Asdfghjkl! Fangirling right now because of this chapter lol. Chapter 9 will go back to before when Jennel got eliminated, so my Demena fans will be happy again. Leave reviews, they really do mean a lot. Enjoy my lovelies(:
Demi's Pov
"That was it. After that we just stopped talking. It wasn't till she started having problems with Justin that we started talking again. Things aren't the same between us, they will never be the same. We still try to act like nothing happened, but this time we aren't trying to fix things. As much as I think we need to, I kind of don't want to." I get up and she looks at me confused. I start walking and she follows after me. I know I'm gonna break down even more, I've already let my guard down so much today. I'm just so weak, I've overcome my addictions, but I can't get over a friendship that probably means nothing to Selena anymore.
"Demi, wait." I don't stop walking, I let her chase after me. I just need to cool down, I really don't wanna keep crying.
Jennel's Pov
I can't hate her, I don't hate, I'm just mad at Selena. She broke her, yeah Demi was at fault too. Both of them were actually, but Selena didn't hurt as much as Demi did, she didn't go down the wrong path like she did. I kinda wish I hadn't asked, but it's something that's been bugging her. I never thought I'd see her so broken, and I'm stupid enough to let her walk away like that, especially with Selena being here at the same park.
"Demi, wait." I call after her but she just keeps walking. She's so broken right now, and I'm here doing nothing.
"Wait!" I sprint towards her.
"J-jennel I'm sorry. I just can't right now."
"Selena's right there, I can't really do anything about it since you already know she's there. It's best if you just stay here." She looks straight, Selena's sitting under a tree watching us.
"Okay." She walks in the opposite direction, leaving me alone again. I just follow her, I'm not sure what to say. I just wanna have her in my arms and tell her that everything's gonna be fine, that things will get better, but I kinda don't wanna make a scene right now. Surprisingly no one has seen her.
Selena's Pov
Justin had to go back to the hotel, which doesn't surprise me. He's always leaving, but I try to enjoy the time we get to spend together.
I haven't been able to keep my eyes off Demi. She's with a girl, I don't recognize her. I feel like I'm stalking her, I'm a creeper.
Things seem different, I don't know. I can't see their faces, but Demi keeps cuddling into her, and the girl just holds her. She comforting Demi, but why does she need comforting? Demi just leaves the girl and walks away. She's heading in my direction. I know she knows I'm here, I saw her looking in my direction earlier.
She doesn't realize where she's going. Her head is down and she's scratching her wrist. Something happened, she only does that when she's hurting. That other girl better have not hurt her.
"Wait!" She screams as she finally catches up to Demi. They talk and Demi walks the other direction. I wanna be the one comforting her, I could never stand seeing Demi hurt, even if it was my fault sometimes.
The other girl keeps walking in my direction, I doubt she'll say anything to me. Thank God, she's getting ice cream.
"One Spongebob popsicle, and a small lemonade."Whoever she is, she's treating Demi right. Cartoon popsicles are Demi's favorite.
I just sit back and watch her. She's looking around for Demi, I forgot she had kept walking. I see her take her phone out, probably to call her. She walks straight past me, I turn back to see there's a lot more tress back there. I guess that's where Demi is.
"Demi I'm sorry. You sho-."
"No it's fine. It isn't your fault. It's my fault. I deserve it."
"Demi stop this, no it's not. I'm not gonna let you put yourself down. You're better than that and you know it." The girl takes a seat next to Demi, her back hits the tree and I move, I don't wanna be seen. I shouldn't be eavesdropping on their conversation anyway.
"I'm sorry you have to see me like this. I'm just a mess."
"Don't worry about it. I told you before I'm here for you whenever."
"And if you're not? What if you leave me just like she did? I can't go though that again. Selena left me broken, I'm still hurting. I won't go through that again."
"Sorry I had to leave Sel, Scooter needed me to come to a meeting. Is everything okay?"
"No, I'll tell you later. I'm sorry Justin I just wanna be alone."
"I'm here for you whenever babe. You know that." Those words. I can't.
"Jennifer I just, why?"
"You aren't making any sense. Is everything okay, what happened?"
"Demi." That's all I can really say. Everything is just replaying on my mind.
"What about her? Is she okay?"
"Not exactly. I broke her, bad. I was at the park with Justin and she was there with some girl. They were talking and Justin left when I went to go buy ice cream. I just sat under a tree and watched them from there. She was comforting Demi for a while and then Demi got up and left. They went somewhere more private and I just followed after them. Demi was crying. She was blaming herself for everything that happened between us. I just felt horrible. The other girl told her she would be there for her but Demi said she can't go through with that again."
"How do you feel about everything that's happened?"
"I really don't know what to think. I'm just confused. I thought what we had was done, I didn't know she was still hurting. I feel bad for everything. She's blaming herself for everything when it wasn't just her fault but also mine. I just ran away when she told her I broke her. I'm stopping her from getting close to people, I never wanted that to happen. I didn't mean for any of that to happen. I fucked up bad didn't I?"
"I'm sorry Selena. Can I tell you something? I wanna be completely honest without you getting mad at me." That's what happened with Demi and I ended up walking out on her.
"Yeah Jen, go ahead."
"You're my best friend and I love you. I'm gonna always be there for you like I've always been since we met on Wizards. I don't want this to sound harsh, I don't wanna hurt you but it's the truth. You feel bad right now because you want to. You're choosing to feel guilty for hurting her. You walked out on her twice, when she needed you the most. Why do you keep putting yourself down when you can fix things? Maybe things won't be the same between you, but it's a start. Now you know she misses you even after everything you guys went through, why don't you do something about it instead of making yourself feel bad?"
Demi's Pov
She chased after me, maybe things would have been different if I chased after Selena. I'm just hurting again. I deserve this though, I fucked up bad.
"Demi I'm sorry. You sho-." I cut her off.
"No it's fine. It isn't your fault. It's my fault. I deserve it."
"Demi stop this, no it's not. I'm not gonna let you put yourself down. You're better than that and you know it."
"I'm sorry you have to see me like this. I'm just a mess."
"Don't worry about it. I told you before I'm here for you whenever."
"And if you're not? What if you leave me just like she did? I can't go through that again. Selena left me broken, I'm still hurting. I won't go through that again."
"I got you something."
"SPONGEBOB!" I quickly take the popsicle out of her hand. This is great, I'm still hurting, but she's showing me that she cares.
"You're welcome. Now I know the way to your happiness." She winks at me and I just look down and blush.
"Thanks Jennel. I know this is just a popsicle, but it really means alot to me. You're trying to cheer me up, thanks." I lean over and peck her cheek.
"Are you gonna be okay?"
"I don't know. I don't think I've ever really been okay. I'll get over it. It's just that talking about it brought back all these feeling and stuff."
"We should eat."
I hadn't realized how hungry I was till I took a bite out of the first sandwich, I'm currently on my second. This is really good. She's really sweet for making this picnic, but she's been quiet. The last time she spoke was when she suggested we eat.
"What's on your mind?"
"Huh, oh um nothing important." I give her a look and she smiles. She knows I don't believe her.
"Don't give me that look. I'm ok, it really isn't anything. Just random things that cross my mind."
"Care to share?"
" I don't see why not. When I asked you about her, you said you wanted to tell me, that in a way I was involved how?"
"I told Nick about you. He's just always been there, after rehab we kinda drifted but he's here for me now. I couldn't stop thinking about you after our first date. I got kinda scared. I didn't wanna admit that I like you. I kept comparing you to Selena for some reason. I was so nervous about going out with you at first, but I had a really good time. You made me feel comfortable, like I didn't have to pretend to be someone I'm not. Things were easily flowing, it was just us goofing off, nothing else mattered. That's how it was with her." She stays quiet for a while, I guess she's trying to think of what to say.
"Did you like Selena?"
"Ha ha. Nick asked me the same thing. What makes you think that?"
"After you told me everything, I don't know it just seems like maybe you had a small crush on her. You guys were always so close, I know you were best friends and all, but I've seen some interesting things about the two of you." She giggles a bit so I shove her.
"Things like what fanfictions, manips?"
"Ha not even. More like things you guys actually did, your vlogs give away a lot." Our vlogs, oh how I miss them.
"See look at this one." She puts the phone in the middle of us so we can both see. I scratch my head and place my arm on Selena's shoulder. My eyes drop to look at her lips. No comment.
"See Demi, you made a move on her. And then there's this one." She changes the page, another video pops up.
"This isn't really a manip, it's just shot off you guys. Everything just fits."
"You're having too much fun teasing me aren't you?"
"Shh watch the video." Selena's eyes drop to look at my lips, I do the same. The scene changes and it's showing the interview we did with People. I'm looking at the camera and she's looking at my lips, she keeps swallowing.
"The evidence is there Demi." She pokes my side. "What do you have to say to that?"
"I did a lot with my hair." I try keeping a serious face but burst out laughing. She puts her phone down. Her hand reaches to scratch her head and then she pulls me into a hug. Wait.
"Jennel, did you just make a move using my move?"
"You catch on fast. So you had a crush on her?"
"N-no. Pshh me crush on her nah!" Crap, I'm an actress but a horrible liar. "Wait a minute, you're stalling aren't you? That wasn't the only thing you were thinking about, am I right?"
"Psh what do you mean?"
"At first you didn't wanna tell me what you were thinking of. You asking me if I liked Selena isn't anything to make you embarrassed it's not something you would have to hide from me, so spill."
"I well. Ugh Demi, you're ugh fine! I-I've been thinking alot, about you actually. You're a really great person and all." But there can't be anything between us. She doesn't even need to say it, it's obvious. She cups my face and makes me look her in the eye. I place my hands over hers.
"You've been through alot and I admire that. You're really strong, you're an inspiration to not just me but many people. You aren't completely fixed, and I wanna be able to do that. I wanna be the person you go to when the rest walks out, I wanna be the person that makes your heart race. I wanna be able to hold you in my arms. I want you to know how I feel about you. I want you to be able to confide in me no matter what it is. I want you to be fixed, I want you to be happy. You deserve it more than anything. I wanna show you that's it's okay to get close to someone again. That I'm not like the rest. I wanna show you how to love, please Demi, give me a chance."
"J-jennel. I. I'm j-just so. I can't eve-."
"It's okay Demi. I underst-." I pull her into me and cut her off with a kiss. A slow, passionate, meaningful kiss. Our lips fit together so perfectly, this is meant to happen. She slowly begins to kiss me back. I couldn't speak, so I just thought it would be best to kiss her. Tears are still racing down my face. We pull back at the same time. Her eyes flutter open. She places her forehead against mine. I smile at her, she smiles back but it fades once she sees my tears. She's quick to wipe them away.
"Yes Jennel. I'll give you a chance."
