That night for Kensi was awful. She had never felt so torn in her life. She knew it was the right thing to do for their job, but why did it feel so wrong. She lay there looking at the ring he had given her, tears streaming down her face. She missed the comfort that had come with sleeping with Deeks, she missed his arm around her, but she knew it would never be the same. Their relationship had turned strictly professional overnight. Kensi knew this was her fault, she could have tried to make it work, but in the end what's the use? If Deeks was like every other guy she ever loved, most likely he would leave her; cheat on her, or worse. But the question that burned in her mind all night, 'What if he is different?'
Deeks didn't know what to do. He swore he stood in front of Kensi's house for ten minutes. He was shocked. This didn't make sense to him, it came out of nowhere. On Deek's drive home, he tried to recall if he did something to anger her, but he couldn't. Deeks tossed and turned all night, missing the comfort of sleeping with Kensi. Finally, around 2:15, Deeks grabbed a bottle of vodka and drank till the pain was gone.
The next morning at work was horrible. Kensi was a good actress, but when the team saw her come in with yoga pants, hood up, hair a mess, and huge sunglasses they knew something was up, especially when her partner came in with hair a mess and huge bags under his bloodshot eyes. Kensi and Deeks hardly made eye contact all morning. Kensi expertly put the ring on her partner's desk undetected.
A call came in around 11 of a dead Petty Officer who was raped then killed. The team spent over two weeks tracking down the killer, when finally they caught a break while examining the killer's 5th crime scene. He had left a piece of a glove and they were able to get a partial print. They finally arrested the dirt bag, who will most likely spend the rest of his miserable life in prison.
Kensi and Deeks had no time to talk all week, the case was too distracting. The case and the week were over and Sam offered to buy drinks for the team. Around 1 am everyone had left except Sam, Kensi, and Deeks. Sam pulled Kensi aside to talk with her.
"Kens, talk to me. What's going on with you and Deeks?"
"Sam, it's nothing, just a little misunderstanding"
"Kensi I know a when you're lying, you can tell me."
"Sam, drop it please"
"Look, I won't address the issue much longer but unless you do something about this one of you is gonna get killed."
"Sam, please stop."
"Okay Kens, just please talk to him."
"Okay, I will."
Kensi and Sam walked back to find Deeks flirting with a young busty blonde. Kensi's stomach dropped, she grabbed her keys and walked out of the bar in a huff.
"Kensi wait!" Deeks called running after her, but Kensi kept going. Finally he caught up to her and tried to slam the car door in his face, but he caught it before she could. "Kensi" Deeks said out of breath.
"What Deeks? Look I don't have time for this, say something or go back to your little girlfriend over there" she hissed.
"Kensi, we have to talk about us"
"Deeks, in case you haven't realized there is no 'us'"
"Just tell me why you changed your mind about 'us' so fast."
"Deeks, the job, you have to understand"
"Well I don't, Kensi this isn't about the job, we could make it work if we really wanted to and you know that so don't put this on 'the job'. Don't try and insult my intelligence saying it is because of the job, I know better. Even though you treat me like I'm stupid all of the time doesn't mean I am. I know you there is something else going on. If I did something to upset you this much, then tell me! Stop being such a baby about this whole thing. We're adults; we need to talk about this. I don't care what it is, whatever. Just please talk to me."
"Marty please I can't— just, I have to go, sorry"
"Kensi, please talk to me"
"I think you have said enough"
"What does that even mean Kens?"
"Marty, we tried and we failed. You are right, maybe it isn't about the job but our relationship is never going to work out and we just have to accept that fact of life. I am sorry if I got your hopes up for something that would have never worked out anyway. I should have never agreed to go with you on that stupid trip!"
"So if it isn't about the job, why won't it work out?"
"Deeks, I don't know just stop, I can't do this right now."
"KENSI" Deeks yelled "Stop beating around the bush and tell me, I deserve to know."
"YOUR GONNA LEAVE ME!" Kensi cried, tears starting to form in her eyes.
"What are you talking about Kensi, I was never going to leave you?"
"Maybe not now, but you would have, they always do"
"Who always does?"
"The men in my life I love" Kensi cried, "Every man I have ever loved has left me alone, my dad, James, Joey, Dom, and you will too!"
"Kensi, I would never"
"They all said that…."
"They aren't me"
Kensi looked in his deep blue eyes and he leaned in to kiss her. They spent that night together and many more. The pair has been together for over a year now and is as happy as can be. Deeks proposed last weekend using the same ring and they are getting married next June.
The End
