* All Twilight references and characters belong to Stephenie Meyer, all other characters, plot changes, etc are just fun things that I like to play with.

* This story is rated M for mature due to references and possibly descriptive scenes of abuse, rape, and smut.

Again we fell into a good routine at the Cullen house. I still had the odd nightmare or flashback about Charlie or Phil or Laurent, but overall I was healing both emotionally and physically and I allowed myself to hope that my string of bad luck had finally ended.

All of us were preparing for the coming move to British Columbia, the women worrying about the house and furnishings, the men getting paperwork for school and work organized. We had decided to move the second week of June so that we had a while to get settled before school would start in September.

Two weeks before our move I was laying in Edwards – which had quickly become my – room, trying to get some sleep but feeling too fidgety to settle down.

"What's the matter love?" Edward whispered as I rolled over yet again.

"I'm just nervous about going back to school." I sighed thinking about being away from him throughout the day.

"I just don't want to be in a different grade than you... I don't want to have to be apart from you." I said truthfully snuggling closer to him.

"I feel the same way love, but it's the best way to make sure we can stay a few years." he sighed and I felt his frustration as strong as my own.

"Kiss me." I commanded a minute later gently tugging his hair down towards my face. As his tongue swept across my bottom lip I opened up to him groaning in pleasure as he pulled me up on top of his lap to better kiss me. I was straddling him now, both hands tangled in his messy locks, while his hands held me at my hips.

When the kiss broke so that I could get air he continued trailing his icy lips up and down my throat, around my ear, along my jawline, murmuring sweet 'I love you's' the whole time.

I groaned again as I shifted in his lap and felt his hardness beneath my centre, twitching slightly at the heat I was sure I was sending down onto him, my juices already flowing freely.

My hands let go of his hair and reached down to the hem of his t-shirt, pulling it gently over his head, meeting no resistance as his lips found mine again. My arms trailed across his chest, his abs, his sides, unable to settle, just enjoying the feel of him beneath my fingertips.

"I want you Edward." I breathed out and I heard him growl as his lips kissed my throat.

"Are you sure you're ready for that Bella?" he asked, his voice strained as he struggled to keep his control.

"I want you so badly Edward, I can't wait any longer." I moaned as his hands began to explore up my sides, under the flimsy tank top that I was wearing.

Edward flipped us suddenly and I was on my back underneath him, he was breathing as heavily as I was and his eyes were pitch black with need. As he continued trailing kisses all over my skin he gently pulled my tank top up and over my head, sucking in a deep breath as he threw it to the ground beside the bed.

His hands ghosted up and down my sides sending magnificent shivers throughout my body. I gasped in delight as his right thumb gently brushed the underside of my breast and I felt the wetness between my legs increase. His lips found mine again and as he crushed himself against me his hand found my breast, tweaking the nipple gently as my back arched in pleasure.

His lips broke away from mine and he again kissed along my jaw, down my neck, this time continuing across the tops of my breasts and down towards my left nipple where his icy mouth gently attacked, sucking and flicking it with his tongue. I moaned in appreciation which seemed to spur him on more as his hand found my other breast again and I felt like I was about to explode.

"More Edward, I need you.. need more..." I panted running my fingers all over his bare chest and down towards the button on his jeans.

Without a second thought I heard two distinct tears and giggled in surprise as he ripped both of our pants away from us, the pieces filtering to the floor to join our shirts.

My hands continued to roam down along the beautiful V that I had only gotten sneak peaks of before this night. Carefully I pushed my hands against his chest, giving a slight push and he understood my meaning as he allowed me to flip us again so that he was on his back, me straddling that beautiful V as I felt hardness resting against my behind.

I kissed his mouth moving down to his neck and chest as his hands continued to rub up and down my sides, across my breasts, my stomach and down my hips. After a minute I gently lifted myself up and positioned my now dripping centre over his hardness.

"Are you sure Bella?" he asked struggling to keep control of the situation.

Instead of answering him I slowly slid myself down and over him, filling myself completely with him. Once he was in all of the way I stayed still for a minute allowing myself to adjust to his size. I looked at his face, intense with concentration as he waited patiently for me to make the first move.

Carefully I wiggled my hips and felt him thrust gently to meet me. I groaned in pleasure as we picked up our pace slightly and he continued to fondle my breasts with one hand. His other hand came around to my front and found my sensitive bundle of nerves and pressed gently tweaking and rolling it under his fingers. I couldn't contain it any longer and screamed out his name as my orgasm came crashing down around him, his own orgasm following just after.

When we pulled apart I whimpered at the loss of contact and he pulled me up into his side, brushing my hair from my face.

"Thank you so much Edward, that was... that was perfect..." I smiled closing my eyes as he kissed the top of my head and began to hum to me.

I slept soundly the entire night through, waking up late the next morning with the sun already fairly high in the sky. I noticed that I was no longer in Edward's arms and wondered when he had left me. As my eyes fell on the chair at the other side of the room I saw him sitting there, his head in his hands.

"What's wrong Edward?" I asked gently sitting up and tugging the blanket absently around myself. We stayed like that in silence for a few minutes, his head down and shoulders hunched while I stared at him anxiously.

Edward Cullen. I demanded mentally. Look at me and tell me what's wrong Love.

I said to him and his eyes gradually made their way over to me, settling on my own face.

"I'm sorry for last night Bella... we shouldn't have..." he began and I quickly silenced him.

"You regret last night?" I asked incredulously, the bubble of bliss that had previously surrounded me popping abruptly.

"Bella I hurt you, I'm too strong." he choked out, his voice hoarse.

"What are you talking..."

"Bella, look down at your arms, your legs, look at the bruises." he demanded, his voice breaking as his head went back down into his hands.

"I'm so sorry Bella." he moaned as I looked down and was surprised to see the long thin bruises the exact shape of his fingers on my upper arms, my sides and my thighs.

Once my examination of my body was complete I stood up off the bed, pulling his t-shirt over my head before I made my way over to him, kneeling on the floor beside the chair.

"Edward, look at me." I commanded and his eyes floated up to my face again.

"I'm not sorry Edward. Last night was perfect, the only thing I remember feeling was pleasure and wanting you to hold me tighter. Edward, last night was better than I ever imagined it could be and I don't regret it at all." I spoke firmly and I watched as his mouth held the same frown, his eyes the same pained expression.

"Bella you don't know what you're talking about." he huffed in frustration and I paused wondering what he was talking about. "You've only ever been with people who hurt you so you think it's normal to be hurt during sex." he sighed and I felt the heat rise to my cheeks as my temper flared.

"Get the Hell out Edward!" I screamed loudly causing him to flinch.

"Bella... I..."

"Just get out! How dare you Edward..." I cried as he stood up and tried to come closer to me.

"Don't touch me Edward." I screamed as he reached out as though to embrace me.

"Just leave me the Hell alone."I continued to rant until he dropped his hand and left the room, closing the door softly behind him.

I collapsed to the floor then, the sobs wracking through my body as I tried to catch my breath, my heart aching at the words he had said to me. Once I had calmed down I made my way to the closet and pulled out the closest pair of jeans and shirt that I could find, throwing them on without bothering to wear undergarments.

I stormed out of Edward's room and made my way quickly down the stairs and towards the front door, not bothering to speak to anyone that I passed on the way down.

"I'm going for a walk and I need to be alone." I called behind me as I slammed the front door shut and made my way towards the trail the boys had made for me to follow through the woods and towards a small pond.

I sat at the pond's edge for a while skipping stones across the water, enjoying the natural sounds of the woods while I let my temper cool down. Once my anger was gone I started to focus on working out the hurt that I had been feeling since Edward had said what he had. I cried some more tears and tried to understand why he had said what he had. And that's what I was doing when I heard the loud growl behind me.

"Fuck." I cursed loudly as I turned around and realized that I was being stalked by an enormous grizzly bear.

"Of all the frigging luck..." I muttered under my breath trying to remain still and keep my breathing steady.

Edward Cullen. I thought pushing my thoughts back towards the house like I had done that day with Laurent.

Edward Cullen, I need you. I'm out by the pond and being stalked by a big-ass grizzly bear. Bring Emmett.

I chanted my thoughts twice more before I saw a blur rush past me, tackling the giant grizzly to the ground and felt two stone cold arms pick me and run with me back towards the house.

"Are you okay Bella?" he asked as he sat me down on the porch swing and began to look me over.

"I'm fine Edward... just pissed off that someone or something is always out to kill me." I huffed folding my arms across my chest as I watched Emmett come strolling back towards the house, his shirt ripped to shreds and a giant grin on his face.

"Thanks for the bear Bells!" he smirked wiping his hand across his mouth dramatically.

"Are you sure you aren't hurt Love?" Edward asked again and I frowned as I looked over at him.

"I'm sure that it wasn't the bear that hurt me." I again huffed, standing up and heading into the house.

"What they Hell did you do to her Ed?" I heard Jasper ask as I bypassed him and went upstairs to my old bedroom, not caring about the memory of the attack that assaulted me as soon as I walked inside and threw myself down to the giant bed.

"Can I come in Bella?" I heard Jasper's voice from the other side of the door a while later.

"Yeah, sure." I answered sitting up as he came in and sat down beside me on the edge of the bed.

"Do you want to talk about it?" he asked casually as I sat nervously biting my lip.

"Were you all here this morning while we were talking?" I asked wondering how much he knew about our argument.

"No, we were all out but Edward did talk to me just now, explained what he said." he told me and I tried to keep my tears hidden beneath my eyelids.

"I know you are hurt that he said that to you but he didn't mean it the way that it came across darlin," he began to explain to me. "I think you should understand that hurting you was always Edward's worst fear, the reason that he convinced as all to leave Forks in the first place. So when he saw the bruises last night he panicked and then when you told him you were fine, he thought that you were downplaying it so that he wouldn't feel guilty." he explained further and I sighed in frustration.

"But I wasn't downplaying anything... he honestly didn't hurt me." I squeaked out, wondering why I was so comfortable having this conversation with Jasper of all people.

"I know little sister and he knows that now too." he said reaching over and pulling me into a soft hug.

"Thanks Jazz." I whispered.

"Anytime little sister. Edward wants to come in and talk to you, are you okay with that?" he asked pulling back and looking at my face. I nodded yes as he stood up and headed towards the door.

"Oh and Bells, if you need us to kick Ed's ass we're here." He smiled as he left the room and Edward walked quietly in closing the door behind him.

"Everybody left to give us some privacy... they'll be in Denali for the next couple of days." Edward said as he made his way over to the bed and sat down where Jasper had been a minute earlier.

"Edward... I'm sorry for freaking out earlier. I just... I hate it when you underestimate me. If you had hurt me I would have said something." I gushed out as I saw him fidget with his bracelet.

"Bella I was wrong to say those things to you and I'm sorry. I know that my words this morning were the only thing that hurt you and I hope that you can forgive me." he said looking up at my face.

I took a deep breath then and leaned into him, gently pressing my lips against his.

"You said we have the whole house to ourselves again?" I murmured as his hands traveled up and down my sides, his lips brushing against my neck.

"mmhm" he murmured softly as he picked me up, pulling me onto his lap. We took our time exploring each others mouths, necks, ears, our hands traveling over top of the others' clothes.

"Off." I grunted tugging at the hem of his shirt. He pulled my hand away and a second later his shirt was in shreds on the floor and mine was followed quickly behind.

As his hands and lips continued to touch, kiss, lick, and explore I began to feel my arousal begin to seep out between my legs.

"Off." he grunted and before I could blink we were both laying on the bed, completely naked, unable to keep our hands from each other.

His hand quickly found my breast, massaging it and pulling at my nipple while his mouth found it's way to my other breast, sucking and flicking it. I wound my fingers through his hair pulling him closer to me and I felt his other hand traveling up the inside of my thigh, pausing just before it reached my core.

"More." I whimpered as I felt his index finger brush the outside of my lower lips, gathering up some of the moisture before pressing down on my apex. His mouth and other hand continued to work at my breasts and I moaned in pleasure as his thumb circled my nub, pressing down with the perfect amount of pressure. I gasped in pleasant surprise when I felt his finger slip inside me, never releasing the pressure on my clit. I felt his finger curl up inside of me and hit the spot that I had only read about in books.

"EDWARD!" I screamed as I felt my walls clench down around his finger and heard his answering growl.

As I came down from my orgasm I felt his fingers withdraw from inside of me and I whimpered at the loss of him before I felt him hovering over me at my entrance. I arched my hips up at the same time he thrust into me and I screamed in pure ecstasy as I wrapped my legs around his waist and felt him thrust even deeper inside of me.

In an instant we had shifted without the rhythm being interrupted and I was sitting in Edward's lap facing him, my legs still tight around his waist as he lifted me gently, still managing to thrust deeply into me, but seeming to surround me as well.

I crashed my lips back down to his and moaned deeply as I felt another orgasm on it's way.

"Come for me my beautiful Bella." he panted as his hands pulled me tight to him and I screamed out as I felt my orgasm come crashing down on him. My orgasm set off his own and I could feel his cool seed fill me completely as I watched his face distort in complete pleasure.

Once we had both come back down and our breathing had regulated somewhat we simply stayed in the same position not moving, just enjoying being connected as one.

"I think we should get up and get you something to eat." he laughed a while later as my stomach ruined the silence with it's growl.

My giggle turned into a groan of pleasure when I felt him harden instantly inside me. Instinctively I rolled my hips forward pressing him deeper into me. We made love again slowly, neither of us in a hurry to separate from the other as we felt each others' climax building, sending us once again over the edge.

He withdrew from me after we finished and I whimpered again at the loss of contact as he chuckled from beside me.

"Come on Love, let's get you some supper." He said standing and heading towards his bathroom. I groaned at the sight of his perfect body walking away, his muscles flexing perfectly and I felt a fresh wave of arousal hit me.

"Bella!" he groaned and I buried my face in the pillow to hide my blush.

"It's your fault... you're the one who does it to me." I growled playfully as he continued into the washroom, running the shower. I stayed in bed until he turned the water off and I watched him walk back into the room towards the closet, nothing on but a towel wrapped around his waist. I groaned again as I watched the water slide down from his hair following the planes of his chest down the beautiful V that I loved so much, disappearing into the towel.

"Go shower!" he growled playfully disappearing inside the closet and coming out a minute later fully clothed.

I gradually made my way out of bed and towards the shower where I relived every beautiful moment from the last 24 hours as I gently washed off and then made me way to the closet, throwing on jeans and a shirt, choosing to yet again forget undergarments.

By the time I made my way downstairs to the kitchen Edward had already heated up some pasta that Esme kept in the freezer and was setting it out for me on the table.

"Mushroom Ravioli?" I giggled as I sat down at the table and watched the smile that graced his face.

"Yes, I asked Esme if she could make you some and she froze individual portions so you can have it whenever you'd like." he said still smiling as he sat next to me.

"This is amazing." I sighed after a few bites of the magnificent pasta.

"You are amazing." He countered placing a small kiss on the end of my nose.

"You know what's amazing?" I asked mischievously looking towards him. He shook his head smiling towards me. "You and your beautiful V." I laughed as he looked confused so I reached over and traced it over his clothes.

The rest of our time alone went pretty much the same way, eating, talking lightly to each other, sleeping, and of course we made love like rabbits.

"Edward..." I pouted on the third day alone as he sat on the piano bench, playing a new piece that had been inspired by our time alone together.

"Yes Love," he asked looking over at me sitting beside him while he continued to play.

I traced the planes of his bare chest and let out a sigh. "I've got a problem Mr. Cullen, and I think that you might be the only one able to take care of it." I whispered seductively into his ear as my fingers continued to explore.

"Yes ma'am." he breathed as his fingers left the keys and I felt him lift me onto his lap.

Suddenly I was lifted again and before I knew it I was sitting on the top of the Piano, my pants mysteriously gone and Edward standing between my legs, kissing me passionately.

Edward's head dipped down and before I could control my hiss of pleasure he was licking and sucking on my sensitive nub as I reached my hands back to brace myself on the piano.

His tongue was like magic as he flicked and licked and sucked my nub, thrusting two fingers deep inside of me, curling just right to hit my magic spot as I moaned out his name.

"God Bella, you taste so good." he breathed and my breath hitched as I came undone, him licking up every drop before standing and lifting me slightly onto his waiting erection.

"Fuck Edward!" I screamed as he thrust into me and I felt him push me further onto the piano, climbing on top of me, never interrupting the pace.

"God Bella, Fuck!" he cried out as I felt my climax building. I moaned at the curse coming out of my perfect Edward's mouth.

"Do you like it when I fuck you Isabella?" Edward asked in a deep husky voice as he pulled all of the way out and then thrust in slightly harder than normal. It was my undoing and I screamed as we both climaxed together.

We laid silently on top of the gorgeous musical furniture for a few minutes before Edward suddenly jumped up.

"Shit. They're close, almost back." he cursed as he threw the front window open and grabbed the remnants of clothing off the floor, pulling me into his arms and flying up the stairs with me just as I heard the front door open. We went directly to his room where we threw on the first clothes that we could find tried to fix our hair and appearances before going back down to see the family.

I couldn't stop the blush from forming on my cheeks as we walked down the stairs and into the living room.

"Hey guys," I said casually. "How was your visit with the Denali's?" I asked as Edward pulled me into his lap on the sofa.

"It was great dear, we figured it could be a few years before we see them again and we wanted to try and make peace with Irina before we move next week." Esme smiled and I watched as the rest of the family joined us in the room.

"Holy Fuck, what happened to your piano man?" Emmett boomed as he walked in and I couldn't control my giggle when I saw what he was talking about, a large crack across the top, directly where we had been minutes before.

"I um... that was my fault." Edward was trying to stifle his own giggle and knew that the rest of the room understood instantly.

"Alright Bella, let's go upstairs for a while! I'm sure Edward wants to go hunting with the boys now." Alice clapped excitedly jumping up and pulling me out of Edward's lap. I had a feeling I knew what the little pixie was wanting to know.

"Alright Bella. Spill." She demanded as soon as we got to her and Jasper's room, Esme and Rose on our heels.

"I don't know what you're talking about." I rolled my eyes and shrugged at them.

"Oh come on Bella... we just want to know what it was like popping our brother's cherry!" Rosalie scoffed at me and I felt my cheeks turn crimson.

"Who says that we did anything like that?" I asked looking down at my hands nervously.

"Bella... we gave you three days alone and even if Alice couldn't see your future it was obvious when we came home." Esme chided shaking her head and I felt almost mortified.

"Okay okay, Edward and I were intimate." I said not wanting to reveal too much.

"And..." Rosalie and Alice both pressed together practically bouncing on the bed.

"All I'm going to say is that I never thought it would be like that. After... Phil... I wondered if I would be able to enjoy it when I wanted it. But there was definitely no issue with that when it did happen. I also didn't expect to not be able to keep my hands off of him now that we've passed that barrier." I smiled as I recalled how perfect it had actually been.

"And he didn't hurt you at all?" Esme asked only slightly worried, but looking almost as giddy as the other two girls.

"He left some bruises the first time, but they never hurt, I didn't even realize until he pointed them out. After the first time he was fine, no bruises or anything." I blushed as I thought about how much I was revealing.

"And the piano?" Alice asked curiously.

"The piano was rudely interrupted by the family returning home." I fake pouted as I watched their reactions.

"Destroying furniture and you're still a human... thank God you aren't immortal or the house wouldn't be standing." Esme laughed and the others joined in.

"Alice, what did Esme mean about you couldn't see my future? You weren't trying to see that were you?" I asked a moment later replaying our conversation in my head.

"No, I wasn't trying, but it's funny, it's like I can only see your future sometimes when you want me to. We mentioned it to Eleazar while we were visiting as well as the fact that Edward can't read your mind unless you push it out to him. He thinks that you may have an ability known as a shield. He says if it's already manifesting now then as an immortal you would be extremely powerful." she explained quickly.

The women stayed talking up in Alice and Jasper's room until the men returned home and then we made our way back down to the living room, picking up our individual activities and going back to being comfortable as a family. A week later and Edward was always touching me, feeling the same pull to me as I was feeling to him. I couldn't keep my hands off of him.

"You two need to get a room... or a house..." Jasper said shaking his head and I flushed a brilliant pink at his comment.

"Gah, it's worse than when Emmett and Rosie first got together." he whined and I watched as Alice went to his side and sat in his lap, kissing him passionately.

"Maybe you two should be the ones to get a room." I muttered throwing a pillow at them. Silently Jasper stood up with Alice and disappeared out of the room, presumably to their own room upstairs. Minutes later the rest of the house departed, coupling off and going in different directions and I looked at Edward as my arousal flooded me.

Is everybody else doing what I think they're doing? I asked silently and saw him nod his head as he picked me up and walked slowly upstairs with me.

"One of the problems with living with an empath is that he picks up lust from one couple and spreads it around the house causing everyone to feel it which causes him to push more out. It's a cruel and vicious cycle when you're alone." he sighed and I felt bad suddenly for the years he had been enduring all of the coupling in the family while being by himself. As we got to his bedroom I pulled his face down to mine and kissed him gently.

As we made our way to the bed I could feel both of our need increasing to the point of pain and I suddenly needed him in me.

"I need you in me... now." I commanded trying to keep my voice quiet as he moaned against my mouth and yet another outfit found itself ripped to shreds.

"God... I need you... like the piano..." I cried out as he thrust deep inside of me and I felt myself come almost instantly.

"God Bella, I want to f..." I threw my hand over his mouth before he could get the words out, not wanting the family to know how much of dirty talker he had become over the last several days.

You want to fuck me? I asked mentally and saw him smirk at our silent communication. He growled in response.

Do you like it when I talk dirty to you Edward? His answer was between a groan and a growl and I hissed in response when I felt his hand between us, pressing on my sensitive spot.

We climaxed together several times over the course of the night until finally I felt exhausted enough to ignore the lust still floating around us. I curled up into Edwards side and felt him kiss my forehead as I closed my eyes and drifted off to sleep.


* A/N: I want to apologize in advance as the next two weeks are extremely busy for me and my updates will be more irregular. After that though I should be back to posting either every day or every other day.