Hey I'm back, this time with the real chapter's update.

Thank you for all the support you gave me, and I really am glad that you all enjoy reading my story, I would definitely keep writing and finish this story.

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I don't own Victorious.


CHAPTER 8 : It's Better When You Say It Part-1

Jade finishes changing Lilly's soiled diaper before laying her down gently on the bed, curling her up in blankets comfortably for a nap. Cerulean-emerald irises trail over the bundle of joy who is in deep slumber, not paying any mind to Cat because she knows her best friend is only here for an explanation to what just happened a few minutes ago downstairs. For the Goth, what was said and done was crystal clear with no words needed to be exchanged about it.

The actress caresses the mini brunette's cheek whilst rested on her side, admiring the miracle before her as her fingertip ghosts along the infant's tuft of caramel hair and down to the bridge of her tiny, button nose that's similar to her father's, the baby's eyelids hiding a deep, coffee-colored hues. Jade breathes her in, the tip of her lips grazing against the soft of Lilly's forehead, leaving a soft kiss as the ends of her mouth curls upwards into a smile.

Jade's never been sure of much, but she loves Lilly. She knows that there's not a bone or cell in her body that doubts it. She's grown so fond of the little baby and the fact that Lilly is Tori's just makes the love for her all the more better.

The happy thought dissolves when she thinks of Heather; her jaw clenching as she glares at nothing in particular. There's no doubt in her mind when she says she absolutely, wholeheartedly hates her. She doesn't deserve to be the mother of Tori's child. The bitch crushed her girlfriend, not thinking twice to leave the slim, tall brunette, reducing her to an empty, lingering soul who was having a hard time just getting by day after day.

She sees Tori; really sees her. With just a glance into her pale, tired eyes, she can see that a light flickered out a long time ago, like there's no one home-like the person inside doesn't want anyone to drown in the darkness with them.

Jade knows what has to be done. She knows how insecure Tori is and how very little her confidence level is. It won't be easy getting the Latina to build her self-worth, but Jade was never one to give up so easily. She'll need to remind Tori from time to time that she is special, smart, funny, beautiful, caring, kind and enough-more than enough. She's everything for Jade. She's the person she fell in love with.

"Jade..." The voice of her petite, redheaded best friend breaks her train of thought running amuk of the many, many clever ways she'd make Heather pay if she ever saw the poor excuse of a human.

"There are no shoes you and your Nona made, are there? You want to talk," Jade cuts in straight to the point with a statement rather than a question as she drapes a delicate arm over Lilly protectively. The girl who grins widely can be annoying sometimes, but she's wise and somehow all-knowing that it makes Jade question the Italian descendant's true self since she just acts innocent and naive, but she's known her long enough to know the truth. Cat's clever in her one ways, smarted than a lot of people, including Jade because the redhead can see right through her barriers.

"There is!" Cat beams excitedly, showing off her dimples as she grins sweetly. "It's just not done yet..." She smirks cutely, still giving off the cute-vibe. Classic Cat. "Well, what was it that I saw downstairs? You kissed Tori?" She fires off questions hastily, her eyelashes batting innocently.

"Isn't it obvious?" Jade groans, not much to talk of those sappy feelings. "We kind of... Confessed about our feelings for each other-well, there wasn't much talking involved," Her lips curve into a smirk as her head bows down a little, her onyx tresses serving as a curtain to hide her red face when she thinks back to the unexpected make out session with the singer. Twice. Christ, the boy can really do surprising things with her tongue and teeth. "Anyway... The point is, we know how we feel about each other and I've already told him that I am now technically his girlfriend."

"Oh my god, Jade! I'm happy for you, because it's not you at all to easily confess your feeling. You must be really in love with Tori!" Cat said in excitement but still remember to keep her voice low so she's not going to wake the little one, the redhead move to hugs the actress but then quickly dismissed by her.

"Nu-uh, Kitty," She says offhandedly, but halfheartedly.


"Tori Jay Vega!" The boys: Andre, Robbie and Tori wince a little at the tone of the oldest Vega berating her with her full name, knowing she's in trouble. "How did I not know I had a baby niece?! I was about to enjoy a college party before I found out through Cat's slap update!" Trina stomps into the living room, her heels clicking against the wooden floor angrily, which is the last thing Tori needs at the moment on top of a baby to take care of when things were just starting to smooth over. For once, she didn't have anything to worry about except enjoying the moment of being with her friends-and girlfriend; her lips involuntarily perk up into a smile at the thought of her girlfriend and Lilly, confusing everyone in the room when there's a pissed off Trina Vega in the room.

Tori's reverie breaks when a sharp elbow jabs into her ribs, courtesy of Andre. "You need to answer that," He speaks with very little movement, afraid Medusa would look his way and turn him into stone. For a drama queen, she surely knew how to make an entrance and pick the perfect moment to show off her new college appearance.

The puppet master and the Canadian teen turn off the television to watch the drama going on live in the room. Beck gapes shockingly when he sees Trina, the once annoying Vega sister standing in the middle of the living room, fuming angrily and effectively looking surprisingly beautiful and breathtaking-in a great way. Damn. College really changed her. It wasn't that she didn't look good before. It's just that her new look is better than before; more mature and sexy. Even Robbie is thinking about switching his infatuation with Cat for his childhood crush on the older Latina sister.

"Trina... Calm down. I can explain, alright?"

"Oh, can you, now?" Trina places her hands on her shapely hips, her tone coming off sarcastically as Beck's eyes lock onto her pink lips. "After all, I did find out about the news through Cat's slap page. Never mind telling me now, Tori."

"Trina, please, hear me out..." Tori starts before a soft knock interrupts her. "Ohh, who is it now?!" She half whines and groans, no one being able to answer her before the door timidly opens.

All eyes fall on the athletic figure before the threshold, taking in sandy, brown hair and clear, blue eyes who stand at around 6"1', the five o'clock shadow over his perfectly symmetrical face making him look even more attractive than he already is. He smiles a little unsurely, his strong arm holding up a pink overnight bag that should look heavier than how he's easily lifting it up. "Sorry. I've waited fifteen minutes in the car." His voice flows out smoothly with a British accent, a little rugged in dialect. Can he be any more perfect? Everyone voices in their head as they look at him. "You said that if you weren't out after that, I would need to bring your bag inside?" He asks Trina.

"Oh! I forgot. I'm sorry, baby, I got carried away since my complicated sibling-" Trina turns to stress to Tori with a hint of annoyance, hiding the hurt. "-decided to keep me out of the loop about me having a baby niece." She finishes with a sigh before she steps into the embrace the English guy offers, kissing his lips soundly.

"Whos' the guy?" This time, it's Robbie who asks with his hand up in the air like he's in class like he needs permission to ask a question.

Andre and Tori visibly relax, glad they didn't have to ask because they are just as curious as to how Trina managed to score and date the hot looking guy-with an accent! Beck, though, feels a little odd when his stomach flips, feeling uneasy seeing the older brunette kiss the foreign guy, finding this new feeling rather... Annoying. Don't get it wrong, Trina always annoyed Beck with her attempts to be his girlfriend every time he and Jade broke up, but now that Trina found a good looking, sophisticated gentleman, he feels... Jealous?

"I'm Josh Adams. Trina's boyfriend," Says the English man, flashing the room with his charming smile. "So... You're Tori-Trina's younger sibling?"

"Sibling? ...She told you, didn't she?" Tori accuses Josh with a knowing look that her sister openly told a random guy about her condition. Talk about boundaries! "Why would you do that, Treen?!"

"What, Tori?" Trina asks, unfazed. "All I did was be honest with him. I can't exactly say I have a sister or brother, can I?" She answers, staring right back into Tori's eyes, knowing she's right. She's always right.

The room falls quiet, the curly haired boy and the actor sit silently on the couch while the singer-songwriter sits by the kitchen table. Every argument that the Vega siblings have are always tense, but this one is somehow different. Trina is pissed at the thought of Tori not being able to trust her enough to tell her she had a kid while Tori is pissed about Trina sharing her personal information to a guy she just found out about.

"I'm s-sorry. Please, don't be mad at your sister," Josh apologizes. "Because she means well. I'm not judging you nor am I making fun of you," He reassures, lightly squeezing Trina's hip affectionately as she nods in agreement. "I have a friend back in England. He has a sibling with a similar condition as yours. What I'm trying to say is, I'm rooting for you and I support you. You've been so strong and brave, I truly admire you, Tori."

"Thanks... I guess..." Tori hesitates, smiling weakly at Josh as she glances at her sister. "You picked a good one there." She smiles fuller, pointing at a grinning Josh, trying to hide his blush.

"Yes, I know. He's gorgeous and extremely kind... Now. Can we get back to me again?" Tori sighs in disbelief at her sister's antic behavior. How did she manage to date Josh with that selfish behavior of hers?

"Can we go somewhere more private, so you can scream at me as loud as you please without waking the baby?" Tori asks as Trina shrugs her shoulder with an 'I guess' before nodding to the back yard, the two Vegas' walking outside.

"Wow. Are those two always that intense?" Asks the British guy as he sits on the couch beside Robbie, earning a dirty glare from Beck.

"Why? Is that too much for you to handle?" Beck spits out, not bothering to conceal the jealousy in his voice as his two friends gape at him in disbelief at the Canadian's new attitude. Where is this coming from? They silently ask as they stare at the boy who used to be so cool, calm and easygoing, but is now the jealous, hostile guy.

"No. I know the feeling because me and my brothers sometimes bump heads when we argue and such," Josh shrugs, not bothered by Beck's unwelcoming glare as he smiles politely at the other two boys, making Beck feel even sicker with his reply. Why does he have to be so... Charming?!


Tori expected for the outbursts and yells Trina would throw at her as soon as they stepped foot in the backyard, but instead, the eldest just stood there with her arms crossed, waiting for the youngest to start the conversation. The look that she gave is unreadable for the singer because she doesn't see a trace of the diva personality she had earlier. All she can see is... Wait... Is that... Concern?

"So... Talk," Trina says, finally.

"I... Have a kid..." Tori starts with a small shrug, a scoff from Trina cutting her off at her choice of words to explain. "Listen... The baby is mine, Trina, and it hasn't been over two nights for me to know that she exists. Mom and Dad only found out this morning... This morning, Trina! I haven't had a chance to breathe or digest everything because her mother just dropped her off with the adoption papers she expects me to sign after she left her on our freaking door step the night before!" Tori lets out an exasperated, shaky exhale; not in the slightest angry, but just completely overwhelmed because she never got to let out her frustrations and thoughts like that as she watches it all sink in for her sister.

"I'm freaking out about the news a-and... And confused. One minute Mom and Dad say they're okay that I have a daughter and the next they tell me I have to give her up and sign the papers..." Tori runs her hand through her brown locks in frustration, finally feeling like she can shout out all of the feelings raging inside of her.

Trina takes a tentative step forward to gather Tori in her arms for a long over due hug.. "Oh, my poor Tori... It's okay. I'm here now. I just want to make sure that you know you still have me. No matter how far I go, I'm your big sister."

"I know..." Tori sighs, mumbling against her sister's neck, now realizing how badly she needed this type of comfort from her big sister. She'd never admit it, but she's really, really missed the diva. "I'm sorry I didn't tell you myself. I'm still kind of distracted from my freak outs all the time."

"Yeah, what's up with that?" Teases Trina with a smirk as she pulls away slightly to look at her sibling, cupping her cheeks. She hasn't been gone for nearly a year and Tori is already so grown. "Stop freaking out, yeah?" The eldest Vega says, squishing tan cheeks together before she lets go to sit them down on the bench behind the glass kitchen door to the back porch.

"Mom and Dad don't think I'm responsible enough to take care of Lilly on my own," Tori speaks quietly in a low voice, a sigh wracking over her body as her shoe scuffs against the ground, kicking dirt.

"Are you?" Trina simply asks the singer. She might act like a self-centered diva most of the time, but underneath the facade behavior, she is capable of compassion and knows the right things to say in difficult situations.

"I-I... I don't know. I guess?" The youngest asks rather than answers in an unsure tone.

"Are you?" Trina asks again with more stern in her voice.

"It has been a day, Trina. It all happened so suddenly and my friends are helping me take care of her while I'm just sitting shell-shocked, and... And Jade..." The ends of her lips curl ever so softly as she drifts off in thought at the mention of the Goth, but Trina catches it. "Jade. She's been so helpful, sweet and kind. Then we were alone and she... Kissed me and we..." Her voice trails to a stop, eyes and tone dreamy about trying to describe the blue-eyed beauty. She's rambling. She knows that and so does Trina.

"Oh, my god, Tori, stop talking. You're going off topic, there... You and Jade?" Trina asks in disbelief, cutting off her sibling before she does something cliché and romance over Jade's knees or something. She knew of the crush Tori had on Jade, but she didn't know that the actress reciprocated said feelings.

"I know, right? But it just happened so fast and now we're kind of like... Technically, like a, um... Couple."

"Oh, my god!" Trina pinches the bridge of her nose. "Tori! Stop! You're rambling." She sighs dramatically. "All I asked is... Are you? As in are you responsible and capable of raising your own daughter because once you make a decision so detrimental, there is no going back. What Mom and Dad are trying to say is that you need to be sure. Really, really sure."

"All I know is..." Tori looks through the glass door, seeing Andre playing with his phone but her gaze falls on the girl beside him; her beautiful girlfriend holding her daughter and playing with her as she giggles. For her, that's the most beautiful, breathtaking sight she's ever seen. She smiles to herself, continuing with her speech. "All I know is that I want to be in her life. I will never forgive myself if I ever abandoned her. That's what I know, Treen."

Trina smiles at Tori's answer. "And you're not alone." She says softly, nudging her arm against Tori's.

"I know," She replies, feeling like she can finally breathe now that she has her sister on board.

"I just have one question." Trina said looking at Tori. "Who's the mother?"

Tori's face pales once Trina finishes with the question. She knew she would have to come clean sooner or later since it was inevitable. Trina completely despises her ex-girlfriend to the bone, ever since she found out what Heather did to her. Trina made a pact to herself that if she ever encountered the bitch or even caught a glimpse of the twig bitch, she will tear her apart. You and Jade both, sis.

"Because I know mostly all of the exes you've ever dated and you never dated again since..." Trina's nearly identical, brown eyes widen as she trails off, remembering every girlfriend Tori ever had, gasping in shock when she realizes. "NO WAY?!"

Tori smiles wryly and holds up her hands gesturing 'Surprise!' at the now freaking out Trina Vega.

"Oh my sweet sally peaches… Now I know why Mom and Dad want you to sign the paper."

"Trina!" Tori sighs, knowing there will be another argument between them. She needs to, yet again, give her all of the explanations she could until Trina would be satisfied enough to drop the subject and move on.


Andre looks ever so serious whilst his thumbs type away on his phone, messaging his girlfriend, Chelsea as he gives her an update on what's happening in the Vega household and every detail of it, including the part where Jade kissed Tori.

Andre's phone beeps, letting know how of the incoming text message. "So she just kissed him? Out of the blue?" Chelsea's message reads before he quickly types in his reply, tapping send, his phone chiming and vibrating not long after.

"But she's been so horrible to him! How can you be glad that they're possibly together now?" Chelsea texts back in what seems like anger and disagreement.

"I'm also Jade's friend, just so you know, and she's the perfect girl for Tori! Unlike Heather who always tried to make him what she wanted him to be. Jade likes Tori for who he is. I know it!"

They argue throughout the texts, going on and on about how Chelsea thinks Jade is not fit for Tori and how she will end up with a broken heart until one texts catches Andre off guard.

"What if this is a sign for Tori to get back with Heather? They have a child together and Heather seems to be making things right by letting Tori know about the baby?"

"What?! NO! For me, it's a sign that they are not meant to be. Tori is better off without her. Why are you on Heather's side? You hate her just as much as the rest of us. Don't you?"

And there's no reply after that.

The singer-songwriter stares at his phone blankly, not even realizing that Jade is near him with Lilly in her arms, cooing and giggling while Cat sits and play with Robbie, Beck seeming to be engaged in a friendly conversation with the really hot, English boy; no one would've expected that the actor was ready to tear Josh apart by kissing Trina just a while ago.

"Hey, Andre. What's happening out there?" Jade asks, nodding her head to the siblings outside in the backyard.

"Trina came home pissed off at Tori because she found out about the little one by Cat's slap update. Now they're working things out," Andre answers in a quick recap, not taking his eyes off of the phone as he waits for a reply from his girlfriend.

"And who's the hot looking guy talking to Beck?"

"Trina's boyfriend from college. He's an Englishman," Andre says, using his fake British accent at the last part with a smile. "How about you? Is your boyfriend an Englishman, too?" He asks, wiggling his eyebrows suggestively before he chuckles at the way Jade groans loudly.

"You people will never drop the subject, will you?" Andre shrugs his shoulder in response. "Fine. Listen up. All of you," Jade says, grabbing everyone's attention easily without raising her voice too much. "Tori and I are dating. We're a couple now. Get over it and move on," She says with an undertone of a growl in her threat, hearing a squeak from either Cat or Robbie-or both-while the remaining boys smile and nod at her. "Happy?" She raises an eyebrow at Andre.

"I am," He grins, seeing kaleidoscope eyes roll from Jade.

Tori and Trina walk in the kitchen, seeming to have sort things out in agreement. "But I would never let my niece near her. Ever! Got it?!" Trina points to Tori with a warning threat, receiving a smile from her younger sibling.

"Got it, Trina," She simply says to her lovely sister who struts off to approach Jade as she takes Lilly in her arms for the first time whilst the Goth finally gets up for that cup of coffee she's been wanting for ages.

"Hey, cutie. I'm your prettiest, hotter aunt, Trina. Come on, meet my really hot boyfriend, yeah?" She coos to Lilly who only looks at her Auntie in bewilderment before giggling at the adult's funny antics.

Andre chuckles at Trina's narcissism before nodding at Tori who sits beside him, slouched on the couch with her legs a little spread open. "So, I guess everything's okay, now?"

"Mmhm." She simply said.

After a long conversation between the group of friends and family, they finally leave with their goodbyes, sadly, not being able to squeeze in a dress rehearsal like they had plan to originally because of what's been happening, but they still have plenty of time before the play.

Trina wanted to stay home until Monday, but after Josh reminded her of the exams on the following week, they decided to head over back to university, letting Trina hug and kiss on Lilly for another hour before Tori reassured her of the two months' worth of vacation the Auntie will have with her niece when she comes back from school.

Then there was Jade who simply deadpanned, "I'm staying," before plopping down on her boyfriend's lap, who couldn't quite argue with that.


Jade wakes to the distant sound of the gentle pitter-patter of streaming water beating down on mosaic, shower tiles. She rubs the sleep buggers out of her eyes and follows the sliver of light glowing in the dark room underneath the closed door to Tori's private bathroom. The blue-eyed wonder looks over at the right side of the empty bed where Tori usually resides before glancing at the clock by the nightstand. Five in the morning. What's he doing showering so early? Jade shakes her head and runs her slender fingers through her disheveled hair before checking on the little one asleep on the middle of the mattress, sleeping soundly as she sucks on her tiny thumb. The actress smiles at her little jelly bean, already knowing the little habits and tics Lilly's picked up since she's been spending more and more watching and taking care of the mini brunette. Jade knows what Lilly feels and needs, and right now, she'll be up in a moment for a bottle so Jade gets up to prepare one.

After making sure that the little baby is still in deep slumber and tucked in so she wouldn't roll off-especially surrounding the bed with every pillow available in the room-she stops by the bathroom door to listen in, hearing the shower running and the occasional hum of a tune.

Jade smiles faintly, leaning against the door frame as she bites down on her lower lip, her mind taking her to an image of Tori's naked frame underneath the hot, steamy water as she rinses her brown hair. She imagines the droplets of water sliding down her bronze, fit skin, trailing between the swell of her chest, down to her flat, washboard abs, just before trickling down deeper, delving a little lower to the curve of-Jade jumps at the sound of Lilly's soft coo, snapping back to reality from her fantasy, a little embarrassed because a six month old baby caught her thinking about the latter's dad showering. She shakes her head quickly before proceeding to the kitchen.

God, I need to take a shower. A cold one, Jade thinks to herself, walking a little uncomfortably.

As the actress waits for the bottle to heat up, she wonders how she ended up here, in this moment, willingly taking care of a child that isn't even hers with a surprising amount of patience while being in a relationship with her supposed-to-be frenemy. A year and a half ago, she would have gagged at the idea of her playing house with the singer and definitely would've said, 'In your dreams!' to anyone that gave her the idea, but now? Now she's standing in Tori's kitchen, making a bottle of milk whilst considering the idea of joining her lover in the long, hot shower.

The beeping noise pulls her back into reality as she grabs the fixed bottle to job up the steps in time to hear the shower stop, busying herself with feeding Lilly before she wakes.


Tori finishes up in the shower when she feels like she's been in longer than necessary because the freezing water has started to make her body numb, even turning a little pale. She steps out of the large shower and dries herself off with a small towel before her feet walks her in front of the large vanity mirror in the bathroom, standing frigid to scrutinize herself.

Now that she's stopped freaking out about having a child and all the worries that came with it, she's finally back to her normal routine. Tori can't help it because no matter how hard she tries, her biological clock won't allow her to sleep past five in the morning, so she's made it a ritual of taking a freezing, cold shower to clear her head.

She finally snagged the girl of her dreams. That should make her feel better about herself, shouldn't it? It doesn't. In fact, it makes her even more nervous, anxious and worried sick of the all the possible things that could-and probably would-happen. She's still insecure about herself; that doesn't change overnight. The fear of Jade having a change of heart about her feelings for her once she regains sense definitely doesn't go away so easily, either.

It's cruel to give Jade such little credit, Tori knows it, but the inner turmoil keeps warring with herself. Maybe she should thank for her mind for looking out for her, creating a safety net for her heart in anticipation when Jade decides to give up and leave the moment she realizes Tori isn't what she was looking for after all and the whole intersex thing really grosses her out. When that happens, maybe it won't hurt as much as the first time because she expected it from the beginning and cushioned herself before she really, really fell too hard. She's hurting herself in the process when she thinks so little of Jade, she knows that, too, but she wants to trust Jade fully, but she can't quite stop thinking about the possibilities-or rather, the inevitable.

From muscle memory, her arms automatically cover her breasts before her brain tells her to. It's something she does every morning; something as trivial as tying her shoes or the way her hands glide across the piano as she plays her favorite tune without a glance at the strings or the keys.

Her head tilts to the side as she inspects her body fully, imagining what it would be like if those weren't there before her hands move below her belt to cup her member, wondering if she'd be a different person completely if she didn't have the extra appendage between her legs. This time, she imagines each scenario of what would happen for her, Jade... And Lilly. She can't make the decision based on what she wants or what she feels right for her, now. She needs to think of how it would affect her daughter and the girl she loves. It was already hard before they came into her live, but now it's three times as hard. She needs to be sure that she makes the right choice. For her. For her girls.

"Tori, you're what?!" The voice of someone she knows very well echoes in her mind so clear that the scene can be scene like an old home video. It might as well be. It's been looped in her head for a lifetime, now.

They were dating for two months when Tori found out about her medical condition. She came clean to her girlfriend about everything, hoping she would understand. She believed that the girl was the love of her life and trusted her wholeheartedly.

"Please, tell me that you understand?" Tori practically begged her. She was so young and in love. It would break her beyond repair if the girl ever decided to leave her because of this.

"No. Actually, I don't," The girl says a little coldly, resulting a pang in her chest to sting a little. They were at their favorite spot up the hill with the view of the lively city below. Tori picked the place for their first date and it has been their 'place' since then: a place to talk, argue or just enjoy each other's company. "I'm trying to digest what you said, Tori, I need a little more time before I can answer your question." She snaps before turning to the side to stare at the city, wishing to be there instead of here after hearing the shocking news.

(- - To Be Continued - -)


So, I split this chapter into 2 parts, before I put the 'time goes by' ...

let me know what you think. :)

I might post the second part sooner if I get some candies to cheer me up. :D

see ya...