Chapter 8
Day 23
James sighed as he stared at his lunch. Once again, nothing had arrived since he had sent is letter to Sirius. "I'm sure everything is fine," tried Severus as he ate his own lunch. "I mean you've said it yourself, Black is forgetful. He is probably just enjoying his summer." James nodded, but he didn't believe it.
"It's been five days though. I mean. Even Sirius should have responded. A day or two fine. Three, okay, but five! Five really is pushing it." James let himself flop onto his side and rolled away from his lunch.
Severus stared at him for a moment before setting his own lunch to the side and picking up a piece of paper and a pen.
Sirius
Please respond to your stupid friend before he pulls out and eats his own hair. He has been freaking out for days and it is starting to annoy me.
Severus
Severus put the letter in an envelop and looked up to see that James hadn't even seemed to notice what he had been doing. Sighing, Severus set the letter on the coffee table, and pulled a blanket from their bed. Once he had the blanket, Severus put it over his own shoulders before climbing on top of James and lying on him.
"What are you doing?" asked James as he rolled onto his back so he was facing Severus.
"I am trying to smother your sadness," replied Severus as he snuggled down. James couldn't help but smile as he wrapped his arms around the other boy and hugged him.
"I think it's working," smiled James, but he didn't do anything other than hug him. He just wanted to be close to someone. Severus seemed to understand this and cuddled down, prepared to sleep the day away. If it kept his lover from having a heart attack, then Severus was willing to do it.
The rest of the day was spent cuddling on the couch, and was only interrupted by dinner, and Severus giving the house elf a letter. James glanced at it a little confused, since he hadn't seen the other boy write it, but he quickly shrugged it off and ate his meal. When they were done, the pair moved to the bed and cuddled. James was still feeling hollow and being close to someone helped a lot.
"Would you be upset if I said I don't want to have sex tonight?" asked James suddenly as they laid on the bed.
"Of course not," snorted Severus. "Look, despite what the world seems to think, sex isn't a cure all. Sometimes just having someone with you makes it better, and if hugging is what you need, then hugging is what we are going to do. I don't have to have sex every day James."
James looked at Severus for a moment before leaning forward and giving him a soft kiss. "Thank you. I'm sorry I trapped you in bed all day?"
"Dork," whispered Severus as he snuggled his head under James's chin and let out a content sigh. "As if I gain nothing from this." James smiled and made a happy sound as he let himself fall asleep. He'd been resting all day, but he was still tired. I'll need to move around a bit more tomorrow.
Day 24
For once, Severus woke up first. Groaning, he poked James in the side until the other boy moved. "What?" groaned James.
"We never showered last night and I feel gross," whined Severus as he sat up.
"You feel fine to me," chuckled James as his hand slipped down Severus's back and rested on his butt.
"Pervert," muttered Severus as he rolled away and started to undress. "I'll be in the shower if you need me. A nice hot shower will wake me up." James suddenly felt more awake than he had in days and hopped up to join Severus.
Severus had already started the shower and was getting undressed when James walked in. "Mind if I join?" asked James as he already started to undress.
"As long as we actually shower, yes," smiled Severus as he looked over his shoulder. James let out a pleased hum as he ran his hands up and down his lover's sides. Severus shuddered before moving towards the water. "Take your clothes off."
James didn't need anymore prompting as he quickly slipped out of his clothes and joined Severus under the water. Severus in question was already washing his hair and doing a good job of pretending James wasn't there. James reached up and started scratching and rubbing his lover's head.
Severus made a happy hum and let his hands rest on the wall in front of him. James massaged Severus's scalp for another minute before moving his head under the water and rinsing his hair. James got more soap on his hands before rubbing up and down his lover's back. Extra time was spent rubbing Severus's shoulders, but it didn't take James's hand long to slip lower.
Glancing over his shoulder again, Severus smiled before leaning against the wall more so his ass was sticking out. "Tease," growled James as he pushed his slicked finger up inside his partner. Severus let out a gasp as his eyes closed and let out a moan. "You're doing that on purpose," grunted James as he added another finger.
The second moan, Severus let out was sharper and James could feel him quivering. James gripped Severus's hip with his other hand so he wouldn't have to worry about his lover slipping. Severus pushed back against, James's hand as he was worked open. James smiled as he leaned forward and kissed Severus's shoulder. "You know for someone that had never had sex before this summer. You're really kinky."
Severus's only response was a gasp as he continued to roll his hips. James chose this time to add a third finger, and nip at his lover's ear. Severus's body went rigid as the sounds he made alone were enough to make James want to come.
"You ready?" James asked more out of courtesy since he'd already taken his fingers out and was lining himself up. Severus made an annoyed little huffing sound as he turned his head so he could bite James's chin. "Ow!" James gave Severus a mock hurt look before thrusting forward.
James slipped in easily, but Severus slipped a little as well. James quickly pushed him up against the wall. "Fuck this might not work." Severus made an agreeing whine. James pulled out before leading Severus to the floor of the shower. Without being told to, Severus rolled over onto his back and looked up at James.
James stared down at Severus's serene expression, the water from the shower falling around them making everything seem surreal. Slowly, James leaned forward and kissed, Severus. He pulled the other boy's tongue into his mouth and sucked on it as Severus lifted his hips. James's mouth moved to Severus's neck as he pushed his way back in.
Severus let out a blissful sigh as he let his head fall back so the hot water could hit his face. The hot water and cold floor contrast made everything feel more intense. James moved slowly above him. The rush of before had dissipated slightly, but James was gaining his momentum again.
"James," gasped Severus. James moved his head so their foreheads were pressed together.
"Feel good, love?" asked James breathily. Severus opened his mouth to answer, but nothing came out as James thrust in harder and hit his prostate. The sudden tightening around his shaft made James let out a gasp of his own. Feeling himself getting close, James picked up speed, his mind barley registering Severus going limp.
Gripping Severus's hips, James slammed into him one last time and held him in place as he came. James let out a breathy moan as he felt Severus quivering around him as he came. "Fuck," whined Severus as he clumsily grabbed at James and pulled him down on top of him to kiss him.
The pair kissed sloppily in their post orgasm bliss for a full minute before Severus let out a pained groan. James pulled back and looked down at him concerned. "Back hurts," grunted Severus as if he just realized they had been having sex on a hard stone floor.
"Sorry," mumbled James as he slipped out of Severus.
Feeling cum run out of him, made Severus shuddered before letting out an annoyed groan. "We forgot about the condom."
"Should we ask the house elf for another potion?" asked James as he helped Severus up.
Severus let out another annoyed groan as he stood up and leaned against James. "I hate to say this, but yes. You never know." James nodded as his hand slipped back down and spread Severus's cheeks. Severus winced and clung to James's shoulders. "James… I can't…"
"Shhh," hushed James as his free arms wrapped around Severus's waist and helped hold him up. "Just cleaning you out. I know you're sensitive right now, but we originally came in here to get cleaned up. Forgot about how messy this was without a condom."
"Oh yeah that was totally the reason I came in here؟" snorted Severus sarcastically. James ignored him and focused on not hurting his partner as he helped him clean up. Once he was sure he'd gotten everything out, the pair went back to taking a shower more normally. Severus washed James's back and chest as he washed his hair. The two occasionally would kiss and giggle as they washed up, but it lacked the heat of before.
By the time the two finally made it out of the bathroom, their breakfast was already on the table. James looked at the bowls of cereal with a frown. "I'll ask the elf at lunch I guess."
Severus nodded before plopping down on the couch and looking at his bowl. It wasn't until he was sitting down in front of his bowl that Severus noticed that they each had a letter next to their breakfast. "We got letters," said Severus in a confused voice.
James was over by his bowl in a flash and picked up the letter. "This is Sirius's handwriting," said James as he looked at his name on the letter. The same handwriting was on Severus's letter and James had to keep himself from grabbing that letter as well. He wanted to know what Sirius had sent to Severus. Restraining himself, James just opened his own letter.
James
Sorry for not writing back to you right away James. Me and Remus went camping over the weekend and we just wanted to talk about a few things. He told me about him and Lily and he feels really bad, but you said in the letter you don't care, but he doesn't believe you. Apparently, him and Lily have been 'together' since Christmas and they just didn't know how to break it to you without you getting really angry.
We were also talking about what you wrote about you and Snape, "exploring your options." and we have to ask. What the hell does that mean exactly. 'Cause we were trying to figure that out and we came up with two ideas.
1. You two are just talking about the girls you like.
2. You two are having sex.
I'm sorry if the second one makes you angry but just how you worded made it kinda sound like you two might have been… you know.
Anyway, please write to Remus and reassure him you're not mad. Maybe write to Lily too. And please explain what you mean about you and Snape.
Sirius
James read it a few times before looking over at Snape, who had opened and read Sirius's letter to him already and was now eating his breakfast. "Can I read the letter he sent you?" asked James sheepishly. Severus nodded and handed the letter to James.
Snape
As much as it disgusts me to write this, thank you for letting me know that James was upset.
Sirius
James snorted and tossed the letter back. He hadn't seen Severus write the letter but he had noticed that Severus had sent one the day before. He hadn't expected a message back so soon. Sirius must have quickly replied after getting Snape's letter. "He wants to know what we meant by 'exploring our options,'" said James as he looked over at Severus.
Severus frowned but he let out a small sigh. "You can tell him about us considering dating. He is your friend after all. I guess if we do end up dating we'll have to interact eventually."
James nodded, but he was frowning. It was weird to think of all of them hanging out together. Being in the isolated rooms had kind of warped James view on things. Looking up at Severus, he smiled. "It is strange to think about, but I am willing to make it work. I am sure once he gets to know you a little he'll warm up. I feel like we all just got off on the wrong foot."
Severus nodded but he didn't seem very convinced. "How about this," tried James. "I'll have Sirius write you another letter and the two of you can just talk about yourselves and try to become at the very least civil to each other once we get out here."
Severus made a grumbling sound. "Only if he goes first. If he sends the letter first then I will reply to it."
"I can agree to that," nodded James as he got out a piece of paper and a pen.
Remus
I am not mad at you. Again, I just wished you had been more honest earlier and not have me find out on my own. I knew for two weeks before the end of school and I didn't say anything. I didn't know how to approach you about it, but I didn't instantly get mad either.
Severus and me are thinking of dating anyway. He is gonna give me an answer at the end of the summer. He says I'm too impulsive and he wants to make sure it is really what we both want.
I'm not mad.
James
Sirius
I wrote to Remus and I hope it is reassuring.
And I won't be made about conclusion 2 because it is true. We're sleeping together. I really like sleeping with him. He can be really cute, (and I am not just saying that because we are trapped here.) I'll admit we have already done a lot more than me and Lily every did, (and I know I told you everything we did, which after being with Severus seems like nothing at all).
I mean I can tell you what we've done if you want me to, but… yeah I don't think you want to hear about the things that we've been doing. I'll save you the details, but know I don't regret anything we have done in the slightest.
I do want you two to try to get along though and I thought maybe you could two could write back and forth. He agreed but only if you start. Just talk about random things and try to get to know each other. Just so a the very least the two of you can be civil when we get out of here.
Sorry if this is a bit of a shock to you.
James
"I really hope he doesn't freak out," muttered James as he folded the letters up and put them off to the side for the elf.
"I think it will be fine," shrugged Severus as he got off the couch and stretched before grabbing a few papers and a pencil. James nodded before eating his own breakfast and joining Severus at the table to draw.
They stayed this way until lunch when James handed the letters over and asked about the potion for Severus. The elf gave them a disapproving look before glancing at the box Dumbledore had given them. James looked at it sheepishly before explaining, "We forgot. We were… not thinking clearly."
The elf simply nodded, took the letters, and left their lunch. Today's lunch being fish and chips, which James was happy to see. He could only eat a ham sandwich so many times before he went crazy. Severus never seemed to mind the lack of variety; James figured it was from the poor up bringing, since Sirius had a similar view of food. I wonder if Severus will be joining me at my house over the summers after this, pondered James as he started eating. I think I'll worry about that later, decided James as he focused on his food.
Severus seemed more interested in his drawing than what was on his plate. "Aren't you hungry?" asked James when he noticed that Severus wasn't eating.
"That potion made me feel sick last time," pointed out Severus. "I just don't want to fill my stomach full of fish before I drink it. I feel like it wouldn't be a very good idea." James recalled the last time, Severus had taken the potion and nodded. The other boy had felt rather queasy after he had taken the potion.
It wasn't long before the elf returned with a potion and a bowl of porridge with honey. "Mr. Dumbledore asks that you please not forget next time," squeaked the elf as he set the food down in front of Severus.
"We wont," said Snape in an apologetic tone. "We really did forget. It was an accident." The elf nodded as Severus drank the potion down quickly and handed the little jar back to the elf. As soon as the jar was in his hand, the elf vanished.
"So can I have your fish if you're not going to eat it?" asked James slyly. Severus just rolled his eyes and pushed his plate of fish towards James. James happily ate it as Severus went a bit paler and tried to eat his porridge. Severus hadn't even gotten through half of it before be put the spoon down and just stared into the bowl.
Recognizing the, 'I'm trying not to vomit' look, James got up and made their bed. James made sure to put all of the pillows on the bed so that they could lean against the headboard. Next, he grabbed their books and put them on the bed, before finally going over to Severus and slowly lifting him up.
Severus made a rather pathetic distressed sound as he was taken over to the bed, but didn't move at all as James had him lay down. James climbed onto the bed as well and covered them with a blanket. Once situated, James got his book and started reading. Severus didn't seem interested in reading, and simply curled up under James's arms and rested his head on James's chest.
It made reading a little more difficult, but James didn't mind as he drew mindless circles on Severus's back. Severus let out a content hum as he quickly fell asleep again. James looked down at his lover's peaceful expression and smiled. I hope he agrees to be my boyfriend after this.
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