Chapter 8
Phil's POV
"Pleeeeeeease Dan?" I begged, using my best puppy-dog eyes. He ignored them again.
"No Phil"
"But please... I want to!"
"No! End of!"
This is the way every day had gone for the last week. We had been together for nearly two months now but the fans still had no idea, and we never got to kiss or hold hands in public. Only Chris, Alex and PJ knew about us, and I just wanted us to finally admit it to everyone so that we could be together and happy without worrying about it.
Dan on the other hand... hated this idea. He was an insecure person (why?! he's perfect!) and didn't want the extra attention. Of course there would be people against the idea of 'us', but you couldn't always have everyone on your side. I was beginning to feel extremely insulted that he didn't want to tell anyone about us. I couldn't help it, but I just kept thinking that it was because he was with me. I have a lot of flaws, and someone as amazing as Dan being seen with someone like me... it was just insulting to him. That was exactly how I felt.
"Fine" I said, standing up from the floor where we had been sitting together and walking into my room.
"Phil, don't be like that" Dan said, following me into the room. "Come with me a second"
He led me into the bathroom, making me stand infront of the big mirror on the wall. He then stood behind me, wrapping his arms around me and putting his head on my shoulder.
"Look at us" he said, but I refused to look. I just wanted to be stubborn to him right now. "Look!" he repeated in a much harsher tone. I obliged and pulled my gaze up to the mirror infront of us. "You see that?" he asked.
"What?" I said. All I could see was us.
"That" he began, "Is perfection. Us together. The way it should be. All I'm asking is that we keep this perfection just to us for a little while, we'll tell everyone eventually. Just a little longer. Please"
I sighed. "Fine Dan, I won't say anything. I don't know what's so bad about telling people though"
"I do" was all he said, before turning silent and walking out of the room. I decided I would give him another week before asking him again.
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Dan's POV
"You cheated!" Phil screamed as I ran around the room with the xbox controller in my hand, him desperately grabbing at it.
"Did not!" I said, dodging past him and making it to my bedroom, closing the door in his face.
"But Dan! You totally just turned off the tv because you were losing! I know you did!"
"I didn't!" I shouted back. I totally did.
"Open the door! Please Dan!" Phil shouted, and I sat down against it so that he couldn't get in.
"Nah I think i'll just stay here for a while..." I laughed, tapping the controller in my hands, patiently waiting for him to give up and walk away. I soon heard footsteps and stood, listening against the door. He had gone. I reached for the door handle, pulling the door open in one swift movement.
"FUCK!" I shouted as I was greeted by Robert Pattinson in my face. "I fucking hate you Phil!"
Phil took the mask off of his face, laughing at me.
"You scare me almost every day! You can't be mad at me for getting you back once!" he laughed.
"Well I am! I'm so fucking mad at you! I hate you!" I said, moping back into my room. He followed me in and I heard footsteps behind me, and I was then spun round and pinned against the wall. Phil put his knee inbetween my legs, causing me to moan a little and then blush madly when I did. Phil brought his face close to mine, looking me straight in the eyes in an unbelievably sexy way.
"You hate... who?" he asked, grinning evilly and winking at me.
"I-I- No one" I stuttered, unable to believe how attracted I was to Phil right now. His attitude had just changed from innocent to... pure sex. It was unbelievable. I tried to reach to grab his face and pull him closer to me, but he gripped both my hands and held them above my head. He had full control of me.
"That's what I thought. So... who do you love?" He asked, kissing slowly across my jaw.
"You! Phil, I- I love you!" I rambled, desperate for him to just kiss me already. He looked up to my face again and winked, smirking sexily.
"Right answer" He said, before pulling me and throwing me onto the bed.
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Phil's POV
I woke up feeling unbelievably happy. The sunlight was creeping through the gap in the blinds and I could feel Dan's arms around me, his head nestled cutely into the back of my neck. He was breathing slowly and calmly, still fast asleep. I closed my eyes again and cuddled into him when I heard a groan - he was waking up.
"Morning sleepyhead" I said, turning around to face him. He screwed his face up and rubbed his eyes, the beam of sunlight shining straight onto his face.
"Fucking sun" he said and I laughed, he wasn't a morning person. I pulled him closer and wrapped my arms around him, resting our foreheads together.
"So last night was great" I said, and he smiled at me.
"Sure was!" he grinned.
Last night was our second time. The first had been about two weeks before that, when I came home to find that Dan had prepared us a romantic dinner. It had all been perfect. Just like last night was too. I was so happy.
"Again soon?" He winked.
"Of course" I replied, and we snuggled further together under the covers.
After a while we decided to get up and get dressed. When we were both dressed, we had cereal and sat together at the breakfast bar.
"Um... Dan?" I asked.
"Yeah Phil?"
"I know you said later on but it's been over a week and I was just wondering... would we be able to tell people about us yet?"
Dan's face dropped, and he looked down at the floor. What ever happy mood had been about the house had just completely disappeared.
"I thought we had gone over this Phil" he mumbled.
I sat there quietly for a moment, and then decided not to. I was going to argue back, he was the one being unfair.
"So what, you just want to never tell anyone about us and constantly not be able to be a couple unless we're in this fucking flat?" I shouted. I could see how shocked Dan was that I actually swore, and how loud I had been. But I couldn't help it, I was so angry.
"I just wanted more time! I just can't do it yet!"
"Dan, it's been two months! You can't just need time! I know exactly why you're doing this. You're embarassed of me and you don't want anyone to know that you're stuck with me. You may as well just say it!" I shouted, standing and pulling my coat on.
"Phil, no! You're wrong! Where are you going?" Dan asked, standing to follow me.
"Out! Go away!" I screamed, before walking out and slamming the door behind me.
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Dan's POV
Phil had been gone for just over two hours now, and I was still sitting on the kitchen floor with my head in my hands. Why didn't he understand? He just didn't know how difficult this was for me. And did he really think that i'm embarassed of him?! Of course I'm not! If anything, he should be embarassed of me. He's the one that has to deal with me.
I just couldn't do it, I couldn't tell everyone about us. It wasn't what Phil thought - I wasn't scared of the fans or other people's reactions. I was scared of my family and what they'd do. I come from an extremely homophobic family, even as a child my father would tell me to stay away from gay people because they would try to hurt me. I didn't tell Phil this because I was scared he would treat me differently. As for my family - I'd be disowned. I know my mother would still care about me, but she wouldn't go against my Dad. If they found out, I would be out of their lives for good.
But I thought about Phil and how happy he made me, how when I was with him I felt like I could take on anything. I knew that I needed him no matter what, and if the only way he would continue to feel the same about me would be to tell people, then I knew what I had to do.
