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Blue eyes stared into brown with an unrecognizable hate. "I never should have left Beck for you," Jade cried out angrily. "This was all a stupid mistake! I don't love you! I never did!" The pale girl sneered and stepped back creating a big distance between the two. "This was all a stupid mistake!"
Tori shook her head. She reached out trying to calm the girl "No, Jade please," she begged. "I love you." Her voice was barely above a whisper as she tried to keep from crying.
The Goth shoved away her hand and turned around giving the brunette her back. "I don't need you, Vega. Beck was right." The words were filled with venom as she spoke. "Leave me alone. I hate you." With that said Jade turned completely away and stormed off to the other side of the hall where a very smug Canadian was waiting.
Tori stood unable to comprehend what was happening. It felt like she had been slapped in the face and kicked in the stomach. It felt like someone had taken her heart, run it over only to pick it up and rip it to pieces. "Jade!" Tori cried. "Jade, please!" She begged watching the pale girl walk away with the Canadian. "You promised," she sobbed. "You promised!"
Beck smirked, wrapping his arm around the pale girl's waist. He kissed the dark haired girl's head and led them toward the exit.
"Jade, please! I love you!" She cried. She was left standing alone in the middle of the Hollywood Arts hallway. This wasn't happening, she thought. It had to be a joke.
Suddenly the room began to spin with images of the Canadian and of the Goth hugging and laughing. They seemed happy. Jade seemed happy. Happier without her. "I hate you, Tori," whispered the once loving voice of the raven haired girl. "I hate you!"
Tori jumped up startled. "It was only a dream," she breathed. "Only a dream." She was covered in sweat. Her breathing was coming out in hard pants as she tried to calm down. She took in a deep breath and slowly exhaled. Jade always made her do that when she was in a panic. She sat up on the edge of her bed and stared outside at the pouring rain. When had it begun to rain? She sighed contently enjoying the sound of the drops hitting the glass of bedroom window.
Tori loved the rain. She stared out the window and debated on whether or not she should go for a walk. It would calm her, she contemplated. The nightmare seemed to shake her up a bit. Tori knew Jade would never hurt her like that. But were they rushing things? Maybe they should talk to Beck and try to come to a truce.
Deciding that it would best to clear her head, the young Vega grabbed a light gray sweater and headed out side. The rain felt soothing against the flushed skin. It had been the third time she had dreamt of that scene in the last couple of hours. She had tried to go back to sleep after the raven haired girl had gone home in the morning.
Tori had skipped school. The day before had been too much to handle for both Jade and her. They had agreed to stay home and had not spoken since the morning. Jade had spent the night over and didn't want to be away from the brunette. Agreeing to return later she went on home to clean up.
It was finally the end of the week and Tori couldn't believe it. Exactly twelve months ago the two began their relationship. She smiled to herself and thought about that day. Even now it was too surreal to believe.
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After the two girls had stopped giggling Tori checked her cellphone in attempt to look busy after they exited the theater. There was something about the way Jade was looking at her that caught her attention.
The dark haired girl dropped her gaze and picked at her nails looking uninterested. "Need a ride home, Vega?" she smirked.
Tori shoved the phone back into her pocket and looked up at the blue eyed girl. Her thumbs hooked around the belt loops of her jeans as she leaned back against the wall.
The Goth stared at her in amusement awaiting for the brunette to answer.
Tori seemed to be unable to form words. She couldn't control her body at the moment. All she could think about was how beautiful the pale girl in front of her was. She had only been at the school for a couple of days and the students there were yet to make an impression on the brunette, but sure enough the dark haired girl had hit the right spots from day one.
Some people would think Tori was a masochistic for liking a girl who poured coffee on her on the first day and falsely accused her of hitting her. Tori couldn't help herself. There was something about the girl that had triggered the feelings inside of her. She was breath taking that was for sure. The only problem was that Jade hated her. But if she hated her what was she doing at the school on a Friday night? Why was she looking for her? Why had she helped her? Why had she felt guilty of getting her in trouble?
Jade cleared her throat, "Well?" She stepped closer to the brunette, her eyes never trailing off as she approached the girl.
Tori wanted to scream. She wanted to push the girl as far away as possible before she did something she'd regret. Jade West was off limits. She belonged to Beck. Beck Oliver, as in her friend. Tori bit her lip and looked down breaking the hold the blue eyes had on her.
Trina knew about her interest in girls. It wasn't a secret in her family, but people at school didn't need to know. She didn't want to be bothered with ridicules questions and hit on by perverted guys.
At the moment all Tori wanted was to take hold of the Goth and kiss her like there was no tomorrow. She wanted to hold her and take her in. She wanted all of her. She wanted Jade West.
Jade raised a questioning brow. She tilted her head the slightest and took a brown curl between her fingers twirling it as she spoke. "I don't have all night, Vega?"
Tori was struggling to breathe now. She didn't know how much more she could take. Jade West was flirting with her? It had to be a dream. "Why are you here, Jade?" she managed.
Jaded stopped twirling. She looked at the brown eyed girl and took a step back shrugging. "I wanted to know why you didn't tell on me."
Deep down Tori felt a pang of disappointment at the girl's response. She wrapped her hand around the bag she had on her shoulder and nodded. "Well I gave you an answer. I don't want to be fighting with you all the time. Happy? You can go home now." Jade had to get away from her before she lost control. She adjusted her bag and prepared to walk away. "I don't need a ride. Thanks."
The Goth blocked her passage. "It's the least I can do." Her eyes seemed to be almost pleading.
Tori stared at the girl. She could see she had something on her mind. Swallowing down her feeling, Tori nodded. "Okay."
Secretly she was kind of relieved Jade was persistent with the offer. Honestly Tori hadn't thought about how she was going to get home so late.
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The rain was slowly fading as Tori continued to walk. She had been walking for almost an hour now. She didn't really have a destination in mind and had rounded the end of the neighborhood twice. Deciding she had walked enough the girl turned around and walked back in the direction of her home.
She had to talk to Beck. Not for her sake but for black haired girl's sake. Perhaps not this day, but soon enough she was going to have a talk with the Canadian. If he loved the Goth as much as she loved her, he would have to settle for an agreement. It was clear that they were never going to be friends again, but they could try nevertheless. Jade wasn't ever going to be truly happy unless they managed to clear the air with Beck.
As the house grew closer Tori noticed a familiar dark haired girl sitting on the door step. She had a pair of scissors in one hand and the other one was holding out her hair as she lazily cut out the ends of her dark locks. By the looks of it the girl had not been there too long. Her clothes were barely touched by the rain drops.
"I was just about ready to go home," the Goth smirked when Tori was only a couple steps away. She stood up taking a small red flower that sat beside her and put away her scissors. The troubled brown eyes grew soft when she recognized it was a rose. Jade softly smiled before kissing the tan cheek and handing the brunette the rose.
Tori grinned widely. "I was just thinking about you actually," she said looking at the scarlet rose in her fingers.
The blue eyes examined the brunette and the wet sweater she wore. She knew how infatuated the girl was with the rain and that she enjoyed walking in it. But she also knew she only went on those walks when something was bothering her. "Good thoughts I hope," she decided to say. Whatever was bothering the brown eyed girl was nowhere to be found in the eyes.
Tori smirked as she took the girl's hand and intertwined before leading them inside the house. They didn't exchange any words as they made their way over to the couch. "I was just thinking about the night we first kissed," Tori finally answered.
Jade lit up as she recalled the night. It was certainly a night to remember. It was the night they finally revealed their true colors.
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The drive home had been silent. The entire ride home Tori had been afraid the Goth would change her mind and decide to leave her off in the middle the road. Once they were safe in the drive way, the brunette tried to find words to thank the girl.
"I'm sorry, Vega." Jade spoke as she kept her eyes glued on the steering wheel. She seemed to be struggling with herself. Tori could tell by the way her knuckles were turning white as she gripped the wheel tightly.
Tori bit her lip anxiously. It must have annoyed the raven haired girl to take time aside to drop off the one person she didn't like. Silently nodding she decided it was best to leave without a word. She didn't want to upset the girl more than she was. She sighed loudly grabbed her bag and stepped out of the car without looking back.
You're an idiot Tori, she thought to herself. Why, why would you even consider the thought of you and-
"Tori," the small voice whispered.
Tori turned around startled at the Goth's voice suddenly behind her. She managed to keep her balance almost tripping over the door step. "J-Jade?" Tori pushed the hair away from her face. She was about to tell the girl off for nearly giving her a heart attack but she found herself at a loss for words. There was an unfamiliar look in the pale girl's blue eyes. It wasn't anger or annoyance. It was…fear.
Jade's eyebrows knitted together. She crossed and uncrossed her arms before speaking. "I just wanted to-" She paused dropping her gaze. "I-"Come on Jade. You can do this, she told herself.
Tori watched as the girl appeared to be debating inwardly with herself again. Deciding to help the struggling girl, Tori chose her words carefully as she spoke, "Do you want to come in?"
Jade looked up. The relief evident in her eyes as she nodded. Once they were inside the house Tori dropped her belongings by the stairs. She could feel the Goth's eyes glued on her as she moved to the kitchen to grab a cup of water.
Jade had lingered by the door. She silently moved across the room and joined the young Vega in the kitchen. "Where is everyone?" she asked looking around at the empty house.
Tori set the empty cup down in the sink. "They're all out of town." She looked up at the stairs. "I have the place all to myself." She tried to hide the disappointment in her tone but the smirk growing along the pale girl's lips let her know she had failed.
She didn't mind being home alone most of the time. It was nice to have it quiet when Trina wasn't off screaming like a maniac, but the nights alone at home had grown more constant. Deep down Tori was afraid of being home alone. It was part of why she didn't mind having to stay after school so late most days.
"Must be nice," the Goth smirked.
Tori stared at the girl. She shrugged, "It gets lonely." Not liking where the conversation was heading Tori decided to lighten the mood. "Can I show you something?"
Jade raised a brow. "You're not some kind of psychopath now are you, Vega?" She seemed amused.
Tori chuckled. "No that's your job. Now, do you want to or not?"
The Goth pursed her lips. She tapped her chin pretending to think before answering. "Why not," she shrugged.
Tori nodded and grabbed the two duvets that were folded and set by the patio door. She handed one to the pale girl before leading them out to the backyard. Jade quietly complied as she watched the brunette spread the duvet across the grass and followed joining the girl.
The young Vega lay back against the sheets and fixed her gaze on the night sky. That was one of the little moments Tori enjoyed when she had the house to herself. The stars fascinated her. She swallowed quietly when Jade lay beside her. She couldn't believe Jade was lying right next to her. It seemed so surreal. She bit her lip before gathering the courage to speak. "Why are you here, Jade?"
The Goth was silent for a moment. There was really only one answer as to why she was at the Vega's residence so late on a Friday night. It had to do with a certain young brunette. "I don't want to go home yet," she casually answered.
Tori watched as the girl sat, her gaze fixed on the sky the entire time. "I see why you like it out here, Vega. It's nice." She turned to look at the brunette. "I am sorry for getting you in trouble."
Tori sat up. She rested her head against her knees and stared up at the bright stars. Were they ever going to get past the incident? "I told you not to worry about it, Jade." Her voice was small.
The Goth shook her head. "It's not okay. I crossed the line. " She trailed off. Why was she apologizing so much?
The brunette let out a loud breath. She noticed the raven haired girl was now looking at her expectantly. "I hate being home alone," Tori whispered, her eyes never leaving the sky.
Jade stared at the girl in confusion. Why was the girl who was not afraid to stand up to her afraid of being alone? Wasn't she stronger than that? Where was that girl who stood in front of a big crowd to cover for her sister? Looking at the brunette Jade understood that underneath all the talent and beauty was a small fragile girl. She was afraid. "Why?" she simply asked.
Tori glanced at the pale girl. As friendly as the young Vega was, she didn't really like sharing her private life. The look in the blue eyes though told her it was okay. She wasn't going to hurt her. Tori somehow knew it was true.
"They're never home," she began. "Trina's always out with her friends and my parents work most nights. One night I was home alone in my room when I heard a loud crashing sound come from the downstairs room. I quietly went downstairs to check…" The brown eyed girl paused recalling the night. She had been so frightened to see two unfamiliar men lurking around and making a mess of the place. They had only searched the first floor trying to get out as soon as possible.
"I had never been so afraid," she whispered. "They didn't stay long. They took the television and some other utensils. I guess they weren't the brightest burglars but there isn't a night that I'm not afraid that they'll return. What if they do? What if they come back for me?" Tori swallowed and shook her head. Luckily they had not been aware of the girl's presence. She couldn't help but let her mind wonder to the 'what if'. Who knows what they would have done to her. Deep down Tori knew they wouldn't return, she just hated being alone.
Jade could see the fear in the girl's eyes. Suddenly she seemed so small. She wanted to take the girl in her arms and tell her it would be okay. She didn't have to be alone. She didn't have to be afraid.
Tori laughed bitterly. "You know I'm kind of glad they aren't around so often." Jade furrowed her brows confused. "The next day when they returned they didn't bother to ask if I was okay. They cried over their precious television and other stolen items but none of them cared to know how I felt." She sighed, "It's not like they care anyways. Most days I feel like I'm invisible around here." Tori broke the stare and looked up at the sky once more.
A smile appeared along the tan girl's lips. "Look!" She pointed up, almost like a child. Jade looked up just in time to see a fading shooting star cross the night sky.
"Make a wish," Tori whispered before closing her eyes. Silently she wished for her deepest desire. Not that it mattered. It was never going to come true.
Jade watched the brunette silently. Who would have guessed such a beautiful person felt so broken? The Goth felt angry at her parents and the older Vega for making the girl feel less of herself. Tori was worth more than those stupid utensils. A pang of guilt hit her as she thought about how she had made the girl feel at school. Tori deserved better than all that mistreatment. She was priceless. She deserved better. She deserved to be loved.
Jade observed as Tori shut her eyes and smiled in amusement. Her heart was racing like crazy. This wasn't like her. Jade West did not get nervous. She wasn't afraid. "Tori," she whispered. Now was her chance.
The brown eyes slowly opened when she heard the foreign name come from the pale girl. Since her arrival at Hollywood Arts, the Goth had only referred to her by her last name. The Goth was inches away from her.
"I want to try something." Jade tilted her head so that she could meet the brown eyes.
Tori unable to form words nodded in response. She watched as the blue eyes drew closer. The pale girl licked her lips, her eyes flickering back and forth from the brown eyes to the rosy inviting lips. "Don't be afraid," the dark haired girl whispered when her lips were only centimeters away. A warm hand cupped the tan cheek. The last sight the brunette had was of the Goth's lips curling into a small smile before she closed her eyes.
The sensation of the pale girl's lips against hers was indescribable. The kiss was so heartbreakingly sweet and tender Tori didn't know how she was kept from crying. Jade brushed her hand up to the tan neck and pulled the girl softly closer. The kiss spoke the words Jade had been unable to fabricate. It told her she didn't hate her. It told her she was beautiful. It told her she irreplaceable. It told her she was worth more than anything in the world. It told her she didn't have to be alone anymore.
Every sense in their body seemed to come alive as the kiss leisurely continued. In that moment everything in the world disappeared. Any thought or doubt was gone, the Canadian long forgotten by both girls.
Tori lost control of her body and gave in to her desires. Her hands had a mind of their own as they found their way into the dark curls. The reaction only served to encourage the initiator. Soon enough she was on her back again with the raven haired girl hovering over her as they continued to kiss. Tori kept her eyes closed when the broke apart for air.
A surprisingly soft hand gently stroked the flushed cheek. "You're so beautiful, Tori" Jade breathed lightly brushing their lips once more.
Tori let out a breathy chuckle, "Who knew wishing on a star really worked." Jade laughed. It was one of the most beautiful sounds the young Vega decided. Jade lightly brushed away a small tear the girl had unconsciously shed. "I won't hurt you, Tori. I promise."
"I'm scared." The brunette whispered.
Blue eyes searched in the brown. "Of what?" she asked brushing back a brown lock.
Tori exhaled. "Of you. Of my heart. It constantly stops and starts when you're around and I don't know if I can handle that." She bit her lip. She didn't know if she could handle the Goth playing with her feelings. She didn't want to take the risk of getting her heart broken by the one person who could easily break her.
Jade smiled softly. As if reading her mind she spoke, "You don't have to be afraid. I'm not toying with you, Tori. This is real." She lightly kissed her. "Thisisreal. You don't have to be alone anymore."
It became a silent promise from that night on. All it took was one kiss. One kiss for the two girls to know. One kiss for it to begin. From that night on Jade would spend the nights over at Tori's any time the house was empty. Even when the house was filled, the Goth would find herself at the young Vega's doorstep late at night. She had promised not to leave her alone. She had promised not to hurt her.
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Jade looked down at their intertwined hands. "You still have that problem?" she asked amused.
The brunette quickly grew red knowing what the Goth girl was referring to. No matter how much time they spent together or how much time passed the girl never ceased to give her heart problems. "Always," she smiled. "You're going to give me a heart attack one day." She poked the Goth's side teasingly.
The pale girl arched a brow. "Oh really? Well I don't think I like the sound of that." She stood up and began to walk around the couch.
The young Vega watched the girl in confusion. "Where are you going?"
Jade simply smiled as she opened the patio door. "Can I show you something?" She asked echoing back the Latina's words. Tori stood up and quickly followed.
"Jade I didn't mean-" The girl stopped half way in her track. There was a medium sized blanket set over the grass beneath a giant umbrella. On it sat a small picnic basket and rose pedals were scattered over the entire blanket in the shape of a heart.
"Haven't I told you not to let you mouth hang open like that?" Jade spoke in an amused tone from behind. She stepped closer to the girl and wrapped her arms around the small waist. "Happy Anniversary, Tori." She placed a small kiss along the tan neck.
"It's… I…" She turned in the pale arms and pressed her lips to Jade's. "It's beautiful. Thank you."
Blue eyes lit up. She knew something was bothering the brunette. Whatever was bothering her had to be forgotten for now. It was their day. No one was going to ruin that for them. They walked over and settled on the blanket. Good thing the rain had stopped, not that it would have bothered either girls had it not.
Jade sat behind Tori, hugging her against her body as they lay quietly. Jade suspected what was bothering the girl had to do with a certain Canadian. She was feeling tired. She had spent half of the night crying in the Latina's arms because of the confrontation at school. They didn't want them to them to postpone their day. It wasn't fair to either of them. They needed this more than anything. Tori needed just as much as Jade did.
"I love you, Tori." she whispered looking down to meet the insecure brown eyes.
Tori smiled gently. She softly kissed the girl and whispered, "Happy Anniversary, Jade."
"You don't have to be afraid," The Goth began. "I'm not going anywhere." She kissed her neck.
The brunette nodded recalling their promise.
"Just so you know. You drive my heart crazy, too." Jade whispered with a smile.
Tori turned in the girl's arms and sat up. "I have something for you." She gave her a quick peck and stood up. "Just wait here."
The young Vega ran up to her room. She opened the drawer by her bed and grabbed the small black box before closing it. Checking for the thousandth time she opened the small box and stared at the small band. It wasn't too fancy. She knew the dark haired girl hated the idea of jewels. It was a small white gold ring.
The day the brunette saw the ring in the mall she and the Goth had walked around in she knew she had to get it. Jade didn't say it, but Tori could see it in her eyes. She liked the ring. It wasn't an engagement ring. They were too young for that. It was a promise ring.
Tori couldn't imagine her life with anyone else. She wanted to promise Jade that she would be with her always. She wanted to let her know that her heart was hers and no one else's. She loved Jade to death. They had shared that intimacy many times and now more than ever it seemed like the perfect moment to share it in words and make it official.
The half-Latina shoved the box into her pocket when she heard a loud knocking coming from the front door downstairs. She sighed in annoyance and made her way over to dismiss whoever was intending to interfere with their moment. It was probably Cat. She and Andre had been texting her like crazy all morning. Tori had finally grown irritated by the excessive text messages earlier and decided to ignore them by shutting her phone off.
"Cat, we're fi-" She began, certain more than anything it was the perky red head. Tori found herself unable to finish the sentence once she opened the door. She felt her body go numb when she realized it wasn't the friendly brown eyes that were staring back at her.
Empty dark brown eyes stared into the chocolate eyes. Tori blinked in bewilderment at the tall olive skinned boy who was standing before her with an unreadable expression. "B-Beck?"
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