Hi, thank you for being so patient with me. You all are amazing. Thank you for the reviews. There's a new artist that I will be mentioning in this chapter. His name is ''hozier'', and I'm already obsessed! High and musical Bella is back, but very depressed & promiscuous. Enjoy this chapter.

Chapter 8:

B.P.O.V:

I stared at the window as I watched the sun come up, showering through the curtains of our bedroom. My naked body shivered as the sunlight finally hit my cold skin, making me turn away. I looked at the clock on Edward's side of the bed, moaning softly. It had just hit six a.m, my mind filled with anxiety thanks to my horrid black out at school, yesterday. Alice and I both have five days of suspension that starts today, and ends next Wednesday. I was so ashamed of myself that I couldn't even have sex with Edward last night. I haven't slept, either..

I get out of bed, throwing on a pair of black sweats, a long-sleeved black shirt and cotton socks. I walk into the bathroom, brushing my teeth, staring at my blank, pale face. I blinked, and looked down, gagging and spitting blood into the sink. I washed my face and as I did, I started to sing ''F For You'' by disclosure, trying to distract myself from being paranoid.

''..because I played the fool for ya, because I played the fool for ya. I've been infected..'' I stopped singing as I dried my face. I stood up straight and walked downstairs, making coffee. I lit a cigarette, singing Mary j's part, quietly. I sighed and closed my eyes. I swear I'm insane.

After I made my coffee, I sat at the counter, putting out my cigarette, before realizing it was my last one.

''Fuck.'' I moaned, putting my head down on the counter. I took a sip of my coffee, sucking my teeth. I stood up again and poured it down the drain. My thoughts were so bunched up, I couldn't focus. My emotions are messy. There's only one thing I do when I feel like I'm disconnected from reality.

I walked up the stairs, and opened the door to my piano room. I stared at my beautiful black Baldwin SD-10 concert grand piano. I haven't touched it in months. I always play when I'm stressed. It's my way of feeling every emotion in my body. My way of feeling like I have control of something in my life.

I walked to the piano bench, sitting down while pressing a few keys. I adjusted myself into the correct place and closed my eyes.

I felt anger. So much anger my hands started to shake. Alice, Edward's foster-mother, Mike, Tyler, Eric. Everything.

My fingers stared to move as I recognized the piece I started to play a random symphony that popped in my brain. The music flows in my body, controlling my fingertips. My fingers moved graciously as I played, my eyes closed. All the anger disappeared as I went through the piece, thinking about everything that's happened from foster care, to adopting Anna, to meeting Edward, to now..

I didn't realize how much time has passed until I finished the piece, exhaling all the air I was holding in. I cracked my knuckles as I started to feel sadness and insecurity. I stood and opened all the windows in the room, feeling as If I couldn't breathe. I started fiddling with the keys, playing nursery tunes, feeling weak.

When I finished with that song. I lay my head on the piano, breathing slowly. I stood up and walked to the living room, slipping on a pair of black uggs and grabbing the keys to my truck. I walked to my truck and hopped into the driver's seat, starting it. It roared to life, making me jump. I drove around the block to the house behind mine and stopped. I pulled out my phone, dialing the number I haven't dialed in months.

''Hello?'' A deep voice asked.

''I'm outside.'' I answered. All of a sudden the door busted open and Jacob walked out, holding different sized baggies in his hand.

''Hello, Bella.'' The tall, copper-skinned boy greeted.

''Hello, Jake.'' I greeted, back.

''What do you need, today?'' He asked.

''Let me get a quarter of king kong, please.'' I smiled, pulling out a hundred and twenty five dollars from my pocket.

''Of course!.'' He exclaimed. I slipped the money into his back pocket and winked at him, taking the bag of weed. Jacob's always had a thing for me and I make fun of him for it.

''I'll see you, Jake.'' I waved and walked to my truck, driving back home. I parked in the driveway, turning on some music. I reached into the glove compartment and pulled out a back-wood and started to roll. As I rolled, I thought about Garrett's party and how high Edward and I were while playing guitar hero. Ah, I love Edward so much. It's like we've been together forever. I smiled at the memory as I pulled out my lighter. I lit the blunt as I put up the volume on the radio, coughing as the drug hit my lungs, running in my veins. My eyes slumped as I leaned my head back on the seat.

''Some good shit.'' I smiled, feeling more relaxed than I've felt in the past month. By the time I finished the blunt, I was high as hell. My body was vibrating, my eyes are blood-shot and slightly shut, and I can't keep my mouth closed. I breathed in and out, my actions exaggerated. Every time I move, it feels like my actions are repeating. The drug took over my system.

''I guess another one wont hurt.'' I chirped. I inhaled the remaining smoke in the air, smiling slowly. I took out my bob Marley papers from the glove compartment, and rolled two more spliffs, stuffing the rest of the weed in my sweater pocket. I lit the first spliff, inhaling, feeling the vibration intensify as I smoked. My eyes shut completely as I smoked my last spliff. I open them slightly to look at the time. It just hit seven, that means Edward had to just wake up.

I turn off my car and slowly get out, closing the door. I stumble into the house and close the door, walking up to my room. I see Edward sitting on the bed. He looks at me and starts laughing, loudly.

''Holy shit, Bella! You are so smacked.'' He laughs. I don't answer. I just stare at his bare chest, smiling.

''You're so hot.'' I blurted out, giggling. He held his hands open and I jumped into them, straddling him.

''We didn't get to finish last night.'' I whispered. He smiled and winked at me. I leaned down and kissed him, moaning because his lips are so soft.

''You have soft lips, baby.'' I whispered, staring at them. He laughed. His laugh ran through my body and I stared at him, becoming lost.

''You're high.'' He snickered. I laughed and kissed him again.

''God, I'm so lucky to have you. I need you. Let me show you how much I need you.'' I moaned. I can feel his bare morning wood in between my legs.

''I have to get ready, love.'' He sighed.

''Don't be a poo, daddy. You can be late.'' I winked, licking my lips. I have no filter when I'm intoxicated.

''Did you just called me daddy? What did you smoke?'' He chuckled, staring at my lips.

''You know you liked it, daaaaaaaddy.'' I said in a fake jersey accent. I swear I was laced. I'll have to kill Jake when I become sober.

''Hm, say it again.'' He answered.

''Oh, daddy.'' I giggled as he thrust his hips forward. I stood up and took off my clothes and underwear, then climbed back on top of him. I felt him against my stomach. I started to stroke his shaft, parting my lips as I watched his face turn into a mask of pleasure. I swiped the tip of his cock with my thumb, lowering my head and licking it slowly as I stared at him. He moaned my name, thrusting his hips off the bed. I climbed up his body and lined his tip to the opening of my pussy and sunk down, slowly. I let out a long, pornographic moan. I grabbed the top of the headboard and started to ride him.

''Fuck, Bella. You're so sexy.'' Edward groaned. Fuck, sex while high is the best thing I swear. Everything is so intense. I started to move faster, the headboard rattling, frantically. I feel the burning in my stomach as I rode him fast and hard.

''Oh fuck.'' I gasped, wanting more and more.

''Edward, fuck me. Please.'' I whimpered, my legs shaking. All of a sudden I'm flipped on my back with my leg on Edward's shoulder, being fucked furiously. I pant and writhe and scratch against Edward's back as he fucks me. I scratch until I draw blood and suck and bite on his shoulder and neck until there's dark purple marks all over.

Thank God I'm flexible.

''Oh, baby. I'm close.'' I scream. Edward groans repeatedly as he pounds in and out of me. His muscles flex and pop out. I stare at them, my eyes rolling into the back of my head as the vibrations from the weed and the intensness of my buildig orgasm combines, washing over me. I scream, my entire body shaking as I cum, panting and groaning as I feel Edward twitch inside me.

''Fuckkkkk.'' He groans as he cums inside me. I breathe in and out, my heart beat still racing as my body slumps. I lay for a moment, tracing the now forming screatches on Edwards back as the feeling of my regular high comes back. I look at Edward and kiss him, softly.

''I love you, daddy.'' I tease, kissing him again. He chuckles against my mouth.

''I love you, girl.'' He kisses my forehead. He pulls out of me and hops off the bed, his lucious ass in my face as he walks to the bathroom door. I hop out and stumble to him, following him to the bathroom.

After another fuckfest in the shower and stealing a pack of cigarettes from his draw, I'm now downstairs, cooking breakfast. My movements are sluggish, considering the state I am in, and being fucked until my bones turned into jelly. I lit a cigarette as I watched the eggs fry. I heard a chair move and turned around and saw Anna.

''You and Edward should really learn to be more quie-'' She stopped and stared at me, narrowing her eyes. Then a loud gaffauw left her lips.

''Well shit, you are as high as a kite.'' She laughed. I giggled and put her food in front of her, along with her lunch money. Then I looked and saw Edward walking down the stairs. He's wearing a black v-neck with a leather jacket in his hands, blue jeans and his black comverses. His neck was exposed, along with the new scratches and bruises on his biceps from our session in the bathroom. I swear I was drooling.

''Wow, you did a number on him. And I thought Melanie was bad.'' Anna, whistled. I rolled my eyes, slowly and put Edward's plate on the table. He sat and pulled me onto his lap. I wasn't paying attention to their convo. I was munching on my bacon and eggs a little too enthusiastically. By the time I was on my last few bites, I noticed it was quiet and they were both staring at me. I looked at Anna, then back to Edward with low, red eyes and smiled.

''What?'' I asked. I started to laugh and chew at the same time. They both laughed with me and ate.

After I kissed them both goodbye at 7:50, I decided to do some cleaning. I wrapped my hair in a messy bun and put my ipod on shuffle on the surround sound. From Eden by Hozier filling the house. I hummed with him at the beginning of the song as I cleaned the kitchen. I danced and twirled and laughed as I cleaned the stove and the fridge and the floor. I loaded the dishwasher, cleaned the table and looked at my now, spotless kitchen. I walked in the living room as Warm Winds by Sza started to play. The bass shook the house and my body. The good vibes hit me as I vaccummed the floor. I dusted the furniture and fluffed the pillows on the couch as I sang. Hiiijack by SZA came on as I started to organize the coat close in size and colored order. I sang and sang and tripped and danced. I felt free. I organized the shoes size order, mine being the last.

I walked upstairs into the bathroom and started to scrub the tub while singing to Florida Kilos by Lana Del Rey.

''Yaaaaaayoooooo.'' I sang as I scrubbed and scrubbed. By the time 7/11 by beyonce came on, I finished the house. I ran to the living room and started to dance. I shook my butt and danced and grinded. I threw my hands up and moved my hips side to side. I twerked and jumped and twirled.

After I finished dancing from boredom, I looked at the time. It's 11:30. Damn, that much time passed? I laid on the couch and listened to the music. I closed my eyes and sighed. I'm not as high as I was this morning, but I'm still feeling a little buzz, and I'm exhausted. I kept my eyes closed and laid on my stomach, snuggling my face into one of the pillows.

My eyes flutter open and I sit up as Video Phone by beyonce fills my senses. I rub my eyes and looked at the time and jumped up. It's 2. They must be coming home, now. I should make lunch. I walked to my ipod and put it on my groovy playlist. Try a little Tenderness by Otis Redding started and I swayed while walking to kitchen. I pulled out a bowl of potatos and started to peel them as I swayed my body to the song. If it isn't obvious, I love music. So much. All types. It helps me concentrate, it helps my emotions when I'm sad, even when I'm happy.

Window Seat by Erykah Badu came on and I smiled. I love Erykah Badu. Her music is smooth and her voice, ugh. She's so gifted.

''I need you to want me..'' I sang with her voice. I cut the potatos in straight lines, and started to heat up the deep fryer. As I waited for it to heat up, I took out two packs of burger patties and heated up the kitchen grill when On & On by Erykah badu filled the house. My favorite! I heard the door open as the bass of the song rattled through. I put the patties on the grill and seasoned them when I felt a pair of warm farmilar arms wrap around my torso. I wrapped my arms around his as we started to sway to the song together, his hand creeping up my brown long-sleeved shirt, holding my bare hips. I moved my hair to one side of my shoulder as he started to kiss my neck while we swayed to the smooth beat. I sighed and closed my eyes as I felt his mouth on my skin. We swayed and swayed, not realizing anyone walked into the kitchen.

''Aw! They're so romantic, why don't you ever do this to me?" I heard Rosalie crook. I heard a slight thump and Emmeett say ow. I chuckled deeply and turned around in Edwards arms and kissed him lightly.

''Hi, you guys.'' I smiled, waving. I would've went to them, but Edward never let go of me. We were still swaying to the song. The song finished and he let go of me, kissing my forehead.

'Do you need any help?'' He asked as Didn't Cha' Know aslo by Erykah Badu came on. I looked at Rosalie and Emmett who were smiling and swaying, looking like they were deep in love. I looked back at Edward.

''No, babyboy. You're just gonna eat everything.'' I smiled. He chuckled and kissed me, slowly. I kissed him back with the same pace, then pulled back. I flipped the burgers and put the potatos in the deep fryer. I made a plate with tomatos, onions, lettuce, and pickles on it for their burgers. After I set everything up, I called them all to the kitchen to get their food. We all ate when I saw Edward staring at me with love and devotion in his eyes. I blushed, and looked down.

''Bella?'' Rosalie asked. I looked up at her.

''I admire you, a lot.'' She smiled. I smiled back at her.

''That's sweet, Rose.'' I answered.

''No, I mean you and Anna are the strongest people I met. Like, I've never seen a person with so much responsibility, before. Edward is very lucky to have you, and Anna is very lucky to have you as a sister. I mean you can cook for God's sake and roll like a motherfucker, and you have so many talents and a great music taste. You're wife material. Like sometimes I question if you're really a senior in highschool.'' Rosalie laughed, along with us.

''Oh Rose, you're so sweet. Thank you. I mean I can admit, it's hard.'' I chuckled. They all nodded in agreement.

''So.. It's friday. Who want's to get high?'' Emmett asked. I snorted.

''Should have seen me, this morning.'' I winked at Edward.

''Thanks to you, everyone in the gym locker room likes me even more.'' Edward laughed. I rolled my eyes. Emmett laughed and stood up, putting a baggie on my plate.

''It's friday.'' He whispered. I put the dishes in the sink and we all sat in the living room. I rolled Emmetts shit and grabbed my already rolled ones from this morning. I lit a blunt and took a large inhale, ghosting it. I took another large pull, making large smoke rings. I passed it to Edward and the fun began.

Five blunts, three spliffs and an entire bottle of amsterdam vodka later, we were all laying on the floor, gone. Mel and Anna were all over eachother, laughing at nothing. Emmett and Rose are dry humping, and Edward and I were holding eachother. He kept kissing my neck, making me moan. I kissed him slowly, exploring his mouth with my tongue. I pulled on his bottom lip and moaned when the bell rang.

''Fuck.'' I moaned, standing up. I walked to the door and opened it, gasping.

''Good to see you again, sexy.'' His voice made me shake, and break into hives. I started to pant and tears fell down my eyes. His evil blue eyes staring down at me. Anna gasped behind me and started to sob, freezing next to me.

''James.'' I whispered.

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