AN:I'm sorry it took me so long to write this chapter. I feel terrible that life got in the way preventing me from writing. That being said, I am glad I am finally finished. This is the first multi-chapter fanfiction I have ever finished and that makes me extremely happy and it gives me hope that I will be able to finish my other stories as well. Without further ado, I present chapter eight. Enjoy. Kayce
Warning: Contains Sex
Chapter Eight- Love and Hope
I just about cursed myself when I saw Len's eyes widen after I told him I needed him. I was about to pull away when the blonde beneath me pulled me down for another kiss and I happily obliged and kissed him back. I ran my tongue along his lower lip again and I made a pleased sound when he parted his lips allowing me entrance.
I slid my tongue into his mouth and I explored his mouth before I playfully pushed his tongue back with mine. I was pleased to hear a moan come from Len. I broke the kiss and I saw Len was flushed and panting softly.
"Are you sure about this Len?" I asked him gently. I wanted to do this but I didn't want him to force himself.
"I am sure," He said with honestly in his eyes.
"If you want to stop at all just tell me ok?" I said softly and he nodded. I leaned down once more and I started to gently kiss him again taking care to be gentle and to go slow. I ran my hands along his slender sides and I moved my hands back up again and I felt him shiver underneath me. I slid one hand under his shirt and I gently stroked his stomach as I broke the kiss for air and to gauge his reaction. Len looked a little unsure about my hand being on his stomach but after a few minutes of me just gently stroking his skin, I felt him start to relax.
I continued to just gently stroke Len's stomach not wanting to startle him by doing too much too quickly. I shifted slightly after a few moments to gently nuzzle his neck before I kissed his soft skin. I was pleased to hear a gasp be followed by a soft moan. I continued to gently kiss his neck and I smiled into his skin when he tilted his head to the side in a silent plea for more.
I gently nipped the pale skin being careful not to be too rough with Len. I heard his breath hitch and I hesitated wondering if I had gone too far when I felt a hand gently press my head down pressing my face into his neck and I gently nibbled on the skin. I was pleased to hear a moan come from Len.
I slowly moved my hand lower down Len's stomach and I felt his body tense and I stopped.
"You doing ok?" I asked gently as I pulled away from Len's neck to look down at his face.
"Y-yeah," I heard him say somewhat shakily and I wasn't entirely sure.
"We can stop if this is too much for you," I said gently. "I don't want you to feel like we have to do this."
"NO!" Len said loud and firm and I looked at him startled and I watched as he blushed and looked away. "I mean..I want to," he said softly. I smiled and I kissed the side of his head.
"Alright," I said softly and I resumed stroking his lower stomach gently. I was pleased to feel him relax once more. I gently kissed and nibbled his neck taking care not to leave a mark as I continued to gently stroke his stomach. I gently pulled on the edge of his shirt wanting it off but I was going to wait for permission.
I pulled away and I looked down at Len when he didn't respond and I saw his confused look and I chuckled softly at his innocence.
"Can I take your shirt off?" I asked softly giving him the option to say no. I saw Len nod and I smiled reassuringly as I started to pull his shirt up and he sat up slightly allowing me to pull it off the rest of the way.
I hummed softly in approval as I stared at the newly exposed skin. I was pleased to see that his bruises had faded and the cuts were barely visible. I was glad it appeared that he wouldn't have scars. I gently ran a hand up and down his chest as I gently pushed him down, and I carefully watched Len. Other than a brief moment of tensing, he seemed to be relaxed. I moved my hand so my fingers gently brushed over one of his pale and dusky nipples and I was pleased to hear the sound that came from him.
I continued to gently run my fingers over the little nub before I started to roll it between my fingers and I was pleased to hear Len mewl and I gently pinched the hardening nub. I smirked when his chest arched slightly and I shifted taking the other nipple in my mouth and I lavished it with my tongue drawing another mewl from him.
I continued to play with Len's nipples until he was panting and whimpering from these new sensations and I pulled away and I grinned down at him. I moved my hand to the waist band of his pants asking for permission and I was pleased when Len lifted his hips.
I slowly unbuttoned and unzipped them and I slowly slid his pants down leaving him in his underwear. I saw the dark blush on Len's face and I chuckled softly. "You are just too cute," I said softly as I tossed his pants somewhere to the side.
"It's not fair," I heard Len say and I looked up at him a little confused.
"What's not fair?" I asked him and I was confused to see his blush darken even more.
"You..you have more clothes on than me," Len replied. I looked at him confused for a moment before I chuckled softly.
"Alright then, I'll make it a little more fair," I said. I sat back and I started to pull my shirt over my head and I threw that to the side as well. I watched Len sit up slightly as he looked at me and I gave him a small smile. "You can touch me if you want," I said gently and I saw him nod.
I was still as he reached out and gently ran his fingers along my chest and I shivered slightly at his light touches. I saw Len's hesitant look and I gave him a reassuring smile and he looked back at his hand as he continued to touch me.
I was content to let Len do this and I was startled when he suddenly kissed me but I quickly kissed back. I put my hands on his waist as I pulled him into me and I held him close. I slowly started to lean him back and without breaking the kiss so I had him lying under me again. I started to stroke his lower stomach again waiting for him to relax and when he had, I moved my hand to one of his thighs and I gently stroked the skin wanting him to relax.
I broke the kiss and I looked down at him wanting to make sure he was doing ok and I wasn't rushing him. I gently nuzzled his neck again before I started to trail kisses down his chest and I made my way to his stomach. When I reached his belly button I swirled my tongue in his navel and I loved the sound I heard come from Len. I continued to kiss my way lower and I stopped at the waistband of his underwear and I looked up at him.
"Do you want me to continue?" I asked him softly. "I am willing to stop if you want to."
"I..want to keep going," Len said and I smiled gently at him. I hooked my fingers in the waistband of his underwear giving him the option of telling me to stop but he lifted his hips instead and I removed his last article of clothing and I tossed it to the side. I heard Len squeak as he quickly covered himself and I gently moved his hands and he allowed me. I saw him drape and arm over his eyes hiding from me.
I hesitated a moment not sure if he wanted me to keep going or not but I gently wrapped my hand around his soft cock and I gently and slowly started to stroke him. I shivered hearing the moan that came from Len. I continued this slow pace and I could feel him starting to harden as his body responded to my touches. I heard Len start to pant softly as I stroked him a little harder and faster.
"Kaito please," I heard Len beg and I shifted and I took him into my mouth and I started to suck gently. Len let out a strangled cry as he arched up into my mouth and I put a hand on his waist as I gently held him down and I continued to suck on him. I loved the sounds that Len was making as I continued to suck on him and I could tell he was getting close from the way his cock was pulsing and from the needy sounds that were being made.
"Kaito..I..feel," I heard Len start to say before he let out a moan and I hummed softly knowing exactly what he was about to say. I heard him cry out loudly as he came in my mouth and I swallowed everything before pulling away and I looked down at Len. I saw him panting heavily with closed eyes and his face was flushed which I thought was adorable. My own cock throbbed with need but I ignored it for now wanting to make sure Len was doing ok.
"You ok Len?" I asked softly as I looked down at him concerned. I saw blue eyes open part way as he gave me a small, tired smiled and he nodded. I smiled gently down at him as I gently stroked his cheek. I knew he would probably need a few moments to catch his breath. I knew this had been done to him before and it made me angry knowing my brother had hurt him.
"Kaito?" I looked up startled hearing my name and I looked at Len. I was concerned when I saw his scared look.
"What's wrong Len?" I asked suddenly worried. I heard him tell me I had a scary look on my face and I looked away. I told him it was nothing and I shifted and I kissed him gently once more trying to distract him and I was pleased it seemed to work.
I broke the kiss and I watched as he panted softly. I sat up and I opened a drawer in my nightstand and I grabbed the bottle of lube before I closed it and I looked back at Len with a serious expression.
"Do you know what this is?" I asked him gently and I wasn't surprised when he shook his head. "This is lubrication, it's to make..penetration easier." I opened the cap and I squirted some on my hand and I rubbed my fingers in it. I held eye contact with him and I gently rubbed his entrance with one lube coated finger. I felt him shiver and I saw fear in his eyes and I pulled my hand away. "I guess it is too soon," I said gently and I moved to get off the bed so I could wipe my hand off. I was surprised when I felt a hand grab one of my wrists and I looked at Len confused.
"I-I want to try," he said blushing darkly and I smiled gently at him.
"If you are sure," I said gently and I gently pushed him back down and I gently rubbed his entrance again. I felt him stiffen and I was about to remove my finger when he nodded. I waited a few moments before I slowly and gently started to press my finger into him.
I felt Len tense up completely and I felt his body clamp down around the tip of my finger and I stopped moving it. I looked up at him and I saw a mix of emotions swirling around in his blue eyes. I wondered if we should in fact stop but I hear Len tell me to continue and I hesitated before I started to gently push my finger in. I stopped when I had up to my first knuckle in deciding to give him a few moments to adjust before I continued
He was still very tense and I really didn't blame him after everything he had been through. I still wasn't really sure if I should even be doing this with him even though months had passed and he had been the one to ask me as well. I wasn't completely convinced he was ready to go all the way yet, however I was willing to at least try and grant his request.
I felt his body start to slowly relax around my finger and I slowly and carefully slid my finger in half way before stopping once more to give him a moment to adjust again.
"It..it feels weird," I heard Len say and I looked at him as I smiled slightly.
"It will feel weird and it will hurt," I said honestly. I knew due to being raped he had been in a lot of pain and I wanted to avoid that. "With that being said, it can also feel really good." I smiled down at him. "I know you experienced…pain due to Taito but sex can feel really good when it is done right." I felt bad when I saw Len flinch at the mention of my brother and what had happened months ago but I wanted him to know it could feel good.
"Let me show you how good it can feel," I said gently and I took advantage of him being relaxed and distracted and I slid my finger the rest of the way into him. I made soft soothing sounds hearing his whimper. I didn't move my finger until his body had completely relaxed around my finger. "Are you ready?" I asked softly wanting to make sure he was ready before I did anything more.
"Y-yeah," I hear him say softly. I leaned down and I kissed him as I started to slowly move my finger. I pulled my finger back a little before I slowly and gently pushed it back in. I allowed Len to break the kiss and I watched him carefully wanting to make sure I didn't push him too far.
Eventually I pulled my finger out half way before I pushed in back into him and I continued this slow and gentle pace for a while until I felt he was ready and I moved my whole finger back and forth inside of him. I continued to watch him carefully and I wasn't sure how I felt about that.
"I'm ok," I heard him say softly just as I was about to ask. I smiled at him and I leaned down and kissed him. I used the distraction to pull my finger back so only the tip was in and I very carefully added a second finger. I only pushed my fingers in to the first knuckle and I made soft soothing sounds as he whimpered into the kiss. I pulled away and I frowned seeing tears in his eyes.
"I'm sorry Len," I said softly and I gently wiped his tears away.
"It's ok," he said gently as he smiled weakly up at me. "I know you aren't hurting me on purpose."
"I'm trying to be careful Len, I really am," I said honestly and I was concerned. "Unfortunately until you and your body gets used to this, it will hurt every time." I blushed faintly as I told him this and I saw him blush darkly as well.
I loved Len a lot, and the thought of him being with someone else angered me greatly, but I knew someday he would most likely want to be with someone else and I knew it would hurt me a lot but I would let him go. I wanted to keep him to myself but I wanted him to be happy and if he was happy with someone other than me, then I would let him go.
"Kaito?"
I was pulled from my thoughts hearing my name and I looked down at him.
"Are you ok?" I heard him ask me and I looked at him confused.
"I'm fine why?" I asked curiously
"Well…you were lost in thought," he said slowly. "You looked like you were in pain." I wasn't really sure what to tell him so I smiled weakly at him.
"I..was just thinking," I said softly not sure how to tell him the truth. I was afraid I would lose him. "Don't worry about it," I said gently seeing his mouth open and I had a feeling of what he was going to ask me. This wasn't something I really wanted to talk about much less with Len and now wasn't exactly the time either.
I realized his body had mostly relaxed around my fingers and I very carefully pushed both fingers in half way. I felt his body tense up again and I knew this would take a while but I was willing to be patient and slow for his sake.
I held my fingers still until he was ready and I slowly and carefully slid them in the rest of the way and I made an apologetic sound hearing Len hiss and I knew I needed to distract him. I reached up with my free hand and I slowly ran my hand along his outer thigh before I moved my hand up to his waist and across his chest. I allowed my fingers to brush over one of his nipples and I was pleased to hear him gasp.
I started to gently pinch the dusky nub like I had been earlier and I heard him moan softly. I continued to gently pinch his nipple before I leaned down and I started to lick his neglected nipple. I heard him mewl and I shivered slightly loving it when he made that sound and I started to suck on the little nub and I hummed softly feeling it harden slightly. I continued to pinch his other nipple before pulling on it gently and I felt him arch up into my touch and I smirked around his nipple.
I was pleased to know that my distraction seemed to be working as his body had mostly relaxed around my two fingers. I gently pulled on his nipple with my teeth as I slowly started to move my fingers inside of him trying to keep him distracted as I prepared him. I felt him tense slightly but he quickly relaxed as I started to suck on his nipple.
I moaned softly feeling his fingers tangle in my hair and I moaned again when he tugged on my hair. He was soon panting and I was glad he seemed distracted. I released the abused nub and I moved to the one that had been occupied by my fingers. I slowly slid my hand down his chest and I gently wrapped my fingers around his cock. It did not escape my notice that he had hardened slightly but I knew that could easily change if I wasn't careful. I started to stroke him as I started to slowly move my fingers inside of him. I heard a faint pained sound but it quickly became a moan when I sucked on his nipple hard and gently squeezed his cock at the same time
I could feel him hardening in my hand as I continued to stroke him and I was most pleased. I continued to slowly and gently move my fingers until he had adjusted enough and I carefully started to make a scissoring motion with my fingers trying to stretch him out. I heard him whine faintly but he seemed to be doing ok. I stroked him faster and I pulled my mouth away from his nipple and I moaned softly when he tugged on my hair.
I started to spread my finger and make a scissoring motion when he was ready and he was silent this time. I could see the pain in his eyes and I gave him a questioning look wondering if he wanted me to keep going or not. He gave me a reassuring look and I nodded before I leaned down and I kissed him and I made a soft sound when he kissed me back.
I shivered but was pleased when I felt his tongue run along my lower lip and I made a soft encouraging sound as I parted my lips allowing him the entrance that he sought. He hesitated a few moments before he slowly slid his tongue into my mouth and I made an encouraging sound as I continued to gently spread my fingers inside of him stretching him out.
I moaned softly feeling his tongue brush against mine as I shivered. I felt him grip my hair tighter as I angled my fingers searching for that spot that I knew would bring him pleasure. I gently thrust my fingers in and out of him as I tried to find that spot and I bent my fingers slightly and when he threw back his head breaking the kiss and crying out loudly, I knew I had found that spot inside of him. I started to gently rub that spot with my fingers and he body trembled as he moaned and made sounds of pleasure.
While he was distracted by the pleasure I carefully added a third finger. The faint sound of discomfort he made did not escape my notice but I wasn't too horribly concerned as it quickly became a moan. I continued to rub that spot inside of him and I started to stroke him again and I timed my strokes in time with my rubbing.
Len was quickly reduced to a panting and moaning mess and his hands fell from my hair and I was a little disappointed but I gave no indication of this. I watched as he fisted the sheets by his head with both hands and the sight was truly a turn on. I loved the sight of him panting and blushing like that with his bright blue eyes glazed by pleasure.
"K-Kaito." I shivered hearing the way he whined my name and I looked down at him. "I f-feel so h-hot," he said in between his pants. "I feel like I'm going to explode."
"Good," I purred softly knowing that meant he was going to come soon. I had no idea what all Taito had done to him so I didn't know if he had felt any pleasure at all or if it was all just pain. I had my suspicions but I would never ask him about them figuring he would tell me if he wanted to and when he was ready. "Just let it go."
"KAITO!" He yelled as he came his body arching and I was pleased by the sight. I loved how his body had arched up as he came but I love his face even more as it was a look of pure bliss. I watched as he collapsed back on to the bed and he lay there panting heavily. I slowly pulled my fingers out from inside of him and his body clamped down around my fingers and I groaned at the thought of being inside of him. He was still tight despite carefully stretching and I looked back up at him when his breathing slowly started to slow down.
"How are you feeling?" I asked softly. He looked he had felt really good and enjoyed it but I wasn't sure if he really enjoyed it.
"T-that felt really g-good," he said softly in between his pants and I smiled gently at him. He looked really tired and I had a feeling he needed to rest and was most likely ready to go to sleep. I was so hard it was painful but I wasn't about to say anything and I decided I would take care of the problem myself as I didn't want him to feel like he had to do anything. I sat up and I wiped my fingers off on my pants to wipe the lube off. I smiled gently down at him seeing his curious look.
"Just rest," I said gently as I leaned down and I gently kissed his forehead.
"What about you?" He asked sleepily and I gave him a smile.
"Don't worry about me," I said gently as I brushed some hair from his face. "I'll take care of it myself."
"But," I heard him say before yawning and I smiled thinking he was adorable.
"Just rest Len," I said gently as I brushed some hair from his face and I smiled down at him.
"N-no," he protested and he sat up slightly. "I want to do this." I was surprised to see the determined look in his eyes and I smiled slightly.
"Very well," I said gently and I got off the bed and I stood up so I could remove my pants and underwear. I looked at Len and I saw he was staring and blushing darkly. "See something you like?" I asked teasingly and I saw him blush even darker.
I climbed back on to the bed and I knelt over him and I grabbed the bottle of lube again. I squirted a more than generous amount into my hand and I took care to lube myself up properly. I moaned softly as I stroked the lube onto my cock and I coated my fingers again. I pressed two fingers to his entrance this time and I saw Len's curious look.
"I want to make sure I stretched you properly," I said gently and I was surprised when Len shook his head.
"I'm fine Kaito," he said blushing. "I..I want you." I felt my own face heat up when I heard him say that and I leaned down and I gently kissed him. I shifted so I was sitting between his legs and I gently grabbed his hips and pulled him up against me.
I was about to ask him if he was sure about this again when I saw him glare at me and I knew he was sure. I grabbed my cock and I lined myself up at his entrance and I slowly started to push into him. I heard Len's sound of pain and I stopped when the head of my cock was in him and I could have groaned. He was so hot and tight around me it was taking all my self-control to not thrust into him right away and take him hard and fast. I wasn't my brother and I was going to do my best to make this a positive experience for Len.
I kissed Len gently again before I moved to his neck and I nipped his skin gently trying to help distract him as I slowly pushed in some more. I made a soothing sound when I heard his sound of discomfort and I pushed in half way before pausing giving him time to adjust.
"You doing ok Len?" I asked softly even though I had a feeling of his answer.
"It..hurts," he said and I made a soft apologetic sound. "But it's not unbearable..it..doesn't hurt like it did before." I was surprised when he cupped my face and pulled me down for a kiss and I happily complied. I gently nipped his lower lip and I was most pleased when he parted his lips for me. I wasted no time in sliding my tongue into his mouth and I explored the wet cavern once again.
I slid the rest of the way into Len when his body relaxed and his eyed closed against the pain he obviously felt. I gently bit his neck trying to offer a small distraction from the pain so I reached down and I gently started to stroke his cock again and I heard his weak moan. I continued to stoke him and I was struggling to hold back the urge to start moving. He was so hot and tight around me and his quivering body wasn't helping.
It was hard to stay still but I forced myself to wait for Len's ok. I felt Len rock his hips slightly and I groaned softly at the feeling. I forced myself to hold still a little bit longer before I pulled out slightly and I pushed back in, barely moving wanting to give him time to adjust. I continued this slow and gentle pace before I pulled out halfway before I thrust back in. I heard Len make a pained sound and I made a soft apologetic and I leaned down and I gently kissed him. I felt his tongue run across my lips and I happily parted them for him. He shyly slid his tongue into my mouth and I made a soft encouraging sound letting him know he was doing fine.
I pulled out more before pushing back in and I set a slow and steady pace as I pulled out most of the way before thrusting back into him. I was taking great care not to hurt him. I felt guilty seeing a few tears leak from Len's eyes and I made an apologetic sound and I kissed away his tears.
"I'm fine," Len said weakly and I gave him a small smile and I continued my gentle thrusts.
"You're doing a good job," I said gently. I shifted slightly and I pulled him closer to me. I felt him wrap his legs loosely around my waist and I continued to move carefully and slowly. I sped up the pace slightly feeling his body mostly relax around me and I was very pleased to hear him moan softly and I knew the pain was fading and he was starting to feel pleasure.
"K-Kaito," I heard him softly moan my name and I sped up the pace a little more and I thrusted just a little harder into him but not much and I was pleased to hear him moan again.
I continued to slowy increase my speed and I slowly thrusted harder and faster into him again as well causing Len to be a panting and moaning mess underneath me. I shifted slightly as I angled my thrusts looking for that spot inside of him and I was pleased when I heard Len cry out loud in pleasure.
"Kaito..please" I heard him beg and I smirked slightly.
"As you wish Len," I purred and I quickly started thrusting into him harder and faster making sure to hit that spot dead on. He was crying out in pleasure underneath me and I was getting even more turned on. I could feel his body clamping tightly down around me so I didn't think it would be much longer before he came.
I felt him grip my waist tighter with his legs and he pulled me closer forcing me even deeper inside of him and I was pleased to hear him cry out my name. I heard him try to speak but his words were jumbled and I had a feeling I knew what it was he was trying to tell me.
"Just let it go Len," I said into his ear when I leaned down slightly. "I want you to come for me." I thrust harder into him as I reached down with one hand and I started to stroke him in time with my thrusts. I moaned feeling him tightly grip my hair and pull on it.
"KAITO!" Len screamed as he came all over my hand and our chests, his small body arching up into mine. His body became even tighter and I didn't think I could last much longer. I thrust into him several more times before I came inside of him with a groan and it too all I had not to collapse on top of him.
"I'm sorry Len," I said softly looking down at him and I saw his eyes open half way and I saw he was tired. "I didn't mean to come inside of you."
"I don't mind," he said sleepily before he yawned. "It makes me feel closer to you." I smiled and gently kissed his forehead and I wasn't surprised when he drifted off to sleep mumbling that he loved me.
I waited for his body to relax and when it had I carefully pulled out of Len's body. I heard his faint sound of discomfort and I made a soft soothing sound before I carefully got off the bed. I went into the bathroom and I grabbed a washcloth before getting it wet and I quickly cleaned myself off, before I rewet it and I carefully cleaned Len off.
I threw the towel in the hamper before I took off the top blanket and I threw that to the side as well before climbing in bed to lay down next to my blonde lover. I pulled the rest of the blankets up and over us before pulling him close to me. I heard the soft sound he made and I smiled softly before I gently kissed his forehead.
"I love you too Len," I said softly before I closed my eyes and I too fell asleep feeling completely satisfied.
The End
