A.N:The next one! I hope you all will like it and thank you soo much for the reviews!
Disclaimer: I don't own anything, the Vampire Diaries belongs to the CW and LJ Smith, and any resemblance between my OC's and real persons, dead or undead is purely coincidental. Also, I don't own the title of the chapter, which is a song by Tom McRae.
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AMY'S POV
"So it happened then?" I opened my eyes when I heard a too familiar voice and groaned when I saw who it was.
My past. My hallucination. My reflection, again.
"You're still here?" I asked, sitting up in the bed. I half expected for Damon to wake up, but surprisingly, he didn't.
"It's not like I can go anywhere else, as you know," she said, walking to us and sat on the edge of Damon's side of the bed. She reached out and dragged her fingertips along his cheekbone, with a longing look in her eyes.
"Why can't you tell me what you really want?"
She didn't turn her gaze to me. "You already know what I want," she stated, and I huffed.
"It's never gonna happen."
"Yeah? Don't tell me you haven't realized it wasn't you who was sleeping with him."
I gritted my teeth and watched her walk to the middle of the room.
"Hey- human?"
"Hm?"
"If you're still in me…How do you feel when I kill someone?"
She turned her head, a bitter, forced smile making its way to her lips.
"How do you think?"
"Horrible?" I asked mockingly. "Guilty? Upset? Does it kill you to know that you're ending them?"
She glared at me, but didn't say anything.
"Hey, what if I hurt one of your brothers?" I taunted. "Or your friends…Would it help me not to see you anymore?"
Her lips pulled into a devious smile. "Honestly? You can't hurt them."
I arched a brow. "I can't?"
"No," she shook her head. "Just try to do that… I won't let you."
"You can't stop me," I said quickly and she clicked her tongue.
"See, that's where you're wrong," she said. "Why do you think you haven't hurt any of the people I know so far?"
I clenched my teeth.
"I'm not that deep down, little psycho," she drawled out. "As you saw it last night. And you can't hurt anyone I care about. I'm still here."
I snorted. "My my, aren't you a fighter..."
She shrugged. "Yeah well…It's not the first time I hear this."
I let out an insincere laugh. "Right…From Damon, I think? You do know he was totally lying, right? You really weren't that much of a fighter."
She didn't answer me.
"I mean, do you want me to count the times you needed to be saved?" I asked, smirking. "There was always someone ready to save you, Damon, Luke, your brothers, even Stefan… Face it, Amy, if it weren't for-"
"Oh, give it a rest, seriously!" she snapped at me and I raised my eyebrows. For the first time, she looked so angry that I could see a part of me in her, in human form.
"You'd better enjoy it while you're there," she stated, looking me in the eye daringly. "It won't be long."
And then, I gasped and opened my eyes, jumping in the bed. It took me a moment to understand Damon wasn't lying beside me and I turned my glances into the room, only to find him looking at me in a complete shock.
I felt vulnerable to be in front of him naked when he was dressed, so I quickly threw on my clothes while he stood there, frozen.
"What?" I asked defensively, and he took a step towards me.
"Was it true?"
I gritted my teeth. "You shouldn't have invaded my dreams."
He ignored my comment. "You-the real you is still…there?" his voice was so full of hope that for a second, it hurt me.
Then I pulled myself together.
"It's just a dream Damon," I said. "You shouldn't take it seriously. My mind can do anything, you know it."
"It was her last night," he said slowly, as if he didn't dare to believe it. "I knew it. I knew something was different."
I let out a breath and glared at him. "Sorry to disappoint you," I said and stepped towards the door but he blocked my way.
"You're repressing her?" he asked disbelievingly and I huffed, then tried a different approach.
"What makes you think there's her and me in this body?" I asked. "It's just me, Damon, I'm-"
"Don't even," he said forcefully. "Don't even say that. You're as different from her as Elena is different from Katherine."
I raised my brows. "Still…" I said softly. "It didn't stop you last night, did it?" I grinned, walked past him, and went downstairs.
"Hey," I greeted Stefan when I reached the living room and he smiled.
"Hi. How are you?"
"Great," I said. "You?"
"Fine," he said politely. "Spent the night here?"
I nodded, trying to look innocent. "Well…I'm going home now, see you later."
"I can take you there-"
"No worries, I won't kill anyone unless they smell really good," I giggled and ran out of the house. Just before I reached my house, I stopped running and looked around, then bolted to the opposite direction.
I didn't even know where I was going, but I just knew that I wanted to run. Somewhere.
After running for minutes, I realized where I was and slowed down, brushing my hair off my face. I let out a laugh and walked deep into the forest, enjoying the familiar view.
My first date.
The waterfall, big stones and trees were still like I remembered, and a smile I couldn't stop made its way to my lips as I walked towards the small lake, and sat down onto the same rock I had sat before.
Heaving a deep sigh, I closed my eyes, listening to the waterfall, letting myself get lost in peace.
"You know, I fell in love with this place when I saw it for the first time."
I almost jumped up on the rock and my eyes snapped open.
"Are you freaking kidding me?" I asked when I saw myself. "Do I have to see you when I'm awake too now?"
"You're not actually seeing me," she shrugged. "You're just imagining me."
"Right," I said. "And I'm imagining you why?"
"Because believe it or not, you kinda need me sometimes," she smiled softly, sitting down onto the rock in front of me and I rolled my eyes.
"So what now? I completely lost my mind?"
"Speaking to yourself doesn't mean you've lost your mind," she said, turning her gaze to the waterfall. "It simply means that you don't want to be the only one who can hear your mind, that's all."
"Great," I said sarcastically. "You sometimes sound crazier than me."
"I'm in your head," she reminded me and I sighed, then stared at the waterfall.
"You know it won't make him love you," she said and I turned my head.
"I have no idea what you're talking about."
"Pushing his buttons?" she said. "Messing around with Luke-"
"You did mess around with him."
"I never wanted to hurt his feelings," she said quickly and I raised my brows.
"If you honestly believe you didn't hurt him, you must be delusional," I retorted and a pained expression crossed her face, but it was repressed almost immediately.
"It won't make him love you," she said again. "Cry for his attention all you want, do anything, but you know I'm telling the truth."
I dug my nails into my palms and stood up.
"It's getting too crowded here," I said and walked into the forest again, trying to distract myself. I drifted through the woods slowly, as if I was a human and made my way to my home.
When I reached there after almost an hour later, only Mike was at the table, reading the newspaper.
"What's up?"
"Nothing much," I said. "You?"
"Same," he said. "I have some bad news."
"Like?"
"Monica is coming to dinner," he said with a exaggerated pain on his face and I couldn't help but to laugh.
"She would make a good dinner."
He raised his head from the newspaper and shot me a funny look.
"Okay, weirdo…" he said. "What's going on?"
I shrugged "I'll be in my room, tell me when she gets here," I said and walked upstairs.
After spending almost two hours reading my book, I must've dozed off to a dreamless sleep, because when I was pulled away from it by a gentle voice, I didn't even remember going to sleep.
Damon was in my room. Beside my bed, to be exact, and I didn't open my eyes. I just pretended to be still asleep.
"-and I know you are there," he whispered, stroking my hair. "And if you can hear me, Amy, please don't give up. Okay? I don't know how, but I want you to hang on. Fight back, struggle! Do whatever you have to do, but do not ever think of giving up. You told me once you were a fighter, now it's time to prove it. Alright?"
For minutes, he didn't say anything, and if it weren't for the caress in my hair, I would've though he had left.
"Damn it, Amy, I-" he paused. "You have to be here. Because if you're not-" there was another pause and he sighed.
"I'm waiting, right here," he whispered. "Trust me on this. I don't care how hard I will have to try, I don't care how damaged you will be when you come back, but I will get you out, even if it's the last thing I do, do you hear me?"
For a moment, I wanted to cry, but I hushed the urge and kept my eyes closed. I felt him pressing his lips on my hair and he inhaled my scent, as if he wanted to memorize it.
"Tell you what…" he whispered. "You come back to me, and I will tell you the thing you want to hear. The thing I should've said long ago. Deal?"
"Amy?" someone knocked on my door and there was a breeze that informed me Damon had left. I sat up in the bed.
"Yeah?"
The door cracked open, and Will smiled at me. "Girlfriend from hell is here."
I blinked back the tears and gulped. "Oh?" I said. "Um- I'll be there in a sec."
He winked at me and closed the door, and I got up from the bed. I could practically hear her voice, saying 'I told you' in my brain and I gritted my teeth.
"Shut the hell up," I muttered to myself and left the room, and went downstairs.
Stupid hallucinations.
"Amy, hi!" Monica chirped when she saw me and I stopped dead on my spot. For a second, I could hear the animal growling inside me, pawing my insides.
"Amy?" Mike's voice snapped me out of my trance and I raised my head.
"I'm fine," I said almost mechanically and tried to smile.
"It feels like it's been years since I saw you!" she exclaimed. "How was your birthday?"
"Good. I died."
Mike frowned at me. "Amy, what's gotten into you today?"
I shrugged and she gulped, then turned and smiled at Dan, who gave me a weird look.
Something was wrong. Something would be very wrong. I could feel it in my heart beat.
"Are you alright?" Dan asked me and I shook my head.
"No."
"What's wrong?" he took a step towards me but I held up a hand, and then turned to Monica.
As soon as I did, something flashed before my eyes, so quick that it made me gasp and my vision filled with red haze. Will rushed to my side and held me by my upper arms before I could lose my balance.
"Amy-" he held my chin and lifted my head to look me in the eye as I growled and pushed him as slow as possible for a vampire, then I lunged at Monica. I could feel the fangs extending from my gums and my face changing, veins popping out as I pinned her to the wall by her neck. She let out a scream, scratching my hand, and I heard Dan's yelling out, Mike cussing and Will regaining his balance.
There was a movement behind me and suddenly, I felt wetness in my hair, burning so bad that it made me scream and pull my hand back, sending Monica to the ground. I checked my hair and the liquid burned my fingertips when I touched it, causing me to hiss, then I turned around, whimpering like an animal.
And that was when I saw Dan, pointing a stake right to my chest, with a shocked expression on his face.
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