Faceless – Chapter Eight

Awake and Alive – Skillet – Jason and Sam Song

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I'm at war with the world and they try to pull me into the dark

I struggle to find my faith As I'm slipping from your arms

It's getting harder to stay awake and my strength is fading fast

You breathe into me at last

I'm awake I'm alive

Now I know what I believe inside

Now it's my time, I'll do what I want because this is my life

Here, right now I'll stand my ground and never back down

I know what I believe inside, I'm awake and I'm alive

I'm at war with the world cause I ain't never gonna to sell my soul

I've already made up my mind

No matter what I cant be bought or sold

When my faith is getting weak and I feel like giving in

You breathe into me again

I'm awake I'm alive

Now I know what I believe inside

Now it's my time, I'll do what I want because this is my life

Here, right now I'll stand my ground and never back down

I know what I believe inside, I'm awake and I'm alive

Waking up

Waking up

Waking up

In the dark I can feel you in my sleep

In your arms I feel you breathe into me

Forever hold this heart that I will give to you

Forever I will live for you

The porch creaked as the rocking chair was pulled forward then back. Sipping on a glass of homemade lemonade Jason wondered if Sam ever learned to cook. Realizing the years he had lost with her his resolve to win her back only became more clear. Her presence was forcing painful memories to surface.

"Where is she?"

Jason was mad, focusing his rage on Alexis, he watched as she quickly grabbed her cell phone and took a single step backwards. "You told me Sam would be safe and happy with you, Alexis you promised me."

"I didn't know what she was going to do, how could I have? I instructed Sam like we planned, then she left. Jason, I've not seen her since."

The anger that had been dammed finally Violence was building inside of him Picking up a chair in her office he launched it into the wall, splintering the wood sending debris threw out the room.

"Jason calm down, please." Alexis was walking a fine line she could not push him. "Do you think I wanted her to leave, my own daughter?" cautious she took a step forward. "I wanted her to become a part of my fam..."

"Shut the fuck up!" shaking he glared at her "She had a family, me! Sam was my family Alexis, she was my world. I would have sacrificed all that I had in order to keep her safe and loved, died for her, but that clearly was not enough for you." He was losing it, if he didn't remove himself from her presence, he would be serving 55 to life. "You don't get it Alexis I destroyed her at your request. Sam always believed herself unworthy of love, forever number two, never good enough for anyone. Time and patience helped old wounds disappear, my love slowly healed her heart."

"Give me a break, you are not the victim Jason, we both agreed that Sam was better off without you. She was shot because of you, almost died in your arms."

Roaring Jason's blue eyes flashed dangerously. "Enough. I am tired of listening to you." reaching for his gun he watched as Alexis went for the phone on her desk. Before she could reach it he yanked the connection from the wall and threw the phone across the room.

Terrified Alexis felt trapped and was suddenly feared him. "What are you doing?"

"Nothing... yet. But if anything bad happens to Sam." Holstering the gun he turned around and left the room.

Outside of the office Jason yelled then punched a hole in the wall. He was pissed at Alexis but the majority of his anger came from his own guilt, as much as he hated the witch her words were true, he had failed Sam.

"So you are the hero in her dreams, the one that chases away self imposed demons." opening the screen door Patty took a sit on the porch swing "I always believed that "Jason" was the monster, the entity Sam was so desperate to escape in her nightmares."

"The way I treated her, maybe I am the monster."

Patty observed the sullen stranger. From the moment Sam introduced him to the housed hold she knew that his man held the key to Samantha's heart. They might not have known it but unconsciously their need to be close to each other was evident. Physical touch was clearly displayed, Sam had never released the man's hand, petite fingers remained coiled around his much larger digits. Each time she spoke the man gazed down at her, as if each word she spoke was a life line to his soul. But the most telling sign was the peaceful energy that enveloped the two, they shared something special and unique, a connection most spend their whole life time searching for.

"Mistakes don't have to define who you are or the purpose you serve in Sam's life."

Shrugging Jason murmured "Maybe." Looking over at the older women "Thank you for helping her. She deserves to be happy and loved."

"Yes she does and so do you."

"You don't know anything about me."

"True enough but I do know Samantha, you are important to her." She watched as he got up to leave the porch. "Before I was told who you are I was afraid that you might harm her."

Jason stopped and turned his icy gaze locked onto her. "I would never hurt her."

"Your eyes told me differently." Patty got up and went to stand before him "Eyes can tell you all you need to know about a person and your eyes told me you were hollow, angry, and sad. But the moment you saw Samantha a transformation occurred, life flooded your eyes."

Before Jason could comment Patty patted his arm "We have no extra room in the house but I instructed one of the ranch hands to set you up in the barn." smiling she quietly returned to the house.

Inhaling deeply Jason stared out into the darkness. He was so tired of being angry and sad, the only time he had ever felt any lasting peace was when Sam was at his side. Patty was correct Sam made him feel alive. Past mistakes were slowly killing him and he was not ready to surrender to death.

Casting his eyes upwards Jason made a promise to the stars above "I will never fail her again." As if nature was responding to his declaration the silence of the evening was broken as wolves lifted their heads to the same night sky and began to howl.

Smiling Jason walked off the porch and headed to the barn, tomorrow he would start living again.

Sam tried to focus on what Colton was talking about but all she could think about was Jason. He was here, she didn't know why or how all she knew was the fact that Jason Morgan was waiting for her back at the ranch.

"You look beautiful tonight."

"Huh?" looking across the table she forced herself to focus. "Thanks. You look nice as well."

Colton chuckled "So who is the guy?"

"Just an old friend from Port Charles." Sam did not want to talk about Jason. "So how long have you known Patty?" Before Colton even started to speak Sam was once more lost in her thoughts. What should she do now? Hadn't she given up the past? Wasn't he her past?

Heart racing Sam felt giddy and happy, she could not believe that after all these years he still remembered her. Countless nights the mere thought of him was all she needed to conquer the demons that stalked her dreams. She would never tell him but the first thing she wanted to do after seeing him was lay her head on his chest and listen to the steady beat of his heart. To feel his arms around her, keeping her safe, making her feel loved and wanted, made her feel alive.

"Sam? Are you ok?"

Unaware that she was crying she roughly wiped her face. "Yes. I am sorry." Reaching across the table she grabbed his hand. "Can you take me back to the ranch?"

Concerned Colton nodded "Of course. Are you sure you are ok?"

Nodding she smiled. "Yes for the first time in a long time I know I will be ok. I'm going to start living again."