Losing Him Before My Eyes
By: PrincessSparkle101
Chapter 5
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Amanda POV
All I want right now is for Percy to come and wrap his arms around me. I want him to tell me it's going to be alright and this was all some stupid nightmare.
He can't do that right now because he's with her.
Okay he didn't actually leave me for Annabeth, but it feels like he's being snatched away.
Slowly but surely she drags him away and I can't help but watch it happen.
What does Percy think? He has no clue what's going on. Annabeth told him she just wants to be friends again, but I think she's trying to rekindle their old relationship.
Even though I try my best to treat her like a friend, she doesn't even try to act the same. Annabeth sends me sneaky glares and keeps Percy occupied so I can't spend much time with him.
I don't know why Percy still trusts her. I mean, she broke his heart carelessly and now he seems to want to give her another chance.
And, while I hope it's just friendship, but how can I be sure?
Annabeth was never even told that I was Percy's fiancee. I don't know why I haven't told her.
It just seems cruel to throw something like that in everyone else's faces.
Like: Hey! I've got the best, sweetest, most considerate fiancee in the world.
No, that's not right.
It's been three weeks and there's good news and bad news.
The good news is that Annabeth has finally stopped staying at our apartment. The bad news is that she lives in the same neighborhood and invites herself into our home at 6:00 each morning.
She leaves after lunch sometimes, other times she leaves before Percy and I have dinner.
It's like she's moved in with us!
And if that doesn't seem bad to you, I can barely control my frustration. Yesterday, I practically exploded when Percy asked me if we could go eat dinner with Annabeth. It was pretty quiet for the rest of the night.
Sighing, I started another paragraph on the monthly report for Ternian. The poor 15 year old was involved in a car crash, fracturing his spine and becoming a quadriplegic.
He would never be able to move his limbs again, and even move his neck around.
I'm an occupational therapist, which is a therapist for children with disabilities.
My fingers were sore from typing and I looked up.
Percy tiptoed towards my desk with a plate of deliciousness.
"I-I brought you some cookies since you've been working for forever and stuff." He slid them to me across the desk.
"Thanks Percy." I pecked him on the cheek and he pulled up a chair next to me.
He poked Ternian's face on the laptop screen, "Who's dat?" Cookie crumbs sprayed out and I made a face.
"Eww!" I wiped the food onto Percy.
Percy tilted his head, "What?"
I shook my head and told him about Ternian.
"Sorry about that, but I'm sure you'll make them better."
I laughed, "They have it easy off, like me. We're lucky we're not demigods like you."
Percy nodded, "But if we ever have a kid, he or she won't be as lucky."
My cheeks flamed up at the thought of having kids, and gosh, that would be happening soon. After we get married, we'd have kids.
Not that I hadn't thought about that. I just didn't talk about it much.
"They would be 1/4 gods."
If you're wondering, I did talk to Percy about kids before. It was after he proposed.
[Flashback]
Sand flowed through the spaces in between my toes.
I slid my new ring around on my finger, letting it catch the fading sunlight.
My head leaned on Percy's shoulder, "Do you ever want to, you know, have kids someday?"
His shoulder bounced as he laughed, "Of course! Oh.. wait.. you want kids too, right?"
He sounded so unsure for a moment, waiting to see if I was alright with having a family.
"Yes." I giggled, then looked off into the calm ocean, "I always imagined being part of this perfect family. Just like mom."
Percy wrapped his arm around me, "Yes?"
"Well, I'd sit with the the love of my life by a warm fire place, watching my little 6 year old girl talk to a gurgling baby boy."
I gazed into Percy's eyes, "And, well, it looks like I'm halfway there."
[End Flashback]
Percy frowned, "No, I'm not sure they wouldn't be 1/4 gods."
"Huh?" What was that supposed to mean?
Was Percy 1/4 god? Or maybe 3/4 god?
"I've been meaning to ask you..." He pulled out a shiny coin, a drachma, "what was your dad's name?"
Weird, Percy never asked me about mother and father. He knows its a touchy subject for me.
"Um.. " Usually I'd be blinking back tears, ashamed to be crying in front of someone, but this was Percy.
He squeezed my hand, "If you don't want to talk about it-"
"No, no. It's fine." I interrupted him, "His name was Gavin."
I pulled my eyes from the ground and opened the golden locket containing pictures of mother and father.
"This," I pointed to the picture on the left, "is my dad."
My dad was such a sweet man. He loved everyone, especially my mom, Spencer, and me.
I observed Percy's reaction, not sure what to expect.
He gave me a small smile, "Tell me about him."
I stared off into the distance, reminiscing the good times when I knew nothing, but was content.
"Well, he lit up faces where he walked. He knew how to make everyone happy, and just what to do when people were sad. And... he always made us these mystery smoothies that were different each time, but tasted just as wonderful as the last. And, I just miss him so much."
My lips were curled into a smile, but I wasn't aware of the tears till Percy wiped one off, handing me a tissue.
"My parents always tried their best to make our lives complete, as if they knew that it wouldn't be that way forever."
Percy handed me another tissue, "It was a beautiful sunny day when we drove down to my Uncle Zane and my Auntie Hela."
I glanced at Percy and saw him suck in his breath sharply, "Did you say Hera?"
"No," I said, remembering his not-so-good history with the goddess, "My Auntie Hela, with an 'L'."
He nodded for me to go on, but I could sense his uneasiness.
"Well, my Uncle, Zane, he didn't approve of my dad." I chocked the words out, "So he killed him."
Percy's eyes widened, "What?"
"I don't know how, but my father was dead the next morning, and Uncle Zane was missing. I put two and two together and I found all these signs leading to the murder. If only I could've caught on quicker, he could still be here."
Percy cupped his hand underneath my chin and pushed my head up till I was forced to look him in the eyes.
"It's not your fault at all Amanda. I used to blame myself for all the deaths and all the tragedies that I could've stopped. Sometimes thought, we can't stop those things. Sometimes, even though it doesn't make sense, it's for the better."
I shook my head, "No, dad shouldn't have died. He didn't deserve it!"
"I know he didn't deserve it Amanda," Percy rubbed my back, "But maybe you don't know the whole story."
Amanda POV (continued)
I lay away the whole night. Tossing and turning. Unable to get those words out of my head.
But maybe you don't know the whole story
I know I all I need to know.
He killed my father.
Maybe you don't know the whole story
But I do know the story. He killed my father and left.
Isn't that enough? Why shouldn't I resent him?
You don't know the whole story
I KNOW THE WHOLE STORY! What more could there be?
Mom always said to learn both sides before you judge.
She was always fair that way.
At the same time she would also quote things from books that left me wondering if she was as fair as she made herself out to be.
Not that it's bad, but she chooses what feels right for everyone.
Mom doesn't just choose the obvious "right" that everyone else sees. She chooses her "right".
One of her favorite quotes, "When given the choice between being right and being kind, choose kind." Makes me wonder (HAHA Wonder! Get it?) if she made that quote herself.
It repeated again, the words sticking to my mind, making themselves permanent.
Don't know the whole story
Was it possible...? Did my dad do something so bad he had to be killed?
I brushed the thought away. My father would never do anything to hurt someone.
Annabeth POV
When I had the baby, you could tell it wasn't one people could respect.
At least not at Camp Half-Blood.
Baby Luke's eyes weren't sea green, but they weren't gray either.
They were blue. A pale blue.
His hair was straight and blond, not black.
I wish his hair was messy like Percy's, but that wouldn't make sense.
If his eyes were green, maybe the campers could accept him.
Percy and I were practically engaged to be engaged when I made the baby boy.
And if you didn't get it yet, the baby isn't Percy's.
There's always a consequence to breaking a promise.
I knew it could've happened when I did it.
And, as much as I love Luke, he ruined everything.
But it was my fault that Luke was born. So really it was my fault.
Thinking back on that, I couldn't help but know, that Percy wasn't meant to be mine.
Maybe Aphrodite wanted it at one point, but I let one thing turn to another.
My heart screams for Percy, but my head is smart enough to keep me from ruining things completely.
And so I make the decision that will probably change both of our lives.
I give up on Percy.
I don't deserve him, and he could definitely be without me.
That Amanda girl could clean his house and stuff.
I'm sure she likes him, maybe even loves him.
But she won't make a move on Percy, he is probably oblivious that she loves him.
Like me, she'll be too scared to start a romantic relationship with Percy.
She'll lose whatever friendship they have.
Sometimes it seems like they could be dating or something, but I never see them closely knit together, like Percy and I were.
Maybe he likes her back.
Is it bad to want her to disappear?
At the same time, maybe she'd be better for Percy than me.
I don't know.
I told Percy I moving away, to Rome.
It was our dream to go to collage together in Rome.
Not anymore.
It was only mine, but he was happy for me.
I finally got to go to Rome, and maybe meet that special someone.
But until then, my life will have a spot reserved for Percy.
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