A/N
Yo ima back! Yeah it hasn't been that long but still... I managed to get around a million ideas for both fanfictions as well as one of my original ideas that I really really hope I can either get published as a book or a manga (or both) in the future x'D But enough about that; you're here for Go To Hell!
And, just as a reminder for anyone who thinks so, I haven't forgotten about Rin being a demon and all the shiz that comes with being one (I've seen Blue Exorcist at least 4 times. I think I know quite a bit about my favorite anime character by now). I know it might look like I have but I promise that's intentional.
Also, it might seem like this story is basically what Kaneki went through with a different character, but that's also not the case. Things will change up but I have to build up to it first. Patience!
Anyhoo, rant over :3
Enjoy the chapter ^^
Peace out, my lovely peeps!XxX
KANEKI'S P.O.V
With a muffled groan, I feel my body gradually drag itself out of the slumber that I accidentally fell into last night whilst I was in the process of watching over Rin. And, going by the way that the morning sunlight is breaking through the window in gentle, silver rays, it's clear that having me here settled him enough to allow him to have a dreamless sleep that lasted the entire night. At least I can be thankful for that much; it's horrible seeing him in the pain that he was suffering last night. I never want to witness that again.
As I prepare myself to get up so that I can make Rin and I a coffee to begin the day with, I find that I'm being held in place by a pair of arms that link around my abdomen in a warm embrace, Rin holding me against him as he softly snores in his sleep. Instantly, I feel the heat blossom in my cheeks when I realise that he's spooning me, his body pressed against my own whilst he hugs me to his torso, not showing any signs of letting me go.
Though I don't understand it, my stomach squirms in hundreds of different directions, feeling like I have a flurry of butterflies fluttering around inside it whilst my face only gets warmer. I need to get up before I end up embarrassing myself; with the way that he's snuggling up to me, I know that, if I don't escape quickly, I'm gonna end up in an even more awkward situation. It's not like guys can control it, after all.
"Rin. Rin wake up," I mutter quietly at first, bringing my arm back a little to dig my elbow into his abdomen, though it meets with something much more solid than I expected. Does he... Have a six pack? Biting my lip, I nudge him in the stomach again, harder this time, desperately trying to drag him out of slumber. "Rin it's morning. Wake up," I say a little louder, getting a small whine in response, Rin only cuddling up to me even more with a whimper, his head rubbing itself against my back. Why is it that the only thing I notice is that his hair feels so unbelievably soft against my bare skin? Okay, I need to stop. This needs to stop. I can't... Fall for him!
"Ka-ne-ki," Rin suddenly mumbles in his sleep, shuddering a little and clinging to me more, tightening the grip he has around my waist whilst he groans, obviously reacting to something that's going on in his head. Whatever it is, it concerns me, which makes me slightly nervous. "D-Don't... I-I can't be... Alone," he breathes, warmth spreading through my chest whilst a small smile tickles my lips, tugging them up into a soft smirk. I guess he really does value my company, even though all we've done is bicker since we met. Even still, I can't shake the fact that I already care about him more than most people. There's just something about him. Is it because I see all of the pain I suffered represented in him, the only difference being that I can fix him? There wasn't anyone around to offer me such a luxury. "No! Leave him alone! STOP IT!" He cries out, my entire being jumping out of thought when he begins to scream out in a fear similar to last night, his arms gripping onto me so tight that I can barely breathe, the feeling of warm liquid splattering on my shoulders causing my stomach to cave. Another nightmare.
"It's a nightmare, Rin. It's not real! Wake up!" I exclaim urgently, my hands clamping around his arms to reassure him that I'm here, his body relaxing a little the second my skin comes into contact with his. "I'm here. It's alright. I'm here, Rin." With my words, I hear a muffled moan sound from between my shoulders, which is shortly followed by a sharp gasp, Rin's arms releasing me as he bolts up, ragged pants filling the air as he clamps a hand over his chest. However, his eyes eventually fall upon me and all panic seems to abandon his irises in an instant, making way for the tears that gradually cloud them, his bottom lip quivering ever so slightly.
"You're alive," he whimpers, a bead of silver running down his cheek as he presses his knuckles to his lips, clearly trying to hold back his sobs, though I can see him swallowing them with every breath. The second I open my arms in order to console him, he somewhat collapses into them, his hands clinging to me whilst his head falls over my heart, which is pounding against my chest due to the sorrow that his suffering brings me. I have every idea of how terrifying it is thinking that someone you know you need has been cruelly torn from your life, so I allow myself to embrace him softly, assuring him that I'm here.
"I'm not going anywhere," I murmur, my hand running over his hair whilst he continues to cry, letting all of his emotions pour out in front of me just like he did last night, his hands balling into fists against my bare torso. Gasping in a choked breath, he nods feebly, though he still refuses to let me go. I can only guess that he's convinced that, if he does, I'll suddenly disappear.
"You better not," he breathes with a shaky laugh to his tone, a light chuckle sounding from me as I give his shoulders one final squeeze, pulling away so that I can brush the tears out of his eyes, Rin not seeming to mind as I do. I didn't expect him to let me baby him like this, yet he seems perfectly content. However, I can't deny I'm a little dismayed when I notice that his kakugan has activated due to his warped emotions, my hand feeling for my eye patch. When my fingers ensnare the small square of ivory fabric, I press it into Rin's palm, a small smile falling onto his lips when he takes a glance at it. "Thanks. I'm gonna go take a shower," he mutters, about to get to his feet when something stops him, a look of sudden realization flitting around in his azure orbs before he discards my hoodie, handing it to me with a faint smile. "Thanks," he says quietly before slipping out of the room, my hands ensnaring the turquoise fabric as I press it to my chest.
"Glad I could help."
"How am I out of coffee?!" I exclaim as my eyes scan around in all of the little cupboards that litter my tiny kitchen, using my kagune to feel around in the higher storage units whilst my hands grace the ones closer to the ground, though I can't seem to find any coffee anywhere. I don't get it; I usually have a load of it on hand! Did I seriously run out?
With a sigh, my kagune flicks the cupboards to a close before retracting back into my skin, a frown quickly forming on my face as I place my hands on my hips, pouting a little. Maybe we're gonna have to go to Anteiku to get some then; apparently I'm out, though it doesn't make any sense to me. Maybe I sleep-drank it all since I sure as hell don't remember exhausting my supply whilst conscious. And who'd wanna steal freaking coffee?!
I'm probably overreacting way too much about this, though it slightly pisses me off; I'm already irritable and the lack of that particular beverage is just going to make it worse. The last thing I wanna do is lose my temper around Rin, especially after the turbulent night he's had. If I'm an ass to him because of this, I'll have no excuse. I don't think 'I didn't have my coffee this morning' is a valid reason for snapping at someone, which will probably happen if I don't watch myself. I guess I'm gonna have to hold my tongue until we get to Anteiku.
Stretching myself out, I make my way towards the bathroom, my mind clouded by way too many thoughts to remember that Rin told me he was going to take a shower to calm himself down. That is, until I push open the door and see him stood there with a towel dangling from his hands, no clothing on his body whatsoever. "S-SORRY!" I cry out, backing out of the room as quickly as I stupidly entered, my features buried in my palms whilst my cheeks burn with angry blood that attacks my face, turning me crimson. Holy shit I'm such an idiot! How did I forget that Rin was taking a shower?! He's gonna freaking kill me!
But what the heck did I see just then; though, obviously, I saw Rin standing there completely naked, there was something else I swear my eyes noticed. Something black, long and curled at the end... Like a tail. Oh yeah, Kaneki, of course Rin has a fucking tail! I need to get my shit together, I swear to God.
As expected, when Rin exits from the bathroom, the towel wrapped tightly around his waist, his face is bright red with both embarrassment and fury, his eyes instantly glaring at me the second he notices me leaning against the wall, still recovering from the whole thing.
"DON'T YOU KNOW HOW TO FUCKING KNOCK?!" He yells, causing me to flinch, my hand finding my nape so that I can nervously rub it, shrinking into myself as I bite down on my lip, trying to avoid eye-contact. I messed up, that much I know. And now he's pissed off with me, which really doesn't surprise me. However, I can't deny that it kinda stings.
"I-I'm sorry! I forgot," I mutter, knowing how stupid it sounds the second the words leave my lips, my gaze flickering up for a second or two just to see the complete disbelief swamp Rin's irises, his arms sternly folding over his bare stomach. Well at least he hasn't hit me yet.
"Forgot?! How the fuck do you forget?!" Rin growls, my teeth increasing their grip on my lip whilst I clasp my hands together between my legs, shrugging like a kid being scolded like a parent. However, eventually, I gather the courage to connect my eyes with his, hoping that he'll forgive me.
"I dunno. My mind was all over the place and I just... Look I'm sorry, alright?!" I snap, taking myself by surprise as my own irritation tries to take over me, though I manage to push it down, brushing my hair out of my eyes. "Sorry. I didn't mean to snap," I mutter, Rin sighing whilst a frown knits over his eyebrows, his arms falling to his sides again.
"You're real strange, you know that, right?" He says, causing me to look up quickly, my gaze meeting with the smirk that tugs at his lips, his hand giving my shoulder a light push until I breathe a laugh, once again sweeping my hair away from my forehead, the heat that had previously collected on my face starting to filter away. With a nervous giggle, I re-position my hand until it rests against the base of my neck again, nodding my head.
"Yeah I know," I admit, my teeth finding a home in my bottom lip, a habit that I seem to have already picked up thanks to Rin, who mimics me with a smirk, which is returned with a soft smile. "I guess that makes two of us," I murmur, Rin scowling in false offence, though he can't hold that look there for long when I start laughing at his attempts to stay mad at me, his facade breaking in an instant.
"True that," he says, turning his back to me as he makes his way back to the bedroom, most likely so that he can get changed into the uniform that Touka-chan had supplied him with yesterday. I hope he accepts that she's gonna force him to work for the entire time he's here; he has to do something with himself to distract his mind from all of the images it likes to conjure when he's unable to fight them off. And only now do I realize how alike his situation is to my own when this first happened to me. He has to work in a place that he doesn't know all too well, socializing with people/ghouls that he's never met personally before in an attempt to forget that he's currently going through hell. I guess he and I are more similar that I first thought.
RIN'S P.O.V
Holy shit, that was way too close for comfort! I mean, I know that Kaneki saw me completely naked and everything, but I'm more worried about if he managed to get a glimpse of my tail or not. It doesn't seem like he has any idea about my demon side and I wanna keep it that way. I don't need there to be any more reasons for him to be afraid of me. I doubt he saw anything, though there's always going to be that possibility of such a thing happening again. But, for now, I'll do whatever I can to keep the truth from him.
After all, who would ever want to help Satan's son?
