While we were in the Florence area, Nesta had suggested spending a couple days in Tuscany, so that was where we went next. I did want to see the leaning tower of Piza, as did the rest of us, so we all decided to go. We didn't really have a set schedule or travel itinerary in mind, so it worked out. I'd been internally stressing over the missed pill for the past week, debating on whether or not to alert Juan of the incident. I mean, if nothing came of it, was there a reason to worry him too? On the other hand, maybe it wouldn't hurt to let him know, and see how he felt about it. I did know not telling anyone was driving me crazy though.
Thinking back, I realized I would probably know soon one way or another. I had already finished that month's pills, and started the next and I was pretty sure my period was already late by at least a week. So for all I knew, I was pregnant. But my period was never regular, because I have PCOS, so there are times when I don't have a period at all one month. The pill had stabilized that a bit, as it was supposed to, but it wasn't perfect. Also, I still didn't know when I'd missed the pill, so I still didn't really have a clue, so I wasn't sure what I could tell him.
As we were getting ready to go with everyone to see the tower, Juan stopped me as I was walking toward the door of our room. I turned back to look at him. "Are you okay? Be honest. I can tell something's been on your mind," he said, and I couldn't lie to him, so I sat him on the bed and spilled the whole story. "Krystal Leann. We're married. If you get pregnant now, we can handle becoming parents. If it happens, it happens. Don't worry so much. What's meant to be will be, you should know that better than anyone," he reassured me.
Letting out a breath I didn't realize I was holding, I smiled at him, leaning over to give him a grateful kiss. "I'm glad you feel that way. You're right about me worrying too much, but you know me. I spend a lot of time overthinking everything. And you're right, if it's meant to be, it'll happen, if not, it'll happen later. Our relationship has definitely taught me that," I said. I pulled him up and out the door, because I could hear Chibs in the hall telling us to hurry up. No one came into our room unannounced anymore, because 90% of the time we were in there, we were naked, either because we were having sex, or we were sleeping, and we slept naked, even though it was winter, and going to start snowing any day.
Luckily, we had all dressed warm, because it did, in fact, start snowing as we were walking to the tower. I got really excited over this, but I was pretty much the only one. I just liked snow. I had never gotten to really experience it until I moved out of California, and I didn't like North Dakota winters, which were much too cold for my taste, as it was more often than not too cold to even snow, but I had enjoyed my winter in Iowa. Part of me had always wanted to move out of California. I thought the Pacific Northwest would be the perfect location for me; it wasn't too hot in the summer, it rained most of the year, which I would love, and it got some snow but not too much snow during the winter. Maybe I could convince Juan to retire there with me, or it was something to think about in the future, but I knew we weren't leaving Charming anytime soon.
After we had all taken pictures at the tower, Venus brought up going to a winery. Everyone else seemed to agree that it seemed like a good idea, but I was hesitant. If I did happen to be pregnant, I wasn't sure drinking was a good idea, but how could I really refuse when I didn't know for sure, without raising suspicions? I decided a glass or two of wine wouldn't hurt, but I was going to have to find a way to casually limit my drinking on the rest of the trip in a way that wouldn't be too obvious. At least until I knew for sure if I was or wasn't. I'd figure out when and how we'd tell everyone if there was a need. Juan squeezed my hand as we walked, as if he could read my thoughts and was trying to reassure me again.
For the most part, I only took a sip off of each of the glasses, setting them down without finishing them. They were all very good, but I was being good. I was also trying to make sure no one noticed. Halfway through, I had to stop to go to the bathroom and Venus came with me. "Are you pregnant?" she asked as we were standing at the sinks washing our hands. I looked at her with wide eyes, but she just smiled. "Dear I noticed the way you haven't been drinking much. I've seen you drink wine, and under normal circumstances, you would not be taking only a sip of each glass," she smiled and patted my hand. "I won't tell anyone. I am, after all, the Belle who Does Not Tell," she added.
Taking a deep breath, I considered. I hadn't even told Brie and Skye yet. If they found out I had confided in someone else before them, they wouldn't be very happy. They'd accept it eventually though. Venus had noticed first, so I figured I should be honest with her. "I dunno yet, actually. It's too early to even know. I just missed a pill and I dunno when I did. So I know one mess up doesn't necessarily mean a pregnancy. It'd take a lot of other things to align at the same time. I'm not sure if I'm late yet, because I can't remember the date of my last period. I also have PCOS, so my periods are irregular. Being on the pill helps that, but sometimes they still skip a month every once in a while," I realized I was rambling and stopped myself.
Grinning, she clapped her hands together. "That's amazing. You two will be great parents, and the clubhouse needs more kids around. Whatever is going to happen, will happen. Don't worry so much. Actually, I have something to get off my chest, since we're in the sharing mood," she said and I gestured for her to continue. "Well, I have a son. He's almost eighteen. His mother died a few years ago and he doesn't know I'm his father. I never wanted to confuse him, so we always told him I was his aunt, and when his mother died, I sent him up north to stay with some friends," she explained and I nodded, because I could sense there was more she needed to say.
After a moment, she finally continued. "Well, he wants to come down for a visit once he's eighteen. I'm thinking of telling him the truth. Alex supports whatever I want to do, but I'm still scared I'll back out once he actually comes down to visit. We're planning on a few months from now, after his birthday and after we're all back from Europe," she told me. "My mother was very abusive, in various ways, including verbally. She didn't understand my transformation, and my family as a whole is the same way. I'm just worried Joey won't want to know me anymore after he finds out," she confessed.
Looking at her sympathetically, I gave her a hug. I wasn't trans myself, but I'd known quite a few trans people, and I considered myself an advocate for them, even if I wasn't always as active about it as I should be. I definitely jumped into a conversation anytime I heard someone being transphobic. "I think you need to be honest with him. He'll either understand, and love you anyway, hopefully. Or maybe he'll need you to explain it better. Some people hate out of ignorance and not just because they're assholes. But you'll never know what's going to happen until you tell him, and he deserves to know the truth," I told her.
Smiling, she nodded. "You're right, of course. And I suppose it's just like I told you. Whatever is going to happen, will happen. I should probably take my own advice more often," she laughed, and I linked my arm through hers as we left the bathroom to rejoin everyone else. I genuinely enjoyed hanging out with Venus. She was so sure of herself and who she was; the world really needed more of that. It had taken her years to get to where she was, and obviously she still had moments of self-doubt, but she gave me hope for myself, because she'd been through so much and had conquered it. I wanted to be that way, too.
After another hour or two, we were all back at the hostel for the night, chilling together in the room Jax, Tara and the kids were in, because there was more space than the rest of our rooms. Theirs was the only one with two beds. Chibs, Brie, Skye and Wendy were sitting on one bed; Tig, Venus, Jax and Tara were on the other bed; and the kids were playing on the floor. I was laying on the floor on my stomach and Juan was sitting on my butt, giving me a back massage while we all talked. I had talked him into it after getting Brie to walk on my back because it was bothering me.
As he massaged, I listened to everyone else talking about the winery we had gone to, but I had my eyes closed and wasn't really contributing to the conversation. I was starting to let my mind wander to sex, and Juan, of course, was on the same page. He leaned down so he could whisper in my ear. "So, we can go back to our room and continue this, clothing optional," he nipped at the shell of my ear in a way that he knew sent shivers down my spine, directly to my vagina. It never failed to turn me on. I nodded, and he got up, helping me to my feet. "See you guys tomorrow," he didn't bother to make up an excuse, he grabbed my hand and headed for the door, and I called a goodnight over my shoulder.
Once we were in our room, he sat on the bed and I straddled his waist, and we started with making out, like him massaging me for the past hour hadn't been enough foreplay. Our tongues danced and he broke the kiss only to pull my shirt over my head. I took his off at the same time, and then our mouths crashed together again as I moved my hips against his. He reached around and unhooked my bra, slipping it off without breaking the kiss. He bit on my lip causing me to moan in a blissful mix of pleasure and pain, and I felt his erection growing. He stood, holding onto me, before turning and tossing me on the bed.
Unbuckling his belt and unbuttoning his pants he kicked off his shoes before shedding his pants and boxers, then he took my pants and panties and pulled them down my legs before he crawled onto the bed, holding himself above me as he kissed me once more. I wrapped my legs around his waist, but he raised them, putting one over each shoulder before thrusting inside me, filling me completely. There had been a time years ago when I'd questioned how flexible I was, but he had changed that. He picked up speed a few minutes later as I felt my orgasm building, and soon enough I was tumbling over the edge, raking my nails down his chest as I did, and he followed.
For a few moments, he held himself above me and I moved my legs off his shoulders. I could feel my legs shaking with the orgasm still as he rolled off of me, pulling out. I followed after him, laying my head on his chest as he lay on his back, wrapping his arm around me as we shifted to pull the blanket out from under us so we could get under it. I turned my head to place a kiss on his tattoo before I laid my head back down so I could listen to his heartbeat as I drifted off to sleep. "I love you, wife," he murmured, rubbing a hand up and down my arm and placing a kiss on the top of my head. I said the words back before I was asleep.
A/N: I am SO sorry. I seriously have not had a day off since last Tuesday, which makes for a good paycheck, but not a lot of free time. And when I'm not at work, I'm taking care of my daughter and my mother, or cleaning the house, so I really haven't had time to write. I'm not even off today, I just realized Sunday had passed and I hadn't posted, and this chapter was finished, so I decided to post it before I go to work. I should have chapter 9 ready to post by Sunday, if I get a day off, but after that, I may have to just start posting when I have chapters written instead of once a week. I'm really sorry. I have the ideas now, but not the actual time to write. It's been a while since I've worked a full time job, and on top of my part time job as well, and being a mom, I'm still trying to find the balance to do the other things I like to do. Hopefully everything will balance out soon. Anyway, I'll stop boring y'all. I really hope you liked this chapter. And chapter nine will reveal whether or not she's pregnant. Look forward to that. Please review, and thanks everyone who reads and reviews!
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