The Diary of A Queen's Pet
Chapter 8
Author's Notes: MAKE NOTE THE RATING HAS CHANGED! MATURE CONTENT IS AHEAD! TAKE NOTE IF YOU AREN'T OF AGE TO READ! As is those that are still here we have finally reached the mature chapters I promised. I hope you all are happy and this is unedited mostly because I felt terrible about making everyone wait so long. So I hope you enjoy and as always please let me know if you feel so inclined! ~ Bella
I don't really remember much of that day if I'm honest. I was nervous and excited and anxious. I think I did my chores and I know Elizabeth yelled at me for my distraction but I didn't care. Tonight was going to be a special night. I was going to get to be with my Queen for the first time and though I only vaguely knew the mechanics of sex and only because I had witnessed two of the servant girls rolling around in the hay in the barn, I was more than ready to be with my Queen.
As the night descended I grew more and more nervous. I couldn't sit still during dinner, which I was forced to eat with the other servants in the kitchen.
"Emma quit fidgeting." Jane muttered, glaring darkly at me. She was no longer in the Queen's favor it seemed. She had all but replaced me. Of course I'd learn that later too.
I didn't say a word as I continued to pick at my food and tap my feet against the stone floor. I barely ate as the conversation flowed on around me. Isabelle was about to have a baby and John couldn't have been happier. He was boisterously talking about how proud he was of his soon to be son with the other servants. Isabelle for her part was looking rather green but still trying to join in on the conversation and considering the amount of hands touching her belly I didn't think she'd appreciate me cooing over her either.
Not that I would've back then mind you. The thought of children then made me cringe. I didn't like the idea of something so small and helpless dependent on me for its everything. I sighed as I picked more at my food before pushing my plate away. I wasn't hungry and I had other things to worry about.
"Are you not going to finish eating girl?" Elizabeth asked me gruffly.
I shook my head, "I'm really not hungry. Thank you though. Perhaps I'll get something later."
She frowned but didn't stop me as I pushed away from the table and went back to my rooms. I paced the floors, feeling the knots in my guts grow tighter and tighter. I couldn't help but wonder what was in store for me when I finally went to the Queen that night. Would I be good enough for her? Would I mess this up too? Would she even want me after all this? Questions plagued my mind as I sat heavily upon my small shelf bed wondering just what I was thinking. I was way in over my head but I had no one to turn to.
The knock broke through my reverie as I untangled my hands from my hair. I pulled open the door and stepped out of the room at the guard's beckoning. He didn't have to speak; I knew why he was here. Walking the halls felt like I was walking to the gallows and not to the Queen's bedchambers. I was always so anxious to be with her that this twisting and churning made everything seem so much worse than it was. I laid a hand on my stomach, trying to calm it as I stopped in front of the Queen's chambers. I took a deep breath to center myself and pushed the outer door open. I paused at the inner doors knowing I could run back to my chambers, maybe sleep in the barn to avoid being found but then I was no coward and though nervous I couldn't bring myself to stay away from the Queen like that. Mind made up, I tapped on the inner doors waiting for her words open the door.
Slowly her voice washed over me and I felt calm for the first time since I left her rooms that morning. When I pushed open the door, she was resting on her side on the chaise lounge in nothing but a small eastern styled robe made of a sheer black material. I couldn't keep my eyes off her frame as every inch of her skin was basically revealed to my eyes. She was perfect, utterly beautiful and I swallowed against the lump in my throat as I pushed the doors shut and took a few steps into the room. I dipped into the private bow I'd been taught and was learning to perfect so well. I had practiced in my room that afternoon finding serenity in that position in ways I never thought I ever would.
I heard her small feet hit the floor and move towards me. Slowly she circled my body and I took a breath, releasing it slowly through my nose as I listened attentively. She stopped directly behind me. I heard a small rip and with a puff of purple smoke my clothes were once again gone. I gasped but didn't move. She hadn't just made the top disappear this time. It was the bottom too. I was completely naked, helpless and at her mercy. I knew that's how she intended for me to feel. Heat burned in my cheeks as I flushed with embarrassment.
"Rise; let me see what all my hard work has garnered."
My brow furrowed, I didn't understand what she meant by that. I still don't but I did as she told me to and slid as gracefully as possible to my feet.
"Lock your hands behind your neck with your elbows pointed straight out." She commanded. I hesitated for a moment but finally did as she told me.
"Spread your legs, shoulder length apart." Her commands were swift, her voice as cold as always but her tones were pure honey to me and I couldn't help but want to languish in them.
I took a breath shifting my feet apart as she'd told me, setting them in a comfortable position. I closed my eyes briefly before forcing them open. The Queen was now standing in front of me. I had to resist the urge to take a step back. I had always enjoyed how close she'd let me but having her suddenly there took me by surprise and my knee jerk reaction like most people's when startled was to back up. She reached out trailing her long fingered hands along my cheek and down towards my lips. She traced my bottom lip and pushed her thumb in my mouth for a moment. I willingly parted my teeth when she pushed against them allowing her finger to slide into my mouth.
"Suck," She murmured and I set to work doing as she told me.
I couldn't keep the flush of embarrassment off my cheeks, I had never done anything like this before after all but here I was naked and standing in front of my Queen with her finger in my mouth. I formed an O shape with my lips and slowly slid my tongue along the pad of her finger. When I saw a smile on her face, I got a bit more confident and swirled my tongue around her finger before flicking at it with the tip. She slowly withdrew even as I moved my head to keep her finger in my mouth. I couldn't help myself really, she tasted good.
"That's enough. Good girl." She kept her voice soft and low, silky but there was still that commanding edge that was always there when she spoke to me.
I couldn't keep the smile off my face; I loved it when she praised me.
She turned away from me moving back towards the chaise lounge for a moment leaving me in my former position. I was unsure if I should drop my arms from the position she'd asked me to put them in but I figured I'd best stay that way. She looked out the window as she settled herself down. Rain was beginning to fall outside but she didn't seem bothered by it. On the contrary she seemed content to watch the water fall to the earth from the heavens.
"I always liked the rain. I never understood why people hated it." She murmured. "It's soothing and cleansing. A lot like fire." Her dead eyes turned back towards me and I shivered. I didn't know what that meant but it didn't sound comforting at all.
"Did you know I used to brand my pets?" She continued, jadedly as though we were still speaking about the weather and not burning my flesh under a hot iron.
My lips parted as a whoosh of air escaped me. My legs began to shake as my lips trembled in fear. If she wanted to do that to me, I knew I wouldn't refuse her. I couldn't even if I had wanted to but as everyone loved to point out I was a little fool. I would've done anything to make her happy.
She studied me for a moment. "The huntsman still wears the brand I put on him all those years ago. Too bad I stopped the practice. Perhaps I'll bring it back for you? Would you like that pet?"
My whole body shook with fear but I forced myself to speak. Despite my efforts to keep my voice from shaking, the words still sounded uneven as I spoke them. "If…her majesty..." I stuttered. "wants….I can…not…refuse." I squeezed my eyes shut, feeling tears gather there at the thought of the pain that awaited me from such an act.
"On your knees, crawl towards me," She commanded. I felt the tears slide down my cheeks as I did as she told me to. I kept my back straight as I moved towards her, my hair blocking my view but giving me a curtain to hide the tears that continued to spill down my cheeks.
I stopped when I reached her legs but didn't sit up until I felt her hand underneath my wet chin. She urged me up to my knees before her.
"Why are you crying? Isn't this what you wanted?"
I nodded my head as my lip trembled.
"Then what is it?"
I took a moment to gather myself so I could speak coherently. "Pain scares me." I finally admitted.
She cocked her head, "Pain and pleasure go hand in hand child. Surely you knew that."
I shook my head and she smirked. "Clearly we'll have to correct that perception."
I shivered but not from fear. My wet eyes sought hers out and for a moment I saw a flare of something there, something I hadn't seen before. It was gone before I really could comprehend it but I felt oddly comforted by it. She wasn't as unaffected as I always thought she was. I bit my lower lip when I felt her hands come up to cup my wet cheeks. She pushed my hair, which clung to the track marks my tears had made, away from my face before slowly returning.
"Do you know how to pleasure a woman pet?"
I shook my head, "No, your majesty."
"Do you wish to learn?" She cocked her head and I nodded my head so hard I would've toppled forward had she not had a hold of my face.
She smiled softly. "You're so eager sweet one."
I smiled at her, the feelings of fear washed away with her soft words. Why had I been afraid in the first place? Oh right pain but she'd said they would go together and surely I wouldn't derive pleasure from having my flesh singed right? Right, I decided a moment later as her hands left my head and slowly went to the belt of her robe. She opened it with her small delicate fingers and the fabric parted revealing her smooth olive toned skin to my hungry eyes.
I swallowed feeling my mouth dry again at the sight. She was so beautiful and perfect and I was going to be allowed to touch her? My fingers tingled as I resisted the urge to just reach out and slide my fingers along her skin. I knew subconsciously that she hadn't given me permission to touch her yet but oh how I wanted to. I had only the vaguest idea of the mechanics but I was anxious to learn, anxious for her to teach me what would make her cry out in pleasure.
Slowly she shifted and parted her thighs and I moaned at the sight. I felt her fingers sliding through my hair and it registered in my foggy brain that they had been there the entire time I'd been staring at her. She urged my forward and I did as she silently commanded. I took a breath and let out a soft breathy moan. I couldn't help myself really. She smelled so good. Sort of musky and light mixed with a bit of jasmine soap she usually used. It was completely addicting.
"Kiss me." She commanded.
I did as she commanded sliding my lips along her wet silky folds. I was thrilled at being allowed this close to her.
She allowed my tender caresses for a moment before she spoke again sounding a bit more breathless now. I liked the way it sounded immediately and wanted to hear her that way often.
"Part your lips and use your tongue."
I did as she asked, allowing my tongue to dart out. I moaned into her flesh at the taste. She tasted even better than I could've ever dreamed of. Almost like the apples she consumed daily with a bit of spice. I was unsure of what I was supposed to do but I noticed she reacted differently when I focused on the apex of her sex and not on the surrounding area. My tongue lapped at the moist flesh I found as I listened attentively to her soft keening moans. I must've been doing something right I figured. I decided to experiment a bit using short swipes of my tongue and judging those reactions against long lavish licks. She clearly liked the short swipes better since her hands tightened in my hair and her back arched ever so slightly.
I closed my eyes losing myself in my ministrations. I couldn't believe I was being allowed to do this to her. I had longed to touch her for so long that now that I was here on my knees before her I was unsure of how to feel. Thinking would just have to be done later, after the buzzing in my mind had been settled. I wasn't as dumb as people seemed to think I was back then. I knew enough to know that my reaction to her pleasure was beyond anything normal. I could feel my own cheeks flushing as my breathing increased. My excitement paralleled her own as it climbed and climbed. Her cries grew longer, more rhythmic before everything shattered in my world as she released a loud scream.
I gasped as spots appeared on the edges of my vision as she slowly pulled my head away from her. She arched a brow at me and I whimpered unsure of what had happened. All I knew was I felt completely boneless and my mind was buzzing. I blinked at her waiting on her reaction before she released a laugh.
I blinked wondering what she was laughing at.
"Did you come pet? Just from kissing my sex?"
I cocked my head wondering what she meant by that before I figured out it must have been the sensation I had experienced that she was speaking about. I nodded my head, looking down suddenly feeling ashamed of my body's reaction to hers.
She was still smiling when she lifted my wet chin to look at her. "Well aren't you just a delightful little creature. I'm going to enjoy ravishing you thoroughly my little pet."
I shivered at her tone but I couldn't help the reaction of my body. I wanted to lean forward and bury my face in her sex again but she kept her hand on my chin preventing me from leaning forward.
"Stand up pet. And lace your hands back behind your neck with your elbows straight just like I asked earlier." She released my face and I rose to my feet assuming the position she'd told me to. Slowly she rose to her feet and I couldn't stop my eyes from wandering over her body which was still exposed through the wide part of her robe, it wasn't even that the robe hid anything to begin with really but having her skin displayed to me only made my own hunger to please her again grow. She continued to walk around me as I breathed slowly through my nose trying to ignore the scent of her that continued to cling to my skin.
She slid around behind me and I felt her body press against mine. I gasped as I felt her hands slide around my body. I couldn't help as I leaned back slightly against her smaller body. Her hands went up caressing my breasts and I sighed and bit my lip to hold back my whimper when her fingers plucked my nipples. I moaned softly when her fingers pinched none too gently. She laughed and continued her ministrations. I felt the seeping wetness flowing out of my body with just her touch to my breasts. I couldn't believe how good that felt. I whimpered and sucked my stomach in when her hands trailed down to my stomach. She caressed me for a few moments before her hands slid lower. I gasped when I felt one of her small hands cup my wet sex. My hips thrust willingly into her touch and I blushed brightly turning my head down and away as though she could see my face and my burning cheeks. My body's reactions were just that, my body's. I knew had I been able to think straight I wouldn't have reacted that way but I couldn't help myself. Her touch felt too good.
She laughed sounding delighted at my reaction. "That's a good little girl." She murmured, "Don't you worry. You'll get your pleasure…at the end of the night. After all we've got a long way to go before we allow that to happen."
I shivered at her words, wondering if she would actually hold true to them or not. I had no way of knowing and I wasn't sure I truly wanted to find out.
