Ciel's P.O.V.

I sat at my desk. i hadn't bothered to change out of my Clothes from yesterday. Sebastian was sure taking his own sweet time finding the culprit. I was surprised to find tears welling up in my eyes. i lifted my hand to wipe them away. I had forgotten how they felt against they felt on the back of my hand. Sebastian had been gone for almost a day. And to make it worse, it took him another hour to finally come back. When he crawled through the window he pulled Grell in after him. I quickly rubbed the tears out of my eyes. Sebastian strode forward. "did you find it?" i asked anxiously. "yes, my lord" he handed me a flier that read "Noah's Ark Circus! come see the show of the Century!" there was many picture's but in most of them there was a man With bright orange hair. "thats him" mused Grell he pushed up his glasses with one of his black gloves. i glared at him "what's he doing here! he'll just slow us down!" Grell's brows furrowed. his voice grew sharp. "that little girl means as much to me as she could to anyone else, she's like a sister.....possibly a daughter to me... so i guess you don't want to know the Details about her kidnapper than?" i grabbed his tell me! who is it?" he smirked and pulled out a huge black book. " Shinigami's death note! entry number four hundred two. Drossell Kienz A.K.A. Joker. He's Twenty one years of age and his current occupation is a Circus Ringmaster... turns out he's in town."

Before i knew it i had tickets to tonight's show at the Noah's ark circus, we were heading out early so we could try and find were they were holding her captive. when we arrived i started sneaking into the back. i searched absolutely every were. but then behind the first Tier tent i saw "Joker" facing a wall whispering "i have something for good luck...." then he Knelled down and pressed his body to wards the wall, it was now i noticed the petite frame in front of him. Grell cocked his head to one side "so it seems he stole her first kiss, perhaps more tonight...?" my eye twitched "that sick bastard." i growled. he kidnapped Helena and is already with another girl? i was about to rush at him when his Skeletal hand Grabbed hers and he rushed her off to the Big tent....We followed.

The Circus seemed innocent enough, but looks were almost always wrong. Joker came in with the pink haired girl on his shoulders. i know noticed what she was wearing, it was very, very reveling. at first this didn't bother me. until she came close enough for me too see her face. i dropped my cane. it was Helena. they had cut her bangs, and curled her hair even more. this is were the nosebleed started. i frantically reached for a hanker-chief to shield it. "so now you see who it is young master." grell smiled. "we have to get her before....." i was cut off by her musical voice. the Circus passed to my dis pare, way to quickly. i was about to race down to Helena. she was looking up awkwardly at the fleeting crowd. i had my hands on the row of seats in front of me ready to jump over it when i heard a voice call my name. "Ciel-kun! Ciel-kun!" i turned on my heel to see Lizzy running over. wonderful. she gave me a huge hug. "Ciel-Kun why are you here." i was in trouble now. its not like i could just say "oh, I'm just going off to save my true love, which is not you; my fiance but a girl named Helena!" but as for what to say i went blank. " The Master is on a Mission for the queen. this circus is accused of some very bad deeds. so if you would please allow us to finish?" Elizabeth looked a little shocked "oh.....okay Ciel-kun! see you soon!" now it was my time to shine.

We were behind the first tiers tent like before. we came closser and closser to the spot were joker had been with Helena before. i was almost in the exact spot as a fair haired man joyfully walked out hands high, daggers between each finger. i had remembered him from the show. the knife thrower, he was talented, but not pulled me and Grell into the animals tent. not soon after we entered we heard a voice call "toy boy? Grell?" Grell's eyes flickered. "cloud? were are you?" it was a second before he called "over here..." The red reaper rushed over only to grab him by the neck. "if you would have told us other than trying to be a hero you may not be in this situation! you have indangered Helena!" Cloud smirked (how i wasn't sure, this was an image of Grell i hadn't seen before. and it scared me.) "that freak woulden't take her to Baron you idiot. He and Dagger both want her for their own. never mind their father." i rushed at the bars and growled "you don't know that! her family is also one of the 'true evils'" yet another smirk. "this is really none of your buisness, didn't you just meet my master anyways." he recived a slap from sebastian. "that may be so, but some people seem like they have known each-other for an eternity. and by the way, servants ddon't talk back to masters."

Helena sat quietly on the bed, taking the numerous accesory's out of her hair. she now started removing the ribbons from her arm as she was pinned down. "you did so good tonight!" laughed joker. "yeah, i act alot acctually." Helena blushed, not so much of humbleness, but more from the awkward position she had been put in. Joker bent down and kissed her neck. this is when Helena started protesting. "Drocell no, thats not proper!" she growled using his real name."it is here, it is if i love you." she suddenly somewhat relaxed for a second before his hands had just found the clasp on her corset as Dagger raced back into the room, smiling realising what he stoped."boss someone heard Queeney and is waiting to talk to you outside." Joker looked first suprised then mad. he stomped out. Dagger came and clasped Helena's corset back together and muttered, "I told you i was a better match for you. he stroked her hair once as he followed Joker out.

as soon as joker came out looking for me i raced at him from the side. smashing him into one of the tent poles. SEbastian was about to aid me but i motioned for him to stay recovered quickly and gave me a quick hard blow to the face. i was already staggering back as dagger raced in and started planting hard punches aswell. joker came at me with a knife, this is when Sebastian rushed in. just as my butler was about to give a fatal blow to joker the whole scene stopped as a high pitched "stoooop!!" as Helena ran inbetween Sebastian and Joker. she gently bopped Sebastian on the head "bad boy." she continued to Joker and slapped him across the face, next came me. i was smaked upside the head, followed by a harsh whisper "you should know better Mr. Phantomhive." what happened to calling me Ciel? But what she did to Dagger is what suprised us the most. she bant down....and kissed him. just a peck, but still. A KISS?!? "bye bye Dagger-chan!" Grell than gave her a big hug and led her to our carriage.

I stood up and looked at the smirking Joker. "I'll be back smile i will be back for 'my love'" i glared once more and growled "come on Sebastian, were leaving." The butler bowed "yes, my lord."

"Ciel, your bleeding."

"no i'm not"

"but my dear. look." she reached over and touchedmy bloody blouse. "please alow me to tend to it. it's my fault you got it" i pulled away, tears bluring my vision. the last thing i wanted her to see was my branding. "it's okay Helena." i grabbed her hand changing the subject "he could have taken you to baron von kelvin." she looked down. "but he didn't."

"he could have though!"

"but like i said! he didn't!"

"how about this. HE almost raped you!!"

"but he loves me."

"that doesn't change anything." she sighed in defeat. the carriage pulled up to her house. instead of the Goodbye Dagger got all the acnolagment i got was "i can't help but think i am forgeting something."

That night as i was drifting off to sleep i could'nt help but think of what cloud said "didn't you just meet my master anyways."

i searched for my father through the vast croud. then i saw him talking to a man with light brown hair. i ran up behind him grabbing his hand. i noticed that the man with brown hair had a little girl dressed in a blue 'alice in wonderland' styled dress. she had a stuffed white rabbit in her right hand. though she only seemed a little younder than i she cowered behind who i presumed was her father. "son, this is mister Hastings and his daughter Helen. Mr. Hastings looked down at me, his eyes wrinkled as he smiled. "hello Ciel, this is my daughter Helen. maybe you two could play together while your father and i talk." he pushed the young girl forward. her forget-me-not blue eyes gased at me kindly. wait forget me not blue? she stuck out here hand and smiled. i took her hand, but instead of shaking it, i told her to come with me. at that few moments i had met my first love. we had spent the night under one of the banquet tables playing with her white rabbit.

maybe this wasn't the first time i had met Helena?