Chapter 8

He couldn't have cheated one me...There's no way. He was with me the whole time. I can't think of any point in time when we weren't in the same room or him being gone for an extended period of time. There is absolutely no way he hooked up with some guy last weekend. He loves me. He would never do that. Would he? Wait didn't he say he had to go talk to someone when we were dancing? Or was that the night of our first date? I'm so confused!

Logan walked slowly staring at the ground through the empty hallways of the Palm Woods. His head started hurting as he thought hard about what happened the previous weekend. He didn't want to approach Kendall about it unless he could remember something specific. Logan didn't want to accuse Kendall of something he didn't do. Camille I really hope that you are not right this time...

Everything had been fine so far in their relationship. There were no fights or arguments, no screaming matches, nothing. They were the perfect couple. Logan confided in him and loved every waking moment he got to spend with Kendall. Neither boy ever showed any sign of unhappiness which is what puzzled Logan. If nothing was wrong, why would he cheat? We practically just started dating. So many thoughts were running through Logan's head. Okay let's start from the beginning. Let's replay last weekend and see if we can figure this out.

What happened on Friday? I woke up and Kendall and I went out for a run around the park. We raced each other to see who could get done first. Then we went back and showered and met James and Carlos at the studio to record a song for Gustavo. Nothing out of the ordinary there. After that we went back to the apartment and we were in my room. He wrestled me to the ground and started to grab me. Out of reaction I grabbed back and we just started going at each other. We 69ed on the floor. God it felt so good...OK focus! what happened after that?

After we got dressed, his phone rang and we had gotten asked to go to a party at the apartment next to Jo's on Saturday. Then we went and hung out with James and Carlos at the pool for the rest of the evening until we went to dinner. After dinner we just went back to the apartment. His phone had been ringing a lot that night, more than usual, it concerned me a little bit but I figured it had to do with the party so I didn't look too far into it.

But now that I think about it...he was a little shady about it...he did always try to hide his phone from me so I couldn't see...I'm probably just reading too far into it...Anyway...after that I had gone to bed.

Alright now Saturday. Woke up, did the usual morning routine, went to the pool with the boys, we all went out to lunch, nothing of concern. We got back and hung out at the apartment and then we all got ready to go to this party. I didn't know the person that was throwing it. I didn't drink while I was there either. Kendall had a few but he was fine. We were together the whole time. From the minute we got there until the minute we left. Wait...were we? I remember Kendall going to get drinks. It didn't seem like it took him that long. And he was texting again and being shading about it.

Logan's heart started to race. He began to panic. The more he thought about it, the more uncertain he became, and the more he began to think that Camille was right.

He said that he was going to get a drink and to use the bathroom. I remember him leaving and coming back. Did he have a drink in his hand? No his shirt was wet and he said that someone had shoved him and he spilled it on his shirt. I don't remember smelling the alcohol though. I only smelled it when we kissed but that was because it was on his breath. If he didn't really spill a drink, why was his shirt wet? Why didn't he get another one? And why would he lie about it? And now that I think about it, he was gone for a little while. Longer than it probably should have been...

Things weren't adding up in Logan's head.

And after he came back he was acting a little odd. He seemed a little distant as compared to his normal clingy self. After about another hour we left and went to bed.

Sunday...everything was normal on Sunday. There was no shady texting. Kendall gave me his full attention from then until now. Nobody had said a word about the party. It was almost as if it never happened. Maybe I should-

"Hey Logan!"

Logan jerked his head up to see Jo walking down the hallway. "Hey Jo." Logan smiled faintly at her. He had still felt very uneasy with her knowing about him liking her ex boyfriend.

"Did you hear what happened at the party last weekend?" Jo asked him. Logan's heart stopped but he knew that she had no idea about him and Kendall and he tried to brace himself so that he wouldn't blow up at her for what she was probably about to say.

"No what happened?" Logan asked playing stupid. He knew that she was going to talk about Kendall supposedly hooking up with this mystery man because she knows that Logan likes him. Since she got it out of Camille, Jo has tried to find everything to make Logan jealous or torture him. She would always come running up to him and tell him about how she saw Kendall talking to this girl or eating with some guy. To her it was a game. To Logan it was annoying.

"Well apparently Kendall hooked up with a guy and the fucked and when the guy came he came all over Kendall's shirt." Logan's face went pale. He put that into what he was just thinking about. It made sense. But can he really believe her?

"Fascinating Jo. Now if you don't mind I have somethings to take care of and I really don't have time to stand here and listen to your rumors and games to try and get me mad and jealous." Logan said with an attitude. He turned around and kept walking before she had a chance to say anything.

Logan thought about what she had said. It made sense. Perfect sense. He didn't want to believe it though. Not until he had proof and he had talked to Kendall. He continued walking down the hall thinking about what happened.

Logan walked into the apartment. Kendall was sitting on the couch with James and Carlos watching tv and talking. The boys turned around when they heard the door close. "Logan!" Carlos said excitedly. Logan smiled and walked over to them. He still felt frantic over what he had been hearing all day and he knew it was showing on his face. "Where you been all day buddy?" James asked. Logan shrugged at him. "I was with Camille but she had something to do so I went for a walk." Logan said trying to play cool. He kept looking at Kendall and the gossip kept running through his head. Kendall looked back at Logan and he knew something was not right with his boyfriend. "Is everything okay Logan?" Kendall asked. "Can we talk?" Logan said. He started to shake his eyes became glassy. Kendall nodded. "In private?" Logan asked. Kendall looked at Carlos and James and they nodded. He got up and followed Logan into his room. Logan walked in and sat down on his bed and Kendall closed the door. Logan feel the tears building. "Logan what's wrong? What's bothering you?" Kendall asked rubbing Logan's back. Logan wiped his eyes and looked at Kendall. "Do you love me?" Logan asked quietly. Kendall was shocked at Logan's question. "Yes Logan of course I love you. Why would you ask that?" Kendall asked him a little offended. Logan shrugged and put his head on his knees. Kendall lifted him back up. "Hey. Why are you asking me that babe?" Logan couldn't speak and he just shrugged again. "There must be a reason." Kendall insisted. "Are you cheating on me?" Logan asked soft but bluntly. Kendall's hearty stopped."What? Kendall asked. Logan sighed. "I was talking to Camille today and she told me she heard that you hooked up with some guy at the party last week and Jo told me the same thing and that you didn't spill drinks on your shirt and it was really the other guy's cum the you tried to clean off. And it makes sense because you didn't smell like alcohol and you were gone for quite awhile and I don't know who to believe and you've been kinda shady when your texting and I'm concerned because I don't want to lose you." Logan rambled on starting to cry. "Babe I'm not cheating on you. I didn't hook up with anyone other than you. I would never cheat on you. Why would you think that?" Kendall said very defensively. "I just wanted to hear your side of the story. I never said I believed them. But what they're saying makes sense and I wanted to be sure." Logan retaliated. "I didn't cheat on you Logan. I spilled drinks on myself. I never said they were alcoholic." Kendall defended himself. Italics true... "I don't even know who this person is that they're accusing me of having sex with. And for the texting thing, you shouldn't be reading over my shoulder anyway." Kendall snapped. "I don't read over your shoulder. But I know you just happen to look at my phone when I text too. I'm sorry Kendall but I just wanted to hear your side before I believed the wrong person." Logan explained "Well you should believe me. I'm your boyfriend. And how did Camille know to tell you?" Kendall asked. Logan sighed. He knew he was going to get screamed at for telling her. "I told her because she has the right to know." Logan snapped. Kendall stayed silent and Logan could tell that he was not happy. "You should be thanking her because if it wasn't for her, we wouldn't even be together right now. It was her idea for the three of us to hang out that night her and I fought. She helped me get together with you. So she deserves the right to know Kendall." "Well you could have talked to me about it first. I'm not mad that she knows, I'm mad that you didn't talk to me first." Kendall said. Logan took a deep breath and didn't say anything. Kendall rubbed his back. "Babe you don't have anything to worry about okay? I love you more than anything and I would never do anything to hurt you." Kendall said comfortingly. Logan leaned his head against Kendall's shoulder. Hearing this made Logan feel better. He felt that everything that was said about the party can just be forgotten about. "I just don't want to lose you. I waited so long for this. I just don't want it to be for nothing. You mean so much to me and you are the first guy that's ever treated me as great as you are and I don't want that to go away." Logan said tearing up again. "It's okay Logan. You don't have to be afraid of that. I'm not going anywhere okay? I'm staying right here in your arms." Kendall comforted him. "I'm sorry I accused you of cheating on me." Logan said after a few moments on silence. "It's okay Logan. You were doing the right thing by confronting me about it. I'm sorry for getting on your case about telling Camille. I know how important she is in your life and if you want her to know I'm okay with that." Kendall said. He put his arm around Logan. There was another brief silence. During the time where neither boy spoke, Logan sat and thought about what had just happened. His trust and faith had been restored in Kendall. I think I'm finally ready.. "Kendall?" Logan asked. "Yeah?" Kendall said looking at him. The boys locked eyes. Logan found himself lost in Kendall's eyes. His heart started to race as he became more and more nervous. "I think I'm ready." Logan said. Kendall just looked at him. "What do you mean?" Kendall asked. "You are the only guy I felt I could trust and that you wouldn't just disappear on me. And I've been waiting for the right time and to make sure that I was right and well...I'm ready." Logan explained. "To have sex?" Kendall asked. Logan nodded. "Well I'm honored that you're choosing me to devirginize your ass." He laughed "Hey stop this is important!" Logan laughed hitting Kendall's arm playfully. "This means a lot to me. I didn't want to do it with just anyone because I wanted them to be apart of my life. Not just take my virginity and leave. I've waited a very long time and I wanted to share this with you because I truly love you." Logan said. Kendall smiled at him. "Okay okay. Well if you think you're ready, then I'm ready too boo." The boys smiled at each other and then kissed. "but right now is not a good time. The guys are waiting for me." Kendall said breaking their tender moment. "I know I know. Go have a good time and I'll see you later. I'm going to grab a shower." Logan smiled at him. Kendall smiled at him, kissed him one last time, and walked out of his room. Logan laid back on his bed and smiled. I knew he wouldn't do anything and now I know that I can trust him with something as special as this... Logan took out his phone and called Camille. "Hey I talked to Kendall." Logan said. "And what did he say?" Camille asked. "Well he said that he didn't cheat on me or anything and that he doesn't even know where people are getting that idea that he hooked up with anyone at the party from." "Okay well that's good. I just want you to be careful darling." Camille said "I know. I appreciate you coming to me about it even though you had no idea that we were dating." "To be honest with you. I figured it out Logan. I knew for about two months" "I know because you know me better than I do right?" Logan laughed "That's right! The moment you figure that out the better off you'll be." Camille laughed. "Well regardless I still appreciated it. Thank you." "I'm here to look out for you. I don't want you to do anything stupid." Camille said. "And I told him I was ready." Logan said smiling even though he knew she couldn't see him. "Just be careful. That's all I ask hun." "Thanks. I will. I'll talk to you later. Bye." Logan hung up the phone. He grabbed his things headed for the shower. The idea that he was going to have sex with Kendall continuously gave him butterflies. We're finally gonna do it. Logan smirked to himself.