Author's Note: hehe thanks to someone's review, i edited how i wanted this chapter to go and you will all think i'm evil. heheheh. there will be one more chapter after this.

Future AU \ Exteremly OOC

I lifted her and carried her into my bedroom. It felt like the first night we met all over. Sexy, passionate, needy. I needed her. My whole body was aching with the fact that I needed to be with her, inside of her, on her, against her.

Her body felt like it was on fire in my arms and I placed her on the bed, tearing her top over her head and throwing it anywhere. I attacked her neck and listened to her moan. Every noise she made sent jolts of pleasure throughout my whole body. She moaned my name loud and I swear I lost it.

I sat back, not wanting to waste anytime. I tore my shirt over my head and she sat up, kissing and licking and sucking and biting my chest. I tried to fight back my moans, but I couldn't. They spilled out of my mouth as loud as ever and I knew the neighbors could here. I had paper thin walls. But did I care? Hell no.

Clare's mouth moved down my chest and over my stomach. I grabbed a fist full of her hair and moaned, pulling it. She undid my belt and pushed my pants down.

I moaned even louder when she looked up at me with innocent blue eyes and pulled my boxers down. She grabbed my hips bones and flipped me so I was laying down. She positioned herself between my legs and bent down, her entire mouth taking in my length.

At this point, I didn't even know my moans could get this loud. No one has ever made me feel this good. She started sucking long and hard, moaning around me everytime I pulled her hair.

She sat back and smirked, unbuttoning her pants. I sat up and helped her out of them, then laid her on her back, her feet touching the headboard.

I kissed her, hard and passionate, and then pressed myself into her. She moaned loudly and I sucked on her neck, letting that cover my moans.

She started moaning louder as I felt her getting closer. She came with a scream and my name, and that sent me over the edge. I pulled out and spilled myself all over her stomach.

I collapsed on her, letting my head rest on her chest and tried to catch my breath. She brushed my hair out of my face and kissed my forehead.

This was my safe harbor.

The next day.

Have you ever seen a movie or read a book where the main character was in a realtionship that they shouldn't be in, but couldn't get enough of? A type of relationship where you should let the other person go, but you can't? You need them and they need you even though it's wrong? The type of relationship that people would call 'unhealthy' or 'wrong' but you don't care because you're happy? You're comfortable? You feel safe? Those relationships where you know that you can't work out and that you shouldn't be together and that no one would understand but you two? A relationship that you refuse to let go of, no matter what the circumstances?

That is the type of relationship I'm in right now.

I knocked timidly on the door, fear pooling in my stomach. This was it. I would have to do some heartbreaking. And I felt terrible abour it.

It took a few minutes, but the door opened and I was greated with a smile. I tried to smile back, but failed.

The door opened wider and I stepped in, taking in my surroundings for the last time.

"So what are you doing here? After you left this morning, I didn't think you'd be back so quick...not that I mind," Eli smirked at me, his green eyes dark and piercing.

I swallowed the lump in my throat. "Eli," I said, my voice shaking.

His eyebrows crumpled. "Yes?"

"I have something to tell you and I know you'll get mad,"

"What is it?" he wondered.

I took a deep breath, closed and reopened my eyes, then spoke, ready to give my explanation right after.

"I'm back with Mark,"

author's note: OHHHHHHH SHAP! i really hoped that paragraph at the begining on Clare's POV helped understand why clare got back with fitz. sometimes you can't end a relationship. there is one more chapter so ...