Sorry for the delay I have had a couple of health issue, but I'm all better now. Hope everyone is happy and healthy. Enjoy.


After a couple of more months and Erik is out of his wheelchair, and I have feeling up to my shoulders. So progress is there. Just not fast, but what do I really have to get back to now that I'm not going back to my old life? Logan went to me college to get an academic break due to health reasons. I don't think that lecture halls are equipped to support all of the machines that I have to keep me alive. Alright so I still have trouble with remaining positive all the time with this, but hay at least I'm still working on getting better.

"Hi Katherine. Ready for todays' lesson? It's all about places today" Erik and Stephen came into my room with a DVD case. I couldn't help but smile at them. Erik was walking with a cane now. We were both getting stronger, but slowly. It made me wonder how much longer it would take to get better if Stephen wasn't healing us both. Most likely three times longer then it already was. I know that it was harder for Stephen to heal me it was a complicated spell to make something whole. With Erik it was a simple healing spell that restored him very fast. Of course as with everything having to do with me lately it was complicated. Oh what joy. The days melted together the only change to the days where the lessons that I learned and the daily news. Every once in a great while Logan would come in to see how I was doing, and to make sure that I wasn't feeling sorry for myself. It was hard but I was getting there not very quickly but it was progress. After about three more weeks of hard concentration and mystical healing I was able to get some feeling in my toes but only on the left side. Progress but not enough for me not yet. I wanted more, I needed more. One day after my lessons I tried to get out of my tube just to find out that I couldn't. It was warded and shielded. I guess I'm not going anywhere anytime soon. The next day was the worst.

"So tell the truth. Did you try to get out yesterday" Erik came at me with his cane, and a very stern look on his face. I knew that lying would be the wrong thing to do with him. With the way that he was talking to me made me think that there were sensors, camera's, or the wards set off some kind of alarm. So I came clean, and nodded. It's not like I can talk to lie to him anyway. I can't even talk or sleep yet not to mention that time is passing me by while I stand here trying to reconstituted myself. I don't even have a clock inside of my prison like room.

"Katherine you know that you have to stay in there for the time being. It is not forever. You just have to stay in until then" he could see the disappointment on my face. He knew that I hated to be confined inside this cursed tube. He was one of the few people who knew what I was like the first time. Back then I was even less patience then I have now. I mean this is the first time that I tried to get out so that's saying something.

"Come on this is the first time I even tried it and I was just checking the system. So calm down would you. I wouldn't have gone very far even if I was able to. The reason that I did it then is very different reason for doing it now. Then I was stupid and thought that I could do anything, now it's to test my progress. So chill out, ok?" Erik seamed ok with my motivation's. I only hope that the other guys are as understanding as Erik. Logan might be, but I don't know about Stephen. I mean don't get me wrong I know him better now then I did before. I still don't know him as well as I do Logan, and even Erik. Erik and I have never had the greatest of time, but I know how he thinks. Erik has been both my teacher and my enemy. The one thing that we have always had in common was our shared religion and even though I no longer practice any religious views that shared experience is still there. I stopped any kind of religion was around the time that I came back from Japan. After that I was done, but even if I wasn't I would have stopped after those aliens in England with Wisdom.

Pete Wisdom that I regret. How I hated him at first, but not him. He told me after we were together that he acted that way to keep me at a distance. He liked me even before he was assigned to my team. Then one assignment changed everything. That's when that I finally realized he was a better man then he let the whole team believe. He changed my whole view point on men. I was always around straight laced men before, my father, not to mention most of the X-Men guys, well except Logan. I mean my first major crush was Peter Rasputin now that is one straight arrow. Pete was his complete antithesis in every aspect except their hair colors. Everyone at first thought that he was the one that pushed the relationship, but it was all me. He would always let me set the pace. He always was happy with just kissing and being close to me. He was my first true love and I totally fucked it up.

That was one of the first things that I was going to do when I got out of this prison. I am going to find his skinny ass and apologize to him. That is what he deserves. After all it was me that messed up our relationship in the first place. Oh the joys of being young and stupid, because it was my fault. I never set out to hurt Pete by kissing that boy. The whole reason that I did it was the dumbest thing that I have ever done. He was a really bad kisser that S.H.I.E.L.D. guy that I kissed. I was so use to being invisible next to all my fellow X-Ladies that when ever a guy paid attention to just me I jumped all over the opportunity of any kind of male attention that I never took a look at what I would lose to doing that kind of behavior. I know that some people in my circle thought that it was a good thing that we were no longer a couple. I should have never listened to them. I should have listen to my heart.

As soon as I see him I know that any words that I have will be lost and that I'm going to cry at one point, but I will get through it. Even if I'm going to die emotionally. I did try to apologize when he had "died" a while ago, but he was fine. With getting bad news so often and suddenly in this lifestyle I believed that it was real. I still love him. Knowing that he probably hates me is what I have to look forward to, but it's something that I have to do. It's going to kill me emotionally. I know that, but it still needs to be done. By my estimation it is going to take me another two months before I can do it. I guess it's something to look forward to.