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I walked into the school doors with my high heels and jeans. Clicking the ground. I walked up to Jack, smiling. I tap his shoulder shamelessly. He turned around and smiled big.
"Kim!" He called and hugged me tightly. As we pulled away my bangles clanged against each other and my tank top flowed against my body. My heels clanged the floor and my pearls shone in the light. "You're back." I smugly smiled, shrugging. I clapped my hands to my thighs and laughed.
"I'm back! Hahaha, my dad said that it'd be a good idea to just come back for a little while, you know. See my mom and stuff." I my smiled faded as I talked about my mom. Jack saw this and quickly changed the subject.
"So, how's your dad anyway? I haven't seen him in a while."
"He's uhh, he's good. Yeah. I mean, he's over the whole thing and so am I" I shrugged and then clapped my hands together setting them down by my legs. Jack nodded then smiled.
"Well, the guys will be so happy to see you. It's great to see you again." He smiled then friendly hugged me.
"It's good to be back." I smiled and followed him through the unfamiliar halls of the new high school, due to the old one burning down the year I left for LA with my dad. We walked down the halls laughing and taking in all the words we could together, catching up on so much lost time. When Jack and I walked into the slightly hollowed gym many gasping faces came abroad. They then changed to smiles and happiness.
"Kim!" They all said in unison. A couple of girls were in the room, unusual girls. Jerry had a arm around one and so did Eddie. They introduce me to them.. The sweet girl that Jerry had an arm around was named Sarah and The girly girl that Eddie was sporting, her name was Stephanie. As I shook their hands another girl walked in, but she wasn't like the other girls. She was a S-L-U-T SLUT. I swore that her skirt was so short you could see the back of her thong. I sighed in disgust. Then she peeked her head behind Jack and gave him a kiss on the lips. I stood there awkwardly until they pulled away.
"Oh, Kim.. This is my girlfriend, Chloe." He spoke. I just licked my lips and shook my head.
"I uhh, gotta go."I walked out of the gym as fast, but slowly as I could to make my walking look half normal. With Jack calling my name from the gym, I left and walked back home. As I entered through the big doors to my house my dad greeted me by surprise. I quickly wiped my eyes of all tears.

"Hey dad. I'm going to just go up and finish unpacking, OK?" I flashed a fake smile and went up to my new room. I flopped on my bed and stared at the ceiling. A few minutes later my dad called me 'Kim! I'm going out for a bit! Love you!' He called and then left. I heard the door shut and then a smiled stretched upon my face. I plugged in my iPod to my doc and then turned the volume all the way up to 30. I then started to let myself feel free and just let go. I started dancing and just being the pre-teen Kim. I tripped on my own feet and landed with a thud. I rolled on my back and started to laugh so hard I couldn't breath. When I half-way caught my breath there was a knock at the door. I skipped over and opened it with a hop to my step. When I opened it my smile grew bigger.
"Hey! Jerry,Eddie, Milton!" I laughed. My face was pink and my breath was making me breath heavy.
"So this is where you live now?" Jerry said as he walked in, gazing around the room.
"Yeah, my dad got a good deal, I guess." I explained sliding on the floor with my hot pink, polka-dotted socks. I slid onto the couch, along with all the guys. I clicked on the TV with the remote and tucked my feet under my butt. Me and the guys started talking about what I missed when I went off to LA with my dad. As my phone buzzed I clicked it on and Jacks name came up. I sighed but hit the button to open it.

'Kim, hey. r u okayy? :/' he sent. I sighed once more and then slid open the key board and started typing away.
'Yeahh, totally. Sorry I ran out & all but i had 2 go. Can't talk thoo. Bye.' I sent, lying. I had a feeling he might have even known that, but when he texted back I didn't have that feeling anymore.
"ohh, okayy. byee, I'll text ya later."
"Yea, whatevess."
I replied one last time and then threw my phone to the couch casually. I entered the conversation again.

"I'm just saying that if you wanted to ever get into the meatball business let me know." Jerry told Eddie. Eddie rolled his eyes and looked towards me.
"You doing OK Kim?" He asked sympathetically.
"Huh, yeah totally. Never better." I lied. I had a feeling that they knew exactly why I was. I knew that if I spilled my guts to them they would tell Jack, and Jack would be all on me about trying to 'fix' me , or make me happier, and they probably knew why I was lying to them. exactly what I just told you.
"You sure?" Jerry asked me once more.
"I promise. I'm just tired. I have a lot of work to do with my room. I did a lot of it today." I explained. I wasn't exactly lying to them, I actually was tired and I really did do a ton of work on my room. But it was mostly just Jack.
"Do you want us to go then, we can come back tomorrow." Milton asked. He was always so thoughtful. I smiled at how thoughtful he always was. I nodded my head.
"You wouldn't mind, would you?" I asked.
"Not all. See ya tomorrow Kim." Eddie smiled and lead all the guys to the front door. I followed and smiled. When they left I waved at them as thy got into their cars and I silently closed the door. I sighed to myself and walked slumply to my room. When I made it up, I slid onto my bed and slowly passed out.

I woke up to a loud pounding at my bedroom door. It startled me, forcing myself to jump and fall to my bedroom floor. I landed with a hard thud and a squeal. I started to giggle and finally made out the words 'Come in' I was rolled up on the floor in my floral blanket, laughing. My laughing came to a dead silence when I saw who stepped into my room. Jack.
"Ja-Jack? What are you doing here?" I studdered.
"What do you think? My best friend just came back from living in LA for 3 years. I wanted to hear some gossip." He laughed. I knew he was kidding but he just wanted to talk to me about what could be going on.
"Haha. Very funny Jack. Listen, I just am really tired," I explained. "So, could you just-"
"I'm not falling for that 'I'm tired' crap, Kim. I know you don't want to talk to me... and I think I know why." He trailed off with his words.
"N-no you don't." I studdered in hopes that he would change the path he was going down. He nodded his head and sat down next to me. I sighed and played with the blanket, twirling it around with my finger, avoiding his gaze.
"Kim, Look up.. I know why you don't want to see my face, or talk to anyone."
"No you don't"
"Can I at least tell you my theory.. Please?" He begged me.
"Yeah.. Ok. Fine. What is it?" I sighed once more and cringed.
"I think that you're upset because I have a new girlfriend, and you wish that it was you." Jack continued on with what he was getting too. "Look" he said grabbing my hands "I wish it was you too." I looked up from my feet, deeply seeing into his eyes.
"Really?" I said having my vision blurred by tears of joy.
"Yeah." He said leaning in and kissing me. His hands cupped my face. When he pulled away his eyes searched my eyes. "But, I can't be with you." He said getting up leaving me in sorrow. I scoffed and let the tears cover my face. Jack kissed me, then told me he couldn't be with me?! WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT! I screamed to myself... I thought he loved me.