Shattered Dreams
Chapter 7: Absolution
Last Time
I couldn't think straight so I just nodded forgetting that Haruka was there momentarily and allowing myself to be sucked into the abyss of cushions and warmth. Arms encircled me here too; I looked up into the deep dark eyes of my demon. He let out a feral growl and pressed possessively to my back. I closed my eyes; in his arms I was whole.
Now
I felt like I was moving backwards. Like I wasn't really here at all but watching my self suffer from some distant plane. Opening my eyes I felt a heavy weight in my chest as well as on it. I gazed towards my left where one of the two arms that were on me belonged to the sleeping Haruka, following the other I saw Yoko. What were they doing here? I was going to get mad if I didn't calm down. I let out a breath feeling the slow warmth of Akurah awakening in my body.
"Master…you did not sleep at all last night. I thought we agreed that you would rest?"
I closed my eyes again. He was right I hadn't been able to sleep; I was too disgusted with my self. Allowing my self to be engulfed in the warmth of the two people I hated the most in this world.
"I couldn't sleep."
I answered dully. That was the truth after all and I still hadn't quite figured out how to lie to a being inside of my own body, mind even my soul. I was getting frustrated again and a migraine was beginning at the back of my left I.
"Get off of me I need to go to the bathroom."
I lied through gritted teeth both demons groaned and slowly rolled over there hands falling away from my chest. I felt the weight lift and it was as if I could breathe again. I felt so much better. Sighing I removed myself from between them and got off the bed. Now the migraine was the splitting headache it would start out as before it moved on to something far worse. I stumbled out of the bedroom clutching my head. I felt like screaming. I was so damn sure that I was trapped in this dead end life, that I'd never meet absolution and now that I was a demon…no I don't even want to think about living that long!
What have you done to me!
Of course I couldn't very well blame it all on Haruka. Some of the blame has to fall on my shoulders for being so stupid and releasing him. Wait! Releasing him? I could seal him again! I started to chuckle under my breath as I fell to my knees at the top of the stairs. Throwing my head back I cackled tears rolling down my cheeks as I clutched my head. That's it! That's it! I could seal him again and never have to deal with him again!
"Master are you sure that is wise?"
I could hear the triumphant gleam to Akurah's voice.
"Don't you dare try to make this seem like you don't want it you bastard!"
You see I wasn't stupid I had a feeling that Akurah was using me to get to Haruka from the start and this just clinched it.
"Kantarou?"
It was Yoko…fuck. I slowly stopped laughing bending backwards so that my white hair fell away from my face to the ground pooling slightly. Red eyes locked with brown.
"What is it Yoko?"
I couldn't help but bite at her. She was bothering me in my time of triumph.
"Are…you ok Kan-chan?"
Kan-chan…Kan-chan…I hated that stupid nickname! I hated it because my mother called me that and this…dog woman was NOT my mother! She flinched and Akurah pointed out that all the hate in my eyes could melt a room full of ice in a matter of seconds. I thought the metaphor was irrelevant but Akurah was Akurah and there wasn't much to do about that. Yoko started to cry.
"Kan-chan isn't Kantarou anymore! What happened to you Kantarou!? Why are you suddenly like this!? Is it because of Suzu!?"
That's it. She has to die. I rose slowly from the ground and turned to face her with false tears brimming my eyes.
"Yoko…will you take a walk with me? Please? For old times sake…just to talk?"
She wasn't very bright, poor girl she agreed almost instantly. She got up and ran to me taking my hand. We both walked outside into the dawn's dim light. I felt my eyes chill over and my smile freeze into place as she chatted on endlessly about the estate and how happy she was that I had finally seemed to be coming around. She really did care about me…I almost felt bad for what I was about to do. But almost doesn't count for shit these days. We were getting closer to the spot that I had almost died. I wanted it to be special; I'd give her the decency of dieing where my blood and flesh were splattered.
When we came to the tree she cried out softly seeing the silvery feathers splattered with blood the flesh fragments on the broken branch the blood splatters on the tree. She clung to me and cried into my shoulder. Naïve little fox…I gently parted her from my body and kissed her cheek.
"Yoko…Thank you so much for staying by my side for so long."
The poor girl…She looked so confused. Then she seemed as if she'd thought of an explanation for my false gratitude.
"Are you going to leave us Kan-chan?"
I smiled softly at her materializing Akurah's sword of the oni eaters in my hand. It was still stained with my blood that was bubbling around on the steel as though feeding from the very essence of it. Yoko looked even more confused, stupid fox still hadn't caught on.
"Something like that Yoko…"
I swung out lopping her head from her body before she could even scream. Her blood gushed like a fountain from the sever in her neck splashing me with even more blood. Something to over my body I couldn't control it. I fell to my knees and started tearing flesh away from her body and ramming it into my mouth swallowing like a starving crazed beast. My wings spread out as I bent low over her body ripping into her with claws and fangs my throat working to swallow big mouthfuls of flesh and small chunks of bone.
"Master…Master be careful you don't get lost in the blood lust!"
I screamed through my body for Akurah to shut up and let me enjoy this as I continued to swallow and bite and tear and chew. Suddenly hands wrapped around my neck forcing me to spit out what I was about to swallow.
"Dear God Kantarou! What have you don't to Yoko!!?"
I started laughing I couldn't' stop. Who did Haruka think he was?! My mother!? I was hungry so hungry…and he was just another food source. I could kill him and eat him and then I'd be free of them both. I screamed glorious rage out and struggled in Haruka's arms.
"Kantarou…I love you"
That stopped me…he loved me? No! Damn it! No no no no no NO!!! Why did he always have to ruin everything for me! Why why why!? What did I do to deserve this!? I finally collapsed in his arms falling still and asleep stomach half full of demonic flesh that would melt away into the acid in my stomach in a matter of eighteen hours then I'd be hungry again. I felt I could accept the flesh eating now, especially since it had started out with someone I hated with every fibre of my being. Maybe…this wouldn't be so bad after all.
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Yuki: Another successful chapter! Woo Kan-chan killed Yoko! For all you Yoko loving fans out there my deepest apologies! bows
Kantarou:Yoko tastes bad…flossing brushing and mouth washing
Akurah: Ungrateful snob.
-Akurah and Kantarou proceed to fight-
Yuki: blushes then sweatdrops Ah well! See ya next chappy guys!!! 3
