The next day, I helped Sora run more errands, as usual, and we returned halfway through the day just when Rude stopped by.

"He's being released soon." Rude said calmly.

"That's, good?" I had to ask, because I wasn't even sure if I thought so. I was still really worried for Reno's well-being, and hesitant to admit that him going home was best for his body, and Rude.

"He's been doing better emotionally, and he doesn't have any physical concerns, so the doctors can't keep him." Rude shrugged.

"What happens if Reno's depression gets to him?" Riku asked the question that we were all too scared to ask.

"They said to take him to a therapist." Rude sighed.

"I'm sure he'll be fine once he has a chance to be in his own home." Sora always had a way of staying positive.

"I hope so." Rude looked away as I cleared my throat.

"Well, I think I should start dinner." I jumped to the kitchen with Sora following soon after.

"I should get going." Rude stood up.

"Where to?" Riku asked.

"Visiting hours are almost over." Rude explained.

"Oh, are you able to visit him?" Sora asked, referring obviously to Reno.

"Well, no," Rude looked away. "Once he falls asleep, the doctors let me in to say goodnight though, so I like to wait, to be there, just in case he falls asleep early." Rude nodded to himself as he cleared his throat.

"That's so sweet." Sora smiled softly.

"Yeah. See you all later." Rude dismissed himself, and we were all quiet for a short while.

"That's got to be the saddest yet most loving thing I've ever heard." Riku said dryly to break the silence, and I nodded.

"I don't know if I should be happy or sad after hearing that." I said.

"He's so committed; it's beautiful." Sora said what was on all of our minds.

"He's a true inspiration." Riku confirmed our thoughts.

After dinner was ready, I couldn't help but text Rude, asking if he was ok. There was something on my mind that told me to ask, so I did. Rude told me that he was fine, and I offered to give him some of the dinner I prepared to go, since I know he hates cooking. To my surprise, Rude took me up on the offer, so I told him I'd have some home-made pizza ready to go by the time he stopped by to pick it up. Turns out, Rude asked if he could stay over, and Sora and Riku were more than willing to agree. We watched a movie together on the couch, well, Sora and Riku were on their private little loveseat, but Rude let me use his shoulder as a headrest after we all finished eating. As usual, I fell asleep during the movie, and when I woke up, I was shocked to see that Rude was still there. It must have been midnight when I opened my eyes to see that Rude was asleep, sitting up, while I was using his lap as a pillow. He had his arms arching on the back of the couch with his feet firmly planted on the ground, and I smiled before I realized just how tired he looked. Without his sunglasses on, I could see dark circles that I never noticed, and his head and face were starting to grow hair, which he usually hated with the exception of the well trimmed facial hair that Reno proudly loved.

I let out a deep sigh before I fell asleep again, and when I woke up, it was because Rude was leaving for work.

"Rude," I called out to him after he gently set me out of his lap.

"M?" he asked as he stood up.

"Thank you, for staying to let me sleep better." I wanted so badly for him to know how much he was loved.

"Thanks for letting me." He said professionally.

"We love you," I said, biting my lip right after. Rude looked over his shoulder, so I clarified. "Riku, Sora, Axel and I. And Reno."

Rude was silent at first, and I grew scared, until he turned around and knelt in front of me as I sat up on the couch.

"Love you too." Rude gave an exhausted fake smile before I couldn't take it anymore and I threw my arms around his neck.

"Don't give up on Reno," I begged.

"Never," Rude brushed my hair out of my face. "Go back to bed." Rude stood up and I nodded.

I spent the rest of the day helping Sora commit to a venue for the wedding, which took forever with Sora's indecisiveness. He already had a church picked out, but then Riku asked if he wanted an outdoor wedding, which started every possible avenue up all over again after I worked so hard to make progress.

"Are you serious Riku?" I had to ask when Sora showed signs of doubt in his previous choices.

"I just want him happy." Riku shrugged.

"You sure you're not aiming to make me unhappy?" I asked grumpily.

"Roxy, what do you think?" Sora asked me, so I sighed.

"I don't like churches, but I know you Sora. If you chose an outdoor wedding, you'll regret it."

"Why?" Sora asked curiously.

"Cause then you're going to worry about the weather, and what if it rains? What if there's too much sun and there's a terrible glare and its really hot? What if there is too much wind? What if someone steps in dog shit? Do you really want to panic over all of that?" I didn't know how I knew that kind of stuff, but I figured it would be enough to convince Sora to commit to his original decision.

"My god, you're right!" Sora fisted the table. "Ok, indoors. We can use Riku's church, as originally planned. Now for the reception. Gosh there are just so many options!" Sora put a hand to his cheek as I rolled my eyes.

Hours passed and we didn't make any decisions, although Sora did narrow his choices down to four, which was progress considering we started with what felt like a million.

I slept on the couch again, and when I woke up, I went to work. Right after work, I headed straight for Axel's house. It was the day that Reno was being released from the hospital.

The day that Reno got out of the hospital, I stayed over at Axel's house. I decided to make dinner at Axel's place and drop off enough for Rude and Reno so that Rude wouldn't have to worry about preparing anything.

"It smells good," Axel said, his words as empty as his exhausted eyes.

"Thanks," my gratitude was just as dead in return.

"Rude said that he'll come by and get it." Axel informed me, and I looked at him curiously.

"With Reno?"

"No. He's going to come by get it, and then go pick up Reno and take him home. Apparently, Reno can't be left alone, and isn't ready to talk to anyone." Axel sighed and I nodded.

"Ok," I finished dinner and packed up the soup just as Rude arrived.

"Hey," Axel greeted plainly.

"Hey," Rude echoed in his suit and usual pair of thick sunglasses.

"How's he doing?" I couldn't stand the awkward tension, so I just had to ask

something.

"Not too good. Physically, he's doing much better than the doctors predicted, which is great. Emotionally, he's a wreck. He won't eat voluntarily; he only opens his mouth when he's screaming at himself, and I've overheard him talking about death more than I'm comfortable with." Rude answered as he looked away.

"And the hospital thinks it's a good idea to let him go?" I asked, shocked that they would clear him if he was suffering from intense depression.

"They think that if he can come home and spend time with his family, with us, then he'll snap out of it."

"I sure hope they're right." Axel groaned.

"Me too" Rude whispered. He thanked us for the meal before he left to feed Reno, and after two more days of that process, Axel and I were actually invited over.

"Do you think he's better?" I couldn't help but ask Axel as we got ready to ride to Reno's place.

"Probably. It's been a few days, and I'm sure Rude's been doing all he can to help Reno make progress." Axel shrugged. I nodded before the quick ride to Reno's house, where the redhead greeted us at the door.

"Thank you for coming over." Reno smiled as Axel and I sat down on the couch.

"Thanks for having us." I got comfortable next to Axel.

"I just wanted to apologize for my unacceptable behavior from the last time we saw each other. I truly am sorry." Reno sat down in a comfy chair in the living room, that was typically known for being Rude's chair.

"No need to apologize, we understand." Axel said on our behalf.

"Thanks. I'm glad to say that Rude and I are doing much better, huh Rude?" Reno asked for reassurance as he took Rude's hand. I could tell that Reno was trying really hard to be hospital, but there was still something off between him and Rude.

"Yeah." Rude grunted, standing next to Reno.

"You ok?" Reno asked vulnerably.

"Yeah, just peachy." Rude said, sounding rather sarcastic and perhaps even bitter.

"Rude, what's wrong?" Reno asked, sounding really concerned.

"Nothing." Rude cleared his throat.

"Rude, can you come with me in the kitchen?" Axel asked, standing up, not giving Rude much of a choice. "I want to start dinner,"

"Alright." Rude followed while Reno frowned as Rude's hand fell out of his.

"So Reno, I was thinking that I can start coming over more often if you want, and I can cook and clean like I used to." I offered, just to fill the silence.

"That sounds great Roxy." Reno gave me a weak smile.

"Reno, can we talk?" Rude asked as he and Axel returned from the kitchen, clearly having done nothing concerning food.

"Sure." Reno said suspiciously.

"I, I love you Reno. A lot." Rude said, watching as Reno smiled.

"I love you too Rude."

"I, I want you to know that I love you more than anything or anyone on this whole planet."

"Thank you." Reno's smile grew.

"But while you were pregnant, it was like you loved the baby more than me." Rude said as Reno looked away to think.

"I, I," Reno looked lost for words.

"It was as if you cared more about the baby than me." Rude continued. "I didn't like that feeling."

"No, I, I was just happy to have a family with you. I didn't love the baby more than you, I just wanted to have something to show you how much I love you." Reno's eyes teared up.

"When you lost the baby, you flipped Reno. I thought that I was enough for you." Rude looked away as Reno put a hand to his mouth.

"I'm sorry." Reno blinked rapidly.

"I love you Reno. I want to be all you need." Rude said clearly.

"You are." Reno said.

"Ok." Rude said, sounding like he didn't even believe Reno.

"Are, are you mad at me?" Reno asked sorrowfully.

"No." Rude whispered.

Reno sat with wide eyes and unsure trembling lips. "I'm sorry I've failed you, again." Reno stood up to leave, but Rude stopped him.

"You haven't failed me. I will always love you." Rude held Reno, who nodded.

"I love you too Rude." Reno exhaled with a small smile.

"Just kiss already." Axel smiled to lighten the mood.

"I love you Mami." Rude repeated just before he made out with Reno.

"Awww," I said loudly as Reno blushed.

We ordered pizza and I agreed to stay the night, since I still had clothes at Rude and Reno's from the many weeks I've spent the night.

"Be good, ok?" Axel kissed me quickly.

"Axe?" I caught his arm before he fully exited the front door.

"Yeah?" He asked.

"I love you." I repeated, wanting to hear it again.

"I love you too Rox. I'll see you later." Axel ruffled my hair and left. I took a quick shower and watched some TV while Rude and Reno got ready for bed, or so they put it, which lead me to believe that they were having make up sex, because after an hour, Rude said I was allowed in to sleep. I got up from the couch, not one to deny a comfortable bed and warm, close company.

"Night Roxy." Reno ruffled my hair just like Axel does as I curled up between him and Rude.

"Night." I sighed relaxingly.

I was stuck in the limbo between being asleep and being awake when I felt Reno rubbing my back.

"Do you think it's too late?" Reno asked, but Rude sighed.

"We're still young."

"Look at how big he is." Reno kissed my temple, causing me to smile with a child-like appreciation. "He's so cute."

"He's only ten years younger than us."

"Hey, I'm still twenty six!" Reno whispered harshly.

"What is he, like, seventeen?"

"No, I think he's twenty one, remember his birthday?" Reno asked.

"Damn, he looks like he could pass for eighteen."

"Yeah, he's adorable." Reno combed my bangs behind my ear. Even though I wasn't lucidly awake, I could understand their words, which made me smile.

"Then why don't you date him?" Rude rolled over.

"Rude, you know what I meant. Baby, don't be like that." Reno whined.

"Whatever." Rude sighed.

I felt Reno shift in bed, like he was going to get out, so I put an arm around him to stop him. Reno sighed quietly and held me tightly.

"Why can't I have one?" he asked me so quietly, I thought he might have known that I wasn't fully awake. I heard him sniffle before I hugged him.

"One day Reno." I tried to encourage him before he hugged me back.

"Thank you Roxy."

"That's it." Rude stood up and headed for the door.

"Rude, where are you going?" Reno sat up, so I did as well.

"Somewhere where I'll be appreciated." Rude slammed the bedroom door before we heard the front door slam.

"I, I, I don't understand." Reno said hopelessly. "I love him so much, I just want a baby to show him. I want something, a product of US, that will show Rude just how special he is to me." Reno started to cry, and I felt like shit, wondering how badly both of them must be suffering.

"Maybe me sleeping in here was a bad idea."

"I dont understand," Reno sniffled.

"I know he loves you Reno. I mean, when you were in the hospital, he spent hours, only in the waiting room, because he wanted to be as close to you as possible." I tried to smile.

"Really?" Reno gave a faint smile.

"Yeah. He loves you so damn much," I smiled wider.

"I just wanted someone to encourage me. Rude won't talk to me about it. I know that he doesn't want me sad or thinking about it, but this isn't something that I can just ignore away. I want to talk about it. I want to fix it." Reno put a hand over his stomach.

"Why don't we just go back to bed?" I suggested, not sure what else we could do.

"I can't sleep knowing that he's out there somewhere. After hearing that he waited for me when he could have been sleeping or resting, I need to hug him." Reno bit his lip, so I nodded.

"I'll go after him. Just stay here and rest; your body still needs to heal." I quickly threw on jeans and a jacket before I slipped into my shoes and ran out the door. I saw Rude sitting in his car before he spotted me and sped off.

I ran after him and although he lost me, I had an idea where he was going. He went down a street that only leads to one real destination, which of course just had to be the gay bar that Luxord words at. I sighed, but followed after him nonetheless.


Author's Note: Yep, many of you saw this coming in one way or another, so….predictions? I bet a lot of you are tired of me asking this, but I do love hearing what you think! So please feel free to share ^_^

Sorry I haven't updated in a while, I've been super busy in Japan, studying. No summer for me =( Also, I've been working on other stories . I seriously can't help it, no matter how much I tell myself to only work on the three big ones I'm posting, I still start others. I have a couple Soriku's, a Soroku that I'm really excited about, and a potential Zemyx! So please stay tuned ^_^

To keyblade master13: Aww, I sorry! Heart attacks not good! Thanks! I'm glad I'm still alive too lolz. Haha, you funny! I don't speak Japanese . Not yet, I'm in an "Intensive Japanese class" where we do a college years worth of Japanese in 6 weeks (that's 3 years of high school Japanese in 6 weeks). I kind of want to kill myself Lolz jk…not really .

To Xion113: Awww, I'm really glad to hear that you enjoy reading this, especially if you can connect with it. Thanks for the support!

To Cirxe145: haha, guess you'll have to read to find out ;) Maybe its one, maybe its both, maybe its none of the two and something completely different! Hahaha, you spoke too soon saying that Xigbar is the new Luxord! Yeah I've always hated XigDem, but I started the original No More Broken PROMISES back before I was familiar with Zemyx, which is clearly better *cough a taste of loneliness cough* hehee jk.

To RoxasVentusHikari: Haha, yes you'll want to keep Luxord at the top….trust me . Hahaha oh god! That would be interesting, a story inception! Don't think it would work with these two stories though lolz. But I do hate Xigdem, so between us I might do some work there ;) Rude and Zexion, so much to take in for the last chapter, but I think it helps express the stress that Roxas was feeling in extension. Thanks! I look forward to hearing back from you, as always ^_^

To Kindofabadger: Awww, yay for hugs! *hugs you* hehehe. Haha, yeah I'd be tempted by Zexion too, but I'd easily choose Axel first . I actually love Xigbar too, but he really fit that character, sorry for giving him a different reputation . Aww, yes, Axel is adorable! Thanks! It's honestly been more work than fun so far, but I'm trying to learn to balance it all. Thank you so much, you're so sweet!

To Guest: I agree that more self-respect is needed, but Roxas clearly has emotional issues that stem from his past, and there will be a bit more of that revealed way in the future of this story. I see your point, but I do think that dynamics change in a relationship once trust has been broken (I.E. after Roxas cheated on Axel) and since he had cheated so often and so freely, I honestly find it reasonable that Axel would doubt. I still don't think it's healthy though, but I understand that the want to trust may be stronger than the trust itself. Because it is written from Roxas' POV and he has low self esteem, it will come off that he's always in the wrong. I can see how that gets annoying though, but don't worry, things will turn up soon.

To ZeltaFrost: Hahaha, I can't shoot Xiggy! Lol, one eye open, clever! Well you got your wish about Reno being home, but looks like that didn't exactly help much…Aww, I'd LOVE to hug Rude! And Riku! I think they're both intimidating, like Teddy bears ^_^

To KHYaoiBoy: I actually study grammar, so yes, I count grammar! (Linguistics major!) ^_^ hehe. Aww, thank you! I used to write on my ipad and cell phone and then email it to myself and upload it without editing, so my spelling and grammar is far from where it should be, but being able to use a cell phone was very convenient to write on the go, and editing all the work that I write would consume too much time . I'm so lazy! I've never been through what is going on in this story, but I do connect with Roxas very easily, so for some reason, fics written in his POV are easiest for me. I'm glad that it sounds believable though! Thank you for reviewing!

To LuckyCat222: Aww, thank you! That is such a complement, and I received your other reviews, so thank you so much for taking the time to do so. Happy reading, and enjoy!

Thank you everyone for reading and reviewing! Arigatou gozaimasu!

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