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Chapter 8 : Confess

The Next Day

I went to school as normal, seeing Stevie with Molly made me realize she's alright for now but I wonder if she knows I'm dying inside. I saw Stevie at her locker, which was right next to mine. This was the perfect time to talk to her.

"Stevie!" I smiled at her. She gave me her famous death glare.
I sighed, "So I'm guessing you're still not going to talk to me huh?"
She walked into the courtyard, "Please don't walk away from me again, please just listen to me."
She looked at me furiously, "No ! You listen. Every time I walk away from you I expect you to run after me. I wanted you to run after me, yell my name and don't stop chasing me till I give in. I wanted you to pull me closer when I was pushing you away. I wanted you to yell at me when I told you how I didn't feel good enough. I wanted you to fight for me..." She stopped talking...her eyes sparkled with tears.

"but you never did. Instead you. You picked a prissy hipster girl that you've known for what 4 days now ?! over your best friend. That's when I realized you don't care, you never will. You call me your best friend when you need me. You throw me aside when you don't. I'm the only one to listen to you so you take advantage of that but when I need you, you're never there. You never listen to a word I ever say.

You threw me away now, but I fucking promise you. You'll need me later and I won't be there."

I loked around, people were staring. A crowd was formed.
The principal was standing there next to Stevie,

" , my office right now. No foul language will be use in Brewsters halls maybe out side of school you may but not here." Stevie gave the principal a glare and walked to her office.

I sighed, the crowd moved along. I'm not angry at Stevie because she made a fool out of me infront of the whole student body. I'm mad because she never told me how she really felt deep down inside. Maybe it was cause I never gave her the chance and now our friendship might have gone too deep down hill...
I miss her so much.

"Hey baby!" Julias high pitched voice squealed.
"Uh hi." I muttered. "Look we need to talk..." I said in a nice tone.
"Sure what's up?" she smiled.
"Why did you send that text to Stevie?" Her eyes were in complete horror. "I-I.." she stuttered.
"Yeah? You wanna explain why my girlfriend's trying to ruin my life?" I got angrier now.
"She's a bitch and she's going to try to steal you away from me, I needed her far away as possible Zander." She was so arrogant.

"Gosh, I've never met someone more evil than molly! And Stevie's far from a bitch. Do you know how important Stevie is to me?! She's my everything and you're one of the reasons she hates me now. I shouldn't blame everything on you because I know you're not all in fault but I will blame you because you made me lose my best friend." I screamed at her. I wish this was like those moments when the guy confesses everything and the girl is standing right behind him and tearing up. But sorry, that didn't happen. Ugh don't judge me. Kacey made me watch all those girly movies with her and the band when it was movie night at her house. Le sigh. Anyways...

She was in disbelief.
"It's over, I know it's only been 5 days but for Zander Robbins it's been a lifetime. And I don't hope to spend another second with you."

That's right Zander Robbins just dumped your jealous slutty ass. BOOM.

Now I have to fix things with Stevie...but she doesn't want to talk to me right now. I tried to talk to her at lunch but she didn't look my way and she didn't seem like she wanted to talk to any body. I gave Molly $10 to buy Stevie lunch. To be completely honest, Stevie was bulimic. I've known for a while, ever since Stevie passed up sloppy joe night. I knew something was wrong. So ever now and then I out of the blue give her a small snack. Which in her eyes wouldn't make her feel as fat. I don't think she's fat at all...She's perfectly Stevie and I'm in love with her.

A/N : Felt bad about the last chapter. sorry. :(

lifes rough.

-Lori