She looked at him as he took a deep drink of his beer trying to remember that urgency the need behind his eyes. She remembers that moment in the classroom just because she knew she was lost with him or without him that happened near the beginning of their relationship at the time, she felt as lost as he did. They both needed something and was able to achieve that from each other the simple need was what they always referred to. They expected nothing serious just the chance to fill a void they both began to crave. She continued to drink the beer sitting in front of her to keep her from having to talk.
"Who's Sarah?" She spit out finally.
"Sarah?"
"Yeah, the girl you were um at the inn with?"
"She's my cover. I have been going to the hotel in hopes of seeing you."
"Then what would you have done if you saw me."
"I don't know. I hoped that I would see you before you saw me. Andrew kept telling me he thought he saw you a couple times but you never came in or anything." Draco explained finishing off his drink.
"Yeah, I've been around." She spoke quickly.
"Why?"
"Why not?"
"Okay I have a feeling this isn't going to get us anywhere."
"No probably not but I don't know what else to say." She had to be honest with him. She really didn't know what to say to him. She had not seen him in over a year and the last time they talked the ending was not really an ending.
"How about honesty," Draco asked.
"Honestly could get us into trouble."
"I think I am can handle it."
"You first, I want to know who told you I was here."
"Okay, I did. I saw you at the inn but before I could get up the nerve to talk to you, you were already gone and I couldn't go after you something told me you didn't want to see me."
"Well, I usually wouldn't but I am glad you did. I have been waiting for awhile, I guess we both have."
She finished off her drink. Currently there was a lost for words in her mind. Things were going a little to well at the moment and there was nothing she could do about it. There was no way she could not tell him things he was Draco he had been her ears for years as she was with him. The ending that happened just did not belong there, it was a forced ending and that just did not seem right for the two of them at least that is not what she though. She wanted to know what he thought except she had a feeling since the leaving did not seem to bother him when he did. She had managed to keep it together for every one including herself for a while and that was enough for her then though as the days past she knew she was losing it.
"You know what I had been thinking when it all came out?" Ginny asked him even though she did not care if he wanted to know or not because she thought he had every right to know the truth.
"What?"
"I thought thank god it's finally out in the open things can change." She looked down before gaining the courage to look back up at him. The look of confusion found his face he used that face when he didn't want to hear something.
Ginny smiled eating lunch from a table in the back of the restaurant. It was warm outside and she honestly wanted to be eating outside but she knew that it would not be happening today. It was the weekend before school was starting her last year finally but something would be missing and that was the person who was sitting right in front of her with his hat on. Draco finished the year prior leaving Ginny to go to school without him not that it mattered because they never spent time together out in view so she would actually have time to study this year.
"What are you thinking?" He asked in a scratchy voice he had drank something earlier that caused the scratchiness so no one could tell it was him.
"That's it's not going to be the same without you."
"Ah, I see, well we'll have breaks."
"Breaks," she simply repeated, "breaks are not enough."
"I can't do anything more. Maybe show up at Hogsmead on occasion but you know that's going to be hard."
"I'm going to miss you," she finished saying before the look of confusion dawned on his face.
"Why?"
"Why not? I spent half my school year before with you and now you won't be there."
The confused look left his face but he did not say anything else about it but actually changed the subject. Things seemed to of happened between them suddenly and that meant that things were changing and neither was ready for that.
"I guess I'll miss you too." He spoke suddenly and then went on talking about books. Which books are worth reading in 7th year and which ones I could toss aside She always found a way back to the conversation but he was able to divert most of it back to something else which began making her angry.
"It's not like I have suddenly fallen in love with you or anything. Nothing had changed in our said relationship. I am just saying that it's going to be different with you not around and I am going to miss that. Especially the sudden kissing sessions that we found time to put into our busy schedule. I just hope that we can find other times to get together."
"Yes, I think I can make time for that and I was being truthful when I said I am going to miss you too but honestly I'd rather not talk about it because well then I will just keep thinking about it.
"You have a confused look on your face."
"It's nothing."
"What?"
"I was thinking."
"Think about what?" She pushed him along with answering but he shook his head and said no.
"Yeah, you're being so honest there."
"I hoped that the café wouldn't be our last goodbye."
"I did to."
"I had to leave you know that right?" He questioned with sympathy in his eyes.
"Yeah, it was the end and we both said it."
"I want to get out of here people are still watching us."
"Then let's dance." Ginny pointed to a dance floor towards the back of the room. There was a small are void of chairs and there were a few people dancing now. As she looked around the room she noticed that more and more people were now sitting around drinking it really did fill up fast when she was busy talking with someone. Draco did not have to be told twice he grabbed Ginny by the hand and pulled her over to the dance floor even though it was a faster song he wrapped his arms around her and she breathed in his scent. A scent that she had longed forgotten about how she could have forgotten she was unsure of.
Neither one spoke while they danced along at a slower tempo something about this felt so wrong yet so right. Perhaps it is because she was just Ginny and he was just Draco and for the first time they were out in public together as themselves. There were no gimmicks, no wigs, no potions, no glamour, nothing but Ginny and Draco and it seemed okay.
"I missed this." Ginny finally let slip.
"I have, too." Draco admitted. "You know the last time we were just us was back the last year of school."
"Only behind close doors," she replied.
"My seventh yeah I had a report due in Transfigurations and you had charms, we had sat down at the same table."
"Oh, yeah, I remember, you needed a book I had for some reason but I wasn't finished with it so we shared the table and the book."
"We shared a lot of looks then too."
"Yeah and it almost landed us in the hot seat with our friends."
"True but I think it was worth it." Draco admitted pulling her closer to him. It seemed like a natural thing to do. Though she felt tense under his touch and although she tried to calm the tension it became harder to do.
"What did you mean when you mentioned about what you thought when we were found out?"
"You mean the thank god part?"
"Yes."
"I thought that things had changed for the better that now that it's finally out we wouldn't have to live a lie anymore. I had hoped our ending had changed."
"Why was it so easy for you to walk away?"
"Because," he didn't finish.
"Because why?"
"Because I had prepared myself for knowing the ending and that was not the ending I prepared myself for so I knew that wasn't goodbye."
"Then what was it?" Ginny questioned with hopes of already knowing the answer.
"A hope."
