AN: Thank you so much for reading my story and leaving me so many kind reviews. It means a lot to me. I was not sure whether I would be able to finish this chapter on time due to school commitments, but mostly due to the fact that I rewatched the goodbye scene and I felt like crying all over again. Luckily, I found Matt's interview with Larry Flick soon after and knowing that Matt wanted to make it seem like Logan was just waiting for Rory to stop him from leaving made me feel a bit letter. Of course, there was also that comment from Larry about ROGAN never being truly over which is a sentiment I agree with.
Chapter 8
'This is it' thought Logan as he took one last look around the flat he lived in for so many years. It was a truly nice place, situated right in the heart of Knightsbridge, the most luxurious area of London, but it was no home. The only time Logan felt at home living in the flat was when Rory was there with him. While Logan could not deny that he did have many beautiful memories, they were nothing compared to what was still to come. He was sure of it. Saying goodbye to the place was not that difficult, considering where he was headed. A place was just a place.
After making sure that he had everything he needed, Logan quickly headed towards the Knightsbridge tube station, which luckily was really close by. He considered getting a taxi or an uber, but he decided against it, considering how long it took him to get to the flat in the first place. The chances of the traffic situation improving were slim. Now, Logan was in a hurry to get home as he finally took care of everything and the Piccadilly line was going to take him straight to the Heathrow terminals. The sooner he got to the airport, the sooner he would get home.
'This is probably the only think I will miss' thought London looking around, while waiting for his train to arrive. The transport system in London is one of a kind. True, there might be a metro in New York as well, but it does not compare to the London one. Plus, all of those buses! Knowing that he will probably have to commute to New York quite often if he lived in the states, made Longan feel just a tiny bit sorry that he had to leave London behind. Maybe one day he would be back, but he would definitely not return without his girls.
Once he boarded the tube carriage, Logan felt a sense of relief. It was really happening, he was going to go home. Luckily, there were no delays so he managed to get to the airport right at the exact time he told Finn's pilot he would get there. Passing through security was also a breeze. Having the last name Huntzberger surely does help from time to time. In short, everything ran smoothy which in his book was a clear sign that he was on the right path, that this was exactly what he was supposed to be doing. Even the London skies decided to smile at him for once so there was no problem at take off. Soon, Logan would be home and in close proximity to his baby - whether she was born or not. Even though he knew that he would be getting to Start Hollow rather late, he did not care. At this point, he was willing to sleep on the front porch of the Gilmore's house if he had to, as long as he could be close to his family. The dry cleaner might complain, but he could not care less about the expensive clothing he was wearing. Clothing was replaceable, time was not.
As suspected, the moment the place took off, the reality of the situation come crashing down on Logan's shoulders. He was going to be a father! He was going to have to be a person that little girl could depend on and who she would look up to. The thought was incredibly scary. There was nothing about him that would indicate he was going to be a good father. Sure, he loved his nephews and his niece and they got along just fine, but he only spent a few hours with them once or twice per year since they were born. Suddenly, Logan felt like he was going to have a panic attack. He couldn't be a father. He was not ready. He did not have nine months to come to terms with the idea that another person will depend on him. Furthermore, he had no idea how to be a dad, it is not like he ever had any good examples. However, he knew one thing, he was never going to be like Mitchum. If he ever became anything like his own father, he would allow both Rory and Lorelai to skin him alive.
The thought of having a baby with Rory was what calmed him down in the end. With Rory as a mother, the baby could not become anything less than exceptional, of that he was sure. Also, Logan was incredibly grateful that this happened with Rory and not someone else. He could not imagine having a baby with anyone else, not even Odette. He knew that it was his responsibility to produce an heir, but at one point Logan even considered having surgery to make sure that never happened. It was a drastic decision, but he could not deny that at some point it crossed his mind. Truth be told, Logan dreamt of having a baby, especially a daughter with Rory ever since he first proposed to her. He might have been young at the moment, but that was what determined him to pop the question in the first place. When we was only 25, Logan knew that Rory would be the only one he wanted as the mother of his children.
While thinking about Rory usually made Logan smile, this time was an exception. Thinking so much about her in the confined space of the aircraft and without having anything else better to do, Logan started wondering why. He could not believe that Rory did not even have the courtesy to call him and let him know that she was pregnant. For one second, Logan even considered that Rory might have had the child with someone else, but he quickly dismissed the notion. It was just something he could bear to think about. However, he also knew that it would not matter. He would be there for Rory regardless, as he knew he could never let her go again. He was finally free to do whatever he wanted with his life and he would raise that girl as his, but something deep inside told him that she was his. The timing made sense, even if Rory's decision not to tell him did not. He felt a small amount of anger just thinking about it. He missed so many moments, so many doctor appointments and that made him both angry and sad. It was a feeling that Logan did not like, especially in relation to Rory. It was not something he ever felt towards her in all the time he had known her. Did she really think that he would abandon her?
This pattern continued until the plane finally reached its final position. For the entire duration of the flight, Longan did not close his eyes as the thoughts that were running through his head did not let him. He tried to find a rational explanation as to why he was not told about the baby, but he couldn't really come with one. Until he landed on the small airport in Hartford, Logan did nothing but think of where him and Rory stood. He knew that he wanted her back and he wanted them to become a family, but having so much time to think made him wonder whether the anger will ever go away and how that will affect their relationship going forward. When he heard about the baby from Mitchum, Logan could only think about the fact that he might have a second chance at happiness and that this baby was a godsend, but now he was not sure that everything would be just as easy as he first imagined it to be. He knew that he would love the baby, as just the thought of her made him smile, but his situation with Rory was going to be a bit more complicated. However, deep in his heart Logan knew that no matter what Rory did and would do, he was going to love her forever. With that final thought, Logan grabbed his carry on and exited the plane, just to see that Frank was already waiting for him to take him home.
TBC
AN: I really hope you enjoyed this chapter. This was definitely the most difficult one to write so far. I am sorry for publishing it so late, I just could not find the words to describe everything that was going through Logan's mind at that moment. I hope I managed to convey what was passing through my mind. Really curious to read your reviews on this, and do let me know what you liked and what you did not like. Next time - Rory and the baby.
