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If you've read anything else I've written you know I write things based on my real life. Don't hesitate to ask what's real or not-I don't mind in the least.

The Holiday has me a day off- sorry faithful readers

Beyond the Sea

Somewhere beyond the sea
somewhere waiting for me
my lover stands on golden sands
and watches the ships that go sailin'

Chapter 7

I made it until Wednesday before Tanya lit into me for not calling Edward. She's lucky I didn't punch her when she threatened to call him herself. Since I love her, I went to my room and grabbed his card out of my night stand. I know weird place, but for some reason I wanted his info in my naughty drawer.

I turned the card over and over in my hand before I finally looked at it. Once I saw it, I rethought my bright idea about calling him. All it said was Shameless Inc in big pink letters in the middle of the card, a number on the bottom right hand corner and a website on the bottom left. I high tailed it to the den for my laptop, grabbed it off my desk and ran into the living room yelling for Tanya as I ran.

"What in the ever loving fuck are you screaming about?" Tanya demanded as she came into the living room.

"This." I said sheepishly and handed her Edward's card.

"What is this?" She looked at it, than at me.

"It's the card Edward gave me. His name isn't even on it. I'm gonna look up the website." I opened the laptop and typed in the web address listed on the card. A dark pink background loaded. There was a fishnet motif across the top of the page. Other than that, there were buttons listing various adult toys and items on the left hand side, with the Shameless Inc logo in the center of the page.

"What the hell is this?" I asked Tanya as she leaned over me.

"This is what Emmett and Rose have been talking about." She said. "Rose told me Emmett had a friend in the business that gave them deals on their adult items. She must have meant Edward."

"Oh." I said timidly as realization ran over me. "He must have been going to send something out when his dogs accosted me in the park." I put the laptop on the coffee table and went to grab a beer.

"Bella, are you alright?" Tanya asked, picking up the laptop.

I didn't answer, choosing to down my beer in about two gulps. I grabbed another one and went back into the living room. Tanya was clicking all over the page to see what was available, but I just sat there zoning out. She finally realized that I had been sitting next to her and set the laptop to the side.

"Talk, now." She demanded.

"Fine." I took a drink of beer." You know that Sam cheated on me, right?" I didn't look at her when I asked, fiddling with the label on my beer instead.

"Yes, I do. It's the reason the relationship didn't work out."

"Did you know that it really killed my self esteem?" I met Tanya's eyes but looked down pretty quickly.

"Is this a self esteem issue, Bella? Because I can tell you he was honestly very happy to have run into you in the park that day." She insisted.

"Did you know that I haven't dated anyone since Sam and I split? I didn't want to while active duty because I know how hard it is to be in a relationship and be gone so much." I took a deep breath and continued. "Then after we split, I had a few guys ask, but I wasn't into it."

"That makes sense, B. You and Sam were together for a long time. It's always hard when a relationship ends, no matter what or who ends it. So, what's causing the frown lines?"

"If he works anywhere near the adult industry, his standards for women must be way different than I can offer him." I rushed out. "I mean what if we start dating, and he's always working with porn stars with big tits. I can't handle that T."

She took a deep breath before answering me." Do you honestly think that he's changed that much since you last saw him?"

"I.."

"Do you remember what his girlfriend looked like?" She nudged my arm. "She had short dark hair and was on the thin side. What makes you think he all of a sudden wants to be with a dyed blonde with large fake boobs? "

"I.."

"Eventually you're going to have to attempt a date, so you can get over this issue." She grabbed my chin so I'd look at her." You're fucking fabulous and anyone that doesn't see that misses out on something spectacular."

"I…"

"Call him, B or I will and give him your number. " She got off the couch and headed back to her room.

I sat there for ten minutes, staring at my phone, before deciding to call him. I picked up his card and procrastinated by saving his info first. This way I'll know it's him when he calls me. Or at least that was my excuse.

I got up and got another beer after that just to put it off a bit longer. Tanya must have heard me in the kitchen because she yelled down the hall at me. I could exactly hear what she said but it sounded along the lines of 'biggest chicken shit'.

I sighed, walked back to the couch and actually pulled his name up from my contact list. My thumb hovered over the 'send' key before gritting my teeth and pushing it in.

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