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Nightmares
(HPOV)
The team stayed all day and we just sat around talking. Finally about 7:00 p.m. I saw Jack starting to doze off on Emily's lap so I said "Okay gang I am going to get Jack bathed and then put to bed. You guys are more than welcome to stay a while longer if you want too but I also think that Prentiss needs to go to bed soon." Everyone nodded and I picked Jack up and took him upstairs to the Master bathroom and bathed him. As I was bathing him he said "Daddy can I really stay with you now?" I looked at him and smiled and said "If that is what you want you can. You know your going to have to talk about what your mother has done to you Buddy but not tonight. I will contact my lawyer tomorrow. When I go out of town though you will have to stay with Penelope. Will that be alright with you son?"
Jack looked up at me and smiled and said "I like Pen daddy. She makes me laugh and doesn't make me feel like I have to be quiet all the time. Is Miss Em'ly staying here with us Daddy? I want to help take care of her." I nodded at him and said "Yes, she will be staying here with us for a while. I also need to tell you that you are not to answer the phone or door without me beside you. A bad man hurt Miss Em'ly so we are keeping her under guard to keep an eye on her. More often then not most of the team will be here and so will Miss Em'ly's dad." He nodded at me and then I got him out of the tub and dried him and put his pajamas on him. I then carried him to bed and read him a story but even before I was half way through it he was out like a light. I pulled his door shut but not all the way and made my way back downstairs.
I saw how pale Emily was and knew it was time for bed for her. I looked for the Nurse and said "Nurse Fulton do you need to check anything on her before I take her to bed? I think she needs to be laying down." The Nurse walked over to where Emily was with a little bag and took out a thermometer and blood pressure cuff along with some pills. Once she was done taking Emily's blood pressure and temp she said "Her blood pressure is a little high so she does need to get to bed. I will come up with you so that I can also check her stitches. Agent Prentiss I am going to give you a pain pill. I can see that you are in pain so you will take it." I could tell that Emily was in a lot of pain because she did not fight the Nurse. She took the pills and then the Nurse and I both helped her to stand up. Emily looked around and said "Good night guys." Everyone replied back and the Nurse and I walked her upstairs. I put her in the bedroom next to mine because Jack had the one across the hall. I stepped out into the hallway as the Nurse helped her change and looked at her stitches. The Nurse called out "You can come back in now Agent Hotchner."
I went back in and said "You can call me Aaron or Hotch, Nurse Fulton." She smiled and said "Only if you call me Diane." I nodded at her and then walked over to Emily. I leaned down and kissed her on the head and said "If you need anything shout. I will be next door sleeping and Diane has the room down the hall. Are you sure your okay?" Emily nodded at me and said "I am fine Aaron. I am just sleepy. Goodnight." I smiled and said "Goodnight" and then walked out of the room followed by Diane.
(EPOV)
I laid in the bed with my eyes open waiting on the pain pills to kick in. Even though I was very tired I knew that I would not get any sleep until the pain meds have had a chance to work because of how much pain I was in. I knew I should have said something sooner but I hated sleeping all the time. Although I made a vow to myself that tomorrow I would ask for them when I needed them. I think I would talk to Diane and see if maybe during the day she could just give me half of one when I asked for it. I wanted to be able to talk to my friends and spend time with Jack. I still can not believe that Hailey had smacked him. It hurt like hell when I got up off of the couch as quick as I did but there was no way in hell I was going to stand for that even if I was hurt badly myself.
I felt the pain meds starting to kick in so I shut my eyes. As I awaited sleep to come I thought about how Hotch has been. He has actually called me sweetheart a couple times but I do not think that he has meant anything by it. Hotch is just being Hotch and taking care of people that are hurt. How I wish that he felt the way that I did. I started having feelings for him a long time ago but I have hid it from him and everyone else. I would continue to do so because it is what is best for everyone. Nothing good could come of it.
I can finally feel myself falling asleep and I let it take me. I do not know when I started to dream but I did. I was back in my apartment and Nathan was beating me and raping me. I fought as hard as I could but it didn't do any good. I screamed "No! No! GET OFF OF ME!"
It was then I felt someone shaking me and I did the only thing I could because I was still stuck in my nightmare and thought that it was real. I lashed out and connected to the person who was shaking me. I heard someone say "Emily come on wake up. Wake up sweetheart you are safe I promise." I finally came to and sitting on the bed next to me was Hotch. I looked at him and said "Oh my God I hit you. I am so sorry." He shook his head and pulled me into him as he said "Shh, sweetheart it is alright. I know it was not me that you were lashing out at. Do you want to talk about it?" I took in a deep breath and said "I was back in my apartment and Nathan was kicking me and hitting me and then he was raping me. I kept screaming and tried to fight him off but it did no good at all. God I can still feel his hands on me. I feel so dirty."
I felt Hotch tense and then he relaxed and said "You are not dirty Emily. If you do not believe anything else then believe that. You are a survivor and we are all here for you. I am here for you and I am not going anywhere sweetheart. Do you think you can sleep now?" I nodded and he stood to get up off of the bed and I said frantically "No please stay with me until I at least get to sleep." He sat back down and then laid down onto the bed. He pulled me back into his arms and I laid my head on his chest. I felt his fingers comb through my hair as I slowly fell back to sleep.
(HPOV)
I felt her fall asleep on my chest and as I tried to move her back to her pillow she curled further into me. I decided then that I would just sleep with her in case she had another nightmare. I wish that this had not had happened to her but since it did I would make sure that she got through this. I want to tell her how I feel but I know that especially right now I can not. I will just have to hold it in but still show her in little ways.
I layed back on the bed and got more comfortable and turned on my side facing her. I wrapped my arms around her a little tighter and then drifted off to sleep myself. It felt wonderful to have her in my arms and if this is what she needs then this is what she will get. If I can make her feel safe then I will do anything in my power to do so. Even in my sleep I felt the bed dip so I made my way back to the land of the living and saw Jack. I whispered "Are you okay Buddy?" He whispered "I had a nightmare and went to sleep with you but you were not in your room. I then came in here and you were here. Is Miss Em'ly okay daddy?" I sighed and said "She will be in time Buddy. She had a nightmare too." I could make out him nodding his head and then he said "Then we will all sleep together. Night Daddy I love you." I chuckled and said "Night buddy and I love you too." I watched as he curled into Emily's back and I think she could tell subconsciously because she turned over and wrapped her arms around him. I smiled at the picture it made and then wrapped my arms around her. I sure could get use to this I thought to myself as I finally fell back asleep.
