I do not own Teen Titans. I love the reviews I got on the last chapter, please review on this chapter. it might be awhile on the updates because I am away for summer and don't have wireless, I will try to update every Sunday. Starfire finally confesses to Robin about their child, but not the way you hoped it would be. Enjoy this chapter!
Chapter 7: Grave Mistakes
"Is it about dad?" Jay asked. I knew he was hoping he was going to meet his father.
"Jay, you will never get to meet your father." His face fell down. I couldn't do this!
"Does he have another family?"
"No."
"Then why cant I meet him!" He yelled at me. I backed awaay from him. His eyes glowing a unatural blue, his blue satbolts forming in his hands. He was really mad at me.
"Jay!" He came out of the trance he was in when I called his name. "Don't you threaten me with your powers. You can't meet your father because he has moved on to a different place." He closed his mouth and sat back on his bed. He grumpled sorry and turned off his light. I didn't care that my last saying could have double meaning, I was having trouble grasping the truth. It would be too much pressure on a little boy, to tell him that his father is dead.
*Flash back*
I got to the place after thirty minutes in a disgusting cab, but I immediatly wanted to go back in the car. This couldn't be the place! This was a graveyard! I turned to look at the cab and saw that it already left. It wouldn't hurt to prove Cyborg wrong.
"Can I help you?" I look to the man that said that. He was very creepy! He was hunched over, had a lazy eye, and a scar running down his right eye.
"Yes. I am looking for Robin." I asked, hoping he would say there was no one here by that name. But he shook his head and went through the gate. He looked back at my frozen posture and told me to come, to follow him. I did, and wished I hadn't. The graveyard was very spooktacular, ghosts and all. Just kidding! it was spooky however, with all the cracked gravestones, and the fog. It had seemed to get very dark at three o'clock, and the fog overtook the land. "Eeeeeeppppp." I jump back as something slimy slithered across my foot.
"Just a little snack, my dear." He picked up a black and red snack and through onto a gravestone, a Barry A. Live, and continued walking. I stepped close to him, hoping he would protect me from a terrible fate. "Lady were here." He said, stepping through another gate. The sign read Superhero graveyard. "The city pays us to keep the superhero's seperate from the regulars. Please step inside." I did as I was told. It seemed like I stepped into an alternate reality compared to the other graveyard. This one had sunshine and butterflies, it had grass and unchiped gravestones. This was a place well taken care of. He walked down the neat rows and stopped in front of one.
"No!" I fell to my knees. In front of me was Robin, in his grave! It was well taken care off, and on the stone was a picture of him in his uniform, the name Robin carved on top of it, the date of deathhad been six years ago! The tears fell down unwillingly. Why should I care if he is dead? He left me, and never tried to reach me in my last few months on Earth. Screw him! Screw him because he died, screw him because he left me! He never got to know his son, his own flesh and blood. I should've come sooner, I should have told him I was still pregnant. "H-H-How did he die?" I stood up and looked at him.
"Fell off a cliff, he did. Fighting a monster, Slade, all skull he found out who he really was, told us in his will that if we found his body to bury it without taking his mask off. I always wondered who he was, but he died Robin." I nod and look at the grave again. I didn't know when the caretaker left, but I suddenly found myself alone with Robin.
"Robin, why did you die? Why did you leave us?" I touched his picture. He looked so handsome! And I imagined how he would look now, but it was no hope, he would always be that teenager, that very hot, skinny teenager. "Robin, I have something to tell you." I pull in a shaky breath, my hands also doing the shake. "I lied. When I told you I lost the baby." Tears slipped on the dry gravestone. "It was very much alive, and nine months later I had him. We had a boy, Robin, a boy with your hair and my eyes. He was very popular on Tamaran." The picture of all the Tamaran girls flocking around Jay, crushing him until he couldn't breath. "His name is Jay, good boy, knows what is right and wrong. He reads, and reads! Very intelligent, and I am so proud of him, you would be too." I said that with a little hope. I had no idea if he would love his son, or be proud of him. He never wanted his child, he never wanted a family, atleast with me.
"Its all your fault! If you hadn't told me to get rid of it, it and I would've been here! You would know your family." My talk had turned into a rant, a very loud rant. Deep breath Star, that's all you need, a deep breath. "Jay is a mommy's boy. Maybe its because he had no father growing up, maybe not. But he loves me, will protect me from anything. He belives he is the strongest being in the whole wide world." I laughed. Remebering the time a Tamaran male flirting with me, Jay stepped in saying I wasnt interested because he wasn't his father. That I loved the father of my kid, and didn't need a low life like him. And I told Robin this story, and so much more. I ended up talking to him for hours. Yelling sometimes, laughing the other times, crying, then happy moods. Robin wasn't there in person but it felt good to talk to my best friend.
When I was done I realized two hours had passed, and it was actually dark. I walked away from the grave, never looking back. When I got to the end of the street I realizedd it had started raining. I had dirt all over my my clothes, my hands, and my face. I was a big pile of mud! I wondered around Jump City, not noticing that time had moved on while I was spaced out. I wondered until the time I reached my temporary stay. I told Jinx that he was dead, and headed to my sons room. I had to tell him!
But I didn't, I chickened out. I sigh and head to the couch, wanting, waiting for sleep to over take me, but it never did. My mind was overpowering my senses, I was thinking way to much. Thinking about my what if's. What if I never left? What if I kept him instead of setting him free? What if I never got pregnant? I never regretted Jay, never, but if I never got pregnant Robin would have never left. I might have saved him! We could have a different family, maybe a house, maybe a life. Would he still love me? Did he think of me when he died, or abother girl? Did he have another girl in his life? That would suck!
I stayed like that for the whole night, and not once did I think of sleep. I even planned out my day! I was just going to go around the city, visiting my favorite places, having fun all by myself. Yes! I will be having a day to myself. Jinx and Kid Flash were going out to find a perfect place for their wedding. I volunteered to go with them but they turned it down, saying it was something they should do alone.
"Jinx?" I ask while walking out the door. "have you seen Jay?"
"Star he is sleeping, leave the boy be." She said.
"So? How did the incident with Beast Boy and Terra go?"
"Let's see. Terra kicked Raven out." She opened the kitchen door to reveal a sleeping raven on a counter.
"Why did you let her back in? Kid Flash would never let her back in after the way she treated you."
"I know. And he didn't allow her back, I snuck her in. I couldn't let her sleep on the streets, I was once evil doesn't mean I am evil still." Jinx shut the kitchen door. "But you have to find her a new place, Star, this was a one time thing."
"I understand. She will be gone, what happened with Beast Boy and Terra?" Jinx laughed. She sounded a little crazy. Raven being there the first time, when she said those hateful things to Jinx, Jinx never recovered. It hit a sore spot, and Raven never saying sorry was not helping.
"I don't know. They were still fighting when we left. Jay was starting to freak out, we couldn't leave him there." Jinx was a good person. Sure she was evil then, and she loves sarcasm, but she was a good person. Someone who watched out for my kid.
Someone knocked on the door and it revealed Garfield and Terra, acting all lovey dovey. I allow them in and sit on the couch. Why were they here? Did they not know they weren't welcome here? Beast Boy was, but not Garfield, and Terra the betrayer was unthinkable. Terra had cut her hair shorter into a pixie cut, her face was stone, like she wasn't happy that she was here, just like I. She was wearing a beige suit with a white shirt under it. Garfield on the other hand looked happy, he was pratically jumping up and down. His face had a big smile over it, he was really happy.
"Star! Were engaged!" He lifted Terra's hand to show off her ring. For someone that just recently got engaged, she didn't seem happy. Or maybe it was because she didn't want to be here. Garfield must have dragged her here.
"Well congrats, Now get out of my house." Jinx said. I hadn't realized that she was sitting next to me, but she was and didn't seem happy about it. Terra glared at her! And did I just hear a growl.
"Don't speak to me like that, Witch." Jinx's eyes flared pink nad she quickly got to her feet. arm raised.
"Say goodbye to your luck." And hexed Terra. She flew up in the air like a Macy's thanksgiving parade baloon. Garfield rushed to his fiance, horror on his face.
"Star don't just stand there! Help me, get that bad guy." Garfield yelled. In my opinion Terra deserved it, and I don't like violence, only when it was necessary. I just stood up and went to Jinx's side, I put a comforting hand on her, making her eyes back to her pink slits.
"It hurt when Raven told me that, but when a person I don't know tells me that it cut me like a knife." I nod, I understood that. People who judge you without knowing you hurts. Many had done that on Tamaran, judging me for having a baby with a human. "Terra, people like you are the reasons I became evil in the first place. Judging me for having pink slit eyes, and natual pink hair. When they found out I was born with a power, I was shuned. 'goodguys' like you make me sick." She spit on the ground. "Starfire and Wally are the only goodguys I like, who are nice. I changed to a goodguy because of Wally, I love him, and I will never hurt a human being, alien, or other species without them deserving it first."
Terra got off the ground and her hands seemed to glow yellow. She was going to use her powers, I already saw the two rock formations coming from the apartment floor. Jinx was to far away, I couldn't reach her. "I have no family, they also shuned me. Throwing me away to be find by an orphanage." Jinx hissed. I was learning alot about Jinx, she liked to live in the moment, never talked about her past. I didn't know that her parents did this. "So kill me Terra!" She hissed. "But you would find Wally as an enemy." Jinx, with all her past, was the bravest person ever. Jinx lowered her hand, giving her death glare.
"Alright." Terra threw the rocks at her, but it never reached Jinx, Wally was there in an instant, pulling Jinx from the crushing blow that would have been the death of her. Terra was ready for that and tried to send another set of rocks, but Beast Boy was there. His green skin comforting me, he had turned into a tiger.
"Jinx! Are you alright?" I heard Kid Flash scream. He was running his fingers all over her, checking to see if she was alright. Jinx nods and Kid Flash kisses her. "Don't ever scare me like that." I heard growling and turned to Beast Boy. He had backed up to me, Terra was moving. This would be the end of their relationship, hopefully. Terra put her arms down and went to Beast Boy.
" I am not sorry for what I did, she is a badguy Beastie." She scratched him behind the ear, which he gladly took. "We shouldn't associate with this kindof people." She put a leah on him and walked out the door.
"Jinx what the hell is wrong with my friends! Why can't they see you've changed, and is pretty cool." Jinx laughed and stood up, all she did was shrug.
"Oh my gosh Star were running late, Kid and I are supposed to be at the church." She picked up her purse and grabbed Kid Flashs hand, they were soon out of the house. Jay was safe with Raven, and after writing her a note to look after Jay I left the house.
*A couple of hours later*
I had the most wonderful time! I got a massage, and I went shopping. Found the most cutest clothes ever, and toys for Jay, it was perfect. I was at my house in ten minutes and Raven was sitting there with three policemen. Police!
"Raven what happened." I rushed to her. Her eyes were glistening and her cheeks wet. She had been crying! What hapened?
"Do you have Jay?" She asked, my world collapsed. She didn't have Jay!
"No! I don't have him! He was in his room when I left." I fell to my knees. Raven was by me so quick, that I didn't see her move.
"He wasn't when I went to check on him. So I called the cops, but they refuse to search for him!" I started seeing red. I will kill them if they don't find my baby.
"What? Why won't you guys search for him?" I went to them. All they did was frown and shake their heads. The third one was the only one who showed emotions. He was sad, and he went to me, pulling me up when for the second time I fell to my knees.
"Ma'am I am so sorry, but we can't do anything until 24 hours has passed, then we can call it a missing child." The other cops nodded and went out the door. "I will get Nightwing to help, he is a friend of mine. He will find your child."
"Do you know what he looks like, his name?" The cop nodded and repeated his name and showed me a picture of Jay. It was one that Jinx took of us on our first day back. He was wearing a blue shirt and jeans, made him clean up for the picture. His hair was combed back, he looked like my son!
"His hair isn't like that always. Its usually curly beyond reason, and tangled." He nodded and gave my shoulders a sqeeze.
"We will find him."
"Thank you officer Paul Ager." And he left. I wasn't going to let this Nightwing guy, why does that name sound familiar, find my son without trying myself. I had friends, I had superhero friends, I was going to find my son. I called Jinx and Flash, I called Beast Boy, and I called Cyborg. We split Jump City in 6's, and we started our search.
"Jay!" I yell as I flew over the city, but he was nowhere in sight. I had been flying none stop for an hour, and I was tired. I decided to touch down when suddenly I heard a big commotion, then bright flashes of light clicked on and off. Someone was taking pictures of something, then I heard the voices. I was in the middle of a big circle of reporters, luckily they didn't notice me flying. There focus was on a guy in front of me.
"Mr. Grayson is it true you are settling down?" Who was this Mr. Grayson?
"No I am not settling down in that sense, there is no lucky lady, but I am moving back to Jump City." A voice grumbled.
"Back?" another reporter asked.
"Yes, I lived here before. Along time ago though." He turned around to address the reporter who asked the found himself looking at me and I found myself looking at a very handsome man. Shoulder length black hair and blue eyes, very tall and masculine, and lean. He was frowning which made his face very hard, like he has been through hell.
"How did you react to finding out you were the number one hottest guy?"
"How did you think I reacted?" He answered, making all the girls giggle, except me. That caused him to look at me, and my breath caught. Who was this strange man? Why did he look so familiar? I started to walk away, even when the guy started talking again, he was following me.
"What?" I hissed at him, for some reason he made me very mad, maybe because he was delaying my search for my son. He seemed surprised by my reaction and raised his hands in surrender.
"I'm sorry." He said and walked away. That was a waste of my time! Who was that guy? I ran to him and touched his shoulder.
"No I am the sorry. I am stressed because my son is missing, but the police refuse to search for him, so I decided to try and find him myself. Yesterday I found out the father of my child diewhen he was one. " The guys mean eyes turned to sorrow with understanding, his face was kinder when he wanted it was very handsome, breathtaking.
"I am sorry, thats tough stuff." I let go of him and nod, then I started to walk away, but he stopped me this time. "I was in love with this girl who I got pregnant, she lost it though, and I know it isn't the same thing but I always wondered what if she hadn't lost it."
"That's tough. What happened to her?"
"After the baby died I left. I came back though a couple of months later, but she wasn't there."
"Its nothing compared to my situation, but it is still hard, and I would comfort you but my son is missing. What was her name anyways?"
"Starfire." He whispered softly, so I couldn't hear what he said. It sounded like Sarah. I turned around and started searching for my son.
