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I Don't Want To Be Found
School was out and Toby and I made our way to Music Room 3. It had been almost a month since my birthday. And the Halloween season was coming around. There was no club today, but we went to hang out and plan for future club activities.
"Char-Chan! What are you going to dress up as for Halloween." Honey yelled pouncing at me. I dodged, of course, and he landed on my brother.
"I'm not quite sure, Honey- sempi." I thought for a minute, "I might do some cosplaying, I haven't done that in a while. Last halloween I dressed up as Edward Elric, from FMA."
"Ooo! Char- chan! I know the perfect person for you to cosplay!"
With that, the smaller third year grabbed my hand and quickly pulled me away. Mori, following close behind.
"Honey, I'd be careful if I were you, Charlie still is going to have some trust issues."
I looked at the Shadow King as he mysteriously appeared with his laptop.
How he manages to do that, I'll never know.
Honey, realizing what he was doing, let go of my hand. I pulled my hand away.
"I'm sorry Char-chan! I forgot!"
I bent down to his level, "It's okay Honey- sempi, I'm just quite used to the whole, touchy touchy yet."
Honey smiled before speaking. "Okay! You stay here, Takashi and I will go get Kao- Chan, and Hika- Chan!"
Honey grabbed his cousin's hand and pulled him away. Leaving me alone with Kyoya.
"He really likes you, you know. They all do."
A sad smile formed on my lips.
"I know. But,"
"But you're still worried about trusting them. You're afraid we're going to betray you, like you were before. Well, I can tell you this, Ms. Carter. Everyone in this room want nothing but to help you get over your past and help you move on."
My eyes widened. My past..?
Kyoya noticed my change in mood.
"Don't worry, they don't know the full extent of what happened. However, if you don't learn to hide your emotions better, they will all figure it out at one point of another."
I looked at him. "How did you find out?"
Kyoya responded by pushing up his glasses. "I found your DeviantArt page. After seeing the art and journals you posted, it wasn't hard to put two and two together."
I could feel my fists tighten, and my eyes tear up slightly.
"It was my birthday, you know."
"Hmm?"
"It was my Birthday when it happened. Last year. I was missing for three days."
Kyoya felt his eyes widen before regaining his composure.
She was... going to tell him?
He pushed up his glasses so they caught the glint of the sun.
"Do you want to sit down?" he asked.
Charlie looked at him, sorrow filled in her eyes. She looked on the brink of tears and he could tell she was fighting to hold them back.
"Yeah."
She took a seat on the small sofa and Kyoya sat down across from her, setting his laptop down and closing it.
"They hurt me all over. I have scars everywhere. Except my face. I was saved before they did anything to my face."
"Are you sure you want to tell me these things?"
Her eyes met his.
"Why do you want to hear them? You're an Ootori. What do you have to gain from hearing my story? Nothing. Nothing to your benefit. But I.. I have everything to gain from telling you. It might be a mistake, but I have nothing else to lose. Telling someone.. it might... be the first step in fully recovering."
His face didn't show it, but Kyoya was stunned. She was right. What did he have to gain from hearing her story? She wasn't from a particularly wealthy family.
So why was he still so intrigued?
"He was my boyfriend. We had been dating for three months. He took me out for dinner, and when we left, it was getting dark. He tricked me. I- I don't know why I didn't realize it, but, by the time I caught on.. it was too late."
Kyoya just sat there and listened, listened as she willingly told him her past.
"There were five of them total. They all went to my old high school. But I didn't know them very well. I can't remember much, I don't want to remember. I was blindfolded, and I remember that everything hurt. Knives and blood were everywhere. They were laughing. And... and... I was pushed around. And all I can remember is just wishing over and over that they would kill me already so I didn't have to keep enduring the pain!"
Kyoya noticed how Charlie began to let her tears fall. This had not gone unnoticed by the other hosts. Everyone had made their way over to listen as well.
Toby wanted to interject, but, he knew Charlie needed to tell someone.
Charlie's eyes kept contact with the ground. She hadn't noticed the rest of the Club join.
"T-then as soon as everything started. It stopped. They disappeared, and ran away, then, I saw the door burst open, a-and, I heard people talking to me, b-but I couldn't respond. Everything was blurry. I felt myself being set down on something soft. I could feel myself being carried away. T-there were lots of lights. Red and blue. A-and it was loud. R-really r-really loud. I could hear women screaming and children asking what was happening."
The tears were falling even faster now.
"My vision cleared up, I could see T-Toby and Dad fight-t-ting the police officers, shouting at them."
A couple eyes turned to Toby, but soon returned to the sobbing girl.
"A-and, in the corner of my eyes, I c-could s-see him. They were walking down the street, he looked back at m-me, a-and s-smiled. L-licked his f-fingers and left."
The whole Club was shocked. But she wasn't finished.
"I woke up in a hospital. My body hurt, but what hurt the most was the emotional trauma. And those nurses, they didn't give a crap about that! They just cared about their paycheck. They just went about their business, checking only to make sure I was still alive. That I wasn't dead! Never asked me if I was okay. Never asked me if I was emotionally fine! Nothing!"
Her body racked in sobs, and tears, but her voice was strong.
"And once I got out I went to press charges. But as soon as I got to the Police Station, where they are meant to help those in need, they told me they had already made an investigation. I told them my side of the story, and all they did was sit there and tell me sorry that they didn't have enough evidence! They didn't have enough God given evidence to arrest my old boyfriend and his tag alongs!
"I had to go to school everyday after that! Listening to people whisper and laugh! Endure them making fun of me! No one would listen to me! Because, why would the school's top ranking, student council president, all honors classes, why would he do such a thing? They all thought I was out to get him! My 'friends' abandoned me because they all thought I was just seeking attention! I was called a liar, whore, disgusting, and so many other things!"
She paused. Breathing in.
"That's why... That's why I can't ever fully trust anyone anymore! I'm too terrified of making friends only to lose them!"
Charlie broke down.
Her body was shaking. Choked sobs echoing throughout the room.
"What I really hate though... is... I'll never have children. I'll never get to experience what it's like to raise my own child from birth. I had so many plans. And now they'll never come to life, because of those monsters."
The whole room stood in silence. Toby was off to the side. Honey was crying almost as much as Charlie, the twin's generally mischievous grins were replaced with looks of horror. Mori's calm expression was one of surprise, Tamaki was hugging Haruhi, with tears streaming down his face, Haruhi, looked on the brink of tears as well.
And Kyoya...
Was staring out the window, his facial expression was one of sheer anger, his fists were clenched and he looked ready to kill.
Charlie had realized the others were listening while in the middle of her screaming, but she didn't care anymore.
The room was silent.
Until Honey broke it.
Walking up to Charlie he sat down beside her.
Wiping his tears he managed to ask her, "Does that mean we're not your friends?"
Charlie halted her sobs to look at the smaller man.
She looked at the rest of the host club.
They were crying.
For her.
She didn't realize it, but she didn't think of them as her friends. Friends could be gained and lost so easily.
"No Honey, you guys aren't my friends. You'll never be."
Everyone's eyes widened.
Letting more tears fall she reached for the boy next to her.
"You're my family."
Friends can be won. Friends can be lost.
But your family will always be a part of you that you will never really be able to loose.
So yes. Happy, sad, happy sappy. Very roller coaster like, no?
Anyways, there is more to come, lots of interesting stuff. Some fluffy fluffiness, between our dear Char-Chan and Kyo- Chan.. O3O
And maybe, our dear Toby will find a girl... maybe.
Anyways, I just want to give my thanks, every review you guys give is appreciated so much and you are all so kind.
Okay, I say by now.
Bye! Bye!
