I'm so sad.. so very sad... D: hey there. Long time no write? I've been working really hard on doodle for google these past few weeks, *ahem* while watching hetalia amvs *ahem* :D yes, life is going in directions I can't control. I've been wanting to write a "mature" chapter, so brace yourself! No like, no read :[ The rating doesn't need to go up right? I mean, teens can take this!! (speaking from a biased point of view, I'm a teen myself):D Enjoy :)
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The shock came first, it was slight, but it grew slowly, stretching, escalating an uncomfortable burning. Arthur gasped in pain, hands clutching the leather upholstery, dirty blonde hair matted to his forehead. It had been way too long since this last happened. No, did he want this? His knuckles were turning white as he clenched them. There was sweat dripping among other things, staining Alfred's back seats.
Serves him right.
He began to breath harder. Shit. It hurt like fucking hell. But as he glanced back at Alfred, his glasses off, blue eyes burning with passion, his hair in a disheveled mess, he knew that there was no arguing with him. There was something in the way of him telling him to stop, it was far too late. The thought popped into his head again. Did he want this?Even as he felt the burning increase, even as he winced and muttered curses under his breath, a suppressed moan worked its way up his throat.
Alfred leaned in to him, right near his entrance, teasing him, his lips sending feathery kisses down Arthur's neck. His red lips stopped to whisper into Arthur's ear.
" Do you want this?"
Arthur didn't know whether the question was for his benefit or Alfred's, seeing that the other man continued to inch into him anyways.
"Nhhh---"
It was going in slowly and steadily as Alfred held his hips in place.
" What did you say?"
Green eyes met blue in a moment, Arthur clenching the car door and Alfred gripping him.
I hate you so much right now--
"Ahhh--" Arthur moaned even as he declared his loathing.
Alfred began to move, thrusting their hips in synchronization. By now, the Brit was moving of his own accord.
so much, so much....
He bit his lip, eyelids shut tightly, the familiar rhythm making his body thrust. An alarm began to blare in the back of his mind, but it was muted by his arousal. He breathed a single word that was caught between a moan. " Crap..."
Arthur opened his eyes to find Alfred kissing him down his neck again. His curious blue eyes were trained on the Brit all the while.
His face closed in on Alfred's. Their lips brushed past each other at first, Arthur shivering at the softness of the Alfred's lips. Then those lips caught him, the contact sending waves of electricity down his spine. So sweet and passionate, and so....sad.
It was cruel, how that a single moment like that had the capability of tearing his heart in two.
A single drop tumbled down, his lips quivering as his heart broke at the same time it was being mended. The Brit was surprised at himself was crying. Like a child, he began searching for the most logical explanation, like it had been doing these past few years. It was how he had gotten by. By being logical.
But no matter how hard he searched this time, he couldn't find the logic behind his heart.
Maybe it would have been better to have thrown it away after all. The single drop became a silver rivulet, streaming down his face. Why?
As a gentle hand attempted to brush away his tears, he looked up, desperation in his eyes. Why?
Why did his heart shatter at Alfred's touch?
Arthur searched Alfred with his lips, attempting to reach into him, half hoping that the answer lay somewhere within the depths of his brother.
They continued like that, Arthur's arms tightening around Alfred, a desperate, broken, fruitless search ensuing. Beyond their little world, the sun was rising above the skyline.
So much...
Alfred whispered into the shell of Arthur's ear, and through his tears, a slight smile broke through.
" I love you..so much."
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Um.. Was that really really mushy? D: If anybody wants me to escalate the rating I will, but for now I want to leave it like it is. Wish me luck on doodle for google! :DDDD
It's the only hope above my horizon at the moment......
Please review and critique, I'm always interested in improving my writing (I need quite a lot of improvement D:)
susan out.
