Love me please. I know I annoyed you with this really stupid comment. I got your hopes up and then what? This shit. So I'm sorry. Please do not kill me. I'm hopefully going to have a lot this next week, so virtual hugs are greatly appreciated. This is going to be very short, but I need to get my groove back. And hopefully I'll get in a sex scene!

Chapter 8

Aftermath

I don't really remember anything after that. I was so shocked by what had happened. I became numb and all details seemed to fade. I was just a blob for a month, going in and out of school, going to basketball, and avoiding everyone. Honestly, I really avoided everyone. After that incident with Matt, I was afraid he was going to tell everyone. Of course, if he told everyone, then everyone would know that he had gay sex, but still, I was deathly afraid. I had no idea how Matt would react. He's known to gloat, and even though it does destroy his masculinity, he did pound my ass pretty hard.

Speaking of which, I couldn't stop thinking about my escapade with Matt. I thought before I was a horny hormone-ridden teenager, but good God my cock was nearly always hard. I'm not kidding you, I'd be sitting in math, and then suddenly I'd remember Matt and his hard muscles surrounding me, his soft and sweaty skin rubbing hard against me as I felt every inch of his cock in my ass as he slammed into my prostate, sending me way over the edge. In English, I was hot and flustered while learning about pronouns. I couldn't help it. He was always in my mind, that image always flooding my brain. I couldn't help what I was thinking and it was way too much. It was hard not to touch myself while doing labs in biology.

And if I thought I was in love with Matt before, that was nothing. It was full on then. I was pretty much obsessed with him now. It was like that sex brought us even closer together. I was nearly stalking him, closely following him from where he couldn't see me. I was following him everywhere, making sure he was alright. I got very jealous whenever he went near a girl, and when he went near another guy, I had to hold onto the wall so that I wouldn't rip their heads off. I didn't even want to, I subconsciously followed him everywhere, but making sure to stay a far enough distance. I wanted to stop this, but I couldn't and I hated myself for it.

And to make things even worse, my parents were going to break up. Yep. My mom flipped when my dad said what he said. She said she couldn't be married to a gay man. My father tried to explain everything, saying that it was just an experiment and that it meant nothing, but she just wouldn't listen to him. So my mom wanted to get a divorce, which was tearing me apart. I thought it was all my fault, which just made things worse. I thought that my life was just one big screwup and absolutely everything about it was my fault. My best friend wouldn't go near me and I was tearing my family apart. I couldn't believe what was happening to me and just wanted to know why God would punish me so.

My life was out of control. I couldn't stop what was happening to me, but luckily, this was pretty much the worst thing that happened to me yet. After this giant dip, things started to get better, but it took such a long time to get back to happiness. I was just in a state of depression for so long.

God damn, that was incredibly short. I'm sorry for that. I would have written more, but sorry, unless I get a huge swarm of reviews, I...have sort of given up on this story. I mean I know where this is going to go, but I don't know how. There is a sort of foggy area from here to the next sex scene. Yes, I calculate where I am in my story by where I am in sex scenes. So please, forgive me, and help me get my groove back! REVIEW! GIVE ME INSPIRATION IN TIME OF NEED! This chapter was crap, so hopefully it will get MUCH better!

And you know what could help me? Go to this place and comment on my forum! www . fanfiction .net/forum/Official_ResDes2_Forum/58913/ I had to space it out because for some reason the entire thing will let it there. I have no idea, but it wouldn't let me have the beginning??? Anyway, be sure to take out the spaces if you copy and paste. And if you want more, then I want you to go on this forum and talk like crazy. Please, I want to talk to people on my forum, so please do this!!! Thank you, and I'll try to get more out. I've been uber busy, so...