A/N: Guys, i am soooo sorry that i havent updated in...idk how long. at first it was just because i forgot, but when i remembered, my stupid Documents Manager thingy wouldnt let me submit again. it wouldve been up almost a week ago if not for that. so... enjoy!
Chapter Nine
"Hi Mom! I was raped by your boyfriend two years ago!" Cody said to himself into the mirror the next morning as he was getting ready for school. That definitely would not be the way to break the news to her.
"Steve's excellent in bed, don't you think? I found out a couple years ago through an unfortunate incident..." Nope. That wouldn't cut it either. It was a lost cause.
Cody sighed to himself, and pushed his blonde and dyed black hair to the side of his face perfecting his emo look, and got ready to go to school.
Maybe he just wouldn't ever tell his mom. That plan had worked well for him so far.
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Cody sat in class, thinking about yesterday. Zack knew now. Knew about Steve raping him. But what exactly did that change? Steve still raped him, he still had those memories, he still smoked pot as much as possible, hooked up with girls... but somehow, it was comforting that someone knew. It was as if now that Zack, the person he was closest to, was finally told, he could start to finally move on with life.
Cody was sick of it, he always was dwelling in the past. Why? Because he had no one to turn to. It was an emotional topic, but he would now force himself to move on. He would never allow himself to smoke pot again. He would never burn his arms intentionally again. He would never allow himself to have sex again. Okay... well, he would never randomly hook up with a girl again.
The teacher's voice floated through the air, announcing midterms in one week. Midterms. Cody realized that he passed freshman year with merely B's... declining to C's and one D. And this year, still C's and D's. He could pull it up. He could get his grade point average to high honor roll if he studied. But it wouldn't be a perfect 4.0 average. Nothing could change that.
Cody felt a sinking feeling in his stomach. He wouldn't get into HarvardPrinctonYale... his life dream. He wouldn't have given a fuck about that even a week ago... but he was finally ready to reenter the world where college mattered and life goes on.
He pondered, was it worth pulling up his grades to go to a college that WASN'T HarvardPrinctonYale? He nodded slowly to himself. He made his decision. He would ace the midterms, even if it meant relearning the entire sophomore year this week, doing nothing but eating, studying, sleeping, and smoking. No smoking, he reminded himself. He needed to push himself. He needed the grades. Who cared about the pressure he was putting on himself? He deserved it. He deserved the pain.
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Zack sat at his bed that night, thinking. Yesterday, it was about the most life changing day ever for him. He found out about Cody's Incident, he liked to call it.
But something drifted to his mind. Something Max had said. "You weren't giving me any, so..." Zack though about it. Sex. He could do it, right?
Clearly, Max was expecting it. She got it from his brother, and she wasn't even freaking dating him! He and Max were BARELY together right now, their relationship ready to fall apart. Maybe sex was the one thing that could seal their relationship.
Zack stood up, ready to scrounge the room for Cody's condoms, which he know Cody must have if he was out having sex with millions of girls. Luckily, he found them in one of the first hiding spots he could think of. Under the socks in the sock drawer. Frankly, he was surprised that he didn't find them unintentionally a couple months ago.
He pocketed one, and set out to Max's, with a determined look on his face, trying to calm his nerves and trepidition.
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Zack knocked on the door, and before Max could even say hello, he kissed her hard in the mouth.
The two pulled away, breathless when Max finally greeted him.
"Do I even need to ask if your parents are home?" Zack asked.
Max grinned. "They're working like always, so nope."
Zack pulled the condom out of his pocket. "Then I have something special planned for the two of us tonight."
She squealed delightedly, and kissed him on the cheek. Zack knew that this WOULD be the thing that sealed the relationship. And he did his best to fight the feelings of uneasiness floating to his brain.
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Zack was on top of Max, fumbling with her bra strap, trying to undo it with his hands. He was shaking because he was so worried that he would do something to upset Max. What if he was horrible at sex? What if he hurt her? What if his dick was too small? WHAT IF SHE PREFERRED CODY?! And a feeling of dread and regret of this decision was settling in his stomach. After thirty seconds of trying to get her bra off, Max finally took pity on the boy and took off her shirt and bra herself.
Zack looked at the sight in front of him, and suddenly got a dry mouth. But at the same time, he questioned himself- did he really want to have sex tonight? It seemed...forced and even though his girlfriend was getting naked in front of him, he wasn't enjoying it. He kept picturing Cody doing the same thing with Max...except masterfully done. And he got a fleeting image in his mind of Cody and Steve. Zack reminded himself- his girlfriend was not wearing a bra and was holding a condom. But did he REALLY want to have sex tonight? It was a crazy question, really. Here he was, with a girl who totally wanted to have sex with him, something that he dreamed about frequently, but when he really thought about it, this isn't what he wanted. Not tonight.
He wasn't Cody. He wasn't about to fuck random girls because it felt good, and as Zack thought of how great it would feel, his mind almost changed again, but how that he decided that he wasn't going to fuck Max, he was going to stick to it. He was going to tell Max he changed his mind. He didn't want to screw things up even more between them. Max was almost like his best friend- except with tits. He would hate to lose her because of something that happened between her and CODY.
Max pressed her lips against his once more, and Zack felt her bare chest against his. His hormones were going haywire... but he needed to get out of there. He knew sex tonight was a mistake. Zack wouldn't lose his virginity tonight, just because Cody did.
He stared at the topless Max as he pulled away from her, knowing it could be the last time (also his first) he saw her like that. Wearing nothing but a pair of jeans. To be perfectly honest, it turned him on, but he just wasn't ready. He wasn't ready for sex. It was too... intimate... right now. And for some reason, Cody getting raped flashed through his head again. Sex at this point in his life just wasn't what he needed.
"Max." He said finally. "I'm sorry, but I'm not ready."
She looked at him, with a completely crestfallen face. Disappointment and anger written all over it. "What?! I thought you said that tonight—"
"Well, as it turns out, I'm not ready. So, forgive me if I'm not ready to lose my virginity at age fifteen. I've got a lot of things on my mind right now." He said coolly.
"So you think I'm some sort of slut?!"
"I didn't—"
"You thought you could date me and just do what you want with me, whenever, with no thought to MY feelings, to what I wanted?"
"No, I—"
"Maybe I'll go back to your brother instead. He knew what a girl liked. He knew what felt good. For me AND him. Quite frankly, he was a MUCH better catch."
Max threw Zack's shirt out the door and pointed her finger, indicating she was kicking Zack out. It was odd how intimidating a topless angry girl could be.
Zack grabbed his shirt and stormed away, feeling nothing but anger and resentment towards his brother. If it wasn't for Cody, he never would've felt like he had to have sex with Max in the first place, and he never would've compared himself to his brother. He never would've felt this jealous that his girlfriend/best friend liked Cody A LOT more than him, he never would have wasted this week and his emotions on STUPID FUCKING Cody...
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Cody was lying at home, on the living room couch, with, for the first time in a year and a half, his text books open. And he was studying his brains out.
Zack stormed through the door, and Cody looked up. His older twin was steaming angry, and walked right up to him, and punched him clean in the face.
Cody tumbled off the couch from the impact, and jumped back up again. If he was surprised, he didn't show it. Instead, his fought back, landing two solid punches, and blocking Zack's. Cody punched him again, and Zack tripped over the coffee table, falling to the ground.
"What the FUCK was that about??" Cody shouted to his brother on the ground.
"You screwed EVERYTHING up between me and Max. EVERYTHING."
"Geez, I SAID I was sorry."
"Well, sorry doesn't fix this, now does it?" Zack stood up again and threw another punch unexpectedly.
"Sonofabitch!" Cody swung back at him, hitting him even in the stomach. Cody grunted back.
"Saying sorry doesn't fix jackshit!"
Zack tried to kick him, before Cody continued with a punch. Cody responded."Anyways, it's not my fault that you can't even patch things up with YOUR girl. Don't pin it on me."
Zack punched him again, and Cody blocked it. "What would YOU know about girls anyways, you've had sex with a man, you fag!"
Cody suddenly drew back, as though punched in the stomach, despite the fact that Zack hadn't touched him. Physically, that is. He turned silently away, to his room, slamming and locking the door behind him.
Zack cursed silently under his breath, before calling out, "Cody? I'm fucking sorry, I didn't mean it."
But it was too late, it was too late to take his misplaced words back.
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A/N: this is the last authors note, i swear. id just like to say three things.
first, i dont own suite life of zack and cody. i realized that most ppl have a disclaimer, and id hate to get sued although its highly unlikley.
second, I LOVE MY REVIEWERS!!! seriously, when i check to see if i have any new reviews, seeing words that say im a great author really make me happy.
last, idk about me updating soon. i have a feeling that ill be putting off posting this next chapter, because after that, i only have half a chapter written. ive had up to chapter 9 written since i first started posting the story, and now its a matter of actually figuring out how to get to the ending of this story that i want. basically, my plotline is very fuzzy on the details, and idk about any romances thrown in there. so if you have any suggestions, let me know. and no, it wont end like my other Suite Life fic, so dont worry. so thats that, and i hope you liked the new chapter!!!
PS!! okay THIS is the last thing. not only will i be taking suggestions on romances, but on the issue: should carey martin ever find out that cody was raped? i really will use your input!
