Killian was beginning to brood. He was able to get up and walk around, but he was still weak. His strength had not yet fully returned to him. He wanted Emma. Every time she smiled at him his blood boiled. He had been in love with her for so long and now he knew she was in love with him as well. He could do nothing to actually show her how he felt. It physically hurt he wanted her so badly, but his body simply wasn't ready to comply. Having his hand cut off really messed with his system. He was still physically weak. It was also frustrating. He was having to relearn everything. Tying his pants was the hardest thing of all. The laces on his boots were a close second.
"Smee says there is a nasty storm ahead." Emma explained as she walked into his quarters and leaned against his desk. Her shirt was cut low today and he could see the valley between her breasts. She was wearing breeches again and he could see too much of her body. "He wants your opinion on whether we should anchor to shore or if you think we can ride it out."
"I will go take a look in a moment." He explained he pulled her closer. She smiled at him, leaning down so her face was nearly touching his. He closed the gap kissing her sweetly. She deepened the kiss her desire for him nearly as strong as his for her.
"How are you feeling today?" She asked.
"stronger, I think. I was up on deck at the helm for two hours earlier and I didn't feel like I was going to faint." He admitted. "I feel almost back to normal. But my body is still weak."
"I don't want to put too much stress in yourself." She admitted. He smiled kissing her softly. The boat jerked slightly. "I'm not planning on leaving your side anytime in the future so we are in no hurry."
"even if this whole princess of Misthaven thing is really true. What are we going to do then?" He asked.
"We will figure that out together." She promised. He kissed her again. The boat tossed harder this time.
"Well love as much as I would love to continue this conversation I need to go check on Smee. He doesn't know storms the way I do." He said. She walked up with him, her hand holding his, most of the crew seemed to have accepted their relationship. They had hardly been apart since Killian has lost his hand. Some of the men who had been with him in the old days were surprised, but they all seemed to understand. One of Liam's former crew had gone so far as to say it was about time.
"It looks like a huge ice storm captain, I think we should consider making port until it passes. There are a number of large islands. We could dock on one of them." Smee explained. Killian looked at the enormous storm. It was big. He had been in worse, but it wasn't worth fighting through it. If things got out of hand they could all die or loose the jolly.
"that would be wise, a safe crew is better then a dead one." He said. It was something Liam had often said to him. He had always taken it to heart.
"will we stop in a town?" Emma asked.
"no." He explained. "We will just anchor on the shore and wait for the storm to pass. It shouldn't be more then a day or so. It could get very cold however."
"We seem to be doomed." Emma said. "whatever we do seems to make this trip longer."
"What are you saying you don't want to spend more time with me?" Killian asked. "You said downstairs that you weren't going anywhere."
"I'm not Killian." She explained. "everyday we are at sea your crew will grow more restless. I want to get to Misthaven safely."
"We will get there." He explained. "I promise love. It's just a storm."
"I trust you." She smiled.
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As far as they could tell the dark one hadn't followed, but they found a secluded Cove on one of the islands. It would partially save them from the weather, and shield them from the dark one. It would be hard to sneak up on them here. The temperature was already beginning to drop rapidly. Emma was freezing. She tossed and turned in her own quarters, uneasy. At around midnight she gave up and crept down the hall. She was relieved to find Killian's candle still lit. He was reading a book.
"Well this is a pleasant surprise." He said as she stepped into the room.
"Can I lay with you?" She asked. "I can't sleep." She hadn't slept in his quarters since the first three days of his recovery. The temptation to touch him was too strong. He shifted to make room for her in the small bunk.
"what are you reading?" She asked.
"a silly book about a pirate and a princess, it quite terrible actually. Smee picked it up for me in Koan." He paused. "I'm not very far in. We could read it aloud together."
"You just said it's not very good." She chastised.
"well, it would be much better if a beautiful lass read it to me." He smiled.
"I would like that very much then." She smiled. She finally climbed in nestling against him. Everything felt instantly better. He kissed her nose and handed her the book.
"you should go first." He insisted. "I've only made it through the first ten pages."
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Hours later as they slept peacefully in each others arms, Emma was awakened again by the sound of crashes on the deck. Killian stirred beside her. It sounded like the deck was being pounded.
"hail." Killian explained. "glad we didn't try and sail through. Hail is nasty stuff."
"I've never seen it, I have heard it can get quiet large." She explained. "will the ship be okay?"
"She's survived worst." Killian said fondly. "Liam once guided her through a hurricane. That was the closest we ever came to loosing her. We were stuck in Port for three weeks completing the repairs. We almost didn't make it to port, the ship was taking on water."
"Why didn't Liam ever tell me about that." She asked irritation in her face.
"he never wanted to worry you." Killian explained. "I always advised him that he should not keep you in the dark about the dangers of the sea, but he never listened. He didn't want to frighten you. He didn't want you to know he was in serious. He always saw you as delicate."
"What do you see me as?" She asked. Her fingers touching his stubble covered cheek lovingly.
"Brave." He paused. "you are the strongest person I know. You kept your head on so well when I lost my hand. If you had panicked I would be dead."
"I couldn't loose you." She proclaimed. "I just kept thinking about how I lost Liam. I couldn't loose you too."
"I feel guilty." Killian admitted. "I feel like my being with you is a betrayal to him, but I can't give you up."
"I tried for days to get you out of my head. But I couldn't." She explained. "I couldn't figure out how I had never seen this side of you before. I realize now that you were hiding it from me. You didn't want to let me in."
"You were with Liam. I couldn't." He started.
"Maybe I should have had a chance to know you." She paused. "I feel in love with you the moment that I saw the real you. I wish I hadn't wasted so much time."
"Are you saying you wasted time being with Liam?" He asked surprise in his tone.
"no!" she tried. "not exactly. What I feel for you, it's different. I loved Liam, but…"
"But what?" Killian asked. He couldn't decide whether to be mad or thrilled by what she was saying.
"before I left the monastery I tried to find a spell to bring someone back from the dead. I discovered that it could be done, but with a terrible price." She explained. "It's a soul for a soul. In order to bring someone back someone else has to die. I couldn't do that. I couldn't kill someone to bring back Liam."
"I understand Liam wouldn't want that. He wouldn't have been able to live with it." Killian explained.
"I would do it for you." She admitted.
"Emma." He gasped.
"I'm sorry, but I would." She paused. "you are worth it."
"no I'm not." He pleaded.
"yes you are. To me, you are worth anything." The hail still pounded outside. He stared down at her finally understanding. She was telling him she loved him more than she had loved Liam. He couldn't wait another moment.
"you are worth anything to me as well Emma." He promised then his lips found hers. He let her deepen the kiss. Her tongue playing with his.
"I don't want to hurt you Killian." She explained breaking the kiss. "your body is still weak."
"I need you Emma." He said. "I am okay, please love let me show you how much I love you."
"I want you so badly Killian." She said. She gasped as he kissed her again. The kiss was full of passion. Neither of them could stop. His hand snaked down finding her breast under her shift. She encouraged him to continue. Her hand combed his bare chest desperate. He moved pulling the shirt over his head. The bunk was small but he was able shift so that she was under him. He pulled her shift over her head. Her naked body instantly revealed to him. His lips kissed up her jawline. He was desperate to taste every inch of her skin
"I love you Emma swan." He said it like a prayer as her hand found him. His body was quivering all over desire for her filling him.
"and I love you Killian Jones." She mirrored back as he explored her body. It was still cold out but neither of them cared. Pure passion filled them and made them burn. The deck was still being pounded by hail. Emma breathed in casting a silencing charm on the room. She wouldn't be able to keep quiet for long. She screamed as Killian's fingers found her clit. He shushed her for a second. "silencing charm." She managed.
"You are brilliant." He explained, his hand still playing with her. He inserted a digit into her slowly, feeling the wet heat of her. He went slowly careful not to push his still healing body too far. She cooed under him bucking her hips into him as he played with her, he wished he still had both hands so that he could touch her more. He inserted a second finger while his thumb continued to tease her, finally he felt her walls flutter in release. She screamed inaudible words as she climaxed. It was the most beautiful sight he had ever seen. She rested for only a second, before her hand found him rubbing up and down his length.
"So big." She surprised him teasingly the tip. He moaned her name as she stroked. Then she lined him up to her entrance.
"I don't want make you with child love." He said. He was desperate to make that final thrust but Emma was not just anyone to him. He wanted to be with her always. He knew they weren't ready for babies.
"I have a spell for that too." She explained seriously. Killian nearly laughed. "make love to me Killian." She begged rubbing him back and forth. He couldn't deny her anything. He pressed past the final threshold, entering her slowly. He let her adjust to his size taking her inch by inch. She had never been so happy in her life.
"Are you okay?" He asked once he was fully inside of her. "you feel so good love."
"move." She begged. He did pulling himself all the way out and back in. She screamed in ecstasy as he plunged in again and again excruciatingly slowly. "More." she begged. Killian gave it to her, pushing into her more as he changed angles. She rocked up into him making his eyes cross. Suddenly she saw stars. Her whole body about to convulse despite the slow pace. Killian rode harder then. He looked into her eyes, his own orgasm close.
"Come for me love." He begged not letting himself go yet. She moved even more. He screamed as he felt her release around him. Milking him dry as he came hard seed spilling into her in ribbons. He rode it out begging her not to stop ever.
"That was…" He started. She cut him off with a kiss.
"amazing?" She asked. It was the most amazing sex she had ever had.
"doesn't begin to describe it Swan." He smiled kissing her hard. They laid there for a long time. He pulled the blanket back onto them, as she started to shiver.
"keep me warm Killian." She begged as he held her.
"Always, my swan." He said. He held her in his arms as they drifted blissfully back to sleep.
