AN: Ok so I'm a horrible author! I know I am. I haven't updated in forever and you are all really going to hate me because this is the end. At least for now. I may do a sequel for this but I need to get my life together and my grades back up. Maybe over summer I can get one started. I need to know what you guys would think of a sequel and if you guys have any idea what I could do. I'm so sorry for not being able to give you more.

OECD

7

So what do you say?" Emmett asked again.

"I don't know what to say Em… this is all so hard for me. I have a family now." I paused and glanced at them, Kale was worried and grabbed my hand clutching it even tighter in his own. Everyone else was just looking at me waiting for my decision. "I still love your family, I always have. Even though you guys are back now I won't drop everything for you, I have a family now and I love them. I have found Kale now too and I am becoming happy with him. Also I don't think I could be around Edward like that, to be living in the same house as him." the Cullens faces dropped at my words.

"But I don't want to loose you guys again either. I think maybe we could live close to each other, reacquaint ourselves with one another. I think it would be easier but you have to understand that I have my own family now too. I have found love again and just because you are back in my life again I won't give it up. I love all of you and this will be difficult for a while but I think we all realized that we didn't know the real truth behind our separation until today." I said softly looking at Kale. He seemed tense. I smiled softly at him and took his hand.

"I can't leave my new family but I don't want to loose you either so this will have to work or we will get separated again, something I really don't want to happen." I finished.

"Bella we agree with the way you feel. Does the rest of your family agree?" Carlisle asked.

I turned to look at them. Terry in Derek's arms standing behind me, Alexandria in Andrew's arms her face buried in his chest. Lastly I looked at Kale, his face was stony as he held my hand looking at me. I pleaded with all of them through my eyes.

"I can handle this as long as Edward knows his place. He is not to interfere or bother Bella ever." Kale said his voice somewhat cold. He turned back towards Carlisle.

"We understand Kale what about the rest of you?" Carlisle said.

"We agree with Kale, Edward needs to leave Bella alone unless she wishes otherwise." Andrew said. The other's nodded.

After that we went home I was still worn out from what had happened earlier and I needed to get away. When we reached the house I was up the stairs and in my room in no time. I sat on the floor and stared out the window trying very hard not to think. Which by the way, not so easy. I took a deep breath and closed my eyes.

All I could see was Edwards face as he stood in that ring of fire. He looked like he was in pain and he was only looking at me. I had been concentrating so I could save him. I didn't know why I wanted to save him only that I didn't want to watch him burn. His family shouldn't have to watch him burn. I didn't want to hear his screams. I didn't want to see the purple smoke. I didn't want to see the ashes. I sighed again.

I don't want to think about this. What do I do now? I need the truth I want to talk to him again but how? I don't know where he is, he wasn't back by the time we left. Where is he? Will he even talk to me? Ugh all these questions just need to stop. I need to relax. I know I need to run. I slowly stood up and listened to everything downstairs. Focusing on what my family was doing. The TV was on and I heard Kale playing on his guitar.

Kale, what do I do about him. I need to talk to him. See what he thinks about everything. I need to know what he wants to do about all of this. I know I have feelings for him, not as much as I do for Edward. I can't go back to Edward, can I? No! Not after what he did to me and not only once but twice and he lied to me so much that second time. I will talk to Kale when I get back I need to clear my head.

I silently opened my window and listened again, nothing had changed. Then I jumped and hit the ground running. I took off running as fast as I could not paying attention to what was passing me. My thoughts swirled through my head in endless circles.

What now? How do I figure all this out? I miss my old family but I have a new one now. Do I talk to Edward? Do I go back to him? I know I shouldn't. What about Kale? He has loved me all this time and we just got together. I know that I want to be with him but will he stay with me? That is so stupid I know he will, he has been with me all this time, helping me through it all.

More and more questions!! I have to figure out what to do. I sighed again. Suddenly I stopped just standing stock still. I put up my barrier, sensing danger. I stood letting all my senses out listening, smelling, looking. I couldn't find anything. I tried to see if I could find any powers but all I got was the powers of my family members. I was still close to the house. Within my distance anyways.

I decided to keep going. I dropped the barrier so I could run without worrying about hitting trees with it. That would be funny. Wow I am loosing it. I ran for I don't know how long then I ended up a place I didn't want to visit again. After meeting Laurent here I didn't want to come back.

It was our- his meadow. I stepped in slowly at a human pace just like I had when I was here the very first time that Saturday. I looked around as the memories assaulted my brain. Edward in the sun.

Edward and I talking about what had happened that first day.

Edward and I talking about the different scents.

Edward laying there me tracing designs on his arm.

I let out a small sob as I remembered that day so easily. Most vampires lost their memories after a while but I didn't I was cursed to remember everything that had happened to me as a human. My mind had been protected and the venom didn't tear my memories away from me as time went, if anything they were clearer.

I dropped to my knees as I let my memories assault me while I sobbed tearlessly.

Edward scaring me by showing just how dangerous he really was.

Edward kissing me.

Edward running with me on his back.

Edward. Edward. Edward.

All of it about him. Just a mantra going round and round again and again.

I curled up and fisted my head in my hair, rocking back and forth crying. The memories just kept coming.

Edward sneaking into my room and holding me while I slept.

Edward saving me from those guys in Port Angelous.

Edward telling me he loved me.

Edward taking me to his house for the first time.

I pulled on my hair as they kept coming. Slowly finally I calmed myself down enough so that I wasn't screaming in my sobs. As I took a deep breath to calm down more I heard a noise behind me. Quickly turning and throwing up my shield I crouched in a defensive position. I growled loudly searching for the source of the sound.

It took me a second but I finally found the cause, it was him, Edward. I relaxed and dropped my shield. I was tempted to take his power and see how long he was standing there but I decided against it.

We were both silent as we looked at each other. Still as statues we assessed each other. Finally I moved, I sighed. He took a step forward, when I didn't react he took another till he was beside me.

He looked at me silently. His breaths soft beside my body. My hair blew in the wind his fresh sent blew over me and I could smell that scent, it was the same as before, same as all those years ago when I was still human. The scent hit me harder than then though and now it would be ingrained in my mind forever.

I wouldn't be able to do this. I couldn't. but I wouldn't be able to run either. What do I do now? He made my decision for me.

"Bella I'm so so sorry. I never meant to hurt you. I didn't want to have to change you. Please don't hate me. I still love you just as I did then." he whispered in anguish.

"Bull shit. You're an ass that has fun hurting others and you always want to be able to come back. If you think I'm letting you back into my life your fucking insane. So go away and leave me alone." I said angrily glaring at him. If looks could kill he would have been in hell by now, where he deserves to be.

He just looked at me, pain written all over his beautiful face. I didn't feel bad for him though, he didn't deserve sympathy. I looked at him wondering what he had planned. Before I thought to take his power and see what he was planning his lips were on mine.

I stood there frozen in shock for a few minutes. I shocked myself by kissing him back. He seemed just as shocked in that instant I let my mental shield fall and all the memories I had blocked from myself, not to mention everyone else, came rushing back. I threw him from me and into a tree.

"What the fuck do you think your doing?" I yelled outraged.

"Tell me you didn't feel the spark too?" he said back.

"No all I felt was disgust and pain." I seethed.

"but you kissed me back!" he shouted.

"I don't fucking care. I didn't want to kiss you back. I was shocked and let myself go for one second. Just wait till I tell Derrick and Kale. Your ass would be on fire faster than you could blink. I dare you to try something like that again." I threatened him instantly throwing my mental and physical shield up. "I'm leaving and if you know what's good for you, you won't follow me."

With that I ran through the woods as fast as I could. I couldn't take this anymore. I ran straight to my house and didn't even bother to go in the door I just jumped into my open window before throwing myself onto my bed and sobbing loudly. My physical shield was up and out so that no one could get into my room or anywhere near my staircase.

I could hear everyone down by my shield, I could feel them pushing on it, they wouldn't win. After lord only knows how long I calmed myself down so I wasn't dry sobbing any longer. Everyone was camped around my shield and I could smell Emmett and Alice there too. I was confused. What were they doing here? I decided I didn't care and just laid there staring at my ceiling letting my shield stay as it was. I thought about everything that happened in the meadow.

I wondered what I could have done differently. I shouldn't have kissed him back. What would Kale do when he found out? I don't want to deal with another break up, I don't want him to leave me. I… I love him. Wait what? I love him? Yes I do. I love him and I don't want to loose him. I need to explain this was a mistake. Or I won't have to tell him at all. No Alice, that's why her and Emmett are here, She saw what happened in a vision. O shit! They probably all know what happened, well f my life. I wanted to bang my head into the wall but of course that wouldn't work at all. I took a deep breath and relaxed my shield a foot.

I heard surprised gasps and 3 crashes. I laughed softly, they must have been leaning against my shield waiting for me to talk and they fell when I all the sudden moved my shield. I pulled it back some more and felt all of them walk forward. I growled and threw the shield out into them throwing them all back.

"Wait," it was Alice's voice, "she wants Kale and Kale only. We'll come back in an hour maybe longer if I get something." I heard defeated sighs.

"Ok let's go" Derrick said, he was the first gone then slowly everyone followed. I dropped the shield as soon as they were gone and in the next second I was in Kale's arms. I stared crying again and gripped him tightly.

"Shh honey I'm right here. I'm not going to let anything happen to you." he murmured into my hair running his fingers through it. I slowly relaxed in his arms. We were both on the floor sitting with each other.

"Will you tell me what happened?" He asked softly.

"didn't Alice tell you?" I asked spitefully.

"no sweetie, she saw you running through the forest crying and came here as soon as she could, she had a vision of Edward running the opposite direction so the rest of her family went to bring him back." he explained.

"No let him stay gone" I whispered.

"what happened, please tell me."

"He saw me in the meadow and walked next to me. He talked, I yelled, he kissed me, I kissed him back, and then threw him in a tree, yelled some more and ran." I said as fast as I could hoping he wouldn't catch it. He did and he recoiled from me. I let him break my hold easily and curled into a ball.

"He did what?" Kale asked angrily,

"you heard me"

"You kissed him back?" he was mad at me.

"You heard me." I said again.

"Talk to me Isabella." he demanded.

"Go jump off a fucking cliff and get out if you are going to be a demanding ass." I glared.

"I think you got the cliff diving down good." he said glaring at me. I jumped back and hit him.

"Don't you fucking dare say anything about that, ever again" I stalked towards him in a crouch. "What right do you have to bring up anything about that time? You don't. back the fuck off and leave me alone. Get out and stay out."

"Isabella" he said softly, sadly and took a step toward me I stepped back.

"stay away Kale. Your just like him. I don't want that. Tell everyone I said goodbye and I'm sorry." I grabbed my backpack that was ready just incase we ever had to run away from something and took off. I wasn't sure where I was going but I didn't want to be followed. I had my shield out as wide as I could and had my mental shield up so Alice couldn't see me. Kale tried to follow me but I was faster than him and I easily outran him. I headed south, toward California. I would find somewhere to hide and live like a real vampire only living in the dark. I refuse to drink from humans but I wouldn't find another family. I couldn't. I wouldn't let myself feel this pain again. I thought of that old saying, screw me once shame on you, screw me twice shame on me. Well I let this shit happened to me thee times and that means I was so screwed.

I wouldn't let it happen again. I ran and finally stopped in a cave for the night. I was somewhere in the middle of Oregon which was good for now. I dropped my back pack and went hunting. It began raining after that and I decided to stay in my cave till it stopped 2 days later then finished my run to California. I stopped in Los Angelus and got a small apartment in cash. I had stopped in Oregon to get 50,000 dollars from my account so that Kale couldn't track me by my bank card. I kept everything in my backpack and decided to live there for a while, always ready to run.

KPOV

She ran. I didn't even have time to talk to her she just ran. I deserved it. I should never had said those things to her. I knew that time was a soft spot for her. I'm so fucking stupid. I hurt her and now she's gone. It has been 4 days. We don't know how to find her. My heart is in pieces. She left me, I just got her and now she's gone. I sat in her room doing nothing just staring at her bed and taking in her scent.

four days ago,

I took of after her as she ran away from me. I hit her shield a few times which threw me back a ways but I kept running. Then I lost her. I stopped and yelled out in pain watching her continue running till she was out of my sight. I tried to follow her scent but with her shield up it was gone faster. I watched the spot I saw her disappear too for a little while.

Slowly I turned and went back to the house. The family was there, and the Cullens, all of them. I glared at Edward.

"What the fuck did you do to Bella?" I yelled lunging at him, Derrick and Emmett both grabbed me.

"From your thoughts it was you who made her run. Quite a low blow don't you think?" he smirked at me and I lunged towards him again. I started a fire right by his feet.

"Isabella isn't here to help you this time so what are you going to do now Eddiekins?" I was so angry. I growled.

"Kale stop" Alexandria said stepping into my line of vision. She put her hand on my face and looked into my eyes. "you need to stop this. She wouldn't want you to do this."

"He kissed her. He forced her into kissing him." I hissed at her. Derrick and Emmett both growled at him now as well.

"All of you stop" Rosalie yelled out shrilly.

"This is it. No more of this Bullshit. You" Terry yelled pointing at me "sit your happy ass down right there, Derrick and Emmett shut up and hold him down. Edward you are going to explain things and sit in the chair. Jasper can you please calm these idiots down."

Everyone did what she said slowly. Edward told his side of the story which I didn't believe and don't feel like thinking about and then he told them what I said.

"We need to find her" Emmett said.

"You won't find her if she doesn't want to be found" I said dejectedly.

"we can watch her bank cards but they won't appear often only to get a lot of money so she won't let us know where she is. Alice won't be able to find her because of her shield. And she will go somewhere we won't find her. She will come back when she's ready." Andrew said, always calm, fucker.

"she won't come back. I messed up too bad." I said staring at the floor.

Since then I sat on the floor in her room. There was one hit on her credit card in some town in Oregon but it came up empty. Then she disappeared.

An: Ok well that's the end. I know it's a crappy ending. Please please me a review and let me know if I should continue this story in a sequel and if so give me some ideas. I really hope you enjoyed my story and I hope you can join me in my other stories and you can help me with my future stories. Let me know what you think.

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