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SILVER POV:
"You're my best friend Silver. I don't want to lose you…" she heard him say.
Silver could feel the truth in those words. They pierced through all the pent-up hostility she had been storing for the past month. Teddy knew her; he knew just what to tell her to get her guard down and it freaked her out. Their faces were so close now she could hear his breathing syncing with hers and her heart was beating so loudly she hoped Teddy couldn't hear it pounding in her chest. It felt perfect, standing here. The waves crashing, her hand on his chest, their closeness…
She couldn't hold his gaze any longer and had to look down, knowing exactly what would happen if she hadn't. Silver couldn't let this happen. She and Teddy weren't supposed to be together. She and Dixon had been easy and comfortable. Teddy was difficult, irritating, arrogant, stubborn, insufferable…but she couldn't forget how she felt about him.
She had been wrong about Teddy and Silver could admit that but it didn't matter. Even though those last few words had made her heart flutter, it didn't make a difference. Silver was Dixon's girlfriend, and she couldn't just leave him for some fling. Although she was sure Teddy meant those words now, she didn't know how long he would feel that way. Teddy wasn't a relationship guy and Silver was a relationship girl.
Silver looked back up again and saw Teddy's eyes were shut. While she wished she could stand there forever, she knew what she had to do. Backing away from his body slowly, she looked at him as he opened his eyes giving her a knowing but anxious stare. As she continued to back away, he reached for her arm and she brushed his away quickly while turning around to walk back towards her car.
"Silver, wait. Where are you going?" he asked, sounding as if he already knew the answer.
"I've got to get out of here" she replied, continuing to walk away.
You just have to make it to the car Silver.
"Wait!" he pleaded, grasping at her arm.
"No. Let me go."
"Not until you tell me where you're going" If she was going to leave him, Silver knew he wasn't going to make it easy. She felt him tighten his hold on her hand.
"Let me go, Teddy." She said, yanking her hand out of his grasp, "I have to go."
"Why? Silver, look at me." Teddy asked with a growing urgency to his voice "You're going to see Dixon, aren't you?" he paused just staring at her, his intent look sent shivers down her spine "After what I just told you, you're just going to leave me here and go to him?" He asked the last question so directly, without emotion, Silver almost couldn't hear the heartbreak in his voice. But despite the fact Teddy was attempting to cover it, she knew him better than that.
"Teddy, please just let me go. I don't–"
"Silver…" the defeated tone in his voice made her stop. "Please don't leave. I think I've fallen in–"
"Don't. Don't say that." she cut him off abruptly. She didn't want him to say something he didn't mean. Silver didn't think she could handle hearing those things from him just to have him take it back in a few days.
"Why shouldn't I? It's the truth." Teddy said the words with so much certainty that it made Silver catch her breath. Silver shook her head, focusing her eyes on the ground then shifting them upward to face Teddy's intense stare. She knew she had to say something to make him let her go. Silver couldn't stay there one second longer, she didn't trust herself.
She tried to convince herself that Teddy didn't mean it. At the end of the day, she told herself, they were only words. She turned away from him again and headed towards her car. She had to leave while she still had the strength to. Without saying a word she continued walking to her car.
TEDDY POV:
"Silver!" He yelled to her as she walked to the car. "Silver, wait! Silver, come on…just stay here with me!" he shouted as he jogged to catch up with her. She didn't slow her pace and he recognized that determination now present in her facial expression. He didn't have much time to stop her. If she reached that car, he knew it was over.
"Erin… stop!" Catching up to her, he slowed his pace, grabbing her arm and spinning her around to face him. Before he could stop, Teddy found himself moving her closer towards him. He tightened his grasp around her forearms as he pulled her body close to his. Not letting go, he looked into her eyes.
He could see the worry but there was something else. In that second, Teddy recognized the uncertainty in her eyes, almost begging him to kiss her but also pleading him to stop. He wasn't going to stop though. No way was this girl going to get to leave him without a fight. As his lips came crashing down on hers, he felt that spark again – the spark that was there when they kissed each time before and he knew she felt it too. And even though she resisted at first, she kissed him back.
He felt her body relaxing into his as the kiss grew longer. As she did, Teddy moved his arms from hers and placed them around her waist, pulling her closer into him. He didn't know how long the kiss lasted but suddenly, he felt Silver push softly against his chest ending the moment. Out of breath, he kept his eyes closed, placing his forehead against hers and began to plead with her.
"Don't…just…don't go to him. Stay here with me. Don't leave." Teddy relaxed his hold around her and backed away ever so slightly so he could see Silver's eyes.
Without saying a word, Silver dropped her arms and turned towards her car. Turning her back to him, Teddy saw she was flustered as she searched for her keys.
Well, the kiss worked…kind of. It's now or never, Teddy. Say something to make her stay.
"Erin don't leave. If you leave again…I can't wait for you. Silver, I'm not going to wait around for you." He knew it was a lie but he had to say something to try to make her stay.
"Then don't" she said as she finally pulled her keys out of her purse.
"Silver" he asked moving between her and the car door. "I know I can do this." Silver pushed past him and he watched her place her keys in the car door. "I want to do this. I want to be with you. Just give me a chance." Teddy asked. Silver kept her back towards him and Teddy watched her stop moving and her shoulders rose and fell as she took a deep breath.
"I know you believe that now" she said, turning to face him "but I can't help wondering if you'll still feel that way in a week, or hell, if you'll even feel that way in a month. I know you want to love me but I don't know if you will Teddy. You've never been that kind of guy. I can't just throw everything away because you think you mightbe able to do this. Just please…let me go." She begged turning to leave.
Her final words struck Teddy hard. Just like Teddy knew how to make Silver drop her guard, Silver knew just how to make Teddy crumble. He didn't entirely blame her for not believing him. He really hadn't ever been the stable relationship guy but Teddy knew it was only because he had never met anyone like Silver before. But what she said hurt him and he realized there was nothing he could do.
She had made up her mind and when Silver made up her mind, that was that. It was up to her now. He couldn't make her trust him. He backed away from her slowly. He could feel the color leave his face as he watched her open the car door. She slammed it shut and started the car. All Teddy could do was stand there, knowing he had to let her go. This was her decision now, not his, and she hadn't picked him.
As she drove away, her words soaked in further. The words pained him much more than he had expected. In that moment, as she drove away, Teddy knew it was over. Silver had chosen Dixon over him. And although he knew if Silver ever wanted to be with him, he would come running in an instant, he knew it wouldn't happen. She had made up her mind and he couldn't do anything to stop her.
Walking back towards the beach, Teddy picked up a stone. Eyeing it for a moment, he saw his reflection on its damp surface. He looked like crap, absolute crap. It was amazing how that girl affected him. Looking at the rock for the last time, he chucked it into the ocean with all the rage behind the throw he could gather, knowing that Silver was gone.
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