Disclaimer: The song in this song fic is 'I hate you, I love you' and belongs to gnash ft. Olivia o' brien. I don't own this song I'm just using it in this chapter! My first song fic, enjoy.
It was 7:30pm and Marco had invited Jackie over for a movie night. (After help from Star and earning himself enough courage). Marco had invited Star to sit with him and Jackie but Star declined. "Star, are you sure you want to stay in your room?" Jackie chimed in. "Yeah come on girl! It wouldn't be the same without you." Star shook her head. "No thanks. I- I'll let you guys spend time with eachother. I would just get in the way. Have fun." Star replied bitterly.
Marco opened his mouth about to say something but Star ran off too quick. Jackie put a hand on Marco's shoulder. "Just give her some alone girl time, Marco. I'm sure she'll come down when she's ready." Marco agreed and started up the microwave for popcorn.
*Meanwhile*
Star Butterfly just got into her room and slammed the door. After she felt 'safe' she began to cry. "I- I can't believe this!" Star said between sobs. "I help Marco get the girl of his dreams and this is how I'm repayed? Him spending more time with Jackie instead of his own best friend, me?"
It had been two weeks since Star had witnessed Marco and Jackie's kiss at the love sentence concert. Things got worst when Jackie had asked Marco out and of course he said yes. At first, Star was happy for Marco dating Jackie, his long time crush. But then that happiness faded when Marco and Jackie started to spend more time together. Little by little her dimensional scissors weren't getting used to go to any new dimesions with Marco. Star was feeling left out and she didn't like being the third wheel.
With red eyes from Star's crying, she began to sing a song that would relate to her problem.
"Feeling used but I'm still missing you and I can't see the end of this just wanna feel your kiss against my lips and now all this time is passing by but I can't seem to tell you why I it hurts me every time I see you realize how much I need you...
I hate you, I love you I hate that I love you don't want to to but I can't put nobody else above you I hate you, I love You I hate that I want you you want her, you need her and I'll never be her."
When Star was singing the second verse of the song all the times she sung the words ' I hate you' the blood moon ball night popped up when Star had called Marco infuriating for ruining her night. When she sung the words 'I love you' Star thought of the all the good and fun times she had with Marco. A small smile appeared on Star's face for a brief second.
Star sighed deeply and rubbed her temples while her eyes began to well up again. The 'and I'll never be her' part came into play when the 'her' matched as Jackie. Star gritted her teeth at the name. "Why did she have to ask out Marco and ruin everything? This is all my fault. I should've never have helped Marco to get the courage to talk to her."
Star resumed her singing until she was close to the end.
"All alone I watch you watch her, like she's the only girl you've ever seen you don't care you never did, you don't give a damn about me...
Yeah all alone I watch you watch her, she's the only thing you've ever seen How is it you'll never notice that you are slowly killing me..."
Star repeated the second verse of the song since that's how it ended. Star continued to cry and sulk until it was 11:30pm. She was tired and ready to call it a night when Marco knocked on her door. "Go away! I don't want to talk to you ever! Now leave me alone!" Marco flinched at Star's sudden outburst but did as she asked. He would just have to wait until tommorow to talk to her.
Star buried her face in her pillow and cried herself to sleep. Lucky for her, her pillow absorbed tears.
Awww. Poor Star. Talk about an emotional break down. Anyways, this takes place right after the just friends episode. I'm continuing this chapter but when idk. If you guys have any ideas on how I should continue this chapter, leave a comment in the review section.
