Chapter 8

Derek walked towards his car humming a tune. This evening was great. Perfect; he loved to spend time with Meredith. She just made everything easier; all his problems disappeared.

He heard his phone ring and vibrate. Keeping is eyes on the road he answered it, thinking it was Meredith.

"Meredith, I'm heading to your house soon and don't worry I will pick some underwear that's a little more… discrete." He chuckled

"Derek…"

"Oh Addison?" he asked with a puzzled look on his face.

"Yeah, did I get you at a bad time?" she asked sniffing back some tears.

"Um… yeah… kind of… but what's up? You alright?" Derek still had some feelings for her; he cared about her. They were married for 11 years and he was concerned because Addison sounded drunk.

"I'm alright…" she sighed "I miss you Derek." She whispered.

"Addison. You know we're not meant to be. You have a place in my heart Addie, but we fell out of love a long time ago." He shook his head lightly. He just wanted to get out of this conversation. "I love Meredith" he added softly.

"I know, I just want to be with you; one last time. Please Derek" she pleaded, she sounded so desperate.

"That's not a good idea Addie. You know that… and I have to go." Derek said pulling up to Meredith's house.

Addison sighed. "Alright, I'll see you at work then..." she asked

"Yeah... Take care Addie" Derek snapped his phone shut and rubbed his temples trying to push away the forming headache.


He walked up on the porch of Meredith's house. He figured although he had a key, he should knock; be polite. He felt anxious; he was going into his girlfriend's house. Can I call Meredith my girlfriend yet? he pondered just as the door swung open to show Izzie with a surprised look on her face.

"Dr. Shepherd!" she said with equal shock in her voice. "Um… Meredith isn't here at the moment…"

"Yes, I know. I took her out for dinner." he thought he'd better not reveal where they really were; thinking they probably wouldn't approve. "I've just come to pick up a few things for Meredith, is that alright?"

"Oh that's fine, you know the way to her room…" she gestured for Derek to come in.

"Thank you. Yes I know the way. When we're not in the hospital its okay to call me Derek you know" he said with a grin.

"Ok… Derek…" Izzie replied her cheeks turning a little pink. "Is Meredith okay…?" She asked Derek as he headed up the stairs.

"Yeah, I think she's okay. I mean, I know I hurt her a lot and just tonight isn't going to fix that. But I really do love her. I was just trying to push my feelings for her away; try and make it work with Addison…" He chuckled and shook his head. "I shouldn't be telling you this, I'm sorry…"

"No, no, it's fine. I understand." Izzie smiled at him, urging him to continue.

"I thought I owed it to Addison, myself, our marriage; but it was turning me into a unhappy, pessimistic person. I hated to get up in the morning; I didn't want to do anything. I didn't like what I was becoming. I love Meredith. I love her more than words can describe. She's an incredible person." He looked at Izzie. His eyes had tears in them. "huh" he chuckled wiping them away.

"Wow, Dr Shepherd… Derek… I knew you loved her. Everyone knew you loved her; I think even Addison did. But I didn't know you felt that way about her… She loves you as well. She loves you a lot. "

"Hmm… yeah…" He replied thinking about Meredith; her smile pierced his skin and made him melt inside and her laugh brightened up the room like a jet of sunshine coming out of the clouds on a dark day. "I'm going to grab some stuff now…" he pointed towards Meredith's room, inching his way there.

"Oh yeah, go on… tell her I said hi…" Izzie said, tucking a piece of her hair behind her ear.

"Will do, thanks Izzie." Izzie smiled and walked into the lounge.


Derek took the stairs two at a time and opened the door to Meredith's room. It was just how he remembered it. It was soaking in Meredith. Everything about her room just screamed Meredith. The bed, unmade, yet tidy; her clothes lied strewn on her floor. Derek grabbed the clothes on her bed. He laughed, and the top. It was her Dartmouth top; her favourite. He made his way over to her dresser and opened them up searching for her lingerie draw.

"Bingo" he mumbled when he finally found the draw. He picked up the first thing he saw; a black, lacy G-string. I don't think Meredith will be very happy if I brought this back he thought, chuckling to himself. Derek chose a few items, chucking them in a bag along with her "comfy clothes" and closed the draw.

Derek turned around to look at Meredith's room one last time before he headed down the stairs. He couldn't wait to be around her again.

"Dr Shepherd…" George called after him just as he was about to go down the stairs.

"George, please call me Derek."

"Oh okay, Derek… are you back together with Meredith?" George mumbled looking down at the floor.

"Yeah, I guess we are…" Derek looked at him and smiled. "I guess we are…"

"Look after her okay? She's really special and I don't want her to get hurt again."
Derek nodded. George really cared about Meredith. "Or I might have to kick you're butt." George added, his face turning red.

Derek laughed and patted George's back. They nodded at each other, a manly nod to show they understood each other.

"See you later George." Derek said walking down the stairs.


A/N: Hey guys! Thank you for reviewing! And because of you guys, I have decided that it's not going to end just yet! This chapter would've been up sooner… but I couldn't get into the user page thingy... This is bad for me though… I have a physics test when I go back to school and I haven't revised yet! That's only the tip of the iceberg a.k.a my homework! Plus my annual report for the Board of Trustees of the school… yay… Well anyways… I hope you liked the chapter! Please review! Makes me feel good when I read it!

Lisejane- Thank you, I'm glad you liked the Furniture shopping bit. I thought I was the only one who thought that was funny :P. Not ending yet… I have stuff planned…

ilajkajas2215- Addison sort of does something crazy in this chapter. I was thinking about getting Derek to go over and sleep with her and then of course Meredith will be angry… but then that would delay the part that I want to write next… and Derek already announced his love for Meredith and only just started earning her trust back, so I thought it might be a bit too overboard :)

Nati girl- Ahhhh with the pregnant man… That ep was cool, well every ep is cool :) 12 day's til it comes out here! I'm so excited. Makes sense that you guys had it out now, seeing as we get what you get basically.

shoppingal87- Meredith and Derek are sooo meant to be! But it's a universal theme really. If they were together, there wouldn't be so much to talk about and viewers might tune out… I'm really biased though. No matter how good the fic is if it's an Addek I don't like it as much.

Meredith and Derek- I am a little crazy! But it's not going to end yet.. yay! lol

SBandJasonSamfan/ Brandy- I have a few ideas and something big and kinda clichéd planned :P.

AlotLikeMeredith, PatEllen, Heather0120- Thank you very much! I really appreciate you guys reviewing :) I hope you liked this chapter.

Wow, that was a long Author's note :). Writing chapter 9 as we speak/I write...:)