A/N: I'm so, so, so sorry for not updating in absolutely ages. I don't even have a good reason. I will try and update more often but I thought I should post something. It's really short but it's something and I will make it up to you soon. Thank you for reading. Love you :*

Ellie POV

Sirius has a fairly small room; just a bed and drawers. However the walls are covered in posters of Quidditch teams and what not.

I roll over to stare at the small clock on the bedside table and yawn, the clock blinks 2:01am at me. Great.

My hand unconsciously drifts towards my swollen stomach, is it a little Sirius in there? Or a little me?

I yawn and glance at the clock again - 2:02am.

Suddenly I hear a crash from down the hall. Jumping out of bed, I grab my wand and burst out of the room.

The noises are coming from James' room.

"You're." Crash. "Going." Crash. "To have to." Crash. "Deal with." Crash. "The consequences of your actions Sirius!" James shouts.

I fling open the door however neither participant notices my present.

"I'm only 17 James! I can't be a father! I don't know how!" Sirius shoots back.

"I don't care if you don't know how!" James shouts frustratedly. "You're going to have to learn fast because you're my brother Sirius therefore that kid is family to me!"

Sirius doesn't want... The realisation of it comes crashing down on me. I should've known he was acting to normal and okay with the situation.

It's Sirius Black for Merlins sake! He's a prankster and still an immature child himself; of course he doesn't want to be a father.

"James... I can't do it." Sirius whispers his voice cracking with emotion.

James flicks his mop of brown hair out of his eyes and notices me standing in the doorway.

Sirius follows his gaze and sees me staring at him.

"Ellie." He whispers.

"What Sirius?" I snap. "You can't be a father, or you won't?"

"I... El..." Sirius stutters.

"No, she's right Black." James shouts angrily, coming to stand next to me.

I'm thankful that James is sticking up for me, without him I think I would've just left.

"I'm scared." Sirius says helplessly, pushing his messy hair out of his eyes.

"Well I'm fucking scared too Sirius but you don't see me going off on one about how I can't do it because no matter how scared I am I can't leave. This baby, our baby, is stuck with me as his or hers pathetic excuse for a mother but I will never abandon them because... I love our child." I finish my rant and begin to feel slightly light headed.

Most of my anger has seeped away now, just replaced by hurt and exhaustion. So much has happened over the last few days.

"James could you leave us alone for a bit." Sirius asks.

"But this is my room!" James pouts as Sirius shuts the door in his face. "Just don't violate my bed! I have to sleep in that." James calls.

Sirius laughs and I feel my cheeks heat up.

I sit on the edge of James' bed and Sirius flops down next to me.

"I'm sorry." Sirius eventually says, taking my hand. It's quite unlike him to be so... delicate.

"I'm sorry for being such a shit person. I'm a sorry excuse for a Gryffindor, I'm not brave or..." Sirius starts.

"Yes you are." I whisper, looking up into his grey eyes. "You're brave for staying this long, for standing up for your beliefs and going against your family... for everything Sirius."

"I love you." Sirius whispers.

"W-what?" I stammer. I definitely was not expecting that.

"I love you." Sirius says again. "I don't care if you don't feel that way about me but I wanted you to know."

I don't reply for a few minutes.

I used to have a crush on Sirius back in 5th year... and he's very attractive and every time I see him I get butterfly's and I did have sex with him. It's times like these when I need Lily.

"You don't need to say anything." Sirius says after a few minutes if silence.

I turn to face the messy haired, grey eyed boy. Merlins pants he's good looking.

"Don't look at me like that." I whisper, my cheeks heating up.

"Like what?" He replies quizzically.

"Like I hold your heart in my hands and there's nothing you can do about it." I reply breathily.

"Oh, but Ellie, you do." Sirius replies, and then he kissed me.

It wasn't anything like our drunken, sloppy kisses before. This was slow and exploratory, like we were kissing for the first time.

After a minute or two I pull away and rest my forehead against Sirius'.

"Sirius, are you just saying all this because we're having baby? Because I don't want to feel like you feel obliged to be with me because of this." I state, even though it would break my heart if that was the truth.

"Ellie, baby or no baby, I love you to the moon and back." Sirius whispers, before kissing me again.