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Dean and Castiel slowly make their way downstairs, Dean could hear his heart beat rapidly pump through his body. Sam was sitting at the kitchen table nursing a cup of coffee and so lost in his own thoughts he did not notice either Dean or Cas enter the room.
"Erm Sam?" Dean said trying to get his brothers attention. Look looked up and smiled at the two of them, not a big smile but it was there.
"Yeah?" Sam said, glancing quickly at his best friend and brother getting up and going to the fridge, it appeared for no other reason it than to look inside it, he couldn't seem to look at them. "Oh Cas and I were gonna get pizza you want some?"
"Can we talk to you?" Dean said sounding much more confident then he actually was.
"Sure." Sam sighed and turned, finally looking at them.
"Sit down." Dean told his brother who did, sitting slowly on the kitchen chair, he looked nervous. Dean opened his mouth to speak, suddenly finding his throat was dry and seemed to be closed denying any words from escaping. Cas saw this and gave Dean's arm a reassuring squeeze and a soft smile before he addressed his best friend.
"Dean has something he wants to tell you." Sam looked from Cas to Dean, waiting for his brother to speak. "Dean." Cas said trying to goad Dean into actually speaking.
"I'm in love with Cas." Dean blurted out without thinking. The room fell even more silent, the temperature rose and room shrank.
"You love me?" Cas asked eyebrows lost under his hair line in complete surprise. He expected 'I'm seeing Cas' 'Cas and I are together' 'I'm gay now' or even 'me and Cas have been screwing around' but love? Defiantly not.
"No. Maybe, yeah." Dean went pale quickly looking to Sam, who was white beyond what Dean thought was humanly possible and looked to Cas, expression almost unreadable. But he did look confused, a little agitated. "Sorry I shouldn't have said that." Dean stuttered shuffling on his feet. Cas' heart clenched at seeing Dean look so hurt at the thought of his love being rejected, the smaller man wrapped his arms and the man.
"Don't be sorry." He murmured into his chest as Dean hugged back, breathing in his sent feeling incredibly relaxed by it. He ran a hand through Cas' hair causing the smaller man to look up. They shared a small smile before with a hand on Cas' cheek brought him closer to capture his soft lips with his own. They two seemed to have forgotten about Sam, the man brought his hand down hard on the counter top, causing a loud noise to echo though the house and Dean and Castiel to stop what they were doing and step away from each other a little.
"Sorry." Dean told his brother sounded a little embarrassed. Sam used the hand on the counter to push himself up and look out the window. "Sam please say something man." Sam turned around and looked his brother in the eye for the first time since the new was revealed. Dean couldn't read his expression and before he could say something more, Sam stepped towards his elder brother and wrapped his arms around him, Dean was shocked but didn't argue and hugged him back.
"Thank you for telling me." He mumbled, Sam patted Dean's back before moving away, standing by the table sipping his juice. Dean and ca shared a look before they looked back at Sam, both full of concern.
"Um, sure. Sam why can't you look at me?" Dean asked, his little brother let out a small chuckle before walking up to Cas.
"Just promise me something."
"Okay?" Cas nodded a little confused.
"The next time you go down on my brother, shut the damn door." Sam said wincing as he did so, Cas blushed as Dean suddenly barked out laughter from embarrassment but also because it was pretty funny. "It's not funny Dean." Sam whined.
"I'm sorry Sam but," Dean laughed out, gasping at the words, Cas decided to jump in and try to stop his lover from making this so much worse.
"We're sorry Sam, sorry for not telling you and sorry for subjecting you to, that." Sam smiled at his best friend and gave him a hug not wanting there to be any awkwardness.
"Yeah well, just as long as I don't have to see you too get it on. And we still hang out." Cas nodded and smiled broadly at his friends words. "I guess it's cool." Sam told them with a shrug.
"I love you man." Dean said as he gave his brother another hug.
"Yeah you too Dean."
"I guess you have blessed my big gay love affair, I should probably bless your forbidden affair with your tutor."
"Cas!" Sam shouted wide eyed and completely red. "I can't believe you told him."
"I had to or he wouldn't tell me about giving some guy head in high school."
"What!" Sam shouted did he actually hear that right.
"Cas!" Dean shouted in the same manor as Sam joining him in blushing "Why would you say that!" Sam was howling with laughter behind them. "Shut up Sam."
"Dude you're so gay." Sam couldn't stop laughing, but somehow managed to cool himself down as he walked into the living room and put on die hard. "Who's still up for pizza?" Sam asked. The three men sat on the sofa and they spent the next half an hour bickering about pizza toppings and sides. When they finally managed to agree Sam ordered the food as Dean and Cas sat back on the couch, Dean's arms around Cas' shoulders and Cas' hand on his chest and head on his shoulder. Sam came back in after he phoned the pizza place, he carried a six pack of beer and handed one to both his brother and best friend. They sat in silence for a bit before Dean decided to attempt to push his brother the most he can.
"So, when did you and this teacher get together?" Sam blushed but he answered Dean's question, he didn't sound embarrassed he seemed rather proud.
"Tutor and her name is Jess, and since the first semester."
"You dark house." Dean laughed playfully punching his younger brother in the arm, Cas smiled at the interaction, he loved the idea he could hang out with his best friend and his, boyfriend? Cas wasn't sure, what exactly does 'seeing each other' mean?
They sat in silence for a moment or two before Sam coughed, straightened up and spoke.
"How did this happen?" he asked gesturing between his best friend and brother, so weird he thought. If Dean had told him he and Cas were together he would have called bullshit, but how can you ague the confession after you've seen your best friend on his knees in front of your brother? Sam shivered at the memory as Dean answered sounding a little less certain then Sam did about being questioned about his love life.
"Dunno, we've only just decided to see each other."
"Right." Sam nodded and turned to the TV deciding not to push it. Dean thought about his words for a moment before turning to the man on his chest, making Cas sit up and catching his eye.
"Cas, I was thinking about that. Do you err, fancy going for a drink with me?"
"A date?" Cas asked, hardly believing it.
"Yeah." Dean smiled nervously and Cas beamed in unadulterated joy.
"I would love too." At hearing those words Dean shared Cas' smile and before anything else could be done Dean launched himself onto Cas, passionately attacking his mouth and tongue fucking his throat and Cas kissed back just as eagerly.
"Dude!" Sam shouted trying to make them stop, yeah he was okay with it, but it's not like he wants the live freaking show.
"My house." Dean grunted out as Cas licked his neck.
"It's mine too!" Sam shouted throwing a cushion at them.
"Who pays the bills?" Dean asked him smugly before crushing their lips together again.
"Just cool it, pizza will be here soon." And right on cue the door bell went. "Thank god." Sam said as he rushed out of the room to collect their food.
The meal was lovely, when Dean and retrieved his tongue from Cas' mouth. They ate and chatted about whatever popped into their heads, Dean actually made Sam laugh so hard when he was drink his beer half of it went up his nose and he spat the other half out, he was not best impressed though it took at least five minutes for Cas and Dean to stop laughing at him, Sam smiled and picked at the toppings on his slice, this was good. His life was good.
Cas left a few hours later, saying that he needed to do some work for college, he hugged Sam good bye and was walked to the door bye Dean, who offered to walk him home but Cas denied his offer. They kissed goodbye and Dean watched Cas walk away, paying close attention to his ass as he did so.
Dean thought he wanted his privacy after all he has never been there, Cas has never told him where he lives, he was a little hurt that Cas didn't want to share this with him but he knew he had time, they were only just beginning.
In reality Cas didn't want Dean to know where he lives, he didn't want Dean to see the run down apartment building he lives in, he didn't want Dean to know he lived next door to a hooker and across the hall from an ex-con that has started dealing again, he didn't want Dean to know that he has been living there alone since he was kicked out and disowned for being gay, he didn't want Dean to know he had to move across states after because he couldn't bare the humiliation and the constant torment from the whole town, he didn't want Dean to know he has been living there since he was 18 the same day he graduated high school. He was ashamed. He was scared, and he would never tell Dean. Dean of course was oblivious to all of this as he watched Cas' firm ass as he walked away, to his damp lonely apartment.
When Cas was out of sight Dean closed the front door and turned, only to have the face of his smug look baby brother staring right at him "You're so gay dude." Sam snorted out through a small chuckle.
"Fuck off Sammy." Dean told him rolling his eyes, he knew Sam was messing around so his insult was only half heartedly mean. The elder brother made his way to the stairs, planning on going to bed.
"No wait Dean." Dean stopped and turned to Sam that was now shuffling slightly. "I was kidding, come and talk quickly."
"Really?" Dean asked, really? Did they really need to have this convosation Dean thought, now Cas was gone and it was just the two of us Dean was sure Sam was going to let loose his real feelings about them.
"Yeah." Was all he said, and in a neutral tone which confused Dean slightly but followed him into the kitchen nonetheless and sat down at the table waiting for it to begin. Dean was waiting and Sam had yet to speak, in fact we was in the fridge fetching the last two bottles of beer when he hand one to Dean he still didn't speak, which pissed Dean off more than anything, Sam was the one that wanted to 'talk'
"well? Now Cas is gone you gonna tell me its wrong? That I should stay away from your friend? Well, get it over with."
"I'm not going to do that Dean." Sam told his brother as he pulled up a chair opposite him. "but yeah it's a bit weird, I mean he's my best friend and your my brother, I don't know what I would do if you two didn't work out, I can't loose either or you." Dean stared down at his beer as guilt started to swell in his stomach, he had been so obsessed with his feeling wants for Cas that he didn't even think about what it could mean for Sam, he had spent all this time thinking with his dick he didn't think about anyone else.
"I don't have any plans of it not working out." He told his brother and it was true after all the denial the longing the acceptance and now finally a date, dead was certain not going to make this work.
"I know that but,"
"No buts Sam." Dean told his brother with a reassuring smile before swigging his bottle. Sam taking his chance when Dean had beer in his mouth as Sam spoke.
"Look who's talking." He said with a smug grin.
"Are these jokes gonna die down any time soon?"
"After all the gay jokes you made about me? No chance."
"Well I guess I had that coming." Dean had to admit us they fell back into silence.
"Just be happy, okay?" Dean looked up from his hands to meet Sam's puppy brown eyes and a small genuine smile on his lips, Dean couldn't help but smile and feel really thankful to have such an awesome smile, of course he didn't say that.
"Sure."
"And don't steal him away from me too much."
"You got it."
"Right well I'm going to bed, you should too, work tomorrow." Sam patted Dean on the shoulder and made his way to the stairs.
"Yeah." Dean mumbled to himself before turning in his chairs. "Sam?" when Sam had turned Dean continued. "Thanks bitch." Sam laughed a little before he answered his brother.
"You're welcome jerk." The brother shared another smile before Sam disappeared upstairs leaving Dean alone in the kitchen.
Dean checked the time, it was half nine so Dean made a sudden brave decision to fetch his phone from his pocket and wrote a generic text to send to those he cared about making sure gordon, alistiar, uriel and meg were not on that list;
'Heya, I have to tell to something, its hard to do it to ya face so I'm using text. You remember the BBQ me and Sammy had, Sam's friend Cas, well I'm kinda taking him out for a drink, as a date tomorrow. I guess this is my coming out message, I'm not ashamed anymore, so wanted you to know.'
Dean's breath was caught in his throat as his finger hovered over the send button. He closed his eyes and pressed it. A second later his phoned flashed;
Sent to; Bobby, Ellen, Jo, Pam, Victor, Chuck, Becki, Ash, Balthazar, Sarah.
There were others he could send the message too but he deicded to just send it to close friends, the other would find out when ever, they will no doubt be told anyway.
After that he went to bed stomach buzzing from excitement about seeing Cas tomorrow and nausea from the text he sent. Before he even got into bed he had two messages, Dean didn't want to read them yet, they'll wait till tomorrow so he turned his phone off.
That night Dean dreamt of the things Cas could to him after their drink.
Had to have awesome Sam, because he obviously couldn't be anti gay considering Cas is his best friend and he loves his brother so awesome brother it was, I couldn't resist Sam seeing Cas sucking Dean off haha! :P
Oh I have a plan for the next chapter, it's smutty and dare I say kinky lol ;) xx
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