Chapter 8 – the loss and the new
Williams life was too in danger, everyone me, Doggett and Monica did everything humanly possible to keep him safe as well as Dana but in the end Dana had to make an unthinkable decision and gave him up for adoption… it took everything out of her and she pushed everyone including me away…this was hard….
After 2days I got a call…I didn't know the number
"Skinner"
"Mr Skinner I assume?" it was a dominant sounding males voice…
"Yes who is this?"
"I'm bill Scullly dana's brother, now I know dana's struggling with giving up William and my mums devastated that Dana has pushed her away and taken her door key back. I didn't know what to do or who to call; I know your close to Dana have you heard from her at all? Anything you know would ease mums mind even a little" id never met this guy and he's basically pleading for information o his sister…
"To be honest your mum saw her last of all of us…. she stayed with her longer than I did, I was the first sent away…. And I'm sick… I cant hack it either… are you with Mrs Scullly?"
"Yes I am, do you want to talk to her? She may not talk but hearing you may help" I can hear him talking to her…
"Hello" she's croaky and very unlike Mrs Scullly
"Hi Mrs Scullly, right I want to go in and see Dana… I'm going in a minute,,, if I have to ill break in I don't care 2days is long enough.. Ill go see her then call you up and tell you what's going on, I promise you ok?"
"Ok my skinner thank you, though I wont be at home… call me on this number its bills cell number ill be staying with him for a bit"
"Ok Mrs Scullly ill be in touch soon."
I hang up…. Drive over.. I mean business…. I knock…
"Dana open the door" I call softly…. No answer…
"Dana open the door" a little louder and more meaningful….
"Right Dana open the door or I'm coming through it… you have the count of 10.. If I get to 10 I'm breaking through" I give it 2 seconds…
"1…2…3…..4…" just as I'm about to hit 5 the door opens…..
"Thank you" I barge past her into the apartment… she shuts the door and comes to me…. Throws her arms around my neck and pulls me into her lips…. Umm its nice…. I try to pull away but she holds me in….. I'm not sure I like this….. I use a little more force…
"What's going on?"
"Kiss me" she demands… I pull back…
"No.. That's not what you need.. Talk to me"
"No kiss me first"….. I cant and I know it'd be wrong to kiss her….
"Dana you've been through a lot and everyone is worried sick about you…. Bill, your brother called me a bit earlier… mums in a bad way…. What's going on? Talk to me… let me in…." she looks at her feet…
"I gave up my little miracle… I have nothing left…. No one will ever look at me the same again… no one will love me or forgive me…" she breaks down in tears…
"Dana come here" I pull her in but she pulls back…
"What's wrong?" I ask….
"Your just being nice… you don want me near you…I gave up my baby… the baby that could have been ours…. Our baby.. Yours and mine not that bastard Mulder's who never loved him…" she starts to waver on her words… I don't care… I walk to her and throw my arms around her… she starts hitting me hard on the chest… I suck it up and deal with it… she slows and breaks into tears…. And puts her arms around me….
"come on Dana, let it out… let it all go… let the real loving Dana come back" she falls to the floor and I help her down… she lays on my knees and sobs her heart out until she cannot cry anymore….she looks up…
"I'm tired" I'm glad to hear this…. I pick her up and carry her to her bedroom and place her on her bed….
"Stay please" she asks…
"Ok ill stay till you fall asleep then I need to call your mom"
"Oww god, did you say bill called you?"
"Yes he's taken mum to his as she was in a bad way… I spoke to her and promised ill call her once I saw you… I told her id break in if I had to" Dana laughs a little then yawns…
"stay till I fall asleep then call her, say I'm sorry" yawns" and I love her" slowly Dana drifts off… I cover her in a blanket and slowly sneak out….
I call Mrs Scullly as promised… she answers
"Any news? Have you seen her? Please Mr Skinner"
"Calm Mrs Scullly I'm with her in her apartment, she let me in after I threatened to smash her door in… she broke down, cried and now she's sleeping. She says she's sorry and she loves you" Mrs Scullly sighs….
"I'm so glad your around…. I knew she'd open to you" I touch my chest…
"Oww" I openly shout…. I realise
"Sorry Mrs Scullly, my chest hurts" I open my shirt and look
"Why? Are you ok?" I have bruises…
"I'm fine but got a Scullly beating with added bruises" Mrs Scullly sounds concerned
"Dana hurt you? Physically?" I worry about my reply..
"Yes a little, she was hitting me before she started crying but its fine… that's what I get for breaking her hiding I guess"
"Yes I'm kind of glad it was you know she would of probably done me some serious damage. Thank you so much though Mr Skinner, I'm glad she's ok. When she wakes tell her I love her and to call me when she's ready"
"Ok Mrs Scullly, ill speak to you soon, bye"
I get off the phone and move into the bathroom to look at my chest… 5 bruises… and they hurt…. I move to the kitchen to find something cold to put on it the brig out the bruising completely….. Uhh frozen peas….
I sit on the sofa with them on my chest… I text Doggett to say I'm with Dana and I think she'll be ok…..sent…
Next thing I know I feel someone touch me…. I wake… uhh it's a smiling red faced Dana…
"You ok?" she asks… "New thing of yours? Defrosting peas on your chest nice one" she laughs…. Oww shit she'll see my bruises… I stand and quickly move to the kitchen, put the now completely defrosted peas in the bin as there now useless and start to do up my shirt… dana's behind me… she grabs my hands…
"No I like you like this" what do I do?
"Dana please" she wont let go…
"Dana you don't want to see what's on my chest so please" she pulls harder..
"Walt I'm ok now what's on your chest?" I turn to face her…. She looks and outs her hands to her mouth…
"I did those?" I nod….
"Oh my god Walt I'm so sorry I can see her recoiling so I grab her and pull her into me… I freeze.. No ones touched my chest since I was last with Dana….
"Dana its fine, you needed to release your anger and emotions, I'm glad you did it to me… I'm fine… tough and nails" I assure her…. She pulls away a little and touches each bruise…. I freeze again under her touch… she notices…
"I love your chest" I smile
"I remember" she looks up at me….
"Don't say I'm sorry again…. I'm warning you…" she giggles….
"Ok I wont but I want to cook dinner for everyone once mums back to say…. Thank you"…. I know what she was going to say…..
Life settled again…. Dana and I started to get closer again and we had a talk about being an us again….
So I started staying over hers often and spent as much time as I could with her….we started back where we abruptly left off and were in talks about coming out to her family and everyone else…. It was exciting… We were beginning to start being sexual again and it was great for us both…
Until…..
