked back in the house. I was decent enough for Jake. I had gym shorts on and a tank top. It was getting pretty cold outside, so I put a zip-up sweatshirt on, too. It's not like I have to get fancy for Jake. That was comforting. I never felt like I was an equal to Edward. He always seemed much more glorious than I'd ever be. Edward never intentionally made me feel that way, but it was inevitable. He was beautiful. Jacob, on the other hand, was always average like me. Granted, in the last couple of years, he's become more of a man, but he's always been my Jacob.

The house was empty. Nothing was left. The Cullen's kept a TV set up and a chair, so I wouldn't be completely bored. I went over to Charlie's today to say goodbye to him. Crying in front of people is usually hard for me, but knowing I wouldn't be seeing Charlie for a very, very long time, if ever, broke my heart. He's always been looking out for my best interest. My only regret is that I wouldn't get to say goodbye to my mom. She just lives too far away. But, now, I'll get to say goodbye to my Jacob. I wish he didn't feel this way about vampires…about my family. *sigh*

"PIZZA DELIVERY!!" I heard three knocks on the door. I smiled, jumping off the chair, and running to open the front door. When I opened it, Jacob was standing there in jeans and a cut-off, with a pizza on his left hand and a 2 liter of soda under his arm. On his face, he wore a bright smile.

"Hey stranger." I smiled at him and grabbed the pizza.

"Bells." I turned around and he followed me into the living room. He was acting like nothing had changed. Whew.

"So, how have you…" *Ring Ring* There's my phone. "Sorry,…just a second."

"Hello?" I picked up.

"Bella, are you okay?" It was Alice.

"Yes, Alice, I'm fine. Why?"

"I just…you disappeared. Are you in La Push?"

"No…Jake's here to say goodbye. I'm fine, really. Don't worry about me, and promise you won't tell Edward. I'll tell him myself, tomorrow. He doesn't need to barge in here and make this harder than it is." Jake sat on the couch and stared at me.

"No problem. But, I'm calling you every hour to make sure you're okay. Bye."

"Bye, Alice." I laughed and hung up the phone. "Sorry, about her."

"It's okay. Why would the bloodsucking vampire trust an innocent puppy?" He laughed at his pathetic attempt at a joke.

"Why, indeed." We sat there and laughed, as I opened the pizza and we both dove it.

"This was the best idea." I said with a full mouth.

"Agreed." He replied with a full mouth.

We sat there and ate for awhile, talking about how good the pizza was and all of our old memories: mud pies, car repair, and motorcycles. I'm really going to miss him. I'd never admit this to anyone, but when Edward was away and Jake was here, it was easy to think about what my life would be without Edward. Jacob reminded me of how happy am when I'm with him. I never had to watch what I said, or worry about how I looked. He truly was my best friend. And, I really am going to miss him. I'm going to miss him…Jacob…my Jacob. I'm going to miss him…I'm going to miss him…I'm leaving him…forever…

I broke down. Tears started spilling over and my body started shaking. The hysterics were coming…I could feel it.

"Bells?" He scooted off the chair and sat with me on the floor, a hand on my shoulder. "Bella? What's wrong?"

"I'm going to miss you, to much." I kept gasping for air. "You mean so much to me, Jake. I don't want this to be our last day together." I collapsed into his arms.

"Me either. You know I love you. I want all this to be different." He was stroking my hair and hugging me into his chest.

"I'm sorry…I'm so sorry…" I started to whisper. "I'm sorry…I'm sorry…I'm sorry…" I felt Jacob's hands on me, as he lifted my face to look into my eyes.

"No,…I'm sorry." Then he did something that I wasn't expecting. He kissed me. He kissed me…my Jacob…I love him…he kissed me…WAIT….HE KISSED ME!!! NO, BELLA!!! STOP!!!

"Wait!!" I pushed him away, and I heard him groan. "I can't, Jacob." He ignored me and leaned in again, pressing his warm lips to mine. I stuck my hands to his chest and pushed him off of me, again. "I'm married, Jake!"

"This is the very last chance I have, Bella." He looked hurt.

"For what, Jake? I love you, but I'm married…you're my best…"

"FRIEND! I KNOW!" I leaned back on the chair and looked off into a different direction than where I was sitting.

"You don't have to yell." I crossed my arms.

"Yeah, I know you're married. I had to witness him violating on the side of the road! What a gentleman!! That doesn't seem like you, Bella! What? He thinks that he has you, now, so he can do whatever he pleases to you? He's no man! What's going to happen when all of his lust for you is gone? He's going to treat you yesterday's garbage, and just throw you out!" His eyebrows were furrowed and he looked furious. He looked, almost, as furious as I was.

"HOW DARE YOU! My sex life with MY HUSBAND is NONE of your BUSINESS! And, furthermore, I STARTED the "violating" in the car! Edward NEVER treats me with ANYTHING BUT RESPECT AND LOVE! HE'S…." *ring ring* "UGH!"

"WHAT?" I screamed at Alice.

"Whoa…calm down. What's wrong?"

"NOTHING! I'M FINE! GOODBYYYEEEE!" I hung up the phone.

"Where was I?…oh, yes…" I started to proceed with my 'Edward loves me' explanation, but Jake stopped me.

"Save it. I really don't care about your leech. I didn't want to spend this night arguing with you, Bella." His tone calmed, slightly.

"I didn't either." We sat, silently, for a few minutes.

"I'm just going to say this, get it off my chest, and then we can sit here and talk or watch a movie the rest of the night. Bella, I'm going to miss you. I love you so much, more than I should, I know. You're the most special person I've ever met, and I truly believe that we could be happy together, if you'd let it happen. But,…I know you've made your choice. I don't agree with it, and I hate admitting this but,…I know he makes you happy. I really don't want you to be one of them. You're above that. You don't need to be a monster. It's not who you are. My heart breaks every time I think about it. Please, promise me that you won't forget me. I've thought about it, and it would be worth it to see you, again, even though you're one of them. Don't lose yourself. Come back to me, as soon as it's safe for you. Please…Please…please…" The tears started to fall from his deep brown eyes.

"Oh, Jacob…" I started crying, too. I crawled back over to him and held him, this time. "I promise. I've never wanted to leave you. Never. They're not monsters, and I won't be, either. They won't allow it. I promise that I'll come back to you. And, when I do, I want you to be married to a smart, pure and beautiful woman who gives you a reason to wake up every morning. I want to see whole-hearted smile that reaches your eyes when you look at her. There is somebody out there for you, and she's going to be one of the luckiest women in the world when she finds you. Don't ever give up on her. She'll show up when you least expect it and take your breath away. That's what I want for you. Promise me, that when I come back to you, you'll be happy and in love. Promise." I was practically sobbing.

"I promise." He tightened his grip around me, and we both fell to the floor just staring at each other.

"I love you, Jake."

"I love you, too, Bells." I'm not sure how long we'd been lying there before sleep overtook us. It was very peaceful. We both said what we needed to, and their wasn't any reason to say anything more. I'd see him again. I'll see him again.

**The next morning**

"Bella…Bella…" I felt a hand on my cheek; a cold hand. I was startled awake, thinking that I would find Edward covered in Jacob's blood. Surely, he had come home to find me wrapped up in Jake's arms and tore him to peaces. But,…no, he was sitting next to me, looking beautiful…no blood in sight.

"Good morning, beautiful."

"Good morning, Edward." My eyes felt heavy from crying last night. I looked around, though I knew he'd be gone. He'd never stay with Edward here.

"Are you okay, love?" He stroked my cheek.

"Uh-huh." I sat up and he hugged me.

"Do you feel okay?" He questioned. I must look worse than I though.

"Yes."

"I love you." He kissed my forehead.

"I love you, too, Edward." I lifted my head and planted a kiss on his lips.

"That's good to hear. Now, can I ask you something?" His voice was the epitome of calm.

"Anything." I closed my eyes, again, lost in Edward.

"Why, my beautiful wife,…do you smell like that filthy mutt?" Uh-oh. I didn't move. His voice had turned from beautiful to ravenous.

"I…" I leaned back, but didn't dare look at him. "I…"

"I'm waiting, Bella." He said through clenched teeth.

"I had to say goodbye to him, Edward." I said in a quick breath. Reluctantly, I glanced up at him. He was furious.

"You can say 'goodbye' from the doorway. Why is his scent all over the chair, the floor, this entire room….your hair, your clothes, your…body…" He quickly got as close as he could to my face, without touching me. "Your lips!!??" My body was trembling. I'd never been afraid of Edward, until now.

"N-n-nothing happened. We had to say 'goodbye'." I still couldn't look at him.

"Why is his scent on your lips, Bella?" I started to cry. I realize that Jake was the one to kiss me, but I don't think Edward would see it that way…not this time. I'm married.

"He…" I started to rush all my words together. "He kissed me, Edward, but I pushed him away. He apologized and said that it was just because he was going to miss me, but that was it. He didn't try to do it, again, and it was just a kiss. It was nothing. Nothing." I was breathing very heavily. "I'm sorry, Edward."

"You snuck around to see, Jake. You let him in this house. He touched you. You're supposed to be my wife…you're like a stranger to me, right now." He got up and started walking away.

"Edward!" I was definitely sobbing. "Don't walk away! Please! Please, don't walk away from me, again!!" My heart felt heavy. He had walked away from me... He walked out the front door, out of my sight. "Stop….Stop…" I whispered, "Stop….Stop…stop…stop…

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