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He pushed past L and sat on the bed, his face in his hands. L looked at him concerned and sat beside him.

"Tell me. Please." Light looked up at him but couldn't bare to speak the words. He began to cry again and L tried to comfort him by cuddling him and stroking his back. Light couldn't believe he would have to tell L. He genuinely couldn't bring himself to do that to his boyfriend. But he couldn't bare to keep it a secret from him either. What choice did he have?

L looked at Light, fear swelling up inside of him. What could be so bad? Light finally stopped crying and breathed heavy, he then started shaking his head.

"No, no, no, no, no, no," He was muttering.

"Light?" Light looked up again and faced L. A few times he tried to speak but couldn't form words so he just shut his mouth again. But L knew he was trying to tell him so he waited patiently. Eventually Light found his voice and choked out the words.

"When we found the death note. When I touched it. I discovered, that, um. I uh," He didn't know how to get the rest of his speech out. "Well turns out… I really was Kira and that was Misa's death note and I did a bunch of stuff that lead to both of us giving them up so that you would stop suspecting us and when I found Higuchi I got the death note and Kira returned to me." Light fell back against the bed breathing deeply because he spat it out so quickly.

L tried to figure out what was said. As he thought he loved Light just as much.

"But why are you so sad?" Light looked at him as if he had just spoke gibberish.

"Is it not obvious? I don't want to be Kira! Kira wants me to kill you. In truth, he hates me as he see's that I have ruined his plan." He laughed. "We're not even the same person anymore really." A single tear rolled down Lights cheek and L wiped it away then kissed where it was. I'm so sorry L." L lied beside him and Light wrapped his arms around him, beginning to cry again.

"Don't cry Light, I still love you."

"Really?"

"Yes, of course. I fell in love with you under the strong belief you were Kira. It makes no difference now if you are or aren't. I've fallen too hard. To be honest, I think I wanted you to be Kira. I find it slightly attractive which is weird as I'm a detective but I don't know. All I do know is I still love you and I'm going to do everything in my power to protect you. Finally there's one other thought, I find it incredible and touching that Kira has literally become a different person just because of your feelings for me. And if that's the case then we have an even better chance at saving you, if you want to."

"Yes!" Light pulled L on top of him and kissed him. "Thank you. But what do we do now?"

"Why are you still killing criminals if you don't want to be Kira?" Light sighed and sat up, L still on his lap.

"Because I can't control him. I'm doing everything in my power not to kill you." L's eyes widened but Light held him tighter. "That will not happen I swear to you, I love you." They kissed and L held Light's hair. Neither of them ever wanted to let go.

But all the breath left L's lungs when Light punched him in the gut, throwing him across the room. L lied on the floor shocked.

"YOU IDIOT! YOU'RE NOT SUPOSED TO BE WITH HIM! KILL HIM! Shut up! I love him! You don't understand! I won't kill him! YOU FOOL, THIS WAS ALL YOUR PLAN! No it's yours Kira!" Light looked like a mad man, shouting at himself. He was scaring L and so he crawled up against a wall and stayed out of Lights way. When Light spoke, clearly as Kira, his eyes flared a deep red but when he was Light they were filled with tears.

"FINE! YOU JUST WAIT LIGHT YAGAMI!" And Light collapsed on the floor breathing heavily.

"Light?" L whispered. When Light didn't respond L cautiously crawled across the floor and knelt by Light's side. "Light?" He asked again, slightly more confident.

"I'm sorry," Light whispered.

"It's okay, I'm alright I understand." He turned Light over as he was relived to hear his Light back again. He then lied beside Light who put his arms around the detective. "Until we find a way to get rid of Kira we act normal. If you don't mind I'd like to stay near you at most times."

"That's fine I want to protect you anyway. Just forgive me when it's Kira."

"I know I'll just stay out of your way when that happens but please try to keep both of us safe."

"Of course." He kissed the top of L's head and they got on the bed together and snuggled up.

But Light's usual dreams, filled with L and, pleasurable moments were stopped by a different type of dream. Light ran through ruins and empty broken streets. He ran and ran but not sure what he was running from. He just kept going. Flames engulfed buildings and corpses, what happened here? He knew he was in a dream but he couldn't wake up. What happened to his regular dreams where he and L lay in a field of flowers or something? Hang on, L, L! Light stopped running and looked around frantically. Where was L? He started running again but this time looking for L. He shouted out his name but to no response. Tears formed in his eyes as he kept running.

Having fun yet? A voice over head asked. Nobody was there but Light knew who it was.

"Where's L Kira?" He screamed, still running. Kira laughed, why do you care? It's your plan… "SHUT UP!" Light was fuming. He kept running until he turned a corner and stopped. L lay dead on the floor, he looked like he was sleeping but his chest didn't move and he was covered in blood. He was close to bursting in to tears until he saw a version of himself stood by L covered in blood and smiling. He held the death note and a pen in his hands. His eyes were blood red and he laughed quietly. Kira. His head slowly turned to look at Light and the grin on his face made something snap inside him. "NOOOOO!"

He woke up covered in sweat and face to face with a terrified L.

"Light are y-" He was practically strangled by Light's hug.

"I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you!"

"I love you too, what happened?" Light told L about his dream and L looked both sympathetic and scared. When he finished L gently kissed his lips and trailed down to his neck, not without saying,

"I'm not going anywhere. And if you kill me, I'm taking you down with me." Light held on to L tightly and kissed him.

"I'll never hurt you." And they made love until they were both satisfied.