Author's Note: I do not any of the Harry Potter and Ninja Turtle characters. All original characters belong to me.

Chapter Eight

Violated was the best way for both Remus and Kiara to describe of how they felt when they were questioned by Yoshi. Kiara's memory of Mulciber's finger going inside her, the sudden unknown feeling of something actually being inside of her. Remus had never gone further than rubbing Kiara gently around the area, wanting to ease her into succumbing to him bit by bit, but all the while listening to her signals. While she remembers their first time when they were in wolf form and the following night, Kiara remembers pushing into Remus a few times to get him deeper in. But this …

Tears welled, her face going into her hands. Familiar arms went around her and she was able to sob into the chest of her comforter, which was Severus, standing in partly front of her.

"Kira-chan!" she heard her Sensei's voice.

"I feel like a failure, Sensei," she whisper was strained.

"And I feel failed you," Remus voiced in the same way, who was sitting next to Kiara on the bed, they were curtained off in the Hospital Wing.

"No … even the best can be caught off guard and unfairly set upon," Yoshi spoke, getting his pupil to look at him. "This was not your fault. Neither of you are to blame."

"But if I had of just gone to do my homework like I said I was going to -" Kiara went to say.

"No one could have predicted what was going to happen," Severus spoke, stepping back a little. "It was Remus with his little homing beacon that he has on you that set the alarm. You are not to blame."

"I did not know how far a Hunter would go. I didn't think it was possible in this school, Okami. I am sorry, we should have warned you about Southall," said Remus.

"Do not blame yourself either, Remus-san. The greed of men can be too great and honour means very little to them," Yoshi spoke kindly.

Madam Pomfrey pulled back the curtains, Professors McGonagall and Slughorn accompanying the school nurse.

"Thank you, Poppy," said the Head of Gryffindor House.

"Never in all my time as Head of Slytherin had I felt so much shame upon one of my own students. I am dearly sorry for the serious offence that has been committed to you, my dear," Professor Slughorn did not waste time. "Louis Mulciber and Justin Southall have been expelled. But -"

"But? There's a but in this?" Severus said before Remus could, then remembered himself. "Sorry, sir."

"Given the circumstances, I shall not hold any raw feelings you would have against you at this given time," said the Head of Slytherin.

"Unfortunately, neither Southall or Mulciber have had to have their wands snapped," said McGonagall distastefully. "It seems that an attempted rape on a she-wolf, yes the fact that you, Kiara, are a werewolf did come up, is not offence worthy for something much harsher than an expulsion. Apparently if, you had of been a 'normal' witch, something more would have been considered."

"Who said that?" Remus demanded.

"The Minister himself," said McGonagall, grimly.

"The Minister of Magic got involved?"

"Dumbledore expressed on just how unsatisfied he was by this. However, made it very clear that neither Southall, nor Mulciber, are welcome to step foot within the school again. If they are caught within the grounds, they would go straight to Azkaban," said Slughorn. "Having that come from the Headmaster must have sent shock waves."

"How so?" Yoshi asked, unclear.

"Professor Dumbledore believes the use of Dementors to be inhumane and they are the guards of Azkaban," Remus answered.

Yoshi did not need any further explanation.

"So what happens now?" asked Severus.

"What of Beverly Dawson's involvement?" Remus asked, his voice was quite bitter.

It was McGonagall who spoke; "Because there is nothing stopping either Southall and Mulciber from entering Hogsmeade, Professor Dumbledore will be making some extra measures for the Shrieking Shack. We do not know if Southall even knows if you have been residing in there during the full moon, but no-one is going to take any chances.

"Miss Dawson, unfortunately couldn't be expelled, because according to the Minister, she didn't do anything so severe. However, she will be dealt with as best as we are able to dish out punishments," McGonagall promised on the last part.

"As for the Halloween feast it is up to you whether you wish to join or not," said Slughorn. "A small feast can be sent to your quarters if it is to be the case."

"Until then, we shall leave you be," McGonagall added.

"Thank you, Professors," said Remus, gratefully.


Remus and Kiara decided not to attend the Halloween feast. Neither were in the mood for crowds and cheer. Severus was torn in what to do for a while, until Yoshi suggested that he ought to be in the Great Hall. He could see Kiara and Remus on the morrow. When the pair had reached their quarters, Kiara and Remus both saw that a mini feast was waiting for them in the sitting area.

"I'm not hungry," she said quietly, before walking to the bathroom and closing the door.

Feeling rather helpless on what to do, Remus and sat in the armchair to wait for Kiara to come out. He didn't worry too much about the food getting cold.

It wasn't until the waiting went to fifteen minutes when Remus went to the bathroom and knocked.

"Kiara?"

No answer.

Not waiting any longer, Remus opened the door and walked in to find Kiara sitting on the shower floor naked, face buried into her tightly drawn knees, arms wrapped around the legs. Remus could see her shoulders shaking, body trembling.

"Okami!"

Kiara didn't move, not even to look up. Remus grabbed a towel, went over and shut the water off, before kneeling down to wrap the towel around his mate. Only then did she lift her head, her face hidden slightly by the curtains of her black hair.

"I'm here, Okami," he soothed, moving the hair aside so he could see her face better.

With a little coaxing, Remus helped Kiara to get to her feet. When her hazel connected with his blue, Remus saw it entering Kiara's mind, finally seeing just how close he really had come to seeing his wife being taken by another. Just as Kiara saw how far Beverly had gotten with Remus. Then Kiara lowered her eyes.

"I'm sorry, Okami," Remus said softly.

Kiara shook her head a little. "We were both set up."

"Come on, let's get out of the bathroom."

They went to the bedroom, Remus pulled back the covers of their bed and guided Kiara on to the mattress, placing the covers over her so is to not have her freeze. Remus then began to undo his robes, until he, too, was naked.

Kiara watched as Remus once again pulled the covers, but enough to slide in next to her. Or rather, slightly above. Kiara gently took one of Remus's hands and led it to between her legs.

"Are you sure?" he asked gently. He felt it was too soon to do any of that.

"I want you to," she replied. "I want to know that I am still yours!" She couldn't continue, starting to try and fight the tears again.

Remus pulled the hand away. Instead lied upon his side and pulled Kira into him and held her firmly.

"You're still not ready for that and it would be wrong of me to have sex with you right now."

"But -"

Remus looked at her, silencing her with a soft finger to the lips. "Shh! You know what I am saying is true."

Kiara partly burying her face into his chest, as the finger was removed from her lips and arm re-wrapped around her. She always felt safe with Remus.


Word of what had happened somehow spread like wildfire, for Kiara and Remus could both feel eyes and whispers upon them by lunchtime the very next day. Turned out that Beverly Dawson, from what Lily Evans had overheard, had spoken of her little romance with Remus to her two close friends.

"Romance does not involve jinxing someone into …" Remus stopped himself, fists clenched with the humiliation he was feeling right now.

"What else did she say?" James asked, with a concerned frown toward his friend, before looking at Lily.

Lily hesitated, looking at Remus and Kiara from her position at the Gryffindor table, unsure whether to speak. "I don't know if I should."

"We might end up hearing it anyway, Lily," said Kiara, taking one of Remus's fists and getting him to open it up.

"She said that … that Southall's plan ought to have been the wake up call for Remus to learn that he belonged to Beverly and Kiara deserved whatever she got from Mulciber. The word … the word 'slut' came out a few times.

"Also the outburst about Kiara being your wife, Remus, was just a hoax to cover up your true feelings for Beverly," Lily was careful in how she worded her sentences."

Kiara turned her head toward where Beverly was sitting. Beverly had this smug satisfaction on her face when she caught Kiara's stare. Kiara made a sudden and almost unseeing motion of her fingers … which sent a bowl of porridge shooting up into the air, which Beverly was eating from, and suddenly landing straight on top of Beverly's head.

The laughter rang through, even Remus couldn't stop himself from giving a small chuckle. This sent Beverly running, red in face.


The attack did leave an impact on Kiara and Remus. While they did their very best to appear as though they were coping, it was very plain to see that they simply weren't. Both were able to continue with their classes and doing exceptionally well in them, the people who cared knew that they just did not know how to feel about what had happened.

But it was five days laters, while Kiara was trying to transfigure mouse into a teacup, when her emotions just snapped. She virtually just put her wand down, stood up and bolted out of the classroom, not even hearing Professor McGonagall. She just kept walking, not seeming to really know which direction she was even going.

She didn't even see Oroku Saki. When he put his hands on to her upper arms to stop her from walking passed him, Kiara, out of some reflex she went to push him off, almost freaking out by this sudden stop.

"Kiara, it's me!" Saki said.

Kiara finally looked up to see the man she called her brother.

"Saki?" she strained slightly.

"What's wrong?"

Kiara didn't want to appear weak in front of Saki, always doing her best to show how strong she was in his eyes. But, even if she was picking up the tensions and fast words of what is going on between him and Yoshi and the possible upheaval of the Foot Clan, Kiara still felt that Saki still had her well-being at heart.

"Is it possible to kill someone and not lose your honour?" Kiara asked, as a single tear escaped.

Saki was very well aware of what had happened. Kiara still felt like a failure and was still feeling very ashamed by being caught out the way she had.

"There is …" Saki answered with hesitation. "But I would strongly advise against it. At least for now. Time has a way of turning things around on people."

"But they need to be punished! And expulsion is not good enough. They still have their wands! They can still practice magic. All because someone like me isn't worth the trouble of seeking justice for."

Saki studied the girl before him. "Come with me," he said.

Kiara was led to the small dojo that was used for the smaller classes. It was empty, due to Yoshi taking a class outside for a change. Saki went over to one of the walls and took a pair of bo-staffs down, then tossed one over to Kiara. Kiara caught it with precise accuracy, giving it a twirl around her body and stepped over to the mat.

"I believe for now, this would be a better option," said Saki, taking his place.

It wasn't what Kiara had in mind. Yet, as soon as Saki went to advance, instinct took over and Kiara deflected the assail. At every attempt Saki gave, Kiara was able to push back. Until Kiara mistook one action and found herself upon the ground, catching her completely off guard. This angered the girl, she rushed to get up and charged at Saki. Saki put his own bo-staff out front and pushed the end of Kiara's upward and just as quickly bought his down and swept her off her feet again. She tried again, only to find herself on the ground once more.

The more this happened, the angrier Kiara was becoming. Angry and frustrated. Until she just couldn't handle it any more and dropped the staff and used her own powers to push Saki, almost sending him flying and he landed into the wall. Hard! Shocked at what she had done, Kiara rushed over.

"I am so sorry!" she cried. "I just …"

But instead of showing anger himself, Saki shifted to his knees and looked at Kiara with a satisfied smile. "How do you feel?" he asked.

Kiara searched for her answer, more surprised to see that Saki wasn't angry. "A little better …"

"Good. That's what I wanted you to achieve. Anger can be just as much a friend, as it can be your enemy."

This was a slightly different analogy to what Yoshi used, but Kiara didn't point this out. She fully appreciated Saki for taking the time to help her in his own little way.


The session did help. But the snap had only just began, Saki had only managed to scrape a bit of what was to come. Every night Kiara woke up screaming, and every day she was either violently lashing out, or in a sobbing mess. The only relief she was getting was from Saki's method of allowing her to fight the emotions out. Or being held tight by Remus.

Remus, himself, was in a torturous minefield. It wasn't just because of Beverly's interference, it was the news he received the very day Kiara began to breakdown.

"She is out for blood," Saki told Yoshi, Severus and Remus later when he was able to get them alone in Yoshi's office, after a week later. "I have had to result to using training dummies for her to be able to use those powers of hers."

"And they don't seem to be enough," Severus had been observing Kiara's 'therapy' and was near horrified by the damage she was inflicting. "Is there anything to get Kiara to get out of this streak she is going through?"

"Kiara feels trapped right now and the only instinctual outlets she can find herself displaying is through violence," Remus explained. "I know how she's feeling. Only I seem to have some control over mine. I don't know why."

"Perhaps different strokes for coping?" Severus supplied.

"Possibly."

"That isn't helping with suggestions on what to do," said Saki.

"Get Kiara, and myself, out of Hogwarts," Remus said without further thinking it over.

"Where do you suggest?" Severus asked.

"My parents left me the house," was Remus's answer.

"Are you sure, Remus-san?" Yoshi asked kindly.

Remus nodded. "I am going to have to go and sort the place out eventually."

Yoshi could see not other option. Japan just simply wasn't going to be a choice and he didn't want to say his reasons with Saki in the room.

"I'll speak to the Headmaster to see if it can be done. Best to go and find Kiara and let her know."

Remus and Severus walked out of the office.

"I wasn't sure if I heard you correctly back there. Did you say you had to 'go and sort the place out?' Don't you mean sort things out with your parents?" Severus couldn't help asking.

"No … you heard me correctly," Remus replied a little tense. "The day Kiara first snapped was when I was called to Professor McGonagall's office. I thought it was because of Kiara, only to assured it wasn't." He paused uncomfortably for a moment before saying, "Mum and Dad were murdered. Though we cannot prove who did it, but it would not surprise me if my suspicions end up being correct."

"I'm sorry, Remus, I had no idea."

Remus appreciated the sympathy.

"Does Kiara know?"

Remus nodded. "She does. Even with whatever mental and emotional breakdown she is battling with, she snaps out long enough to console me. It's like we're taking turns with the other's pain."

Severus placed a hand on Remus's shoulder. "If you like I could accompany you. You will need more than each other. Damn it, tell those friends of yours to get their backsides over there too if you must!"

"Thank you, Severus."

"I may be a greasy haired git, but I do know when to give a shit."

Remus gave a soft and short chuckle at this. "Let's go find, Kiara. Last I know she was with Lavinia and Clara, heard them saying that they were going to take Kiara for a long walk around the grounds."


Professor Dumbledore couldn't refuse the request of allowing Kiara and Remus to leave early. So that very evening, Kiara and Remus were back at Remus's home. Many of the trees had changed their leaves and the grass looking rather yellow and dull from the colder weather coming in. They could even see their breath right in front of them.

Remus stood staring at the house, as if unable to go any closer. Kiara took his hand. It was enough to encourage him to go forth and enter the house. Everything was as it was, apart from the gathering dust.

Upon being told of his parents' murder, Remus learned that their remains had to be identified, for the damage was too gruesome to describe. Remus did not want to organise a funeral, requesting that his parents to be buried in the same cemetery as his sister, Rosemarie. They never held a funeral for Rosemarie, feeling that this was something to be kept quiet. It was just how Remus's family was and he wanted to follow on how his parents would feel and want.

"I guess dusting is in order," Remus said, trying to sound humorous.

"Let us get started," said Kiara.

Dumbledore had given Remus special permission to use magic outside Hogwarts. Remus was now the owner of his family home and he had to replace whatever charms and spells of protection around the forest perimeter that was of Lupin property by right and law, both in human and wolf. Also it just made sense to allow the boy to live freely in his own home, even if he was a few months shy of seventeen. This included Kiara.

The dusting of the downstairs didn't take long. The distraction was a welcome to the pair of them. Neither felt like talking. Remus went to the kitchen and opened the pantry to see that most of all the food had to be thrown out. The only things worth keeping was the rice and most of the canned foods. There was no bread or fresh fruits. In the cold section of the pantry, Remus found some meats still okay, but the milk had to go, so did the eggs.

A hand touched his forearm, Remus saw Kiara.

"We're going to have to do get groceries," he said quietly.

"We can do that tomorrow. I can figure out what to make out of what we have for later."

"Are you sure?"

Kiara nodded. "I need distraction as much as you do, Moony."

"I understand, Okami. Do what you can here. I'll be upstairs, starting on our room so we can have a clean bed to sleep on," said Remus.

He placed a quick kiss on her cheek, before leaving Kiara to do what she knows best, while he departed to see what he could do elsewhere.


Remus had changed the sheets and dusted his and Kiara's room. He knew at some point that they would end up moving to the main room, which was his parents' room. But right now, he couldn't find the strength to go in there. He didn't even want to go into Rosemarie's old room either.

Kiara found him sitting on the floor in front of the end of the bed, elbows to knees and seeming to be staring out into space. Remus came out of his trance when she knelt in front of him.

"I just can't believe this has happened," he said in a quiet voice. "I knew we were at war. Plus added extra dangers toward you and I. But …"

Kiara took Remus's hands into each of hers.

"I am sorry that this happened, Remus. I really am."

Remus gently got Kiara into a hug. "Thank you," he whispered.

Kiara managed to kiss him on the cheek.