Jasper
Hearing Saya, my mate, the girl that I had already begun to care about, tell me that she didn't need me, didn't even want me, hurt more than anything I had ever felt during the vampire wars. Because it wasn't just a physical ache, or a broken heart caused by knowing that no one really cared for me for anything other than my power. This was different.
I've heard that when a vampire finds their mate, it completes them because they were once the same soul. Others say that their mates are the one person in existence who can really understand them and that is the reason for our attraction to them. I'd never really paid much attention to things like that until I met Alice, and I finally began to feel whole. But this entire time, we've both been missing something, someone. And she could finally make us complete.
For some reason, I think that Alice and I both assumed that after we told our human mate the truth about us, everything would be smooth sailing. That we'd turn her and be together for the rest of our lives.
But that is no longer an option. Not only do we not want to upset Saya by forcing that choice on her, I already know that Saya would refuse. Last night, even though I never entered the house, I could still feel Saya's emotions. I could feel how happy she was just to be near the little ones and, if we turned her, we'd be taking that happiness away forever. Saya could never be near the children again. Even after she got her bloodlust under control, she still wouldn't age.
The only question is what kind of future that leaves for us. Will Saya choose to never become a vampire, to live her life as a human along with her children? If that truly does happen, I don't think that Alice and I will live much longer than she does. Even though we've only just met her, and have barely had a single civil conversation, I already love her, and I know that Alice feels the same. I can feel her devotion to Saya, and I know that neither of us will be able to take Saya's children away from her. Being with Esme had already taught us that Saya may never fully recover from losing those kids.
When class began to wind down, I knew that I had to explain something to her. Even if she would eventually break our hearts, both Alice and I knew from the moment that we laid eyes on her that we had to know her, to love her. Carefully trying to figure out the words that would put Saya at ease, I realised that I couldn't start our relationship with a lie. Saya would never be able to forgive me if I were to lie to her now, her fear of betrayal was too strong. So I told her all that I could without giving away our secret.
For a moment, I thought that I had gotten through to her, that she might really let me get to know her. But the moment the bell rang, she ran from me as quickly as she could. Her panic almost consumed me. Could it be that she is scared of trusting me? Could she have had a bad experience?
Sighing, I began to leave for my next class. As much as I would have liked to chase Saya down, I know that it would only make things worse. Hopefully I'll find another chance to try to talk to her. After all, we do have several of the same classes thanks to Alice.
As I walked out of the door, I was surprised when Alice stepped up to walk next to me. Seeing her, I couldn't help but be ashamed that I may not have ruined only my happiness, but her's as well.
Just as I was about to apologise, Alice cut me off. "Don't worry, we have plenty of time to woo Saya. For now, let's just try to get her to talk to us. I have a pottery class with her right before lunch, so I'll try to talk to her then. You do have two classes with her before then, but those teachers plan to use an alphabetical seating chart. If all goes well, I might be able to get her to eat lunch with us."
"Wouldn't she rather eat lunch with someone she knows better?" I asked, surprised.
Alice's eyes became unfocused for a few seconds, showing that she was searching the future, before she came back to me and said, "No, she's going to eat in the library. Actually she isn't eating much, I don't think it's healthy for a human to eat that little," she reported with a worried frown. Alice shook her head and continued, "Anyway, from what I've seen and what I've heard being said, it seems that our initial assumptions were right. Saya's a loner, at school at least."
"So you think you can get her to eat lunch with us?" I asked, though Alice's eyes told me that she could see through to what I wasn't asking: whether Saya would eat with me.
"Definitely," Alice chirped before she apparently had another vision which caused her to squeal. "It looks like someone is dropping out of Saya's Pre-Calculus class. I'll have to see if I can transfer in."
Amused at Alice's constant machinations to get together with our mate, I dropped her off at her class before hurrying to mine. I didn't really care if I made it on time or not, but I wanted to build up a good reputation. At worst, it would get us some leeway with the teachers and staff. At best, it might help to throw off any suspicions that we aren't human. After all, who ever heard of an immortal who cares about the rules? There certainly aren't any in those ridiculous books human girls are always reading.
This brought my thoughts to whether or not Saya liked those kinds of books, or even reading in general, which brought on more worry about what it would be like to be in class with her.
As the day wore on, I remembered why I never did take bets against Alice, as Saya went out of her way to avoid me during class, slightly aided by the teachers' seating arrangements. While I walked to my sixth period class, I could help but hope that Alice would be able to work yet another miracle to drive us all together.
So it's been a while. I've got an updating schedule set up that should work for the next couple weeks until school gets started, so that should help me get all of my stories moving again. Bare bones is that I'll be updating this story every Wednesday, probably later on in the day if I have some plans. That being said, I might miss a week every so often if I'm just to busy to write. Case in point, this chapter was originally supposed to be anywhere from twice to three times as long as it is, but I just didn't have time to finish it all, so I found a fairly good stopping point, and you'll get the rest next week.
