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I was officially an emotional wreck.
I was hoping it would never come to this. I never wanted to be in this stage.
The crying, distancing yourself from others, and all that.
I wouldn't let anyone into my room. I wouldn't come out. My mother would keep trying to get me out but gave up one the third day. She would leave my food out by the door, after telling me of course.
I don't know why I'm acting like this. I have never acted like this before. I have never felt like this before.
After I started distancing myself from Jared, it felt as if a part of me was missing. I felt I would die if I never got to see him again. Like I can't live without him. I think I was falling in love with him.
That's a shocking thought.
I think I actually have to talk to him.
"Alisha," I whispered into the phone. "I have to talk to Jared."
I heard her gasp on the other end. "What? Are you fucking crazy? You are just going to get hurt again."
"I know. I just might get hurt again. I just want to know why. Why is he using me. What I did to deserve this. I just want to know."
She sighed. "Okay. Just please be careful. I'll see you later. Oh-when are you planning to ask him?"
I though for a minute. "Probably at his party tomorrow. I was invited anyway. I might as well go and get things set straight."
"Okay. That's logical, but we need to go and buy a dress for you. You need to look great. So I'm going to come over about, oh maybe, two. Is that okay?"
I nodded. "It sure is. So your going to take me shopping and getting me ready tomorrow?" I asked.
"Yeppers. You will look fabulous!" she sang.
I giggled. "Okay. See you later."
"Bye!" I shut my cell phone and set it on my table.
I really am looking forward on spending time with my friend.
I looked at the time and noticed it was 1:13.
I instantly started getting my clothes on to be ready for Alisha.
I put on gray skinny jeans, a red tank top, red converse, and a gray headband.
I looked at myself in the full size mirror and was satisfied with what I saw.
A few minutes of listening to music, I heard the doorbell ring.
I flew down the stairs and opened the door. Alisha was waiting there with a smile on her face.
"It's nice to finally see you." she teased. "You haven't been to school in years."
I laughed. "Yeah,yeah. Whatever."
"Are you ready to go get our dresses and stuff?" she asked excitedly.
"Yeah. Let's go!"
We ran out to the car and got in. Ali plugged in her i-Pod touch and turned on a song.
To Plant a Seed by We Came As Romans blasted from the speakers.
Alisha started singing along. I laughed and decided to sing along also.
Each branch outstretched And different from the rest.
Where the old have broken off, some easier than the rest.
The right ones have grown in to fill the gaps.
And all are equal to love and trust.
And all are a part of something so much bigger than this.
Through the trials our tongues are tied, to trying times, so many unsaid lines.
Our lives were over in so many moments, so many moments.
And now there all just beginning, now there all just beginning.
Our lives were over in so many moments.
I have never been so consumed and I have never loved it more.
To be devoted to letting it all see what it is to live in the love of others.
To live in the love of my brothers.
And spilling back on anyone has ever spilled one me.
To show that to those who have never seen.
Four years ago we planted a seed.
Found the foundation that we need.
Strived for the perfect balance, to show love and show compassion.
And our vision for this world will not die when we are dead. When we are dead.
When we are dead!
My future started with the first note that I ever played.
The first note that was ever sang.
Mt future started with the first note that I ever played!
The first note that was ever sang.
The first note that was ever sang.
When we started living with purpose and writing with meaning.
This is what we were made for.
Every day I live this future.
We smiled at each other when the song was over and we laughed.
It was good to be with Alisha and do the things we used to.
Ever since my feeling of Jared started to deepen, we stopped doing things like this. It was like we couldn't stand being near each other now. But it's different now. We understand each other.
We care about each other. And I'm hoping to keep that in place.
"Come on Kim!" Alisha yelled. "We are here! We must get you the perfect dress!"
I sighed and rolled my eyes. "Okay. Let's do this." Just like old times.
I laughed to myself and went after her. I opened the door to what looked like a really really expensive dress store.
My jaw dropped and I gulped.
I don't have this kind of money! How can I buy anything!
Alisha sighed when she looked at me. "Stop worrying about the price. You are not paying. I am. I will not let you pay for a dress. It's a gift from me to you. Take it as a... sorry present. You deserve it."
I shook my head. "No. Don't do that. I can just buy a cheap dress. It would be a lot less money and take less time. So don't."
She gave me puppy dog eyes. "Pleeeaaaasssse? Let me do this for you. I know you don't have too much money and I do. I want to do something really nice. And shopping is the way to do it for me. Please let me. Please." She clasped her hands and held them in front of her chest, as if praying for me to agree to her ways. And she obviously got what she wanted. "Fine. Do whatever you want. I don't care."
She squealed and twirled around. "I am going to find the perfect dress for you. I'll make it sexy and fancy like. You will look perfect. I promise." She said before disappearing behind a a rack of dresses.
I sighed and looked around to see if I could possibly find something I like and something that Alisha approved of.
I too notice to a pile of dresses by the dressing rooms that weren't there before.
Obviously Alisha.
I grumbled and went looking for her.
When I finally found her I tapped on her shoulder, making her jump. She put her hand over her heart as she turned around to see who it was.
I narrowed my eyes and she just looked at me innocently. I pointed to the ginormous pile of dresses. "Are those all mine?"
She nodded her head, in a way that made me feel I was the dumbest person on earth.
"Okay. I'll get to it."
On my way over to the dressing rooms I heard Ali say, "Don't forget to come out here wearing those dresses so I can see hoe they look on you!"
I shook my head and grabbed the pile, shutting the door changing into the first dress.
"How does this look?" I asked twirling around in a slow circle.
I was wearing a deep purple dress with black accents around the sleeves, neckline, and bottom of the dress. It ended around the knees and flowed as I moved around. I personally thought it wasn't my style and I think Alisha agreed with me as her nose crinkled and she shooed me away.
"Go try on another one."
I nodded my head and made my way back into the dressing room.
I tried on the next one. "No"
Next. "Definitely not."
Next. "Nope."
Next. "Ew."
Next. "You don't look that good in that color."
Next. "I don't think so."
Next. "Perfect!"
I smiled because I was happy I finally got something she liked so we could get out of here.
The dress had black silk for the chest, below was a teal bow, and flowed down with a zebra print. It was a little above the knee and I can honestly say I looked hot in it. I actually looked good for once.
Alisha smiled at me through my reflection. "You look awesome. That is a great dress and perfect for you. Speaking of dresses, do you want to see mine?" she asked.
I nodded. It was probably going to be dark, hot, and awesome. Like always.
And I was right.
The top was black lace and kind of had the look of a corset. It has a tightness to it and it made her body look more curvy. It had spaghetti straps and had a small bow in the middle of the chest area. The bottom flowed out and had silk underneath, covered with see-through lace. It was absolutely stunning on her.
I smiled at her. "You look great. Way better than me."
She suddenly got a serious look. "Don't bag on yourself. You are beautiful, even though I say you are ugly. I am just jealous. You have a natural beauty. Mine is more,um, forced? I guess."
I blushed at the compliment. "Thanks. And you are beautiful Alisha. I'm actually jealous of you."
Isn't that the truth.
He eyes widened and she broke out into a grin. "Thanks Kim. That's sweet."
I laughed and we went to pay for our stuff and then get ready to buy more.
I felt my phone vibrate in my pocket.
I took it out and opened the text message.
Kim,
Why won't you talk to me? I really want to know what I did wrong. I'm sorry.
I honestly don't know. Please call me. I really want to talk to you. Please.
I miss you, Kim.
-J
Tears welled up in my eyes.
I can't. I can't talk to you right now. You can wait until the party. One day won't hurt. I think. I hope.
I quickly closed my phone and put it back in my pocket so I wouldn't break down into tears.
I really need to get a hold of myself.
I felt a hand on my shoulder and I sighed. I turned around to look at Alisha.
She have me a sympathetic look.
I smiled lightly and we drove back to my house in silence.
When we finally got to my place she turned my way. "Kim. If you ever need me to come over, don't hesitate to call me. I would be happy to help. I will be coming over at 5p.m. To get ready for Jared's party. Now I have to go. I will see you later, okay?"
I nodded slightly. "Thank you for today. I really enjoyed it. I hope we can do it again. I'll see you tomorrow." I said and got out of the car, heading toward my front door after grabbing my bag from the back seat.
I heard her call out, "Bye!" before she pulled out of my drive way and into the street.
I opened the door and was met by the eyes of my brother.
I let out a small scream, not expecting to see him there. He gave me a pointed look. "So, where you been?"
I swallowed. "I was with Alisha. We went dress shopping for the party tomorrow. I thought I told you guys." I really, really did.
Zach shook his head. "This is the first I heard of it. And mom didn't mention it, so I don't think she knew either."
"I'm sorry."
He smiled. "It's okay. I was just playing. But really, we didn't know. Now let me see that beautiful dress."
I dug through my bag and pulled out the zebra print dress.
His eyes widened, but then smiled at me. "It looks like my baby sister is growing up. That's a hot dress you got there."
I laughed at his comment. "You are so weird."
He wiggled his eyebrows. "You know it baby!" he said and walked out and into the kitchen.
When your with Zachery Connweller, you should make sure and expect the unexpected.
A/N: That was long enough, right? :o
And it was good, right? Maybe? Haha.
Song Recommendation:
To Plant a Seed by We Came As Romans
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There are links of the dresses Kim and Alisha bought on my profile by the way! :D
