Guys i'm going on holiday tomorrow so wont be able to post anything for a week! I will really try to post another chapter or two tonight and if I have extra time I will try write something and upload it to my documents then if I get wifi on holiday i'll post it mid week to tide you all over. thankyou so much for the response and prompts. I was thinking while i'm away maybe some of you could write some KODAM for me to read when i'm back seeing as I always have to read my own stories, just an idea.
Chapter eight
Kono lay on her childhood bed with tears rolling down her cheeks. She held her stuffed dolphin close and let soft sobs rack her body. She felt tired and drained and a little dizzy probably from the lack of food she had been eating. After her fight with Adam she had walked out and come to her parent's house, of course they let her in and allowed her to stay but they were really worried about her. Kono had been staying with her parents for nearly four months now, she hardly left the house and took sick leave at work. Adam had tried to contact her at the beginning but she had been so upset she never answered and now he had stopped so she assumed he no longer cared. She knew deep down she was being ridiculous and she also knew by leaving things she had without doubt made everything worse. She looked down at her growing stomach and cried, she knew Adam deserved to know he was becoming a father and she knew she should not have kept it from him but she felt so low and so stubborn that she left it.
Adam sat at home wallowing in self-pity. He knew he had messed up with Kono, he had said some harsh words and he knew he over stepped the line with the business. He had lied to Kono about what he was doing, of course everything he was doing was to finalise all legitimization and organise his own company with no contact with the yakuza but he had still got involved with them for information and lied to Kono about it. He understood why she was mad, she had always stood up for him and he had hurt her by lying. He felt terrible about it and wanted to fix it but she wouldn't talk to him. He was starting to realise that she probably didn't ever want anything to do with him again but it killed him to think that. He loved her to pieces and didn't want to lose her, he wanted to make it right with her but she was refusing to talk. He had called Chin and her parents to begin with but they just updated him and said they would try talk to here. He had stopped talking to any of them for the last month, no one contact him but he refused to accept it was over.
Nani went to Kono's room with a tray of food and drink. She was disappointed with her daughter for lying to Adam but Kono just argued that he had lied to her. Nani entered her room and found her crying on her bed.
"Keikei" She sighed.
Kono just looked up wearily with tears streaking her face.
"I brought you some food and drink"
"I don't want it" Kono mumbled.
"I don't care whether you want it, I care that by grandbaby wants it" Nani almost snapped her voice firm.
Kono blinked back more tear and looked at her mum vulnerably. Nani had been harder on Kono lately and was getting sick of Kono's attitude.
"You need to look after this baby Kono"
"I am"
"What by laying on your bed everyday all day and crying to yourself or by keeping your baby's father away from it?"
"Mum"
"No Kono, I'm sick of your attitude! You are not looking after this Baby or yourself and your eing unfair on Adam"
"He doesn't care"
"Kono he called here and Chin every day after you walked out and he called you but you refuse to talk to him!"
"He lied to me!"
"And now you're lying to him!"
"I can't tell him now…"
"Why?"
"I…"
"Why Kono?"
"Because I'm scared…he will get mad"
"Yeah and I wouldn't blame him"
"…"
"You need to take responsibility for this baby and you need to talk to Adam"
"He stopped calling me"
"Because he thinks you don't want to be with him anymore"
"I love him"
"You're not doing a very good job of showing it keikei"
"Why haven't you told him?"
"I only found out a few weeks ago when I saw your stomach…he had stopped calling"
"What if I want to keep it a secret…he will hate me now maybe it's best…"
"If you don't tell him by the end of the week I will" Nani threatened. "You better have eaten this when I come back"
Kono curled into herself and cried some more before reluctantly eating some food.
Nani sat on the couch with Ke'ano, they were watching a film when Nani decided to go check on Kono. Before she could do so she heard a scream and turned to see Kono tumble down the stairs. Nani and Ke'ano rushed to her side, noting her hollow features and tired eyes. Her arms were all grazed where she tried to protect her bump and her head had a small cut.
"We need to take her to the hospital"
"No!"
"Yes Kono and I will ring Adam on the way"
Adam rushed through the hospital asking everyone where Kono was. He finally reached a desk and stood impatiently waiting for her room number. When he got it he ran, he was so scared for Kono and was glad Nani had called him. As he reached the room Nani stepped outside and stopped him.
"Nani is she okay?"
"Yes, she will be"
"Can I…"
"I need to tell you something"
"I know she hates me but she's still my wife I just want to make sure she's okay then I can go if she doesn't want me here" Adam said tearfully.
"Let's sit down" Nani said softly guiding him to the seats outside.
Adam was desperate to see Kono but sense Nani really needed to talk.
"Adam please remember that she was upset and emotional, I don't condone what she's done at all and I respect whatever your decision will be regarding your relationship and Kono will learn to as well. She loves you dearly but she just let her stubborn nature take over. She though you hated her and didn't want anything to do with her again and for some crazy reason she thought maybe it was best. Me and Chin only found at recently and I warned her to tell you but she's just not been in a good place." Nani explained softly.
"What are you saying?"
"Kono's pregnant"
Adam's eyes went wide in shock. He hadn't expected Nani to say that and he was angry that Kono didn't tell him but he was still so worried for her and excited he was having a baby. He wasn't sure how to feel but he knew he still wanted to see her.
"Can I see her?"
"Of course, but please Adam don't start a fight with her now, I understand that you must feel betrayed and angry but she ended up here from not eating or drinking and getting dizzy then she fell down the stairs. I don't want her getting into another state again please."
"Okay"
Nani led Adam into the room where a vulnerable frail Kono lay in the hospital bed a small perfectly formed bump visible under the blankets. Adam's heart broke seeing her like that and tears filled his eyes. He was excited to become a dad but right now he was desperate to hold his wife not matter how angry and upset he was with her. He walked towards her his face soft while Kono's was fearful. Her eyes were wide and full of tears and Adam could see she was about to panic. He swiftly pulled her gently into his embrace and whispered words of endearment into her ear, softly running his fingers through her hair.
"I…II..I'm …so…s…sor…rry" Kono hiccupped as she tried to regain her breathing through the onslaught of tears.
"Sshhhh" Adam whispered not knowing what else to say to her.
"I…I… "
"Don't talk just relax darling, shhhh just breath"
Kono clung to Adam and closed her eyes as she slowly took deep breaths to calm herself. She felt safe in his embrace but knew all too well that he was angry and she knew just because he was there holding her didn't mean he actually wanted her anymore.
Adam pulled back and looked at Kono, it was killing him seeing her like that and it was taking all his strength to stay calm. He didn't want to get angry with her in that moment, it wasn't the place.
"I need to go Kono…I'm glad you're okay and that the baby is okay"
"Adam?"
"Please let me know when you're out of hospital, please" He begged before leaving the room. It was just too hard for him.
A few days later Kono was released from hospital. Her parent insisted she go home with them but she said she needed to just take a walk so they left her to it. She wandered about all day before finally getting the courage to go to Adam. She didn't realise her parents had been worried sick about her and had actually called Adam to see if she was there. He was equally concerned and was about to go find her when she knocked at his door, or there door. He opened it and found her shaking and fighting tears her lithe frame even smaller.
"I erm…I know you hate me…and I..I'm not ….welcome here…a…and…I lied…b…but i...wo…wont k…eep the…b…b…baby f…rom you i…f you want …to be …involved. I …I don't …think I will…b…be a ver..y good mum …enyway…so m…aybe it's best that…y…ou t…take f…full …custody…and…m…maybe …I can visit sometimes…I erm…I'll be…at my…parent for….a while…but I don't….want to be…a burden ….s….so I wi…il pro…bably find…a hotel…then…m…maybe …get my own…place. I thought…you m…ight want …this…" Kono sobbed through tears as she handed over a sonogram.
Adam could feel the tears stinging his eyes. He couldn't believe Kono thought she would be a bad mum and would be willing to give him custody and he hated to see her so upset and believing he didn't want her.
"We are married Kono…we do this together, not alone, together…get inside" He said firmly.
Kono stared in shock at him to the point he had to almost push her through the door. She felt awkward and nervous but Adam led her to the couch so they could talk.
"Kono why the hell didn't you tell me you were pregnant?" Adam asked his voice calm.
Kono swallowed the lump in her throat and continued taking calming breathes. She didn't understand why Adam appeared so calm but it almost scared her more. She wanted him to be angry at her and scream in her face because she thought she deserved it. She didn't deserve to have him come and visit her in hospital or for him to let her in the house and she still didn't believe that she deserved to raise this baby.
"I…"
"Kono please just tell me why I need to know"
"We fought and I left and I didn't think you wanted anything to do with me anymore when you stopped calling. I had suspected I was pregnant but I realised I would be doing it alone so I just refused to admit it. I eventually took a test but I still didn't tell anyone. Mum only found out when she came into the bathroom and I was in the bath…she made me admit it."
"Couples fight Kono I never said I didn't want you anymore"
"You stopped calling"
"Because you wouldn't talk to me, I assumed you didn't want anything to do with me and clearly I was right"
"I still love you"
"And I love you Kono, but I just don't understand how you could possibly keep this from me. It's my baby to Kono, you didn't even tell me when you admitted it and your mum found out"
"I just thought I'd kept it a secret for so long and I knew for sure by that point you would be mad…"
"Of course I'm mad Kono; you kept our baby from me for four months!" Adam exclaimed but he still remained calm.
"I didn't meant to hurt you"
"And I believe you but you still did it" Adam sighed with his head in his hands.
"Adam you're a good man and I love you but I know what I've done is unforgivable, I know it was wrong…and I didn't look after our baby like I know you will, It's best for the baby that he or she live with you because I know you will look after it better than me…I just want to be able to visit sometimes…when you say it's okay…"
"Kono I'm not taking our baby away from you and I'm not divorcing you!" Adam said grasping Kono's face with his hands and forcing her to look at him.
"But…"
"God Kono you fucked up but I still love you I never stopped loving you, we had a fight and I know my actions started it and I am so sorry for that and I get why you had to leave and I'm angry that you have lied to me about our baby but you are my wife I don't want to do this alone and I don't want you doing this alone. We made this baby together and we will raise he or she together, will work through this"
Kono's eyes welled with tears that rolled down her cheeks and over Adam's fingers. He brushed them away softly with his thumbs as she cried.
"I'm sorry"
"I know you are"
"Will you forgive me?"
Adam sighed and kissed her lips softly.
"Eventually"
"I'm so…s…sorry"
"I know Kono, I know, I'm just mad right now…I've just found out I'm going to be a father you just need to give me some time to let it sink in…but I will forgive you I promise you that Kono"
"I've not been looking after the baby very well" Kono admitted in embarrassment
"Hmmm you've not been looking after yourself very well either"
"I was sad"
Adam smiled at her and pulled her to his chest.
"I know darling, I'll look after you sweetheart and we will look after our baby"
