A/N – Thanks for all the immense feedback on the other chapters, I'm in awe of all the support for this story!

I've only just realised NOW when RE-READING that I put a lot of things in italics but they didn't show up in the story! The note that was left when Olivia was kidnapped, her thoughts, this is screwed up man! Anyone know why this is because there is more in other chapters that have showed up!

DISCLAIMER – AS MUCH AS I WISH I DID I DON'T OWN SVU OR ANY OF THEIR CHARACTERS, JUST THIS STORY AND MY OWN CHARACTERS!

Chapter Eight – Suffering

Mercy General Hospital

April 2nd 1.34 am

As the ambulance pulled up outside the hospital Olivia was still sat in Elliot's lap refusing to allow the medic anywhere near her. The back doors swung open and a team of medics were waiting for them. Olivia panicked seeing everyone and buried herself further into Elliot. Uniformed officers had to make a barrier stopping the paparazzi from getting to close to the ambulance and Elliot wanted some calm so he could explain what was going on to the medics urgently needing to give Olivia medical attention.

"She won't move from him." The EMT told one of the medics outside the ambulance.

"Sir, can you carry her?" The medic asked Elliot who just managed a weak nod.

"Liv, baby, I'm just going to lift you ok? I won't let go I promise." Elliot told her.

She nodded weakly, too distraught to speak, Elliot lifted her into his arms cradling her as he stepped out of the ambulance. Flashes from the cameras around him momentarily blinded him as he waited to be told where to go.

"We have a privet room set up, this way." The doctor told him and Elliot followed the team of medics to the room they'd set up for Olivia, to keep her away from the press.

"Just in here." The medic smiled gently.

Elliot went into the room and began to place Olivia on the bed.

"Don't! Don't put me down! Please!" Olivia yelled.

"Ok baby! I've got you. I'm going to get on the bed with you ok?" He explained.

"Ok." She whispered.

"I have to put you down just for a second so I can climb on too." Elliot explained and Olivia nodded before he placed her gently on the bed.

He climbed on behind her and then pulled her into his lap. He could feel her shaking and he slowly rubbed her, trying to comfort her and put some heat into her naked body only covered by the thin duvet.

"Olivia, they need to examine you and patch you up baby." Elliot whispered to her.

"No!" She yelled trying to burrow herself deeper into him.

"Ok... shh... I got you...shh." He rocked her gently back and forth trying to calm her down and stop himself from crying.

"Don't let anyone touch me El." She pleaded.

"I won't let them if you don't want them to baby." He told her in a calming whisper.

There was a light knock on the door that Olivia jumping out of her skin.

"It's just me." Cragen said softly as he came through the door.

"Cap?" Olivia asked having not looked she needed confirmation that she recognised the voice.

"Yeah Olivia, it's me." He replied gently, his heart breaking even more at the sight he was seeing.

"I'm sorry." Olivia whispered.

"Why are you sorry?" He asked trying not to cry.

"For not fighting back enough." She replied.

"You fought back more than any of us thought you would Olivia, and what is it you always say? You did the right thing, you survived." Cragen explained trying desperately not to cry as the tears weld up in his eyes.

Olivia couldn't say anymore as she sobbed into Elliot. Everyone ounce of her body hurt but nothing hurt more than her soul and that's what she was crying about, the physical would heal but the mental scars would be there forever and that was killing her.

"Liv..." Cragen began and for the first time she lifted her head to look at him.

"What?" She croaked.

Again Cragen had to blink back the tears. The pain in her brown eyes tore him up as this wasn't the strong willed detective he was used to seeing in front of his eyes, this was a vulnerable victim.

"I need you to talk to George, see if he can help you let the doctors check you over ok?" Cragen asked gently.

Olivia just nodded, too tired to refuse and argue. Cragen went to the door and let Huang in before letting himself out. Huang had mentally prepared himself for what he saw but it still didn't stop it hurting.

"Olivia?" He asked gently.

"Hi George." She replied to show him that she knew exactly who it was talking to her.

"Hi Olivia, how are you feeling?" He asked her softly.

"Tired." She told him her voice hoarse.

"You're tired, do you want to sleep?" Huang continued.

"Yes." Olivia replied honestly.

"Ok, why don't you get some sleep and I'll come back and talk to you later?" Huang suggested.

"Ok." She nodded.

Elliot watched as Huang slipped out and a nurse came in.

"I've got you a gown Ms Benson, if you want to get changed." The nurse smiled softly.

As she left the room Captain Cragen pulled her to one side.

"What's going to happen with the rape kit?" He asked her.

"I don't know Captain, I mean she won't let anyone near her but the man that's holding her. It can be done after she rests, it's just sooner the better with these things but I believe we've been told to focus on her mental health for now." The nurse explained to him glancing nervously at Huang who had warned them about pushing her too fast too soon.

"I know, we know she has a broken wrist, at least a scalp wound on the back of her head and a lot of bruising." Cragen told her.

"We know, but she could do herself more physical and mental harm if she fights us, so for now we're going to take Doctor Huang's lead on this. Let her get some sleep Captain and see how she is then." The nurse explained.

Cragen just nodded and allowed the nurse to leave. He rubbed his mouth as he thought, needing desperately to do something, anything but feel so helpless.

"Don?" Huang asked gently.

"I don't need a shrink." Cragen replied angrily.

"I'm not trying to be a shrink, I'm trying to be a friend." Huang explained softly.

"Could have fooled me. Now, Olivia, what do you think?" Cragen asked.

"Just bare with her for now. She needs to sleep. It's heading for two am, let her sleep and see how she is in the morning." Huang replied just as Munch and Fin arrived at their sides.

"Where have you two been?" Cragen asked having been wondering for a while why they hadn't come straight to the hospital.

"We made sure McArthur got to central booking." Munch replied.

"In one piece?" Cragen asked eyeing up Fin.

"Yes, but with a few more bruises than before." Fin shrugged.

"Good." Cragen cracked a weak smile.

"How's baby girl doing?" Fin asked nodding his head towards the closed door.

"Won't let anyone but Elliot touch her." Cragen explained.

"This is killing me man, I wish I could have killed McArthur." Fin replied cracking his knuckles.

"That wouldn't make Liv feel any better." Cragen told him firmly.

"No, Cap's right Fin." Munch sighed leaning into the wall of the corridor.

"So has anyone talked to Baby Girl?" Fin asked.

"Me, Elliot and Huang." Cragen replied.

"How is she?" Fin asked nervously.

"Tired mainly, we're going to let her sleep." Cragen explained.

"She not had the rape kit then?"

"No, she'll have it in the morning." Cragen answered getting tired of all the questions.

"But Cap ..."

"I know! I know, the sooner the better but she's not just anyone Fin, she's Liv, she's ... she's a cop who works sex crimes and she's seen hundreds of kits done and do you really think she's going to agree to do one lightly? Best let her get some sleep and do it in the morning." Cragen explained just as the door of Olivia's room opened and Elliot stepped out to the corridor.

"She's sleeping." He told them.

"How is she Elliot? Really?" Cragen asked.

"Drained. Both physically and mentally drained." Elliot sighed rubbing the back of his neck with frustration.

"How did you get her to let go of you?" Huang asked knowing that wouldn't have been easy.

"Told her I wouldn't let anyone into the room while she slept. But, that I needed to come and talk to you and I promised I wouldn't leave the door unguarded." Elliot explained.

"Has she said much?" Huang continued.

"Nope, just cried, a lot." He replied his own eyes glistening with fresh tears.

"Come on man, she needs you." Fin said giving Elliot's shoulder a supporting squeeze.

"I know, I know I just don't know what to do or what to say." Elliot explained looking at Huang desperately for answers.

"You have to wait for her to speak, for now. She'll get better though but I need to know, has she asked about information on Toby yet?" Huang asked.

"No. Why?" Elliot asked.

"If she doesn't that means she didn't slip into Stockholm but if she does ... well be prepared for her to fight on the fact that he's been arrested." Huang explained.

"I don't think I can do this." Elliot whispered his eyes trailing to the floor.

"You can Stabler, baby girl needs you to be able to do this." Fin explained.

"Yeah come on Elliot. Olivia needs you to have her back now more than ever." Munch quipped.

"I know. I just ..." Elliot's words were drowned out by an echoing scream from behind the door that had all four men diving in.

Elliot got to her side and wrapped his arms around her.

"I'm here, it's Elliot. I've got you Liv." He told her knowing she was pushing him away in a frenzy.

"El?" She croaked.

"Yeah baby it's me." He replied. "What happened baby?" He asked already knowing the answer.

"I thought he was here. I could feel him ... on ... top ... of ... me ... again..." Olivia hiccupped the words as she sobbed.

"He can't get you here baby, he can't I swear, I won't let him anywhere near you." He told her reassuring her as much as he could.

"Ok." She whispered. "My hand really hurts." She added as she held her left hand to her chest.

"Its broken baby, they need to do an x-ray and then put some plaster on it." Elliot told her.

"Can they do that now then?" Olivia asked.

Elliot looked at Cragen who nodded and went to find a nurse, if she'd allow someone to treat her hand there was a possibility that she'd let them examine her completely.

"Hi guys." Olivia smiled weakly at Munch and Fin.

"Hey baby girl."

"Hi Olivia."

"It's good to see you." Olivia replied.

"You don't know how good it is for us to see you too." Munch added with small smile making her smile wider.

"You missed me then huh?" She asked them playfully.

"More than you'll ever know baby girl." Fin replied.

Olivia pulled away from Elliot and reached her right unhurt hand, motioning for Fin and Munch to go closer. Once they were right beside the bed she wrapped her arm around Fin who was closer.

"Come to the other side Munch." She smiled and he went round and slowly leaned in and wrapped an arm around her.

She closed her eyes for a moment taking in the feel of her friends, who just hours ago, she thought she'd never see again.

"Thank you for finding me." She whispered.

Fin nor Munch said anything but gave her a gentle squeeze, neither one trusted their voices as they tried to hide how emotional she was. When Cragen came back with a nurse with a wheelchair both Munch and Fin stepped away.

"You ready to get your arm checked out?" The nurse asked gently as she passed Olivia a long white robe to put over the gown.

"Yeah, it kills." Olivia replied.

"After the X-Ray we'll set you up on a morphine and saline drip." The nurse explained as Olivia pulled on the robe.

Elliot and the nurse lowered the cot side on the bed and Elliot lifted Olivia into the chair.

"Don't leave me." Olivia whispered clutching his hand in her own as tight as she could.

"I wouldn't dream of it." He replied giving a curt nod to the nurse to push the chair.

Everyone went with them down to the X-Ray room. They passed one of the side entrances to the hospital where uniformed officers were stationed to stop press from entering. Olivia's grip on Elliot's hand tightened whenever they were near other people and he sensed her fear.

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Mercy General Hospital

April 2nd 2.48 am

After the X-ray Olivia let a nurse and female doctor place a cast on her broken wrist, she was then put on a morphine and saline drip before being put back into bed. She was too awake to try and sleep so Huang, Cragen, Munch, Fin and Elliot all sat around her bed. There was no denying that she was jumpy, she kept a tight hold on Elliot's hand and everyone was aware of not making any sudden movements in case they frightened her.

"So what will happen to Toby now?" Olivia eventually asked the question that had been plaguing her mind.

Everyone looked around nervously at each other. Cragen took a deep breath deciding he'd tell her.

"He's being questioned at the moment Olivia, the building you were in, well, we found some bodies there and he's being questioned about those." Cragen explained.

"How many bodies?" She asked hoarsely in shock.

"Four." Cragen replied.

"Will he be charged?" Olivia asked.

"If we can prove he did it." Cragen explained. "But don't worry Liv, he'll never see daylight again." He added.

"Why not?" Olivia asked a perplexed look on her face making everyone else confused.

"For what he did to you Olivia." Cragen told her and her brows furrowed together.

"What do you mean for what he did to me?" She asked and everyone looked around at each other.

"Olivia ..." Cragen stopped unsure what to do.

"Tell her." Huang told him and he nodded.

"Olivia, he kidnapped you, beat you, and ... and raped you." Cragen told her.

"He didn't do anything to me." Olivia exclaimed.

"Olivia ..."

"Don't." Huang shook his head.

"What?" Cragen asked looking at her.

"Let me?" He asked, he was asking Cragen but looking at Elliot for his confirmation as well.

"Olivia, I know you don't want to remember what he did to you and I know it's scary but ... we saw what he did to you." Huang explained and Olivia stared at him.

"You saw?" She asked.

"Yeah, there was a two way? In the room?" He asked and she nodded. "Well he set up a camera behind that and there was one in the bathroom when he bathed you too." Huang explained.

"I'm confused." Cragen whispered.

"In denial." Huang mumbled his eyes' not moving from Olivia's which glistened with fresh tears.

"I don't want to remember." Olivia whispered gripping tightly onto Elliot's hand as she tried not to cry.

"You have to remember Olivia, so you can heal." Huang explained.

"But I don't want to." She told him firmly.

"I know, I know its hard Olivia."

"No you don't!" She yelled angrily. "You don't know how hard it is because you haven't been kidnapped out of your own bed and kept in a room where you were beaten and raped so don't you dare tell me that you know it's hard!" She screamed at him as tears flooded down her face.

Elliot jumped up and wrapped his arms around her but she struggled and pushed him away.

"I want you all to go!" She yelled. "Go and leave me alone!"

Huang nodded his head and everyone began to leave but Elliot looked at Olivia who had wrapped herself up in the duvet.

"That includes you Elliot." She added knowing he hadn't left.

Sighing he headed for the door.

"Sleep tight Liv, I love you." He told her before slipping out to join everyone else.

Ok so a really short chapter, this is the way I planned to end it originally but you all want some of the aftermath, how does this sound – The hospital, the arraignment, viewing the tape, treatment, and court and sentencing sound? Let me know!